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09-30-2013, 06:19 PM
Unfrotunately I find myself in a position where, as much as I'd like to be able to write something in a journal, and have it waste away. I can't. I need some help, although the answer may be so very easy to do and say. To me, it's very much the opposite.
I've known this guy for 11 years now, we went to school together, same year except I was in X and he was in Y. I'd see him a few times and we'd exchange words of 'Hi, How are you?' and then carry on with our day. I admit to having somewhat of a crush on him? However looking back on it now, I feel that it was more appreciation that he took the time to actually acknowledge me enough to say hi.
We went to sixth form together, same situation. We also went to College together, same situation again. In college I met my best friend, who after 2-3 years of knowing her, suddenly knew the guy I'd known for 11 years? Due to this, we were able to become good friends, the group of us would gather, we'd all hang out, have fun and so on and so forth.
Against my will, I started to feel attracted and more into this guy as the time went on. Eventually it got to a point where he was texting and talking to me often, He would regularly tell me I was pretty, I should stop putting myself down and appreciate what it is I have. Naturally one would think, 'Right, It's possible this guy actually likes me, I may have a chance.' One night he even called me at 3am in the morning, after having a night out with his best friend drinking. He was rather drunk but I thought, if he's in that state and he feels like ringing me? You can see what went through my mind.
When the suggestion of friends with benefits happened, I wasn't abashed by it, in true honesty, I quite liked the idea. However naive I was, or may have been, I figured he was only interested in me and that in my eyes from my point of view, it wasn't just sex, it was much more than that. After our night of 'passion' or whatever it was, his texts and messaging got less and less frequent. Eventually he told me he felt that he'd been leading me on and he felt guilty because he wasn't ready for that type of commitment.
As much as it hurt, I got over it, I felt better after a while. About a week later, he got himself a girlfriend...........*Pause for emphasis* ............... It literally shook me sideways because I thought, 'What's wrong with me?' and they were going out for a good while, 6-7 months or so, Until he told her he just didn't want a relationship, he wanted to be free and do his own thing, although he was still happy to sleep with her.
Before he left her, a few weeks before he'd been messaging me frequently and flirting, talking dirty, saying he'd missed me and the intimacy that we shared at times and he wanted to see me again and hold me. When he left his girlfriend, I thought 'What? So he was serious then?'
For a few weeks maybe a couple months or so, we'd rekindled our 'Friends with Benefits' although I knew he was still sleeping with her, It didn't bother me.... Much.
He kept saying sweet stuff and calling me beautiful and stuff like that, so I thought maybe he had changed. Unfortunately He's gone back to the talking to me less and less frequent. When we do talk, because I'm moving into a more populated town where I have a new job, he says it'll be easier and things will change. He frequents the town too since his place of business is about a mile or so out of town.
He hasn't seen or visited me for that intention for nearly 3-4 weeks now, and it's a common thing to be told, When I move it'll be easier. Which makes me think I'm not convenient right now, so people won't put the effort in to keep me close? But when I move people will suddenly flock? It's not a good feeling.
I know for a fact he has 5 other women on the go, normally that would make someone scream and run for miles. I have nearly every piece of my being wanting me to do that, but there is something that stops me from doing so, some hope. I won't be stupid enough to be taken for a fool by him any longer, and certainly won't sleep with him while ever he has these 5 other girls on the scene. His behaviour towards me at the moment, is less than a friend, less than a friend with benefits and hurtfully very much like a Fuck Buddy. Which was not how it started. I feel first and foremost I'm his friend, and the sex is just a bonus? The fact that I'm attracted to the guy and have a small little bundle of feelings for him I feel is irrelevant mainly because it's difficult to explain.
I'm sure someone out there understands what I'm trying to say. It's very difficult for me to talk to him about something like this, so before I make an even further fool of myself. I just would like to know the general thoughts on my rather tricky and irritating situation?
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Please?
Last edited by Night Watcher; 09-30-2013 at 06:50 PM..
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10-01-2013, 06:23 AM
I think you should give up on him. Even if by any chance he'll want to have a serious relationship with you, you'll still suffer inside the relationship because you won't trust him. And how could you, you know his nature.
Besides, if he really has 5 girls he's doing right now, I believe someone like him thinks he's in heaven right now, so I don't think he'll change his mind to the commitment thing for a very long time......
you should move on.
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10-01-2013, 07:02 AM
Run.
If he can't take that other girl seriously, he won't take you seriously.
Don't let him add you to his matching set. You don't deserve that, no one does.
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10-09-2013, 12:40 AM
Well, there's nothing wrong with a FWB relationship if both parties are content with it. But you're clearly not happy with how he's treating you, and it sounds like you might have wanted more from the start. And now it's pretty clear that he's not going to give you whatever it is you want, and that's resulting in hurt feelings on your end. But since things are sort of open right now and you two continue to hook up when he feels like it, you can't really move on.
