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HeartMoogle
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04-08-2012, 05:57 AM
Do you ever have moments where you just notice your life? Like you have that moment where you stop taking day-to-day life for granted, even for a second, and realize that, whatever the state of things in your life may be, that this is how it is? Not in a bad way, just a moment of surprise where you realize that things are really how they are.
I'm not sure if I can explain this without an example:
Today, I was cuddling with my girlfriend, with whom I have been with for a year and a half. And laying on the couch cuddling, I just realized "Wow....Natalie is really mine! And we've been together for an entire year and a half! When did that happen? It doesn't feel real that we're together." It was like, I just stopped taking for granted that she is my girlfriend and really noticed it. I have this sort of realization about various things every now and then. Another example was like six months after I graduated and moved out of my parents' house. I was standing in my dorm one day and realized "Wow, I live here! This isn't summer camp. This is my life. My home." I was suddenly amazed that I was living there, even though I'd been there for half a year.
Does this ever happen to any of you?
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ElysiumFate
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04-08-2012, 06:18 AM
It does. My life has been pretty rough and stressful over the last couple of years (it could be much, much, worse, don't get me wrong), so a lot of mine are negative, apologies.
Anyway, I tend to live/exist a lot in a blur right now because I'm just focusing on getting through things, and trying to avoid a little pain. Something that made that blur stop awhile back, though, was my Uncle's funeral. When they did the 21 gun salute, everything just went crystal clear, and it was like: "wow. Seriously bad things really can touch me." My grandma being in and out of the hospital over the last several months was both a sad and a positive realization. That one made everything go clear and forced me to realize, "yes, bad things happen, but make sure you love with all your heart and live your life strongly, so that you have something good to go down doing."
A few months ago when I was at my pregnant friend's house, we were bored, and we went up to her room where she showed me all of her favorite things. We ended up going through her collection of sea shells, and it was like: "wow, I really don't know you that well anymore, do I?" A lot has changed between us over the past couple of years.
My more positive realizations tend to happen on bright, sunny, days. I'll be walking outside and I'll look down at the sparkling grass and think to myself, "wow, this is real? It's just so beautiful..."
A recent realization I had was when I was driving down a road with my windows open, and my stereo blasting. The sun was shining and I was just...unspeakably happy. I thought to myself at that point, "with this simple beauty, this world really must be okay, it is wonderful, and I think I'll give it a chance again." :yes:
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04-08-2012, 11:08 AM
I had one the other day. I was out doing yard work and looking around the yard thinking how awesome it looks and that I did everything by myself. That just amazed me considering how the yard looked when I first moved in here.
This one is a bit more negative but I was thinking this morning about my life. I mean deeper than I normally do and realized that I'm almost 30, single, no kids, and have a crappy job. Right now I just feel kind of bad about myself because of that.
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04-09-2012, 11:55 AM
I've had those moments several times. I think the biggest one was after I settled into my own apartment a year or so ago. I'd just graduated, moved across the world to Japan, and was living truly on my own for the first time. It really hit me that I was finally an adult and it was responsible for my own life from here on out.
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04-09-2012, 06:44 PM
Not really. I stop and think too often. xD
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04-09-2012, 11:08 PM
i just noticed that i'm a pack rat i mean that my stuff is overflowing. so much that i need to clean my room at least once a week to be able to get to my bed.
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04-10-2012, 02:27 AM
I have those a lot and usually they're good. I reflect back on my life and am very happy to have gotten where I have; from a miserable, love-sick high school kid to an enlightened adult in a stable relationship, with a close group of friends, a source of income, and working on a math degree and teaching certificate.
But sometimes they're uncomfortable.
I recently had a realization that people make subtle assumptions about me based on my gender.
I sometimes realize that one day I'm going to die and my cognitive function will end forever.
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ElysiumFate
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04-10-2012, 02:43 AM
I have the realization that I'm going to die about once every year. That one sucks.
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HeartMoogle
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04-10-2012, 04:26 AM
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Originally Posted by ElysiumFate
I have the realization that I'm going to die about once every year. That one sucks.
