My name's Jeremy. I hate having one of my firsts posts on here be about this, but, what can you do.

My name is Jeremy, I'm fifteen, and I'm biologically female.
I've gone by Jeremy online for a long time now, and have had close friends refer to me as such for a few months. My closest friends know, plus some websites where no one knows me.

I've been going to therapy for unrelated hatters for a little over a year and have told my therapist (last January), but, I still feel unsure of myself.

I fear that I'm just a coward. What if I just think this is what I am but really, I'm just confused?

I want to be sure of myself, and, right now I am. I've never felt more sure of anything. But, sometimes, I feel very confused.

I know I'm not a girl, but, how much of a boy am I?

Also, binding. At the moment I use folded over tummy tuckers and sports bras to push the lumps down-- does anyone have any better options until my binder comes in?

Hey there Jeremy,

If you are still confused at all, just don't take any hormones until you feel less so. My best friend is in FTM transition. He is trying to go to sessions so that he can start taking T. He is 22 and has been out for about a year and a half. I have been getting involved in his transition process.

Taking that you are fifteen...I would wait to take any drastic steps, especially since your body is still maturing.

Until your binders come in, try the duck (duct) tape method. Since it is starting to get warm out (depending on your location, try binding also over a thin tank top since sweat can make it peel.

It's a good method and unlike ace bandages it won't get tighter with wear and constrict your breathing. And if you get any residue then you just take a shower or soap and water...

Anyway I'm gonna friend request you and if you have anymore questions or just need someone to listen/give advice don't be afraid to hit me up. ^_^

Yeah. I don't plan on any 'coming out' until I'm completely sure of myself. Its just that, I hate not being positive. Some days I feel like if I have to live one more day in this body I'll just die, but, others I don't care.

I've tried duct tape, but, I couldn't get it wrapped around right. Gonna try again next time I'm alone for over ten minutes.

Hiya Jeremy ^ ^

My names Emma, like Muraki said if your confused don't take any major steps. Take as long as you need to figure out who you are and more importantly who you want to be. Screw what other people may think of you and for now what your parents might want from you.

Because later on in your life you might regret your decisions if you let the world and you family influence your decisions, because you have to be you and live as you, not your family and no one else in this world.

Who ever you are you are you. And if your friends or other people don't understand that...frankly they are a bunch of close-minded bull shiters, (no offence of course). So take your time in figuring out who you and and who you want to be ^ ^

And don't be scared of what the world thinks of you, just think what you might think and be if you don't take the step you have/need to take ^ ^

Any how I can see that you are new on menewsha! ; ) Welcome and enjoy your stay here and hopefully you will be bound to the addiction of this site >///<

Hello Jeremy,
I'm Allie. Honestly, like the others said, you shouldn't take any drastic steps until you are older. You have to wait for your body to mature, and what you want and who you want to be now may be something totally different later on in life. Screw what others think and do what you want. The duct tape method definitely works, I read something on someone who did it, and it's a good method. If people make fun of you or reject you, just keep your head held high like your nose is bleeding. Karma will come back to bite them in their bull-sh*t filled as*es. Just saying. If you ever wanna chat, PM me(: I'm always ready to talk to you.
Allie~

I can somewhat relate. I'm biologically female, but mentally I'd say I'm completely genderless. I could've been born male and it wouldn't make much of a difference to me as a person. However, I don't really think that I, or anyone for that matter, can truly help you become sure about who you are. It's something that we have to figure out on our own, but I really wish you the best of luck.
Like everyone else said, don't do anything drastic until you are sure. I think that that is pretty common sense, but just in case it's a good thing to keep in mind.
I've played around with chest binding since once I'm out on my own without my parents always nagging me I want to try to make myself look more androgynous, to the point that you can't really tell my gender. I have a pretty flat chest so just a good sports bra and a baggy shirt is enough, but if you can figure out the duct tape method which was already mentioned worked. I'd suggest doing some research or joining some form of forum specifically for transgenders/crossdressers/etc to ask for advice. They're more likely to know what to do, and more likely to give better advice on this specific topic, than people on Menewsha (no offense to anyone one here :b)

Don't worry about knowing for sure so much. Who needs labels really?

I'm "bisexual" and I hate the label of it, but it's the best way to describe myself. Sometimes I like girls more. Sometimes I like guys more. And someday, I might suddenly not be bisexual anymore and be either purely straight or purely lesbian and that's just the way it is. I don't have myself figured out at all.

I know it's not the same thing, but my bisexuality has taught me to ignore labels like that. You don't have to label everything. Just do what feels right for now.

i'm sort of in the same bind as you. i started noticing i was different when i was very little. i didn't tell anyone for a long time but over the years stop referring to myself as a girl and to refer to myself in and I format. then when i was online i started using a name that was neither female or male. i'm now in my 20's and i'm still not sure where i stand. i know i'm not fully a woman but i don't know if i'm fully a man. i opted for genderless. i know someday i would like to have my breast removed so i can pass for a man or a woman. i have very large breast that are impossible to hide so i dress like a woman but i don't feel like that on the inside. i think the number one thing you need to do is make sure you feel alright on the inside and worry about the rest of the world later. i told my mom some of how i felt and was surprised that she had been expecting it for a while. i also see a therapist to help me deal with the pressure. i'll friend you so if you need to talk to someone going through the same thing you can. just call my stork!

hello jeremy,

all i can say is that you have to figure it out, take your time, dont be hasty and dont let anyone influence your decisions.
i've been through some of those doubting moments when i thought i too have a boy in me back when i was in third grade until college, i even got involved with a woman, and i love her so. but, i realized that i dont get attracted to other girls except for her, i really find men more attractive and appealing. i used to think that i might be a bisexual, but right now, i'm pretty sure, i am a woman. ^^ i hope you'll soon find the truth about yourself, about who you really are.
bless you!

dieyousucker: I love your signature picture. Just had to say. What is it from?

Anyway, I myself am Gender Fluid but I don't really care/mind what pronouns people use with me. I am also pan-sexual and fall for people regardless of gender.

I have done binding before, but I used ace bandages and as I said before, with wear they can slide up or down / out of place. They can also get really tight or loosen so much that they fall off. So I left that method behind because I just found it way too uncomfortable.

Drag Queens/Kings are also a good source of information also find a forum targeted to Trans FTM or people in general. If you try and search online, find tips for people that are drag kings and whatnot.

I myself also like the duck tape method but I've only used it about twice. There is also tank layering, just depends on how big you chest is with that last method.

In hot weather using duck tape can become inconvenient as I said because moisture can make it peel. If you use a very light layer of baby powder it should slow this chance of happening.

Hey there Jeremy. I too am biologically female, but I've always had male avi's on sites like this. Female avatars just don't describe the real me. People always ask me if i'm trans then why don't I get surgery, it's because I really don't think that I'm all the way male either. I'm very gender fluid. I don't bind or anything, and I look like a female, but inside I'm not realy a specific gender. Hey I'm going to friend you if you want to talk sometime, I really don't meet many people like me.

muraki: oh! its from the anime series d. gray-man, and thank you for noticing.