Yar~ I like little local pet stores because then you might be able to play with the pets. :ninja:

hah that's true! i want to look at the hamsters... :ninja:

Aww Chinese Dwarf hamster~ -imagines-
We went to this one pet store and I was petting the little Robo hamsters they had. > w<

awww how cute!! i want to get one, but we should prolly wait.

Robo hamsters!? I want my gizzy :( If I had him, I'd be way happy ^^ But he's too "daaaaaangerous" *shakes booty* The stupid airlines wouldn't know dangerous if it was a cute little animal starring them in the face.

I love pet stores. I wanted to have one. Maybe I could have one in Florida. They have a lot of exotic animal stores down there. :yes:

Well I'm going to the insanity ward Saturday. Just visiting. Haven't been there in more than a year not even for outpatient stuff. I'm supposed to be able to help some how if I'm not too petrified to even say a word. :shock:

That'll be good. Helping others is good therapy for yourself you know :yes: At least it's just for a visit :)

I will be ok if I don't let other peoples emotions overwhelm me. Thats an ongoing issue for me. I'm supposed to think of this as a boundary exercise. I'm thinking isn't the wall a pretty good boundary and I can just stay on the outside of it :P my therapist says no that's cheating.

@Lon: Yeah. > w< They didn't seem to mind too much either. The Robos I had were pretty jumpy when touched. :shock:

@Zephi: Roborovski hamsters.
Babies, but they don't get much bigger.


We got our lizard down in Florida. Though, we also found similar species in a pet store in North Carolina. XDD

@Kim: Ahah. xDD That would be easier though, huh, using the physical walls. :lol:
I hope the visit goes well for you!

What sanity I have, I have to share it in order to keep it. I know that but sometimes its hard. That's why I had to go through it 7 times. 6 times I just tried to pretend it never happened and go do what I wanted, and 6 times I ended up back in again. Helping others is essential to my recovery, I have been neglecting my responsibility.

awww those are cute iku!!

zephi, we want to own a pet store too. it would be fun huh?

Good luck kimby!

Ok not a straight jacket but I found some bracelets and ankle cuffs. They just aren't connected to anything but they have sort of the right look.

@Lon: Aren't they? > w<

@Kim: Well it is good that you're going through it now. :yes:
You're progressing! I think joining our little community here is good too.

Kim, I'm glad that you're not just trying to ignore it now. Dealing with the problems is the harder, better path to take. Avoiding things for the rest of your life, or for a long time just sucks because you are limiting yourself to what you are allowed to do :( I know how you feel about that one. :sweat:

Thanks for the encouragement. I know what I need to do but I procrastinate. The past 2 years I have been doing ok but haven't taken any chances, living at home and working part time. I like being able to just spend a whole day naked if I need to, but if I go to school full time and get my own place that will not happen much. And if I'm going to be a psychologist myself someday I need to get more involved in both my own recovery and helping others.

Spending a day nekkid sounds like great therapy to me :ninja: True, push yourself enough to see or feel results but not too far that you might go over the edge :(

I admit it, I haven't had a boyfriend for a long time. When I was out there doing all kind of drugs and alcohol in between visits to the "Quiet Room", it seemed like I was really attractive. I guess I can easily see why. I was a gullible little addict and guys pretty much could have their way with me. And that's what happened.

Since I've been in recovery for real, I am pretty up front about who I am and how I deal with it. I meet guys even in recovery, and it takes about 15 minutes for them to back away. I think I was a whole lot scarier when I was out there drugging than I am now, but I have a lot more self awareness now. And more awareness of other people and their agendas. Maybe I can see what guys want and they know it, and that makes them uncomfortable.

I'm ok without a relationship. I've never had a healthy one with a guy, ever. I never thought of myself as intimidating. How could a grown man be intimidated by a 105 lb naked girl anyway? LOL. My mom says the word is INTENSE. Maybe I will someday be less intense, but I guess I'll never be easy. BTDT.

eh sometimes it's easier without a guy in your life! :yes:

Kimby, psht. What's wrong with being intense? And oh well, too bad if the guys don't understand right now. One day they will. It's funny how we always have to wait around for men to catch up to the learning curve. *eyeroll* Being with someone has it's good points but only if that person is supportive of you, if not then you are much better off without them. True story,

I don't think there is anything wrong with being intense. At least I know what I am and there's a word for it. I just didn't realize how difficult it can make relating to people. It was like rediscovering that about myself when I got off the drugs for good, and when I thought about it, it's how I was before I started the drugs. Getting drunk or high or altered relieved the intensity and made me feel more normal and it seemed like it opened up my social life. Except it opened up the back door and let all the thugs in too. So I'm back to being Intense Kimby. I think even here I probably talk too much and reveal too much. If you think I talk a lot on here you should meet me in real life :rofl:

Zephiyr:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :glomp: i'm excited you got your account back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :eager:

kimby you don't talk "too much" I don't think that's possible on here. What you reveal and what you want to reveal is up to you, no one is going ot pressure you into talking about something that you don't want to. So you can set your own pace for that and do as you like. No one here is perfect, I mean, we hang out in an "Insanity Ward" and call it fun. :D

llonka, I know I got it unblocked but then... I got my other account blocked cause i tried to change the e-mail address but I think I changed it to the one that I had marked the menewsha thing as spam so now it won't send the e-mail to that address and I can't "confirm" my membership :rofl:

sounds like zephi's got issues.

Do you mean mental or mene-type? :P

oh no!!! :cry: i hope you get it figured out!