First of all, I want to apologize for any grammar mistakes, and for it being extremely long. :)

I feel like I'm stressing more than I should, but after thinking about it for a while, I realized that I might not be exagerating at all. Let me explain, because it doesn't make any sense right now, does it?

A few years ago, my period was very irregular. I could be five months without it, and then get it a random day as if nothing was out of the ordinary. I think I made it to seven months without it, once. I had worried that something was wrong with me, and I decided to go to the doctor. It wasn't caused due to pregnancy (I was a virgin with no remote possibility of getting pregnant) or stress. My doctor thought that it might have been some hormonal problems, and gave me some birth control for ten days.

It had worked, and my period started right after I finished my pills. It became a normal 28-day-cycle, and I was happy to get rid of my permanent PMS mode. A few months afterwards, though, (without taking anymore BC, just the dose the doctor gave me that time) my period became irregular again, and I skipped three months.

I returned with the same situation, under the same circumstances, and he again gave me the pills.

It's been around a year and a half since the last time I went there, and my period had returned to its cycle. Everything was normal, at least, until a bit ago.

I don't know if this has anything to do with it, but I became sexually active around late January. My period stayed with its normal cycle, and if it varied, it was only for a day or two... but a few months ago, I had my first pregnancy scare (which was nothing pleasant at all). My period did come, however, just around a week late. (I had found two of the BC pills around the cabinets and decided to drink them, thinking it might force the period to come).

After that, it had returned to normal-again... Until last month, or well, this month. I was supposed to get my period on June 30th (or from a margin of the 7th - 12th to give it the extra week), but so far, no show from mother nature. I had been getting the PMS during the whole waiting time, like killer cramps and an incredibly bad mood. I am worried that I might be pregnant, because I had been having unprotected sex a few days before those days, just using the pull-out method.

I know that stress can cause me to miss a period, and of course, missing the period itself, can cause me the stress. I just think about the posibility of being pregnant and I'm ready for a full-blown panic attack. I resort to remembering how my period used to be extremely late, and this might be what's happening now. Its the usual way for me to calm myself down, yet I don't know if I'm just, well, lying to myself.

I want to get a test, but I'm not sure how long I have to wait for it to let me know an accurate answer. I want to go to the doctor to have the test done with blood for best results, but I can't do anything without my mom's permission, at least, until I turn 21. (For the record, I'm 18, will be turning 19 next Tuesday).

I was planning on giving it another week (while trying not to stress too much), and have my boyfriend bring me a house test. Personally, I'm more frightened about it being positive because of my parents, and because I have no idea of what to do. My boyfriend is unemployed (though he's going to look for a job and has resorted to selling his PS3 and a bunch of other things to see if he can save enough for a motorcycle or an old car). I have no job, as I have been dedicating my time to college. I used to work at an office in college, but its a random selection of students who get the opportunity, at minimun wage. I don't know if I can get it again.

If I am, in fact, pregnant, we have a LOT of things to do to set things right. For starters, we have to face my parents (which I'm horrofied to do). I can't bring myself to tell them exactly what would disappoint them the most. I know they'll be furious, and I know that I'll be in trouble, heck, I think mom might even slap me if she gets out of control! I just don't know how to bring it up, how my family will take it, and how I'll be able to look at them in the eye after this.

I am so sorry for this... Still, I don't regret it. Strange, huh? Mixed emotions... I love my boyfriend, and we had been talking about marrige for a while. I told him to wait until I'm twenty, on my last year at college, to at least have some ground to stand on. I also want for him to finish his studies, look for a job, anything! He wants to move forward in life, and I'm here to help him if he needs my aid, but I can't do everything for him. If he wants for me to say yes to such a large commitement, I want for him to demonstrate that he's serious. I'm not the kind of person to take marrage lightly.

I also have to find a place to move (because I might be kicked out, I'm not sure), get a steady income, and basically create a whole new lifestyle, all in the course of those nine months. Mom had mentioned a while ago (though probably in a joking manner) that if we ever get in trouble, like getting married without landing a safe job, we can fix up my grandma's basement (which needs a few walls, bathroom and floor tiles, etc) with my dad's help, and move there. I'm not sure if dad's going to be willing to do this (chances are that he is, but I can't be sure).

I don't like the idea, but its the safest thing we have so far.

I just want to find a way to deal with all this stress; I have ended up crying myself to sleep, or being unable to hug my boyfriend without tearing up. He's as scared as I am; I know that its not something easy to swallow.

