I'm wondering if I should go shopping and get any new clothes today because all of my are old and dingy and holey, but my husband really needs some new clothes too, so I'd feel bad spending the money on myself. But I have a problem, and I can't help myself. I'm a shop o holic. :( I'm better than I used to be. In fact I used to just steal, but that was years ago and I would never do that now. Sigghh. I'm battling myself right now.
People I've actually talked to at college. Is it typical for college students to be all buddy-buddy, but never say their name? =/ I mean, I might have actually made a friend today. I know she's on financial aid (I am too), she didn't know where the computer lab was (I gave her terrible directions), her hobby is exercising even though sometimes she has to make herself do it, she makes $12/hr as a gymnast instructor person, makes $50+ at birthday parties when she only works 2hrs, needs new clothes (she told me this... it's not my opinion), likes shopping at TJMax (or w/e), has about the same schedule as me, GRADUATED FROM THE SAME HIGH SCHOOL I WENT TO, is 21-22 (I think 21, but 22 sounds better XD), her parents wouldn't let her get her license until she was 18, etc etc. BUT. We never exchanged names. And this is the same for everyone I've talked to. Well, I don't learn so much about them, but we talked... we just never shared our names. I even said something like, "I think to properly 'meet' we would have to exchange names," and he was just like, "Naw, we can just be like 'Hey, YOU'." Yeah, funny, but it seems to be the same for EVERYONE. =/ Not that I don't have a problem... not getting close to people, but knowing someone's name is more on a personal level. At least, that's what I think. You don't just know facts or statistics, you know their name. Also, it's like... you don't really know them unless you know their name.
"Oh, I know them! They're in my whatever-class-you're-both-in class."
"Really? What's their name?"
"...I don't know. o_o"
"Are you sure you know them? XD"
I am thinking about how much it sucks that Richard the Dick Coughlan has a girlfriend... and then kicking myself in the pants over it because I'm married, anyway. :P
My doll head. D; I had been working on his soft pastel work for hours and then I had to fuck it up by painting. Ugh, I really can't paint worth shit. BUT THAT STUPID PAINT THINNER!!! First, I opened it, tried to pour some out, and it just ran down the side of the bottle (WTFYMF?!). Then, somehow, it fell over! Almost half of it spilled out onto the desk. The only good thing was that it didn't get to the head... Oh, but there's more~ Like I said, I can't paint worth shit. My blushing and whatnot was amazing, though. Especially the right eyebrow. Well, until I tried painting said eyebrow, messed up, and had to wipe it off with the evil paint thinner. Now I have to redo that eyebrow, the blushing in that area, seal it with MSC, and hope I don't screw up again. Or, you know what, maybe I can make it work with just using soft pastels. I'm good with those. Paint? Not so much.
Paintbrushes.
I need more paintbrushes. The 100/0 I bought hasn't been that great for me yet, but the... ah... filbert (I think 20/0?) is really nice. I could do with 4 more of them. XD Besides those, I have to use my grandma's paintbrushes and who knows how long she's had them all crammed in that box. =/ It it were me, I'd put them in a glass or something so they wouldn't get ruined. Maybe I should try those cheap bundle ones where there's, like, 10 brushes in a pack. No, that sounds like such a waste... Whenever my money comes in, I'll buy that body and some good brushes. Yep. /discussion
HAIR. 8D Almost forgot my grandma said she'd buy a wig for me (well, the doll lol). I'll probably get one from denverdoll. :yes:
lol! You should give Prisencolinensinainciusol a listen xD
It's pretty much gibberish, but appears to be designed to sound like English to a non-english speakers ear.
It's kind of trippy o_o *is listening to it now*
That sounded pretty god damn english to me and my native language is english!
On another note: I'm thinking about how Puss in Boots really is the most interesting cat in the world and how I hope Baka and Test is a good anime.
I shouldn't be looking at wigs or browsing Mene. I NEED TO FIND TIPS. D;
-looks to side- ... Maybe I could mix the paint thinner and paint in these bottle caps. :idea:
'Egar, my back hurts from this chair. Can't it be 2am already so I can go to my room and use my computer during the free hours of my dataplan' mixed with 'LOL' a lot.
My mom. I hope she's alright... I wonder why they needed to take so much blood? I wonder if she's been sitting in the waiting room for long? I wonder how far away the hospital she went to is? I wonder how much the visit will cost? I wonder if they'll actually give her good medicine? Hospitals are usually the only places that do, but they might not be able to do much... I hope she'll get some sleep tonight. I hope we all will. I wonder if she'll be able to keep down any food or water? I wonder if...
My writing class.
I don't really like my class... We learn writing techniques, read short stories, and answer questions about the short stories while, at the same time, applying the writing techniques we previously learned. If I'm answering questions, I'm just going to answer the damn questions. If I'm writing, I want to take the time to write well. Having to combine the two just boggles my little mind. Even though my family doesn't believe me, I am not a good writer. IT TAKES ME FOREVERRR. Even then, the product of all that time spent isn't very good.
