
03-06-2011, 02:42 PM
I had a really meaningful dream about a week or two ago. Before I go into it, I'd like to point out that I do have bipolar disorder, and I am prone to having really bad depression. I tend to get suicidal over the silliest of things. It always passes, but I feel so awful when it happens.
I haven't been feeling my best recently, mainly due to the weather and some events that happened at school. I dreamed that I was suicidal, and I met a murderer who looked just like me. She was sentenced to death, and since I wanted to die, I offered to take the sentence for her. Needless to say, she agreed, and we switched clothes. On the day of the execution, though, I was terrified. I realized that death wasn't what I wanted at all. It wasn't my time, so to speak. I met the murderer again, and she agreed to switch back, possibly out of guilt knowing that she is the one who actually deserves the sentence. I got to watch the execution, and it was gruesome... It actually began to get random at this point, because I imagined her being cut up on a hibachi grill. I think my mind purposely made a disturbing death scene to convince me that it wasn't the fate I wanted at all.
It really made me think whenever I woke up. It was a rather good dream.
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