So I guess this isn't a life crisis, but I need advice and I thought this would be the best place for me to ask.

I have problems communicating with people. I hate talking about how I feel because I hate feeling vulnerable, which happens when I'm depressed and people ask if I want to talk.

It hasn't really been much of a problem though, until, well... I started dating my boyfriend Dillon. He was my best friend before we started dating, but even then I had problems with communication. I really want to have good communication with him, but I don't know how to break out of my shell. How do I get myself to fell more comfortable in those situations? What can I do so I'll be more open and honest about how I feel. I'm comfortable around him, and I want to tell him, but whenever he asks me what is wrong my first instinct is to say "Nothing, I'm fine," which he knows is a lie and he gets mad at me because of it!

What should I do? I don't want to lose him because I'm too scared to share my feelings and become vulnerable.

There are many ways to communicate without talking face to face.
I had that issue when I started dating my boyfriend. Sometimes I still have that problem.
At times it's easier to write things out because I can go back and correct something before anyone sees it.
We share an online journal for such things.
It's easier for me to talk about certain things when he brings them up. The journal lets him know what is on my mind and what needs to be talked about.
We don't use it a lot anymore but it was a great tool for when I was really really shy.

Good luck finding what works for you. (:

The best thing I could suggest is to start slow, with little things. And move up with what you share as you grow more comfortable with sharing things. Talk to Dillon about it and tell him that your just afraid, I'm sure he'll understand.

i'm the same way. my boyfriend and i have been together for 3 years, and i still can't tell him what's wrong. i don't really know how to help you, but i do know what you're talking about. kinda like you're almost physically unable to communicate what it is that's bothering you. :(
but over the years, i have been able to say some stuff that's on my mind to him. i think it might be related to trust and how comfortable you are, cause he's become my best friend.
just don't go too far out of your comfort zone, is all i can suggest.
hope this helps a little! :sweat: