You ish welcome. :3

hehe. o uo
-noms on your green cow- >w<

O:
Chloe!~

hahaha. She's made of mints. o3o

really?!?!?!?!? -nosm on her some more- >w<

Hahahahaha! Yup! Mints. :yes:

I love mints. >w<

Guys I think I have a serious problem

What's going on Dia? o.o

I don't want to eat anymore... at all. nothing.
Nothing but water.

I just lost the motivation to eat. Not even survival can get me to take a bite.
I just feel hungry, but at the same time I don't care about it.

For almost 2 years I've been looking at myself in the mirror and I've hated what I've become.
I use to be so beautiful... and I ruined it. I ruined myself with food. And I'm tired of it.
No more dieting, counting, excersizing, guilty feelings.

I'm just done. I'm done eating.

Not even a little bit. I'm just...

I'm just done.

hey now dia! you need to eat!! *hugs* you can be sexy and have curves! just look at me! you wanna know how much i weigh??

*tilts her head* how much?

llonka, you can pull off sexy curves because you're beautiful.
I wish I was more like you :(
My confidence is just a huge facade... I always thought since I'm ugly on the inside I have to be at LEAST pretty on the outside.
Now, i'm neither.

240 :P nah i'm not beautiful. just full of myself! i think you are beautiful! :kiss:

Aww thank you llonka :) I need to be more full of myself. I feel a little better.

But I'm still not eating. I refuse.

awww come on!! i love to eat. i always have. (if you cant tell lol) it just makes you feel so much better. :heart: i love fast food and mexican the most. we should hang out sometime and just pig out. :love:

*noms chicken* have some dia!!! *shoves into dia's face* see dont you feel better??

eating use to make me feel better, until I found out starving was a much better feeling.
*sighs*

but.. *sighs* that's not healthy. I know its not.

I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. Maybe she can tell me whats wrong.

i dont think starving is. because then your tummy hurts and you get a headache. and you don't feel like doing anything. so stuffing your face is better. :D just as long as you eat a certain amount each day, you should be fine. i haven't been keeping track, but who cares. as long as you love yourself, what everyone else thinks is bull. *hug* i don't care what you look like, i'll love you no matter what! :kiss:

hope they can help you. :hug:

llonka, I love you so much ; ;

awww i love you too dia!!! *humps*

and now i must go for a little bit. :( i'm sure hubby is gonna be in a pissy ass mood when he gets home. better make it look like i've been doing stuff. :P *poofs*

Dia, what lonka said is totally true. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. :) We all think you're like, a sexy beast! Inside and out. Making yourself starve wont help anything. if anything, you'll just GAIN weight because your body starts to eat the muscles. Plus, you'll just make yourself sick. :( We all don't want you being sick!

I hope the therapist can help some, dia.

The only thing I miss is Pizza

Then get some! Eating some pizza wouldn't hurt! D;

EAT THE PIZZA DAMN'T!!!!

so crap. we are like running on money fumes now. you all think it'd be worth loosing my food assistance to get a job??

If you get another job, you could get more food with money adn everything.
I'd say get a job.

i applied at Walgreens. guess we'll see if they call me back. sure wish i had a money tree. :gonk:

I vote with momo.
Getting a job might be best.

I'm not eating the pizza.