I guess that what I'm asking is for a way to deal with stress, some sort of advice, support... anything. I'm an emotional wreck, going crazy with raging thoughts racing through my mind. I don't know what to do or what I'm capable of.

I know it's scary...but take a moment to breathe. Next thing..... if it's already been almost a month since you first expected your period (june 30th you said)....go take a pregnancy test now. There are tests advertised these days that can tell you within a couple weeks of conception.

Have you told your boyfriend yet? If you haven't, sit him down and tell him. Then go get a pregnancy test together and find out. If it IS stress....you are only putting yourself through more stress because you are worried about being pregnant. It's scary, but the sooner you find out, the better. You can unstress if you aren't pregnant which might start your period....or, if you ARE pregnant, you can start making arrangements.

Good luck :)

Thank you so much for reading and taking the time to answer!

I'm glad to say that yes, he knows about it. Like I said, he's as scared about it as I am, but unlike me, he isn't paralyzed so to speak. He often is asking me how I feel, if I need anything, he wanted to buy my test (but that meant having one of his friends finding out, which I'm not too fond of) and overall has been supportive about it. He said he's willing to do anything for me to be okay, and that the only change it would make would be him loving me even more.

I'll see how I can get out of the house and buy the test with him. It won't exactly be easy, due to my parents not allowing me to go out often, I can't go out with him without a chaperone, and a bunch of other situations like my grandmother geting surgery.

In any case, you're right. I guess the only way to get rid of this stress is to see if the root of it is really happening.

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Okay, I think I really am pregnant; either that, or too many casualties. How long does it take to get "morning sickness"? :/

I agree, dealing first with the issue of finding out if your even pregnant is good; You might be stressing out for no reason!
And remember, it's not the end of the world if you are. Just deal with what happens, everything will be alright in the end.

and I wouldn't worry, get the test first. Severe stress can cause those same symptoms.

I'm crossing my fingers for you that the test comes back negative. :( Pregnancy scares are SCARY. I know what it's like to be that scared. I've had a few, complete with the morning sickness. Morning sickness should kick in 2 to 4 weeks later, is what I've heard from my friends. For future reference: you can go to any pharmacy store and ask for the Plan B pill, or go to planned parenthood. I don't think you need a guardian to know for either. If you take it within 48 hours of having unprotected sex, you'll be okay. Always take precautions - next time don't wait to see what happens with your period, because that is unreliable for you to begin with.

Is getting an abortion out of the question? You would still have time if the test came out positive. Your life and happiness is important, make a smart decision. It's not easy at all to choose to abort, but sometimes it's the smartest choice to make, no matter what anyone else says. Good luck. :(

Thanks to all for the advice!

I took the test last Saturday, and it came out negative. (It was the package that brought two, from First Response, and both came out negative). Since it had been way past my period date, I really don't know what it could be. Maybe I'm being irregular again...?

I really don't think abortion would be an option, basically because I don't feel like its the right thing to do. When the test came out negative, my boyfriend actually seemed dissapointed, so I'm sure he would be against it too. I'm going to keep on waiting on my period, and perhaps get another test after a while again. If it's negative again, I'm going to talk to mom to see if we can go to the doctor again to get the pills.

I don't feel as stressed as I was, I even got rid of the morning sickness! But... I still can't be too sure, can I? :/

If it came out negative twice, you're fine (I've done that once before and took it multiple times, but found out from the doctor that it was just a waste). Don't worry about it, trust me. Your period was irregular before, and it may be irregular for a very long time. My period has been irregular, like it sounds yours has been, for years before I had an IUD put in, and lost my period completely.

Definitely go back on the pills to give you a peace of mind. You'll be fine!

Phew, that's a relief! As much as a child would bring happiness to our lives, now its definitelly not the right time. I guess I'll be having a talk with mom about getting back on the pills. I wish I could be actually put "on" birth control, but I don't want mom to know about me being sexually active yet. She's extremelly conservative, and I'm more open minded than she is. I know it would bring consecuences in the long run, ones that could be avoided.

I used to have the irregular thing to until i started taking my pills regularly. I know they can be a pain, but birthcontrol pills are FANTASTIC when it comesto regulation.ask your doctor if you can go on it full time. if your mom asks tell her you rea it will keep you regular (mine also helps the cramps be less "grr imma killsomeone if they get too close")