yaaay hugs! ~ <3
*huggles back*

What you need is a pipe bomb. *hee hee hee*

Kick her in her head 'mon!!!!

Oh, believe me I want to. >__>

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So what's up with you guys? =D

get the fuck out of there.. actively search for another room mate. there should be bulletin boards with roomies wanted ads. :P

Who's going to want a roommate for two months? :(

/sigh

>__< I'm going to try and just deal, it's all I can do. If I end up breaking up with Jeff, then I'm probably going to stay in NC for a while, the south is a lot cheaper than up north.
Except the food. The food is just as expensive. @[email protected]
So I'll need a job, but there are few places hiring, and fewer who would accept a worker for only two months. FFFFFFFF.

i don't know... you might get lucky.. the worst that could happen is they say no.
@[email protected] ja?

yea i love south carolina. its super cheap.
but food is going to be expensive anywhere you go! :P
why would you break up with jeff?
and where would you go if you did?

In PA, food is actually pretty cheap. :(
Because there's no tax on it.

annnnd, Jeff and I have been fighting a LOT lately. On top of my sex drive being dead, which is stressing the fuck out of him, and out of me, because he's all over me in public. :| And I hate that. A little bit of PDA is okay. But I will rip off his dick if he keeps trying to dry hump me in the supermarket.

And if I did, I have no idea. He's friends with my roommate. |: And she wants his nuts.
So.

montahh you change your avi every fricken day
every time i get on you look like a different person xD
i dont change my avi unless i have enough gold to buy the next outfit. (and i cant mix and match cause i keep selling my outfits afterwards to get more gold ;-;)
the next outfit i want cost too much though and will take me foreverr :/

Yeah I usually keep all the items I buy, and it builds up after a while. XD

I have a couple hundred items now.

oh wow if i had that many item id be able to buy the outfit i want .....

if i could only sell the hundreds of easter items i got then i might get enough gold. its like over 5k....

It's probably smarter to save them for a year or so and then sell them. they're probably not worth much right now. I'm currently trying to get all my extra crap over to a mule.

I'm going to give some items to Mau5ie (Kimi), once I figure out what I have spares of. lol

i would say give em to me but im not a mooch. (only with ali ;D)
im playing tetris non stop to get gold *gauges out eyes*
it kills my mind eyes and soul... x-x

XD;; Oh, harsh.

/hugs

I like Attack of the Fangirls better.

dayum.. my sex drive is dead too right now. but matt isn't all hey i'm horny all the time. lets do it now! lol.
why do you think your sex drive is shot?


i couldn't handle living with a person like that.. i would have either slapped the ever living shit out of her or i would have left already.
/big hug

so i feel for you.
i was in a situation like that when i was eighteen. go figure.
and i left as soon as the lease was up. i mean i had my shit packed right when i paid the last month of rent and i was out of there and in a new place. haha.

i was also living with three nasty boys. and the place was narsty.

:roll:

don't ever live with a bunch of boys.

also, gimme items NOW! :heart:

Jeff is. It's driving me nuts. ; ~;

And I have no idea. :| It's killing ME.

Yeah I can't wait til I can live elsewhere. I really can't. D:

T___T~ I know I said I would last week but I'm a lazy bitch.

attack of the fan girls crashed my computer so i dun play anymore even though it gives me the most gold....

well talk to him about it.
tell him its nothing in your control and that he needs to be patient.
then hand him a wash rag and some lube. or lotion. lol.

well if things don't work with you and jeff maybe you can live here with us.
of course you'd have to be our maid and pay half of everything.. lol.
but i'd have to talk to matt about it.

or maybe jaime can take you in for a little bit! WAAAAIT.. maybe you can live with jaime for two months.
talk to her about it. if it really gets nuts. @[email protected]
and if you're able to be away from jeff that long. O__O;

and yes, i've been patient. lol. but i wants dem! lol.

and i finally figured out how to change my name on aim.. so it's now the same as this. ^^
though i'm never on. :P

Nah I don't wanna get in Jaime, Ryan and Claire's faces.