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Memento mori. I have that realization sometimes too, and it really horrifies me. I have a fear of death. Not just for me, but for anyone. :/
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ElysiumFate
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04-10-2012, 05:08 AM
I don't usually fear death, but that's certainly because I feared it so much when I was little. It used to be pretty crippling and could keep me up for weeks without sleep. Eventually I ended up reading a book that was about a girl who could cross over into the realms of death, and something just clicked that there was nothing I was going to do about it. Long story short, it doesn't freak me out much anymore, but sometimes I just realize that I will be in that place someday and it equals a mini heart attack.
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04-10-2012, 05:09 AM
I have those times too but most of them are frustrating. Like this house will take forever to improve and get fixed, my procrastination too, the things I want to do but I can't for time is too little and I feel very incapable for them.
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04-10-2012, 05:41 AM
Is it sad that whenever I think "I could die at any moment!" I worry what people will think when they see how messy my apartment is? :lol: I don't know why, but that's the first thing that comes to mind. I live in a pigsty right now and I feel like it reflects poorly on me.
Doesn't mean I'd be content to die if I had a clean apartment though. :lol: Oi, I have terrible priorities sometimes.
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ElysiumFate
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04-10-2012, 06:42 AM
I always make sure there's nothing in my room I wouldn't want someone else to find were I to die suddenly. :ninja:
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Ferra
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04-10-2012, 07:52 AM
Aside from being messy, I don't really have anything "damming" lying around. There's some old stories on my computer that I'd be mortified if someone read, but that's about it. :lol:
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04-10-2012, 07:58 AM
I suppose it has, but I've never taken the time to reflect on it.
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04-12-2012, 09:32 PM
I once had this thing about my name, it was really really weird but this topic reminded me about it.
Ok so lets pretend my actual name is Cuddly
I was lying in bed and all of a sudden I was like " Wow my name is Cuddly? Whaoo my friends all call me Cuddly! It's such a strange name! Hmm... I can't believe my name is Cuddly....what the heck? Ok calm down calm down, when you're 18 or 19 or something like that you can change you name... c:
Seconds later I was like " My moms gonna kill me if I do that ^ nvm :c"
I'm just weird like that
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04-12-2012, 10:15 PM
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Originally Posted by Ferra
Is it sad that whenever I think "I could die at any moment!" I worry what people will think when they see how messy my apartment is? :lol: I don't know why, but that's the first thing that comes to mind. I live in a pigsty right now and I feel like it reflects poorly on me.
Doesn't mean I'd be content to die if I had a clean apartment though. :lol: Oi, I have terrible priorities sometimes.
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This is -exactly- what I think! My room is usually a total state, which I somehow feel is even worse because I'm a girl and we're supposed to clean constantly. :lol:
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Ferra
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04-12-2012, 11:21 PM
@Bucket: Don't let the avatar fool you, I'm a girl too. :lol: But yeah, sometimes I feel like a terrible "homemaker". I've always let my room slide a bit when I'm the only one who has to live in it. But I know I can keep things clean if I have someone else there: my dorm room was always very tidy. :yes:
@Cuddlymoon: I had a similar realization with my name. I've always pronounced my real name with 3 syllables. But I guess because there's a famous celebrity with a similar name, people always just assumed I pronounced it the same way (her name has 2 syllables). I didn't think anything of it until I hit college and I had to introduce myself to a bunch of new people. Suddenly, my name - which I always thought was extremely common - became exotic since apparently few people pronounce it the way I do. :lol: I always hated having such a common name, but now I like it because it's become distinct.
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04-13-2012, 12:19 AM
Never judge a person by their avatar. ;D I only ever keep tidy if I know that other people will be going into it. If it's just for me, I don't really see the point since I'm comfortable living in my own filth. :lol:
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Cuddlymoon
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04-13-2012, 12:21 AM
^^ Yesh, especially if they aren't done, like me.
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04-13-2012, 02:02 AM
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Originally Posted by ElysiumFate
I always make sure there's nothing in my room I wouldn't want someone else to find were I to die suddenly. :ninja:
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I do this too but with my whole house. :P Plus I have a weird thing with clutter and a fear of being surrounded by things I don't need. It stresses me out, which is kind of weird considering most my family are pack rats.
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