
10-16-2013, 05:18 AM
Hello! I was gonna talk about Warcraft a bit... Or alot i suppose i dont know. I am kinda over it since i have played since like day two of vanilla. My sister got me hooked after i had played D2 for 8 years and needed a change. I loved the 3d the layout the adventure.. but now.. its monotonous. I have actually played that game longer than i have had 3 of my 4 kids... Sad right?
I think so i have missed such big important things in their development because of it too. My husband and i would play for literally days on end almost without a break. (the only break would be of course to feed,bathe, the kids or to clean the house or go shop) but literally ALL night would be dedicated to that stupid game! It was my WHOLE LIFE for almost 9 years? I have 6-90's at this point and i am so board out of my mind. I spent nearly a decade of my life and all i have to show for it is nearly every pet in the game... some cool rare mounts, some titles... and 12k in Wow gold. Why do i bother? And look at the most important things i have missed!? I am so saddened by it, i really feel like such a failure as a parent. Srsly.
My kids all think i am a great mom and my husband says "its not like that" and that i am the best mom they have ever seen. My whole family thinks that i am. I mean i go out of my way for every holiday and birthday and we take weekend trips to the park. I DO things with them But i am always feeling like i dont. So i suppose this is more about my inadequacy as a mother too. But its all based around games... I never had video games growing up, hell we had ONE phone it was a Spin dial wall phone! And i am totally serious! We didnt ever have a computer or anything. (i am 32)
I am not trying to make excuses i suppose because i did make the choice to play "just a little longer" or not to go to the store because that gallon will last a few more days... :( Makes me sick and sad. Wow took nearly 10 years of my life. A DECADE! And for what? Some pixel trash... thats not even real. Pathetic.. and empty. We really do need a WA (NA/AA) for this video game addiction. Its crippling and divides families. Almost like those idiot mothers on FB games all day who dont take care of their kids! (i am not even close to that) but its what i FELT LIKE. i find fault in everything i have done since i was 15 though... if you knew my history then you could understand why i am so hard on myself. But i think this is criticism well deserved and well called out if it helps others know they are not alone?
On a side note i play this forum game at night only after my kids are in bed. I homeschool my oldest son :D and i am constantly on the go. I have a heart condition (and other conditions, thyroid cancer issues, ect) but i have learned to value those around me a lot more because of the years i wasted. I guess i typed this out to make other see what they could be throwing away too? Maybe someone else has an addiction thats controlling their life and needs to see what its done to me years later. I still have my accounts i wont lie. I still pay $$ for them ( i have 2) (over $4,000 spent in 9 years. Mounts, accounts, pet purchases, Expansions ect) But i go on them like 3 times a month? for a few mins or so. Never really more than an hour unless a friend needs me. I am thinking i will just stop... Stop all payments, delete the accounts. Just.. Stop.
Have you been addicted to this game? (aka beast!) How did you stop? Are you addicted now? Will you stop? What do you think about this game in general that "took the gaming world by storm" ??
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