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05-27-2016, 03:26 PM
Hi Izzy! Good to hear from you! I'm glad the lotion was good. It's nice that something that is OTC works so well. A 2" chipmunk? Now that is cute! I had heard some of those sad stories too. I don't think they should've jailed that first mom.
It's a sunny day in the burbs. Lining up to be a long weekend. I'm taking gf to a birthday lunch tomorrow. Hopefully this Italian joint. Member that one, Mr. w? I haven't been back since then. I hanker for that lavender creme brulee.
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05-27-2016, 07:56 PM
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In Denver, the police recently tested software that can pinpoint where a gun was fired.
There are sensors placed in selected, but not disclosed, areas.
My grandfather always took the end off the stock of his rifles and put a piece of tape with his social security number on it in there, then put the piece back on...assuming any thieves wouldn't think to break the guns down.
He had his hunting rifles stolen from out of the cab of his International pickup truck, parked right outside his bedroom window.
He had just returned from a hunting trip, eshausted, and had gone straight to bed...neglecting to remove the rifles in the gunrack....Gone when he woke!
I dont remember if he ever recovered those guns....living in a town of 800 people, I imagine the thief took them far away to sell them.
So...How is everybody?
I have been a bit of an emotional mess...
Hope has been away since Saturday...
I was supposed to get Sarah back into town for a blood test...but Hope made me promise that she could come, too...
Hope's mom agreed to meet us at the lab if we got Sarah down the mountain before they bring Hope back...but the BF has been missing some paid hours at the tire shop, applying for better paying jobs, and one guy already quit, and somebody is taking tomorrow off...and Fridays are their busiest days...so I'm going to call Sarah's neurologist tomorrow and let her know that we will take care of that blood test early next week...
By then, hopefully, the BF will have fixed the car AGAIN, and we can just run into town and get it done and he can go to work afterward...and Hope should be back by then...I think.
The BF and I got into a heated discussion, leaving me feeling....even misunderstood and neglected...
I seriously went to sleep wishing I wouldn't wake...not just because of our argument...THAT just gave me less reason to not think things I'm pretty good at not thinging about these days....
I endure a lot of..."personal" pain...that the doctors haven't found a cause of, yet....
I KNOW it is not "just in my head," because I would rather die than to experience the discomfort I experience...for, apparently, no reason!
But...I'm not so sure the BF doesn't think its all in my head...and he often expresses his opinion that he thinks he has had some influence on my lack of desire to be intimate anymore...saying things like "I think you are allergic to me," or "Maybe you'd feel better if I cut my member off, cuz I wish I didn't have mine!"
I have to make mtself believe that he doesn't realize how hurtful those words are!
But...I lost my temper and yelled how jealous I was that he HAS something to cut OFF, and that if I had "something" TO cut off, to relieve my discomfort, I would have already DONE it....then I stomped around the house and put Sarah to bed and stayed awake until sunrise,....wishing I would fall into that eternal sleep...
When I woke,...it was late!...so, I was instantly hit with a guilt trip for not having given Sarah her pills on time and I hadn't got her up...
BF was gone at work...
He texted me when he got off work, asking if I needed stuff from the store.
I texted him a list...and prepared myself for being in his presence....a little anxiety set in...
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When he got home with groceries, there was a tube of some sort of....lotion?
He explained that it was the handcream I had requested he look for for my horribly dry and cracked hands...about a year prior!!
*apology points*
Bitter and skeptical me, I grunted some thanks and tried some of this O'Keefe's Working Hands....thinking it probably wouldn't work aby better than any other product I've tried...
Well,...I'll tell you WHAT! That stuff REALLY WORKS!!
My hands had been so rough that they would stick to Sarah's diapers like velcro...and that was painful!....and I had resolved to avoiding touching Hope's face because the skin on my hands would scratch her delicate skin....
After 1 application, I noticed a HUGE improvement!....Sarah's diaper didn't stick to my hands, even hours after application!
I applied more before going to bed....and, already, today, my hands feel soft and supple...not like sandpaper stretched too tight over the bones!!
It's almost like a miracle to me!....I had figured I was going to be cursed with rough hands for the rest of my days...since wearing gloves to do the laundry hasn't helped any...
