Lucky u!
;)

Ely: yeah, and I know I didn't do as good first semester due to so many things going on

Oddish: I've been out now for a bit over a week. And I've been home for most of that time. :)

Cloud, I hear you there. I haven't had good semesters in Grad school partially for that reason of so many personal things going on that aren't the greatest and also because of life just getting in the way.

Ugh... making me feel even worse about myself now. :/ I'm the one who's taken 7 years to get one stupid degree that should have only taken me 2 years. :/

Fall term was worse because my roommate had things happen that heavily fell on me for help and support. :/
Dealing with helping her, as well as not missing any classes, or homework assignments. XD

That's understandable. Life gets in the way. I finished my 4-year degree a bit later than i wanted to (well... a little over 5 years). But, life happens. I had family health scares, a death, panic attacks, and a few other things happen in my first year of graduate school. Second year was full of panicking moments and me having the desire to actually live my life and such. Because of the whole "this country freaking pressures us at 19 to know what the hell we're doing with our lives and plan everything only to realise at 26 that oh maybe this was not what I am passionate about... oh shit I'm 60k in debt"

Annnyway, sorry for the rant. But yeah. Don't feel bad. things happen and as long as you're happy with what you've decided to go for and you're kicking butt :)

Yeah, but you got a 4 year degree in 5 years... I only have a stupid AA that took me SEVEN years to get. :/ And it makes me feel like an absolute failure... -.-

Don't feel like a failure. life happens.
Granted it's not a schooling degree, but I'm going to be 27 this year and I'm finally getting my driver's license this year. I just got a new permit and am finally going to learn to drive.

It doesn't stop me from feeling like an absolute failure, and people who just brush me aside and try to tell me that I am the only one who can make myself happy, that it happens... just make me feel like how I feel doesn't matter. In fact, honestly, it kind of makes me feel worse. :/

The important thing is that you've kept trying and you're almost done, Cloud.

Ely is right, the important thing is you keep trying and you're almost done. A lot of people would have given up, but you have kept going. Plus you have all of us here cheering you on. :)

Still doesn't stop me from feeling like a failure... -.-
I'm so close to just throwing in the towel now, I'm just SO over school.
I'm so sick of it!

I'm just tired of people who act like I'm stupid or that I don't know what I'm saying when I say that I have ABSOLUTELY no idea what I want to do when I am done with school because I've been at it for so long I must know what I want to do, when I DO NOT know... I've been told "You've been at it for so long. Don't let years of school go to waste..." That just makes me feel even worse than I already do feel. :/

Actually Cloud, part of that I know exactly how you feel. I have around 2 years of Grad school work under my belt (though if you technically think about it I only have about a year and a half and have been going at it for 2 years). My family says the same thing. "oh you've been at it so long", or "don't make it go to waste" stuff like that. Which pisses me off that they don't understand what I'm going through.
They're not the ones going through the mass amounts of stress making them have panic attacks or something close to it, crying fits, so much stress you're sick, they're not the ones who went from being about 30k in debt to over 60k in debt and panicking about not being able to pay it off before they die because they felt forced to choose their career path at a young age and realize now that oh maybe this isn't what I'm meant to do.
There is no guarantee if I were to finish my MLIS I would get a job in a library, I couldn't network correctly because I had to get a job ASAP when I started there and lived on campus and worked almost 20 hours a week, leaving no time for anything other than do homework if I wasn't about to fall asleep because working the food court is draining.
I know the feeling of not knowing what to do after school to an extent.
But, I know how it feels when the family, even thought most of the time they're trying to be caring, they honestly have no idea.

Basically I'm just so sick of worrying I'm letting my family down, despite them all saying that they're proud of me and they'll support me no matter what I'll do.

If I do go to grad school... I'll probably have to move cross the country because that's where THE school for me to go to go... -.-
They don't have to deal with the homesickness. And the struggles.

I'm honestly only still in school because I know I'll let EVERYONE down. And mom telling me I'm the first to graduate with any degree at all for my grandmother... of all her grand kids, that honestly makes me even more stressed. Like I'm letting grandma down by not graduating... -.- And taking so long. :/ I'm just so over all the stress and the pressure.