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My mom again. Sometimes I wonder if she just uses us all. I have a soft spot for her and if she asks me to do something, I'll more than likely do it. Maybe when she says, "You can't trust anyone," that applies to her too.
...She's one of the few people I actually do trust, but she keeps saying one thing and doing another. -sigh- What to do, what to do...?
My grandma.
In all honesty... she can be a bit of a bitch. I know damn well that she would of had a breakdown if anyone told her to put down her dog for no reason. Hell, she had a breakdown when we put him down for one. I wonder if I'll keep in contact with her later on in life...? Would it be worth it, really?
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Reason: To be on the safe side.
What to do, what to do...? If my mom gets a place of her own around here, should I go with her? Is it really in my best interest? Will it be too stressful? Less stressful? Or am I just afraid to do something different because it is different? If she ends up moving back to where she used to live... what will I do? Visit? Move in anyways? In either scenario, do I agree or disagree before she starts looking or after? I think seeing the place would give me a better idea of what it will be like, but she seems to only want to live near here if I live with her. And what do I do with the money? Buy the body for my doll, the jointed hands, and a laptop? What laptop? The one I mentioned yesterday? Should I try customizing one again? Buy the hands later? I want to wait to use any of it until I find out exactly how I want to spend it, but it'd be just my luck for someone to buy the body before me. I wonder if the hands are even still in stock... Buying these things makes me feel like I don't owe anyone, I don't depend on someone for everything, I bought them myself... But the only way I'm even able to buy them is through the financial aid. Writing that, I feel as though I should only buy things I absolutely need for school, but... I think all the things I want to buy right now are helpful in some way or another. Besides, I don't NEED anything for school anymore. I thought about giving my mom most of it so she could get her epidermal, but I have a feeling she'd decline my offer and say to use it on whatever I want (even if what I want is for her to feel better) since she always does. Also, I don't just want to give it to her. She's always says something like, "Things have a way of working out in time," and never tries to change it herself. So what if something doesn't work? Try again.
Wasabi peas. Yummers. I need moar~ 8D
My writing class. Heh. I had just said I didn't like answering questions and writing at the same time... and now we have a writing essay! XD I think she prefers 12 sentences in a paragraph, but right now my first one only has five. I think it's still good though. =/ Not, "OMG THAT'S SO GREAT!!! 8D" more like, "Good. You pass." XD I think that might be my hardest class.
Paypal, my student card, the coupon, and the doll body. I hope the money will transfer! Too bad that today and tomorrow aren't business days. XD; I wonder if the coupon will work... I hope so. D; Maybe I should have contacted the person selling the doll body? Oh well, too late now. Aughhh... I'M A BUNDLE OF NERVES ONCE AGAIN. A bundle of nerves that SERIOUSLY has to start studying.
My crush. I seriously have no idea why he suddenly left, I'm thinking either a friend came or he's just busy. I know it's nothing bad or anything. He probably fell asleep, probably. Hell, if I know...
My friend, I hope she's okay with picking the right laptop and all. I'm not exactly sure I gave good advise but I hope Joost did. He's quite reliable in the aspect of technological days and what to get etc.
Convincing my relatives about the fact that I want to learn how to operate a Motorcycle. I'd be doing everything proper- proper starting gear (pants, helmet, gloves, shoes, etc), lessons from the best school I can find in the area, start out with a smaller bike (like a Ninja with 250cc engine), etc.
That's going to be a tough sell to my relatives. -sigh- They already won't let my Dad ride one and he learned how to ride around on Dirt Bikes when he was younger.
My Psychology class I know I made a 100% on that test today~ ;D I started to wonder if he'd actually use questions on the pretest because that just seemed too easy, but he did! I wonder if he'll do it again in the future, though...? It was just too fucking easy. XD And lol the people beside me seemed to be trying to rush and I was just going along slowly and still beat them. I wonder if that girl will lose my pencil? I mean, it's not like I want it back, but she seemed to lose things better than I do.
My writing class I feel kind of bad now that my teacher didn't get enough time to look over my paper. I showed it to my grandma and she said it was good, but she's my grandma... XD It hope it's good though because I spent, like, seven hours all together on it. And it was only three paragraphs!! I hope I don't end up failing that class because I'm so slow... BUT SHE WON'T BE THERE THIS THURSDAY SO I CAN WORK LONGER ON THE FINAL DRAFT. 8D I guess I'll go to the tutoring center or the library tomorrow between classes to ask for their opinion on my rough draft. I mean, I don't want to continue doing something that's not good.
My writing I'm writing terribly right now. XD
24/7 support... ...MY ASS. Really?! I messaged you guys a week or two ago and you're just now getting back to me? =/
I am thinking about how nice it is outside and how I wish it would stay light out darker so I can sit outside longer. I'm also thinking about my health a lot lately and what to do if it fails. I'm also thinking about how to budget my money more so I can pay off all the medical bills and about getting another job since the one I have sucks and does not pay nearly enough for the crap I put up with there.
