I'm just saying why I'm so frustrated over it - because no matter what I do - it's never enough and everyone still expects me to always change who I am... When I have done that over and over again, nothing I do is ever enough. :/

I know about being fussy when it comes to avatars - I feel extremely fussy whenever it comes to mine.

I saw cloud's post just now
It is your life, Cloud, so live it the way you want, and make your life how you want it. We don't know where we'll end up after death, and it's not a pleasant thought. So accomplish what you can and what you want in your life. We wouldn't want anything bad for you, after all. I wasn't accusing you or anything, just tried to make your life a little better, as you yourself think your life is miserable. Don't be so! ~

Oh that's good! I'm looking forward to see your avi Zira

But I'm just saying that if someone, doesn't have to just be me - says that they will not do something, stop pushing that on them, and also, just keep in mind that telling me NOT to stress is the least helpful thing that you can do... EVER... Because that will just make it like 10 times worse than it already is.

And I'm sorry that is how I think... that is just how I am. Telling me to change.. will not make me want to change, because I feel pushed and forced to change. Making me feel like I'm being pushed to be someone or think how YOU want me to think... that isn't going to work because I will push back harder... Making me feel forced and stressed into thinking or doing something that I can't do at the moment is NOT the way to go with me... -.- That is why I'm still really upset over everything... -.-

*hides in the corner*

I also got your point when you said it this morning. Repeating yourself with me also makes me feel like people think I'm stupid and therefore need to have things repeated because apparently I'm not capable of understanding it the first time, and that makes me frustrated too...

Oh, jeez. Am I repeating? My memory is pretty much swiss cheese. It's hard for me to focus on things, and remembering is not the easiest. Sorry :C

I just feel that between everyone there is a lot of repetition in general aimed at me, not really one person. But just in general - repetition makes me just feel like people think I'm stupid and I'm not capable of understanding it the first time.

Don't mind me if I repeat stuff~ because I generally am a very forgetful person
And also, I feel that you must try watching the drama: One litre of Tears (Ichi rittoru no namida). It will make you think your life in a whole new perspective-and your difference and problems would look tiny when compared to the problems the main girl in it faces. It sure inspired me to make my life worth it! if that can't motivate someone's life, I don't know what will. That has been my impact on watching the drama. So heart breaking~

Ok, I get that, but eh... Just saying how it makes me feel. But meh.. whatever.

I don't have time to watch anything right now and I have very limited internet time -and the internet at home is not very good most of the time.

Understandable. Put that on top of the list when you do get the time to watch it~

I try to stay away from dramas honestly because all they do is just upset me even more and right now, honestly, that is the LAST thing I need to do.

I like your pillows cloud!

This drama would be an exception!~
Honestly, I'm not trying to force you or anything. It helped motivate me, and it helped motivate a lot of people. And it helps that it is a true story too. That's what makes it worthwhile all the more~ I'll be watching it yet again once I get my connection back. It can break my heart!

I am very tired. The thunderstorm is making my bones ache, and the puppies keep harassing me for food. Puppies, I have no food, and my sister put you on a diet. I can not feed the puppies.

I may just drop asleep pretty soon. Head on the laptop, snoozing away as I listen to the sound of Pak on twitch.

His voice is very soothing.

Poor puppies
Good night Zira! Sleep tight~

It is only 8:40! I am hoping to stay awake. We'll see how that goes. If I stop responding, you will know why.

And the puppies will get too fat if they aren't on a diet. One has bad hip problems that only improved once he lost the weight. He still snatches any food that drops to the floor, so it isn't like he gets ignored completely.

My puppy got fixed today. Poor thing is dog tired.

If you're feeling sleepy, you should sleep and get up at like, early in the morning after a solid 6-8 hour sleep? That's what I do. I go to be day around 12-1 and then wake up at 4. Waking up early keeps you fresh~
Ah. Obese doggies!

You're looking adorable, Llonka. I love the flowers in the background; too bad they aren't poppies. But it is so very clear that you're dressed up as Dorothy. Lovely.

Thanks llonka. I broke down and bought the new CI.

Dramas in general, no matter how good they are, normally put me on edge and stress me out.

Zira- Thanks! I was thinking Dorothy was still in Kansas, but lost Toto before the Tornado hit.. lol.

Cloud- oooh that's what it's from?

Yep! Wanna ghost it? Not now, but later? :)

Maybe I should try this again lol.. :D I just got a husky mix puppy named Zoey who I renamed Luna and I am going to train her to be a emotional support service dog for me, and was wondering if you guys know if they making "in training" vest?

Cloud: your avi looks cute, what with the monkey cuddling and so on~
Kasumi- I'm sorry but I can't help you when it comes to doggies, I don't have them and I don't know anyone who has them either D: I hope others will be able to help you! Good luck~

Kasumi: I don't know. Sorry. I mean I know that I've seen them through my friend who trains dogs through cainine companions but I don't know if they have them for sale, or whatnot.

Lex: thanks. I'm still not really happy with it. :/

You'll eventually get something good~

I just am running out of gold to spend.