Especially since I have NO idea at all what I want to do... -.- I'm just the loser person who can't graduate in a normal amount of time, and just sits at home without a job because she doesn't drive and no one wants to ever hang out with her... -.- And I'm expected to always be happy and just smiling and cheerful when I feel ANYTHING but... -.-

Last year - especially my first semester - was the semester from hell. I ended up with a roommate who ended up needing emergency back surgery a month in. I was the one helping her, going to appointments with her, taking care of her and her dog... I didn't miss a single class, or homework assignment, but I was on the phone, in hysterics most evenings with my best friend because I was so stressed out. I almost had my parents come down and get me to take me home because I had no one close to help me out, despite her friends telling me they could - because whenever I called them, I got bitched out because I was telling my friends what was going on, because I needed to talk to someone about what was going on because I was so stressed out and upset about all of what was going on, or they could complain that they had too much going on no matter what, even if they told me that they were here to help us out if we needed help.

I'm just terrified how this next year will go with how this goes. :/ Given how things have gone so far. Being hours from home, is just so trying for me... :(

I hear you there. I am always in fear of disappointing and letting my family down. There's a lot of things I think I have let them down.

Oh, I know I am letting them down, they just will never tell me... -.-

I'm the only grandchild for my grandmother on my mom's side who has a 4-yr degree. My brother has a 2-yr but he's doing what he loves, my oldest cousin is ret. Air Force and is going back to school right now. My youngest cousin dropped out of school his first year and is 23 with a 1yr old girl with his girlfriend who just turned 21 and they can barely afford to pay all of their bills because they moved so quickly to start life and both are EMTs and they are unfortunately in one of the least paying jobs tbh.

All I do right now is babysit for no money because the person I babysit for to be honest is kinda not too great at spending money right or some other reasons. I live 45 min away from my fiance and most of our friends, don't drive, etc. I don't know how the hell I stay sane.


Yeah, I'm scared to hear my family when I tell them I've taken a break or possibly not finishing this program.

Oh no ser why can't you finish the program?

I can related to the issues with college; only for me, while I had a ton of support from some family members, but zero from the school. It's one thing when you can afford to spend all that money on a degree, but something entirely different when you, literally, have no free money.

What didn't help for me was the fact that, at least on my mom's side, nearly all of my family members are hell-bent on turning me into a good little housewife, because that's what a proper woman should do. That's bullshit in my opinion; I wouldn't be able to survive being a housewife, it would bore me to tears. The only one other than my mom who isn't desperate to get me married is my cousin, who is a lot like me and mom.

Frankly, I'm of the opinion that if you're not either a) rich, b) military, or c) part of every "disadvantaged" demographic there is, you don't have a hope a college. I am none of those things.
a) I've lived below the poverty line for most of my life.
b) While I was in NJROTC for all four years in high school, I've never had much intentions on joining the military.
c) I'm white and female. Just being a girl may have meant something scholarship/grant-wise twenty years ago, but now it means diddly-squat.

So, yeah, while I'd like to be able to get a degree, I've pretty much given it up as a pipe dream.

Sorry to hear that Taiyo and at the university I go to alot of the people seem to have something behind them when they go to college. Its either the fact that their parents are rich are they have an athletic scholarship, I haven't made to many friends at college for that reason since most are snobby and i'm poor and live below the poverty line.

*makes a reappearance after an sudden absence for a long period of time*

I just got done with two online summer courses. One was a superhero course for a film studies requirement for my degree where I get to watch superhero movies i've seen before except for the final where I had to compare Batman Begins to Batman. The Tim Burton Batman with Micheal Keaton. That was a treat. Mostly I knew the soundtrack going in because Lego Batman 2 I played used the score so it seemed familiar even if I never saw the film before. Also, 80s Joker has a weird sense of awesomeness.

Then I had a Political Science course. I hated it because of the professor, not the material. He stymied my grades due to disagreeing with my opinions which is bonkers. He also graded my final essay as low as possible. Basically the worlds worst professor i've ever had. I hate to say it but a majority of teachers with PhDs suck. I don't know if it's the degree going to their head or not but it seems rather likely being the case. Either way, glad it's over and done with.

Well glad your courses are done I really hate teachers like that thankfully the history professor that was liked that retired.

Yeah, but I also have a financial aid situation to overcome and I still have one more course to deal with before this summer ends. I think things will turn around but that just depends on things go my way and don't screw me over much like this class did. I've now made it a goal to really check Rate My Professor before signing up for a class and see if I can find anything about the professor before confirming if I want the class or not.

TAs on the other hand are issues because you won't know most of the time until you experience their class.

Yeah at the least rate the professor option is available to you it's not at my college. Oh yeah tba's are the worse one professor I worried about was professor epps, but she retired and thank god I never had her.

Rate My Professor is just a website where you can check other students review of professors. I don't know if it's outside of the US but it does tend to have reviews of every professor for the most part of colleges.

The magic of the internets...

Yeah right thats whats nice about the internet you can find out anything about anyone, with me its just word of mouth.