Bottom line, and this might hurt: if he was interested in pursuing a relationship with you (or just maintaining an actual FWB relationship), he would have done it by now. He wouldn't have gone through periods of ignoring you. So unless you are totally okay with how he treats you ( which you're clearly not) you need to cut it off so you can move on. If you want to still be friends with him, go ahead, but don't engage in physical stuff with him. It might be best to totally cut him out of your life for a few months so you can move on. Even if it was not a relationship, it was still an emotional involvement for you, and emotional involvements require time and distance to recover from. If he's still popping up in your life, it's hard to move on. Don't engage him, hide his posts on facebook for a bit, avoid him where you can, and stop yourself when you start thinking about his ~dreamy~ qualities.
And please remember that him not being interested in you does not at all mean that there is anything wrong with you. Some people just flat aren't interested in other people. There are loads of people you know who you could just never be into, and you probably wouldn't be able to say exactly why. Nothing wrong with them, just... not for you. And if you had actually gotten in a relationship with this guy, I'm willing to bet that things with him just would not have worked out in the long run, even if he had stayed faithful and not broken it off. He's not a bad person, he had good qualities you liked, but he's not the only person with those qualities. There will be other cool people.
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10-09-2013, 06:46 PM
Even if it's a casual sex fling, you deserve to be respected. Sex is still an intimate thing, and, sadly, lots of people, of all genders, can't make the distinction between a sex toy and a friend with benefits. I've been in your spot so many times until I learned to tell upfront who's serious, whose kind words and sweet compliments are just a ploy to get into my bloomers. Trust me, it's often better to have a reliable dildo than a male. It's difficult to find the right person, even if you just want a friend with benefits.
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10-10-2013, 06:48 PM
You need to end whatever it is he is trying to have with you. Friends with benefits is one thing, and can be nice especially if there is an interest but unable to have a serious commitment due to career choices, schooling, etc. He needs to respect you and treat you as a friend-not, as you say, a "fuck-buddy". You deserve so much more. Be strong and ignore all those enchanting words he'll use. yes, it may be difficult and he may sound sincere at the time, but look at what has happened. he has other women; why would he try to treat you better if he hasn't already?
do not cave in when he calls you beautiful. when he says he wants you in his arms again because in the end it'll all lead up to him having his way with you and then suddenly off to the next one without paying you much mind.
we're all here for you, you are a very strong woman, which i can tell by the way you've written this all. best of luck to you <3
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11-12-2013, 08:39 PM
Thank you everyone for your kind words and helpful advice, How things are at the moment, they're fine. We just speak as friends and I have no intention of sleeping with him again. We havn't seen each other for a month, and havn't engaged in sexual activity for just over 2 months. I don't plan on being used again, I feel stronger and as such have made strong and epic moves in the right direction to get my life in hand. I only hope I can continue to be this strong :] Thanks again!
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11-13-2013, 01:17 AM
I would have to agree with everyone. Definitely stay strong and stay away from him. I went through something similar to this, actually. I mean, there was this guy that over time, I had fallen head over heels for in high school. I mean he was everything I thought I knew and wanted. Like, we were a perfect pair, in my mind. We were incredibly similar and got long perfectly. I was so blind in the end though. I had a boyfriend when I met him and he got himself a girlfriend. We casually flirted, nothing serious. Like nothing that would be considered cheating or even close. We were best friends. But one day we ended up both being single. We got together, but guess what? He decided I wasn't enough after we had already went too far and he couldn't get over his ex-girlfriend (who hated me with a passion). Then next thing I knew, he was tired of her again and wanted me. And the thing is, I was so attached to him that I was too blind to see what was really happening. He seemed so sincere about everything. I had an unhealthy desire to be with him. It clouded my vision to what was really going on. It happened a lot like what you experienced. We talked a whole lot and then we had a night of "passion" and he slowly talked to me less and less. Then he talked to me again and repeat. I always thought it was simply because of what he said. His current (ex)girlfriend had her hooks in him too deep and he was so confused. But, I saw him for what he really was. Finally. After years. We stopped talking for a few years. We graduated and went on with our life. Then after I ended a bad relationship I was in and moved back home, I got a random message from him. We started talking a lot again. He was single (so he said) and so was I. We had a pretty long past together and began talking regularly through texts and finally he was home from college for a while and thought we could hang out. So...we did. And we also had another night together. Next thing I know after weeks of talking again, he decided that we shouldn't talk anymore and suddenly had another girl. I was heart broken and frustrated. He took advantage of me. I never turned him down and he knew that. After a while I finally figured it out and understood. I was his back up whenever he was tired of his current girl. And then he would get tired of me and move on. This sounds like it was happening to you. This guy wanted you, got tired of you, moved on, came back. Repeat. Guys like that are nothing but trouble. At first you really don't realize it. They are smooth talking and seem so sincere and amazing at first. And they keep you blind for as long as possible.
Stay strong. When he realizes that he can't have you like that anymore, he will miss your company and possibly try harder. Just be careful, some people will not change no matter what they say.
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12-04-2013, 11:02 AM
Re: the inital "night of passion" and following days: I'm not going to add anything helpful, as the others have done a smashing job. I'm just confused why he thinks this is a friends with benefits thing? Because that implies an ongoing relationship involving sex, with the relationship being a "friends" one. Instead he just slept with you once had then did the slow fade? For your sake, I'd like to think he's just an idiot, and wasn't deliberately lying to get you in bed. Though either would suggest you shouldn't be mixing sexually/romantically/platonically with this guy. Wait, did I end up being helpful anyway?
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