I think I'm going to head off to bed, as I can't seem to make myself find anything right - I'll see y'all around!

~crys~ I was gonna eats dys pie and now its all splatted t.t

i can buy you one, gizzie. i usually charge 2.5k for family and friends <3

Originally Posted by Xogizmoox

Grr I was gonna use my prepaid card and get menies to buy the moustashe bro thingy and my freakn card only has $1 on it omg this work work :/ I freakn forgot I blew all the $$$$ on that card buying stuff online the other day soo now I gotta WALK back to the store tommorrow and add more cash ~,~

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Edit that ~ wont work I mean

Sudden rumbly noise.
Think it's thunder and panic.

Originally Posted by marnie

aw you never have to apologize, Livi. i am happy you got a massage and feel a bit better. i hope you have a restful sleep tonight, sweetie *hugs*

Yeah, that did help, but now I have to deal with the memories that are just flooding back. It makes my days hard to get through at times. *hugs* I'm not a fan of March much, I used to love my Birthday month, but now it just makes me realize that I'm another year older and he's not here. I'm thinking of possibly heading off to bed, and attempting to sleep.

sweet dreams, Livi

Originally Posted by LiviInLove

I think I'm going to head off to bed, as I can't seem to make myself find anything right - I'll see y'all around!

Originally Posted by marnie

sweet dreams, Livi

Thanks. Lately they've not been all that great, but one can hope.

Originally Posted by Xogizmoox

Grr I was gonna use my prepaid card and get menies to buy the moustashe bro thingy and my freakn card only has $1 on it omg this work work :/ I freakn forgot I blew all the $$$$ on that card buying stuff online the other day soo now I gotta WALK back to the store tommorrow and add more cash ~,~

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Edit that ~ wont work I mean

I saw this and I all I could see and think was, "WALK. WALK. WALK."
/Welcome to Night Vale reference

Originally Posted by Broccoli Mallet

The fact no one could read my post correctly made me feel better XD

You're welcome.

try to think of your daughter and your sweet pea and good thoughts tonight. i know march is a tough month for you, but sweet pea needs you to be strong for her. take care Livi and i'm always a PM away if you need someone to talk with

Originally Posted by LiviInLove

Yeah, that did help, but now I have to deal with the memories that are just flooding back. It makes my days hard to get through at times. *hugs* I'm not a fan of March much, I used to love my Birthday month, but now it just makes me realize that I'm another year older and he's not here. I'm thinking of possibly heading off to bed, and attempting to sleep.

The closest store to me is like a freakn 10 mile walk and I got a bad foot omg this just super stinkx ;( I need a car

Ooh yes, My plans are all coming together perfectly.

Aww, man! The plans aren't speaking to you?

*yawns* i am so sleepie

*gives Marnie a pillow and blanket*

Originally Posted by marnie

try to think of your daughter and your sweet pea and good thoughts tonight. i know march is a tough month for you, but sweet pea needs you to be strong for her. take care Livi and i'm always a PM away if you need someone to talk with

I'm trying to be as strong as I can for them all, I had my mum take Becca today, because I don't like crying in front of her. When mom left, I sort of broke down today.
Thankfully mum was free last minute. *hugs* It means a lot.
I just don't feel as strong as everyone thinks I am, right now. It's a daily struggle lately. But I just have to make it past the 23rd. I can do this, even it is just one hour at a time. I'm sort of still here, I'm not feeling like getting up. I may just disappear randomly. We'll see how this all goes.

Of course they don't speak to me, They're plans.

o.o my plans speak too me though o.o

Sorry. I was making a joke about my misread earlier.

That chocolate coin fits with that gold pile very well.

it's okay if you poof, Livi, we all do it. i know you're trying your best for everyone. and he will keep a close eye on you two and help you through this month. you know he would feel awful seeing you so sad and upset. i'm happy your mom took Becca for you today. i hope it helps crying without hiding it and it makes you feel a little better. i wish you didn't have to handle this and i know time helps but this is something that will be with you always. i know losing my friend around Easter makes it hard for me to not think of him during this time of year *ash Wed. and Lent* so i can imagine how hard it is for you. he was just a friend and all this time later he's the first thing i think of. how about this? each day post a lovely, happy or funny memory from y'alls lives together? do you think that would help a bit?

Originally Posted by LiviInLove

I'm trying to be as strong as I can for them all, I had my mum take Becca today, because I don't like crying in front of her. When mom left, I sort of broke down today.
Thankfully mum was free last minute. *hugs* It means a lot.
I just don't feel as strong as everyone thinks I am, right now. It's a daily struggle lately. But I just have to make it past the 23rd. I can do this, even it is just one hour at a time. I'm sort of still here, I'm not feeling like getting up. I may just disappear randomly. We'll see how this all goes.

Thankyou I was looking at avi and was hmm what can I add to that hand I had the gold coffee cup there n it looked kinda funny n I found coin way in back of closet , :)

I haven't kept a food avvie in a while. Hmm.

Originally Posted by marnie

it's okay if you poof, Livi, we all do it. i know you're trying your best for everyone. and he will keep a close eye on you two and help you through this month. you know he would feel awful seeing you so sad and upset. i'm happy your mom took Becca for you today. i hope it helps crying without hiding it and it makes you feel a little better. i wish you didn't have to handle this and i know time helps but this is something that will be with you always. i know losing my friend around Easter makes it hard for me to not think of him during this time of year *ash Wed. and Lent* so i can imagine how hard it is for you. he was just a friend and all this time later he's the first thing i think of. how about this? each day post a lovely, happy or funny memory from y'alls lives together? do you think that would help a bit?

He is, I know it. He would hate that I am sad, he would head smack me. But life without him is just not right, and this is being said seven years later. I do have my husband and daughters, but it's just not complete without Carlie in it. Part of me is missing, and I can't do anything to get it back. :(
Mum was a lifesaver today, it did help, but at the same time - I'm just so exhausted, mentally and physically, and the nightmares don't help either. It's my life and I've learned to live with it - even though it's not something i'd wish upon anyone, ever. It really is just hard. Harder than words can express really.
*hugs* Sorry to hear about your friend. :( It is hard losing someone close to us, it really is.

It may help? I don't really know. I've never really tried.

One for today that Jon, his boyfriend at the time when Carlie passed, reminded me of at his son's birthday party, was the time when Carlie managed to flip over the couch, like tripped and did a roll - somersault (kinda) - and landed on the floor on the other side, sitting down. And neither of us can remember what was going on to cause that all to happen. Just that we were all kinda like "omg, did that just happen?" and then all three of us busted up laughing.

Originally Posted by Sleepy Anarchy

Of course they don't speak to me, They're plans.

what plans?

Hey Anarchy- I'll probably be sending your stuff back soonish. I have more avvies to make.

You don't understand. Every time I see Marnie's name on the forum page, I say, "Marnie!" and drag out the end. Yes. Out loud.