In the past few days, at least Amanda's been nicer. :|

For a few days there she was a total twat.
I can't pay her on the first, because I don't get my money until the first Monday of every month, and if she tries to cash the check before then, it'll bounce. And I really don't want that happening. |<

I really have no idea what's going on with Jeff, I have a lot to think bout right now about him.
I love him and I care about him, but I think we're at the end of our relationship. He says he loves me too, and he's sometimes really nice, but we just seem to argue over dumb shit right now and I really can't take it.

And as horrible as it is, I have a wee crush on my friend Andy. It's nothing serious, but I worry it's because I'm having issues with Jeff, and I just feel guilty over it. But Andy is my only really good friend around here aside from Jeff, and honestly, Jeff doesn't always make the best friend or boyfriend. So it's tough. >[
I do really really love the idiot, but he just doesn't get it sometimes, plus he has a history or lying to me about things.
:( Or stretching the truth. And nagging me until I'm miserable.

I don't need a fancy life. I just need a place to live that doesn't smell vile or is horribly, horribly dirty. With internet if at all possible. And food. And some friends of course too.

That's it. But he's always nagging me about getting a job and blah blah. Well I can't really get one right now anyway because no one around here is hiring!

...I'm going to shut up, hypomania + PMSing + stress = bad for Abbi.

hmm, trust me. talk to jaime about it. ^^
i'm sure you'll be glad you do. and so will she.

i'm glad bitchfayse has been nicer.. and did you try to explain to her that she can COUNT ON DEFINITE MONEY on the first monday of every month? lol. even my apartment complex gives us until the sixth of the month to pay. sheesh!

matt and i are in a rut right now also. and it's all from my end. i'm being such a cunt to him. and i don't mean to.. i just snap at him. even when i'm trying to be nice.
i think its the seeing him every day all day that is getting to me. it's not healthy. so we're going our own way this weekend. lol.

i'm going to jaime's and he's going to florida to hang out with his boyfriend.

hmm.. you probably are having these feelings for andy because just that. you are exasperated because you have having problems with jeff and here is awesome andy saying just the right things. keep it friendly.. even for if you and jeff do end up breaking up. that way you can take some time to sort through your feelings so you know whether or not they are genuine. <3

why and what the eff is he lying about.. and again WHY!?

and don't shut up... because...

talking about + good friend + good advisor = good for abbi! :heart:

Jeff and I don't see each other much, but I feel a little smothered by him, because whenever we DO hangout.
All he does is cling to me. And follow me around.
And invade my personal space.

It just. irritates me. More than it should but still, drives me nuts.

And I'll think about talking to Jaime. I just. I don't want to be a pest. T_T;;~ I do lub her and I know she won't see it that way. But I've always been as independent as possible and never allowed to rely on anyone but myself, and every time I do people make me feel bad for it. So it's just unheard of for me to ask for help from someone. D:

The most help I ever seek out, is a friend to talk to about my troubles.
Damn being raised on therapists. :|

Never helped me fix my troubles, just gave me bullshit tools to try and "cope" with my problems. But I still don't see most of them solved. I still don't see myself really happy. I still don't see my mommy or daddy issues resolved.

Anyway. On the Andy topic. He's 26. I know he has a small thing for me (I asked him about it last night, because something he said the other day made me worry that he thought that I was a slut or something because I'm a flirt), but honestly, what 26 year old guy hanging out with a hot 18 year old wouldn't have a little thing for her?
That said, I actually have in death conversations with him and he's not the type to push boundaries, he's very respectful of me and Jeff, even though he hears me rant like CRAZY about him sometimes. LOL.
But, if he could take me seriously, and not just be. lol 18 year old ass yay. Then he'd probably be a good boyfriend. :D

Holy crap I keep maxing out the gold. lol. POST AGAIN SO I CAN POST MORE.

honestly, it sounds like you haven't talked to him about your irritations.
talk to him calmy without attacking him. or without making him feel that way.

and yea i get that... i'd be the same way about asking people for help.

i can't imagine what you've been through.. i haven't pried jaime about it because it's something i'd rather here from you since it is your life story to tell. you know?
and i love trying to be there for people. it just makes me feel like i have a purpose in live.
because working at what i do now just makes life feel like bullshit.


in death conversations? what the fuck are you guys doing over there? having séances over there? lol.

haha and i'm getting max goldies too! :D

And no, I'm not thinking about that all because I want to date him or leave Jeff for him, but because I tend to think about that type of thing with everyone.