But, I feel like a new woman!!....my HANDS are SOFT...and they don't HURT!....and I'm not afraid to touch someone else's...um..."sensitive skin" so to speak! ...allowing me to provide some intimate pleasure for BF that won't antagonize my own condition, and won't strip him of some very sensitive skin! Lol!
So...please forgive me for candidly expressing myself, here...but, again, I have no real friends to talk to about this...
Mainly, my point is...I find it amazing how a little tube of lotion has brightened my world so much!
Not only do my hands feel better...and the BF feels better...but I was truly touched that he remembered the lotion I wanted and finally bought it for me!
His money didn't go to tools and poker....he actually bought me something that I had actually forgotten that I had asked him to look for!
....It was kinda like the proverbial "flowers" given after an arguement, to silently say "I'm sorry!"
Oh...the SMALL things that wind up meaning SO much! Lol!
So....I'm no longer wishing to not wake up....at least for now!
I mean...I still have plenty of reasons to wish that....but as I said earlier, I'm usually pretty good at not letting myself think those thoughts....so, I'm back "on track!" Lol!
The news I have been reading has been terribly depressing!
The one lady who was the mother of a severely disabled daughter who, thinking she herself has cancer and will die, killed her daughter and tried to commit suicide..."So her daughter could be with her in Heaven"... (I sooo empathize with this woman!...but doubt I could willingly take Sarah's life!)...then, the mother of a 2 year old boy who someone caught video of her SCREAMING at her child "FIND MY PHONE CHARGER OR I'M GONNA KILL YOU," and getting to see and hear the FEAR she inflicts upon this toddker! ... (she's in jail, now...and the kid is in protective custody)....then, some 18 year old punk shot his 3 year old step-son in the head for jumping on his BED!
These stories make me want to cry and they make me have this large lump in my throat...and these were just 3 of the many that I have read recently!
It is sad, sad, sad!
On a completely DIFFERENT note...I had the cutest, tiniest chipmunk on my porch rail today!!...stealing seeds meant for the birds.
His body couldn't have been over 2 inches long...and his curious little face had the most intense markings!
(I know I'm gonna hate the little bugger when he's bigger and trying to find ways into my house...but he SHORE WUZ A CUTEY!)
I have burds living inside an accsess panel on the outside of the house...they have nested there the previous 2 years...What's another year? Lol!
(This IS only a RENTAL house, afterall! Lol!)
Well....Thanks, folks, for letting me vent a little frustration and for coming along for the "ride!"
I hope you-guys' lives are more pleasant than the one I choose to live!
Anybody have any plans for the upcoming holiday?
Right now, I have to wake the BF to take me to the store for items for dinner...
I refuse to drive the car...for it does not like me and I fear it will leave me stranded!
....it LIKES the BF!! Lol!
Maybe I'll be back later...maybe later than later, I wont know until it happens! Lol!
Here's hoping all are well and life is treating ya right!  !
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A) In the bad neighborhoods.
B) In the bad neighborhoods.
C) In the bad neighborhoods.
D) All of the above.
Did you guess A, B, C, or D?
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05-27-2016, 09:32 PM
Alrightee then. We got electricity in the Pisces palace.
Thankfully everything except the dishwasher works.
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05-28-2016, 12:49 AM
Actually, Mr. Wrong, not all the areas tested were "bad" neighborhoods, per say....but most "nicer" neighborhoods don't have such urgent or frequent need for such technology...a lot less gunfire in the better communities.
I do know that Hope's parents are currently living in a community that was tested by randomly firing weapons in undisclosed locations and letting the new technology pinpoint where the gunfire took place.
I only read some of the news story about this...not being a fan of technology knowing everybody's every move...*is not a fan of Big Brother*
Capt, I am so happy for you and Boo!...and, don't you have a local grandchild that could apply for the job of Dishwasher till you have the opportunity to go "automated?"
Hope is chomping at the bit to get the chance to be my Dishwasher...the kid has a real fetish for water! ...and for being helpful!
I allow her to wash a few plastic items on occasion...but I don't want the dish detergent to dry her sensitive skin...and her hands are just a tad small to find rubber gloves for. Lol!
