i have the munchies fo greasy lays chips so i got some at the store today lol

-walks in- o 3o

Uhg. I'm trying to find some people that I know that play Runes of Magic.

Originally Posted by _xX Es-One Xx_

Uhg. I'm trying to find some people that I know that play Runes of Magic.

i play warcraft does that count?

Hey there everyone :-) sorry i haven't been around more. I have a nasty chest cold that's really got me under the weather.

Chest colds suck. D: Eat lots of chicken broth and feel better. <3

Evening ^^

Originally Posted by BlackSwan317

Hey there everyone :-) sorry i haven't been around more. I have a nasty chest cold that's really got me under the weather.

Ugh, so did I Swan. Must be something going around. As Pixie said, I had lots of chicken soup along with antibiotics and whatever cold meds I could get my hands on. I feel a little better now. Hope you feel better soon hun.

@venus and blackswan: I hope you both feel better soon.

Thank you everyone! I hope so too. I'm planning on making up some completely home made chicken noodle soup when I get home from work today (even the noodles are home made, but I didn't make them, my great aunt did, I'll still make the rest though. Well, the chicken stock for the soup will be from a can, cause I'm to lazy to actually fully boil out the chicken to really make broth, but otherwise, I'll make it, I swears :-p)

Also, I think I may have just finally made up my mind on a major life decision that I've been working on and slowly coming to terms with lately. I'm gonna go back to college! I think I want to do online studies through the university of phoenix for a ba in psychology. I've always had an interest in it, but my family has always tried to talk me out of it because they said it was a bull s**t field where people just use their problems as excuses and blah blah blah (my family are largely old fashioned self righteous red necks) but every time I try something new and end up not liking it, i always come back to this. I really think it's what I want to do, and the online class format will let me do it without having to take time away from my husband and new baby(these are not the part of my family that talked me out of things before, that would be my parents and grandparents.) or take me away from work. I've always wanted to do somethign that would allow me to help people, and I have always ALWAYS been fascinated with the human thought process, the mind, the way we think, why we do what we do. I really think this is what I was meant to do, and I've just been to scared to do it based on my parents disapproval, but I don't care about that any more. I need to take this leap and make something of my life, and this is what I really think I want to make of it :-)

Sorry I know that had nothing to do with anything, but just thought I'd share :-p I'm standing all alone at a hotel desk right now, so I really don't have to many people to talk to. Well, Hope is talking to me at my thread about being all alone at my hotel desk, but she's been listening to me go on about random stuff all night, so I figured I'd yap someone elses ear off for a bit :-p

Dude, Psychology is NOT a bs field, you can help a LOT of people out doing it.

I don't know if you're considering going into being a psychotherapist, but they can save lives. I've had several who helped me. If it's your calling, then that's what you should do. If you've found what you're meant to do, you're gonna keep getting drawn back to it.

At least you're trying to better yourself! I don't see HOW they can put that down!

Then again, some people just can't face themselves. Maybe they fear that you'll see into them a LOT more than they'd like if you finished your degree. XD

You are so right. I've had help from councilors and therapists that at the time I thought were truly angels, for lack of a better word, because of how they brought me back from the edge of oblivion. I was horribly depressed in high school, (which knowing that little bit about my family may not be surprising.) and eventually ended up falling into self mutilation, badly. My one teacher asked a therapist friend of hers to come see me after school because my parent's wouldn't allow me to go see one. They thought I was just asking for attention, and responded by grounding me, making me get an after school job at the daycare affiliated with my school (private christian school. We had head start day care for 2-4 y.o. then had elementary and secondary school for k-5 all the way up to 12th) and taking the door off my bedroom/forcing me to spend all non sleep time in the living room or dining room, and taking away all my games and 90% of my books.

As I said though, one of my teachers saw what was happening and asked her friend to come see me unofficially, and so I met with her 2 days a week for about 40 minutes between school letting out and my job at the daycare starting. She helped me work through so many problems that I didn't even realize had been bothering me. If it weren't for her, I can honestly say I may not have graduated, or even made it to graduation.

Later in college I ended up falling right back into old habbits, due to a massive work load, and trying to hold down 2 part time jobs (one on campus and one off) Not only did I fall back into the same old destructive self loathing, but I ended up getting hooked on uppers that I'd started taking to keep myself going with the lack of sleep from all my commitments. Nothing horrible, just would pop addarol (sp?) that a friend would give me when I looked tired... still not a good way to live. The body needs sleep, or your mind starts to not work right. I even got so far that I started developing bad issues with paranoia and imagining things were happening around me that really weren't (I'd think people were plotting against me in my classes or that a certain professor was trying to get me kicked out without really having any grounds aside from someone disagreeing with me or getting a negative score on a test)

My boyfriend at the time convinced me to go see the school councilor at the university I was at. Again, just having someone that understood how the human mind worked talking me through everything, helping me understand where certain thoughts and emotions were coming from, and helping me get a grasp on them helped in ways I never would have imagined. I continued meeting with him once a week for the next semester, then once every other up until I left the school because I no longer cared for the field I was in and accepted that it wasn't right for me.

