Hummy has taken a few leaves of absence recently, but she always returns.
I'm sure we will be seeing her again real soon.

That is what I figured. Hummy and Ava have been here as long as I can remember, and like us all, take leaves of absence at times. But we always return.

Hummy's been ill alot recently.

HIM's like mould...Hard to get rid of.

Well I hope hummy feels better soon. Being ill is never fun. I went through like a month long bout last summer, we think it was Mono but the doctors out here in podunk are pretty crappy, especially the ones you can see with no insurance. They just threw some antibiotics at me, that DIDN'T EVEN HELP, and sent me on my way.

Yeah HIM you have been here as long as I can remember too.

That's why we're having trouble with antibioic resistant strains. If it's viral it'll do nothing.

HIM just hopes HIM doesn't get anything until it's time for the flu shot again.

I haven't been very active, here, lately...
I have been horribly depressed because we haven't been able to find a place of our own.
We thought we had a place to rent, but our application was denied because we don't make 3 times the rent.
Now, Hope and her parents are leaving for Hawaii on Wednesday and will be gone for 10 days for her other grandma's birthday...so I have been waking with such bad anxiety that lasts all day and I am constantly feeling like I want to cry all the time.
Sarah caught a cold and it has been even harder to get her to eat...and now she acts like her back hurts her...I'm starting to worry a little.
I wish I could just dismiss the separation anxiety I am having about Hope going to be away for so long, but I just can't shake it!
Hope is affected also...she doesn't want to talk about the upcoming trip because she says it makes her sad to know that she will miss me so much.
I just feel awful all the time...but I try to keep a smile plastered on my face as much as I can.
I want Hope to have a fun time while she is away.
I just wish she wasn't going so far for so long.
Sorry I'm such a downer...I just don't have anybody to talk to about how I feel without feeling like I'll just be told to "get over it all."

You can talk to us about it. It's not easy when everything seems to be going wrong.

Some vapour rub might help Sarah if she's got a blocked nose and has been coughing as it tends to clear your nose, so you've not got that constant run down the back of your throat which makes you cough.

HIM did see that there's a wheelchair friendly waterpark and that made HIM think of Inzane, but it's in San Antonio.

Oh Inzane I am so sorry sweetie. That is tough and in times like that, each new trial seems ten times worse. I don't know exactly what you are feeling but I know what it is like to feel like your world is falling apart and every time you try to start piecing it back together, it just comes tumbling back down on your head.

Thanks, guys.
I've been in various degrees of anxiety and depression for about 2 years now...endured a heart attack and triple bypass surgery...I really need something good to happen.
Finding a place to live so I can see all my stuff again would really help a lot!

No doubt it would....

*sends Inzane all the hugs*

I will be sending prayers and good vibes. I wish I could do more.

Originally Posted by Inzanebraned

So, Ava...are you taking a different medication now. ..and if so, is it working for you?
Has this experience helped you to get a psychiatrist and/or a councilor?
Hopefully things will be better for you, now...and there will not be any more extended hiatuses from Mene!
The place just isn't the same without you around!

I'm on a really strong medication now called, "Clozaril". It's for treatment resistant schizophrenia and unfortunately, it's been the cause of a lot of side effects for me, like drooling and blurry vision, even with my contacts and glasses.

It works to keep the voices a little quieter. I have to get my blood drawn once a week, though and I can't get my next week's dose without showing the pharmacy my blood results. It sucks, but I guess it's the price I have to pay to stay sane. :/

I'm sorry to hear that you've been depressed, Inzane! :( I wish there was something I could do to help! But all I can do ids give virtual hugs.

Thanks, Ava...
Just being able to talk to people who actually seem to care helps some.
Tonite is a tough night for me because Hope and family are leaving for Hawaii in the morning. I am going to miss Hope so much! ...and since we will be staying at their house while they are away, I will be faced with all Hope's toys and stuff...and she won't be playing with it all. I know it sounds a little obsessive, but that kid and I have a bond that just won't quit! ...and it hurts my heart to know that she will miss me just as much as I will miss her.

So, Ava...will the side affects of the medication eventually subside?
I imagine that it's nice to have the voices be quiet though, yes?

Staying sane is a very good thing indeed.

Well...Hope and family just left for the airport. They won't get to their destination until midnight our time. It is 4 hours earlier in Hawaii than it is in Denver. I'm sure that Hope willnap on the plane. She woke up at 1am, last night, and didn't go back to sleep until 3:30am...we had a short cry together.
I got her up and helped her get dressed because she wanted to surprise her mom and dad and be dressed...then I fixed her hair for the trip.
The house is already unbearably quiet!
I will get texts and pictures and video of the whole adventure.
This is going to be a long 10 to 11 days!
I hope Hope has too much fun to be sad and missing me.

I hope everybody is having a good Humpday!

God this stuff stiiiiings DX

She'll be back before you know it Inzane.

I hope she does too Inzane and that the days fly by for both of you.

Hope and family have landed and are travelling 30 minutes to her other grandma's house.
Hope only napped a little on the short flight to San Francisco but didn't nap on the long flight to Hawaii.She colored a lot and watched videos. Now she says she is too excited to she her other grandma to sleep yet.
Boy...when she goes to sleep she is going to really sleep!
I'm happy that she is excited and it sounds like she is having fun.

HIM has the ick DX

I'm sorry Him is icky! I hope you feel better real soon.
I woke up to a much too quiet house.
I guess I feel kinda icky, too...just probably not the same kind.
I just want to lay around and play puzzle games to keep my mind busy so I won't focus on feeling sad.

re: Hummy
from what i understand she also uses a phone to access mene and from my experience mene is not very phone friendly, especially if you need to copy/paste ANYTHING and she uses a format for her posts which I assume she must also copy paste + anything else she might need to add in + the difficulties of typing on a phone be it with auto-correct or dictation. :(

so i totally understand why she doesn't always have the patience or time for it, especially cos she's probably got stuff IRL to deal with as well

Hummy was also using a Mac laptop that was giving her fits.
I think she is also involved with a new site and may be busy doing stuff there.
Hummy loves Mene...I'm sure she will return.

Boy, Mene is so dead I'm starting to hear crickets!

Originally Posted by Inzanebraned

I'm sorry Him is icky! I hope you feel better real soon.
I woke up to a much too quiet house.
I guess I feel kinda icky, too...just probably not the same kind.
I just want to lay around and play puzzle games to keep my mind busy so I won't focus on feeling sad.

HIM would come round and cause havoc but it's a bit of a long way from the UK.

I could use some good havoc! Lol!
I wish I could get over this sad feeling...But with the house quiet without Hope and having little else to do but search the web for rentals...rentals that either don't meet our needs because they have stairs or ones we can't afford or qualify for.
I so wish we had a place of our own and were planning a weekend camping trip or something!
It is on the verge of being too warm here! Ugh!

*grins like a maniac while holding a glitter cannon* Did someone say "havoc"?