Well...the "Weekend RV & Boat Show" (the unofficial name that the locals refer to the phenomenon that occurs on highway 285 on most weekends, but is especially expected on holiday weekends, where traffic is slowed to a snail's pace, due, in part, from inexperienced and impatient drivers of large RVs or pickup trucks pulling huge campers and boats) got kicked off, coincidentally, at 4:20pm today...though the weather is doing it's best to put a damper on the enthusiasm of the camping/hiking/fishing/outdoors enthusiasts by throwing hail and rain at the ones brave (or naive) enough to continue driving into the precipitating clouds...the ones that are hoping and praying that their destination location will be miraculously dry and warm...
(There was a Winter Storm Warning for El Paso County until noon, today...which isn't far from where I live.)
Though the traffic was backed up, I was surprised at the lack of RVs and towed recreational vehicles...leading me to believe that the folks that overloaded the highway today was the "wave" of folks with accomidations...motels, bed and breakfasts, friends and relatives...adding to the volume of cars that are the regular, everyday commuters..and that tomorrow, promising to be slightly drier, may entice the campers and RVs and boats...clogging the highway in front of my house.
Every year I kick myself in the butt for not attempting to rent a portapotty to place near the highway...and a few cases of chips, candy, pop and bottled water...for I live on property that is zoned "Commercial" and could make a near-fortune every weekend, supplying folks with a place to potty and grab a snack before they return to the slow crawl toward Bailey/Fairplay/South Park and areas between and beyond...Maybe next year...
I have found something new to peak my interest, lately...
A poster on Pinecam.com recently brought to readers' attention that we live in an area that the Ute Indians used...and that they left behind these fantastic Culturally Modified Trees, or CMTs...trees that could be up to 800 years old, that have been bent or fused together to mean different things... There are Burial Trees and Marker Trees and Prayer Trees...
After doing some research, I found that someone is presenting a workshop on this very subject next month...and that I think that one of these trees is just out back of my house!
I highly suggest that you ask YouTube to show you some videos about the Utes in Colorado and the Ute Prophecy Trees...
I haven't found myself so interested in something, like this, in...YEARS!
I am slightly obsessed about this subject, actually!
...another interesting video I watched was a guided tour of Chimney Rock...how the moon played a huge part in where the ruins are located.
(I have taken full advantage of Hope not being here to hog the IPad...watching some stuff that only seems to interest me...as the BF fell asleep on the same program TWICE,...both times I tried to share...
I guess I'll just fall asleep the next time he starts sharing his videos about the "New World Order" and the coming of Nuburu...
So,...Dazzy! How was the Italian lunch?
BF brought home some bbq from one of the better local bbq joints...and I was surprised to find that it was very good!
I am a picky eater...not liking bbq sauce, not big on Italian cuisine...and lately NOTHING tastes right, or GOOD anymore...so I was doubly pleased!...not only was the BF being thoughtful and brought home food to share...but the food was actually very tasty!
*BF making cuddle points...at least it's an effort, right?!?*
Well...Hope will be home on Sunday...
I have more video viewing on my wish list before she returns to take custody of the iPad...so, I think I'll head on over to YouTube for a bit...
I hope everybody has a great weekend! ...somebody eat some tasty food for me, cuz I doubt we will be going anywhere and our budget only allows for mediocre tasting food...y'know? Lol!
Happy and Safe Holiday, All!!   &  !
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05-30-2016, 05:05 AM
Happy Memorial day .Have fun and relax .Enjoy your barbeque.
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05-30-2016, 03:24 PM
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Happy Memorial day .Have fun and relax .Enjoy your barbeque.
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I miss my bbq pork chops.
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05-30-2016, 04:39 PM
I am eating grilled salmon later
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Lee's summit and Blue springs Missouri are great suburbs .There are community lakes to .
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05-31-2016, 02:50 PM
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I am eating grilled salmon later
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Lee's summit and Blue springs Missouri are great suburbs .There are community lakes to .
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I had some barramundi fish at Sizzler with my grandfather last week. Although the fish tasted good it was oversalted and I don't believe this fish was handled within food safety parameters.