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Wow that was WAY longer than I meant to make it.... sorry for that everyone

I'm glad that you were able to get help when you needed it. :3 Adderal, yeah, it's a form of an amphetamine. Not really all that great to take. ^^; On the mutilation / family reaction, families do a LOT of crazy things when they find out about something like that. Like it somehow 'fixes' the problem.

My family has had lots of mental issues within it, so for us it's no big deal to admit you need help... My Aunt was born with a chemical imbalance. But the majority of people, don't REALLY understand what is actually going on... I've seen it mess with so many people.

I don't understand why people reject therapists, when they have training to help you learn to cope. Or can help you figure out what the hell is going on in your life. Or help you change it.

It's like people who refuse to admit people have mental illnesses. I've got friends who their families REFUSE to believe they are actually sick, and claim that there's NO problem.... I'm like, how exactly is it not a problem that you're hearing VOICES??? Or slicing yourself up? Or want to commit suicide all the time? (The different things apply to different people, but still.)

It doesn't help that said people want to claim that they don't need meds, oh no. >_>; In some cases, you can fix things with a LOT of therapy, and a LOT of work.

In some cases, it's not that simple! But if you don't commit to doing it all, it doesn't do you a lick of good. On top of that, if it's an actual imbalance, it's horrible having the people who should be supporting you, are not.

Okay I got way off topic but bedtime meds are making me kinda loopy....

The fact is, from all that you've gone through, you can now turn around and benefit people. You'll make an even better therapist for the fact that you've been down some of the darker roads... and have traveled back.

That means you can help lead others back from them. :3

Thank you for your encouragement in this. It really does mean more to me than you may know.

I don't know why some people are like that. Allot of my family is the same way. Maybe people are just to afraid that asking for help or even just admitting something is wrong will mean that they're week, or that they are somehow incapable of handling something they feel they should be able to, and that makes them less valuable as a human.

So many people out there just don't seem to understand that some things can't be helped. It's all about the chemicals in our brains, which are real. Our bodies react to certain thing in attempts to help up, sometime they just get stuck, or our mentality gets stuck and makes them keep reacting,which makes the mental problems we (anyone who suffers from these things) have very real literal things. Therapy can help undo the mental blockage that's causing these reactions to happen sometimes, other times it take an opposing or regulating chemical in form of medication to undo them. That's why I've never understood how some people can think it's such a far fetched thing. It's been medically proven in so many cases. Oh well, I guess part of getting better does have to be wanting to get better, which means admitting that you need to get better.

I really do hope that I can help people get through the things I've been through and more. I know how horrible it is to feel like you're all alone with these problems, or like it's your own fault that you have them. I hated feeling that way. I just want to make it so other people don't have to anymore.

*hugs* Anytime, I mean every word I'm saying.

I'm passing out now so I can barely read the screen, night guys. :XD

Woah, I missed some big posts, didn't I? XD

I'm actually taking basic psychology online from my local community college myself. Although in my case, I'm learning about how the mind works so I can more realistically recreate them as an aspiring fiction author. That, and my mother encouraged me because she knew that it helped her quite a bit in day to day interactions with other people.

Right on. That's pretty cool :-) I write a little myself. What genre do you work in most?

Woah, those are some TL;DR posts! Hi guise! What's up?

Swan: Right now, I'm in mainstream with a small amount of sci-fi/fantasy. A bit beyond the everyday, but still heavily grounded in reality. ^_^

Hey all c: How is everyone today?

Still busy, and will be leaving for scouts in an hour, but feeling pretty good. ^_^

Ok, no more shopping trips with my friend. i'm wiped out! D:

Sorry I haven't been around much, past few days have been high pressure headache days, which make me really foggy a lot of times. I'll have some times when I'm able to think, and others when I kinda just sit here and run on automatic.

It doesn't make for interesting conversation except for when someone else is leading conversations... or I have a few 'clear' hours. XD Or I'll sit around re-wording something then deleting it because I feel really uncomfortable saying it 'cause I feel like it doesn't sound right. XD

aw, how are you feeling now, pixie?

Originally Posted by Altiris

aw, how are you feeling now, pixie?

Still pretty foggy. D: I'm hoping after sleeping tonight I'll wake up, and my shunt will have done it's job and drained the excess fluid off. If it does, I'll feel a lot better and be able to think clearly. If it doesn't, I kinda just have to sit around and wait.

It's okay though, because I keep forgetting I'm sitting around and waiting for it so I don't get impatient. :XD That's about the only good thing about this! :XD