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Originally Posted by ladydiana
What's the name of the shipping mall in Colorado that shut down several years ago.I know Indian springs mall in Kansas city Kansas shut down along time ago and Bannister Road mall in Kansas city Missouri shut down.
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See the new Kfc ads with the fake Colonel Sanders promoting Nash chicken which is spicy .
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When your in Missouri eat a good tenderloin sandwich .
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There was a huge shopping mall called Cinerella City, in Englewood, that closed several years ago...
Then Villa Italia, in Lakewood, closed a few years later.
These were favorite destinations, for me, to just walk around and watch people.
There are a few malls left near Denver...
There is the Flatirons Mall, the Southwest Plaza, and Colorado Mills malls come easiest to my failing memory.
I haven't stepped foot into a mall in over 5 years...lack of cash and a waning desire to walk among the masses has kept me away! Lol!
Well, we got our snow!
It took it's dear, sweet time getting here...but it finally came!
I don't know how many inches we got....but I'll attempt to add a couple photos before I leave.
We saw mostly cloudy skies, today, but the sun did attempt, unseccessfully, to burn a hole through the clouds for a few minutes.
It finally stopped flurrying just before the sun set.
The house has been abnormally quiet with Hope away...
Sarah, having had a seizure on Saturday, still seems a bit "out of it" and extra sleepy...refusing to swallow food in her mouth at meals and not drinking much.
Her appetite has diminished to little more than a bird eats...partly because her teeth are so bad, but partly because of something we haven't identified yet...
Yes, her teeth are bad, but she will still eat potato chips and dry cereal...but if I give her some nice, soft food....say, noodles in sauce...she will hold the bite in her mouth until I use her spoon to push the food far back in her mouth....juuust before the gag reflex...and then, usually, she will swallow the food.
I had to do that for every bite of macaroni and cheese she ate ate dinner time!
The Indian posed a query...asking if she might be tested for a hiatal hernia...a hernia at the end of the swallowing tube...making swallowing painful.
She has NOT been tested for such...but it will be on the top of my list of things to discuss with her doctor!
I need the doctor to provide us with a prescription for a food supplement, such as Ensure, to boost Sarah's calorie intake...for she is rapidly losing weight and her activity level is nearly down to nil.
I'm kinda worried about her..
I think she is giving up her will to continue on...and I fear I will go to wake her for her pills one day and she will have slipped away.
No mother wants to think that of her child...but, in so many ways, it would be a blessing....mostly for her, but, also for me....cuz I am helplessly watching her regress and deteriorate before my eyes.
I consider placing Sarah in a nursing home every so often...feeling like I am failing her and that she might get more proper dental care...but I (and Sarah's sister) think that Sarah wouldn't last long after leaving home...where we know what her sounds mean and know what she expects (most of the time).
Being cooped up, together, during the cold winter, makes for difficult times for me...and with Hope being away, I have little distraction from Sarah...and things start weighing heavy on my mind.
Lately, I have been thinking about how I didn't want to have a baby when I got pregnant with Sarah...
...how Sarah's father had taken advantage of me while I was exhaustedly sleeping after having worked a double shift as a waitress...
...how I had planned to terminate the pregnancy, but her father threatened to kill me if I "killed his baby!"
...how, for 33 years, I have been Sarah's (nearly) sole caregiver...her father has only seen her once in the past 5 years...and extended family has forgotten we exist!
Yet, I try, every day, to do the best I can, to do what's right for Sarah.
I must admit that it isn't very rewarding...knowing that Sarah's condition will never improve...knowing that she is forever trapped in a failing body with a broken brain...that all I can do is try to keep her fed and clean, and try to present her with SOME kind of quality of life...
And to love her.
Some days it just doesn't feel like I can do enough for her...and I feel like a failure.
That's why wintertime is tough on me...I can't just go outside and not look at, or not hear her for a while!
I'm stuck inside this tiny house...constantly reminded of what I will never be able to do...
Make Sarah better!
....Oh well....at least I got you folk to vent to and cry on your virtual shoulder once in a while!
It helps, sometimes, just to write the words down...' feels like I get it out of my system for a minute!
Thanks for "listening!"

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Hope may be back tomorrow...today...(Wednesday)...
I'm pretty sure that the roads will be clear enough for her mom to drive on...
We are expecting another chance for snow on Thursday, so, if she doesn't come home later today, I may not see her till the weekend!
I really miss Hope when she is gone!
And I think she misses me, too...cuz her mom tells me that Hope worries about me, saying that "Gramma be sad when I'm not there...but she will be okay!"
I tell her, repeatedly, that I miss her when she is gone, but that I am happiest when she is happy and having fun, so she should have as much fun as she can, so I won't be sad....she says "Okay!"
Hope has begun the "Why?" phase of her life...
Hope: "What are you doing?"
Me: Washing dishes."
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "So the dishes won't be dirty."
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "So we can eat off clean dishes."
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "Because we could get sick if we ate off dirty dishes."
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "Because dirty dishes have germs on them."
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "Because, when some food is left on the plate, it spoils and grows germs."
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "Because that's what happens when food is not eaten and kept in the fridge."
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "Ya know, Hope...I'm not really sure...It's just the way thing work! I don't really know why!"
Hope: "Why?"
Me: "Because Gramma isn't always smart!"
Hope: "You are smart, Gramma!"
Me: "Oh, thank you, Hope, for thinking I'm smart!...now, can we play a different game?"
Hope: "Okay! You wanna make me a monkey out of playdoh! (Said as a statement, not a request)"
Me: "But, I am washing dishes right now! My hands are wet!"
Hope: "PLEEAASE?"
Me: "Oh...alright...one monkey!"
...at which time I will dry my hands and proceed to make a monkey...and a bed...and a table...and a chair...and a plate and a fork and some fruit and an egg...
And the dishwater is always cold by the time I get back to it! Lol!
Well, folks!
I think I should be asleep about now!
I have some housework that still hasn't gotten done, that I want to get done before Hope returns...and, unless I stay up all night and keep the BF awake with my cleaning noises, I need to get up early and clean the bathroom, vacuum Sarah's and Hope's floors and hand-wash a load of laundry.
I will do all but the vacuuming before Sarah wakes up...usually around noon...
So...I had better get myself to bed, now!
I hope everybody is doing well and having a good week!
I'll be talking to ya, again, when I can!


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