I'm lost o_O

My question from earlier. lol.

Originally Posted by Sarofset

Do you guys think it's weird/lame for a guy to be a house husband if the woman makes enough to support both? It's common in Germany, but here it's like... frowned upon.

^--what I was answering.

Also, I know. I've got some decent friends around. But that doesn't equal the companionship of a partner most of the time.

Ohhh...that question. Guess I got sidetracked xD

I used to have friends that I could be like, extremely close to yet not sexual. I suppose cuddle buddies are one way to put it. But I pushed everyone away after my last relationship because of how badly I was hurt. I enjoy the solitude..despite its shortcomings.

I can't do that. Never been able to. I have a lot of guy friends anymore...oddly enough...but I don't let them do anything except give me a hug every now and then. That kind of intimacy is for the people I love. *shrugs*

I've always had this huge space bubble, though. I don't feel comfortable letting people hang all over me unless they're anything but, really, a boyfriend. I get really close to (and emotionally attached to) people if I let them into my physical space bubble, so I tend not to let them in that way. I'll talk to people about anything, on the other hand.

I'm really vulnerable when I let myself care for somebody, so I don't let myself do it often. Thus, no cuddle-buddies, lol.

That's how I am to an extent. I trust and fall for people too easily. I forgive too easily as well. I put others before myself, even if I'm suffering because of it.

I still put myself at risk of being hurt though because at the time I hated being alone far worse then being hurt because I'm "cuddle buddies" with someone even though we are just friends. (Regardless of if I wanted more or not) Back then I had a terrible time with jealousy...

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Not too sure if I'm making sense >.>

I think I get it.

Loneliness sucks ass, you'll do crazy things to just get rid of it.

I get the jealousy thing. I'm not big on bf's female friends, but it's not like I won't let them have them (or have the right to tell them not to have them). So, in the beginnings of relationships I always put my foot down: "I don't give a shit if you have female friends and spend time with them, but they WILL know you are owned by somebody, and they WILL respect me and never make a move on you, or they will be missing vital organs. Am I understood?"

Hahaha. It's a take it or leave it thing, and it's pretty much my only condition in relationships.

I tried that a few times...never really worked out nicely for me though in the past >.<

Lol. I'm sure it didn't.

I told that to a guy who had a bunch of girls after him that he didn't want, and had been hurt a lot. He was happy for the protection and liked that I cared enough to be pissed about girls throwing themselves at his feet.

The ex I spoke of, is talking to me now. She noticed I became active on here again and felt the need to talk to me. I'm absolutely terrified and among other things, I get told shes moving in with her boyfriend, and might be pregnant.

Welcome to my world. Shoot me now :)

I'm sorry. :( That's why I refuse to talk to my ex. I don't want to know about his screw ups or his screws for that matter. You don't have to talk to her if you don't want to.

Especially if the breakup was her doing, she should respect your feelings on the subject.

I talk to my ex. She's a cool person. But I do hate it when she talks about the new guy she likes. XP

Though she seems to have no problem when I tell her about my various and a sundry crushes. lol.

Thats kind of the point...its like..blah. Still terrified because all of the past memories and emotions are starting to come back. >.<

If you still have major feelings for them then I'd say stay away for a good while.

Why would you like it? Lol.

@Magi: Mhm. Mhm. Every time I get a text from my ex my entire body starts to literally shake. It scares me too much...and I hate it...I'll always have a little bit of love for him, and care if he's getting hurt. Thus it's better I just don't know anything about him anymore. I come on mene and bitch about it every now and then, lol.

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I'm healed...but that doesn't mean I won't always remember what happened and have a little regret for it.

I already agreed to try to start a new friendship with her =/

=/ is right. Are you sure that's something you really want, or something she hopes for? You aren't worth another person's happiness when they hurt you. Plain truth.

Something she wants and hopes for. Even though I expressed my concern over it complicating things since she is in a relationship, might be pregnant, and is in the midst of moving in with her boyfriend...so I'm not really sure whats going on =/

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(She did give me back my old stuff though...but I need to find someone willing to trade me the Dove and Raven Headwings...for the elemental sword things :( )

I guess she lost/sold them in the process of me being away >.<

If you don't want to deal with her, you can't just say that it concerns you, you have to tell her you don't want to deal with her. :yes: Girls...well...they like to hope until all hope is taken away from them through unfailing bluntness. *Sad smile*

The Calesco and Naias shiz? Try the marketplace. ^_^ Sell the elemental swords and buy the wings. :)

Lol. I still have a lot of my exes shit on the game we met on. Including a ring that's very expensive and considered an engagement ring ingame. I'll probably never get the stuff back to him. :\ Feel bad about it, but I'm tired of dealing with him. If it was shit I could just ship to him, I would, but I can't. Lol. It would involve talking to him and setting up a meeting between our characters ingame.

Haha. So dorky.

This song...omg...I love it.

Haha...kind of cute in a small way though xD

That's pretty awesome, not gonna lie. It's epic and makes me laugh at the same time. :lol:

I didn't know there was a band like that out there.

She linked me that song, and from the sounds of it, other then drums they use their voice for everything else, even the guitar rifts in Master of Puppets (which they covered)

Pretty amazing.

Do you have msn by chance?

I have a past look that would match your current one quite nicely xD

I do not. I used to, but I absolutely hate MSN because of its glitchiness so I got rid of it. :lol:

I think that a capella stuff is pretty awesome sometimes. Depends on the band.

I like electronic techno stuff the most. Have ever since I discovered t.A.T.u and O-Zone back in the day.

Oh haha...what about Skype or Aim?

Lol. The only thing I have besides Mene is facebook. I've always hated people being able to poke at me whenever they felt like it. I barely even check my phone once a day. Usually more like once a week. :feesh: I drive my friends crazy, but for some reason they still love me. :lol: