i found another song i adore!
Feyona
thats alright desi can right short parapgraphs or 8 paragraphs <3

i can play male if we double i usually play female XD

Hey Magi. -smiles and hugs- Guess wut happened today at work! Forget if I told you or not.

Hey Drew. -hugs-

Nope, I dont think you told me Paine ^^

Hi and bye Paine, you have a good evening.

Okay I am off for awhile now. You all have a good one.

Magi: I got to run the press by myself and I purposely lagged my parts so on break I would have something to do then my trainer took over... I cried XP

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Hi/bye Yue.

Paine: :) How are you?

Ok, very long post coming next.....Just letting all know.

Thanks in advance for any advice/input.

Hiya Paine.

So I met a friend about 3 years ago and we quickly became really close. Within a year we were like sisters. We'd hang out all the time when we weren't working, even if that meant waiting until midnight and making 1am Walmart runs for Mountain Dew and random objects. She'd come over and stay at my place a lot since hers was too little and crowded with her family all in a little trailer. When we weren't able to see each other, we'd text all the time or get on MSN or some other messenger and talk for hours. She'd draw me pictures all the time (she's an amazing artist who has had a few things professionally published) and I'd bring her surprises and such when I knew she was having a bad day. We'd have all night video game marathons and movie nights. We went to anime cons and dressed as matching characters (I spent over 400 getting us Chii and Freya outfits for Anime Banzai last year) and we'd share our secrets with each other all the time.

December came around and she went to house sit for her ex-boyfriend's family that she remained good friends with. He was graduating and moving back, but his family wanted to go over and see him while he was still there, so they had her watch all their animals while they were gone. She snuck me over so we could play games and watch movies like always and we had a blast. During that week, I told her another secret I had been keeping from everyone and had recently just let myself in on it: I liked my co-worker. A lot. But he's 9 years older than me and has two children.

She told me she didn't really think it was a good idea and I told her I didn't plan on telling the guy that I liked him since I didn't want to ruin the friendship me and him had and I didn't think he'd feel that way about me. She agreed with me that it was probably a good idea to keep it to myself and things went on as normal for the next week or two. On New Years Eve, I asked her what she was up to for the night and she said she was going to see that guy she was house sitting for, so I made other plans and called up that co-worker. He ended up getting a confession out of me that night that I liked him and at midnight, he asked me out. The next day, I talked to my friend again and told her all about it. She wasn't too happy about it, but was happy to tell me that her and her ex got back together too. I was really happy for her and said we should all hang out and do the double dates and stuff sometime. She kinda just ignored the idea and we talked about other things.

As a late Christmas present, I got her a set of copic markers that I knew she'd been drooling over. I talked her brother into letting me into the house while she was at work so I could set them up in her room as a surprise. She came home and I was really excited to see her open them and the art she'd make with them. She just kinda smiled at them, looked at them a bit, scribbled on a paper, then said she'd like to be alone now. The boyfriend had dumped her again and she didn't want to talk. I left and let her alone for a few days so she could have her alone time she wanted, then checked in on her. The boyfriend had came back and apologized for the whole thing and they were back together.

As time went on, she stopped talking a little more and a little more until I didn't hear from her much anymore. I'd go to her house and she'd say she was "too tired from work" to do anything. I'd bring her surprises on bad days like always. She'd just smile and take them to her room, then that was it. When the anime con was coming up and I needed some advice on getting stuff to match her, she gave it to me, but didn't really want to talk about much else. When I got engaged, she didn't get all happy like I was hoping since I wanted her as my maid of honor. I told her this and she just said "Oh, ok" and didn't seem thrilled at all.

Anime con came and she didn't talk to me at all while we were there. I lost my job and so did my fiancee, so money was tight for us, but I got everything needed for the cosplay for both me and him so that I wouldn't let her down since all 4 of us were going to go as a group (Fruits Basket). I'd text asking where she was and get a reply two hours later. I'd ask if she wanted to join us for events and she'd decline to stay with her boyfriend. I asked if we could just set a bag down in their room and it was a "Well, he says no. He doesn't want to lose alone time" and I was pretty pissy since I knew it was her who paid for the room and everything and that before, she would have happily taken the bag up there herself.