Like, with you Kimi, I always think that we could be really awesome friends. :D But us living together would be a bad idea because we'd probably clash heads a lot. I'm not a dirty person, but I'm a little bit of a slob. And I know you like things clean.

You know? I just, I have a lot of spare time, and therefor a lot of time to think, so I just think about these things to pass the time. ^^;;

ANYWAY. Back to the main point.

He lied about something a long time ago, then came clean about the truth.

I found out the other day....That he only told me the truth. Because he had forgotten he had lied to me in the first place. :( Talk about loss of trust, am I wrong?

And then he gets mad at me, for lying about...Well, a while ago I was almost raped by a friend. :(
I lied to Jeff and said that nothing happened because I was ashamed.
I came clean a week or so later because I felt horrible for lying, and Jeff is mad at me for lying to him about it.

I mean, I understand, I guess. But seriously. If YOU got raped. Would you tell your boyfriend about it?
Especially if you have a rape fetish AND you knew the guy AND your boyfriend knew that had you and him not been dating, you would have jumped the guy.

I just thought Jeff might BLAME me for what happened, and just, it wasn't my fault. I said no. I told him I didn't want to do anything even before he came over.
But I felt like it was my fault. I still DO. I didn't want Jeff to blame me as well.

Another post, wominz. I has moar to say!

i didn't think you were thinking of leaving jeff for andy.. i was just saying that you need to keep it friends even though you may have a itty bitty crush on him. and if you and jeff do end up breaking apart to still remain friends to sort through your feelings. because you may only be feeling them because you're having problems in your relationship.. does that make sense?

lawl.

if you lived here we would probably end up being besties. but i can't live with friends. ever again. i can hardly live with matt because things have to be neat 24/7. haha..


and wow. that's fucked up. i would not trust him any more either. why did he feel like he needed to lie?

In dePth. T_T /fail

Also, I've talked to Jeff a dozen or more times about the little things he does that irritate me. But then when he stops doing it and tries to be more careful about things, he feels like he's walking on eggshells around me and I feel BAD. We make it fair usually by talking about what drives each of us nuts, and how to work on it.

I'm sorry I'm not a terribly motivated person, it's just not who I am. The few times I get REALLY into things, they are the most amazing things ever, but for the most part, I am apathetic about life.

Ontop of that, I can't take sex seriously with him. There's something wrong when you are usually giggling or laughing while having sex with someone, and you just CAN'T take them seriously at ALL. D:
It keels meee.

And yeah, thanks for not doing that. :( I'm trying to move on from most of my life. It's also really awkward when you hear back from someone about how you should have treated your mother better who never heard my side from my lips. :|

I try to be around for my friends.
But I don't have a lot of friends that actually want to turn to me when they are having trouble. I tend to get really brutal and honest sometimes, but I don't like things being sugarcoated at me, so why should I sugarcoat what I tell others, right?
Treat others like you yourself would like to be treated.
I value honesty and sincerity much higher than social niceties and political correctness.

And yes I knew what you meant, but it was part of my original post. :O And I didn't want to waste that chunk of gold. lololo ;D

Alsooo. It was about his ex. I'll explain in the next post. ;D

whatever, it sounded funny as phuck. haha.

don't feel bad.. he just needs to get used to it. that way you wont go into mega butthead mode. ja?

hmm i'm usually not motivated unless it has to do with school.. which i'm not anyway half the time. or something music related. like a band that i want to see. @[email protected]

awww shiiiut. i've never had that happen to me. i'm sowwies. i wonder why you laugh?

and i can understand about wanting to move forward. sometimes it is best just to leave things behind.

trust me, i won't sugar coat shit baby. ask jaime. haha. my posts are getting shorter. i'm getting sleepy but i do want to hear about what happened with his ex. <3