I confronted her and asked her why she's so different. Did she hate my love that much? Did hers hate me? Is that why every time I called to hang out, she'd say she was waiting for him and why we couldn't all just hang out and go do something? Did I do something wrong? She told me no to all of them and that she was sorry, but she continued to ignore me.

She called me once to hang out shortly before I confronted her. She said that it was a depressing day and she wanted to go out and do something. I had plans that day, but I altered them to include her. I went over with my mom-in-law-to-be and we picked her up to take her shopping with us. She was quiet through all the conversations, even though we made an effort to include her, and she started making up lame excuses to leave. She needed to call her boyfriend - She needed to clean the table at home - Her mom probably wanted to talk to her about something - She forgot something at home. I offered her my phone to call her mom and boyfriend. I offered to help her clean up real fast so we could still hang out. I bought her lunch when she said she was hungry. After every solution, she brought up a new problem...

I haven't talked to her since the anime con and she hasn't talked to me. It's been two months and not a word has been said. I'm getting more and more depressed......It feels like I lost a part of me. As much as I love my fiancee, I miss having time with her and out 'girls' night out' stuff. He says I should talk to her, but I feel like I've done enough trying and it's her turn to put some effort into it.

What should I do? Should I try to talk to her? Should I let her talk to me? Is there something that maybe I did do wrong and she just doesn't want to tell me? Both our birthdays are coming up....usually we would celebrate together....should I try for that again this year or let her say something first....? Or just let it go...?

Sounds like you ran the machines I used to fix as a Tech for my old company Paine. ^^

Hey Lix<3

Drew: Fine. How are you today?

too much reading to do Yumeko :illgetu:

Paine: I am pretty okay. :) What are you up to?

Magi: I am making a blue part that the departments call Smurf Dicks >_< Theyre round and got a point on it and it goes into face masks. it looks exactly like O=> <<<< no joke! And its like SMURF blue! XP

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Drew: Not much. Finally got to shower without my son banging on the door screamin Brush brush mommy mommy baff!!!!

Paine: Ha that sounds cute and annoying at the same time. XD

Drew: It was cute at first. But when You have to wait til he's outside, gone with my parents, or sleeping to shower. it gets annoying.

Paine: Eesh. X( See...that is why. I hate kids.

Sorry, Desi. I tried to cut it down with still enough to fully explain the situation.

I knew it would be long, so that's why I asked beforehand.

Yumeko
its alright *hugs*

Drew: I Dun like kids. I can't stand them. But I love my son. Hes making me think about havin a second one XP haha. OH GOD! He's making me like kids!!!! haha. Joke. I really use to hate babysitting kids cuz their sticky, dirty, and need attention.

Paine: If my significant other ever wanted to have a kid...I'd make up a bad excuse. XD That's how much I want to stay away from kids.

Drew: Your no fun. Kids are actually fun when u get use to them.

Yumeko

"What should I do? Should I try to talk to her? Should I let her talk to me? Is there something that maybe I did do wrong and she just doesn't want to tell me? Both our birthdays are coming up....usually we would celebrate together....should I try for that again this year or let her say something first....? Or just let it go...?"



Personally...you can only help someone so much from drowning before they pull you in with them and you sink together. I know you love her and care for her dearly...I know she means the world to you and everything...but sometimes you need to put yourself before others. If you try to save the world...or even just a select few...your only going to lose yourself and get hurt/torn apart in the process. You've done everything you can for her. The balls in her court...she's going to decide what happens and how this affects her.

Continue being there for her, making small gestures to talk, remind her that your there if she needs you to talk to, or just someone to hug. But don't go out of your way to try and force her into anything you know?

Does that make sense Yume?

Paine: -crouches down- They're so annoying. They don't know any better. They're loud, annoying, attention-wanters, and they ruin stuff.

Drew:....Sounds like my ex girlfriends XP But my son is cooler then my ex girlfriends. haha.