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06-01-2016, 02:19 AM
Monday was kinda quiet and lazy...
Sarah had had a seizure on Saturday, just before Hope arrived home from an 8 day stay with her parents and was still a bit "out of it," still...so she stay in her room most of the day...watching movies.
It was nice out, but the chill in the breeze reminded one that there is still snow sitting on the ground somewhere not far away...
Hope so loves to be outside..."THIS girl LOVES to be cold and be outside on the porch!"
She finally got the BF to grill her a hotdog for lunch...
While I was offering Sarah some hotdog, Hope had gone off to play...leaving her plate of food vulnerable to theft-by-chipmunk...
I was a little irked that the BF couldn't sit outside with Hope to see that she ate the food he had (somewhat reluctantly) made for her...but he said it was too cold out and he was a bit preoccupied with obsessively watching Eric the Car Guy and The Humble Mechanic videos on his phone...so I stayed outside with Hope.
She didnt eat anymore from that plate, so I took it inside...then Hope wanted to visit the deer carcass we had discovered before she had gone to stay with her parents...
She guided me right to the spot!...but noticed that the backbone had been separated and moved away from the pelt...and that there was a shiny, bright red ladybug on the bone...
I explained that other bugs eat the bones, then ladybug eats some of those bugs,...then, maybe, a bird might eat the ladybug...and possibly a fox or mountain lion might eat the bird...and that, in nature, things that die usually feed a lot of animals and bugs and plants...
She still expresses,...out of the blue!...that she is sad that the deer died...but that other animals are happy because they got to eat!
....Yeah! ....she's 3 years old!
(Today, she made me go and look at the carcass again...and THIS time she noticed that the skull is now missing...and, though I have attempted to convince her that a coyote probably dragged it off, she is convinced that a bear took it. Maybe she's right! )
Later...nearing dinnertime, I resolved myself to the fact that the BF wasn't going to participate in grilling burgers...so, I set about preparing things I hadn't already prepared and made burgers shaped to fit hotdog buns...and I grilled them to perfection...in the DARK, no less!
I even ate a burger! And it tasted right delightful! (Normally, the taste of hamburger does not sit well with me...often causing gagging and sudden reduction of appetite for ANY food in general.)
Dinner went well...Sarah liked the potato salad...Hope did not.
Both seemed to enjoy their "burger-dogs."
BF eats whether it tastes good or not...and rarely comments before running off to bed...and last night was no different.
Sarah, having put food IN, had to let some OUT...but, not having any help, I brushed her teeth before laying her down to change her poop-pants...
THIS is when I discover that we needed more diaper wipes! ...I managed to get her clean with far fewer wipes than I would normally use...and hoped she wouldn't repeat this function until our store of wipes was restored.
Hope was busy watching videos on the ipad...when I was done getting Sarah tucked into bed, she was ready to brush her teeth and change her clothes...
I got Hope's needs met...and food put away and dishes done...then I collapsed into the recliner...and Hope brought the ipad to watch videos while sitting next to me...
My eyes must have closed for a few seconds and Hope noticed...so she said "It is bedtime!" and got up and "made" me go to bed! Lol!
All in all, I had a nice holiday day...
Hows about YOU guys?
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06-01-2016, 07:30 AM
The highlight of my day yesterday was dinner at the Golden Horse Chinese restaurant in Prosser, Washington.
I had beef chow mein and beef fried rice. The food and service were good. The fortune cookie fortune was completely forgettable.
Today consisted of loading and driving south as far as I could stand. Tomorrow, I shall arrive in Watsonville, California which is, in my opinion, a poopy little town. So many poopy little towns in California. It's like a hundred thousand people set out to turn nice places into poopy little towns. "Here's a nice little area, Jim. Let's make this place into a little poopy town, shall we?" And so they did.
Speaking of things poopy, Inzaned One, I have a poopy idea for you. Why not sit Sarah on a bedpan as she eats dinner? With a poop poop here and a poop poop there, we'll keep the poop poop from going everywhere.
I'm pooped. Time for bed.
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06-03-2016, 05:54 AM
Ack, so much poop. *holds nose and gags*
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06-03-2016, 01:12 PM
Makes ya wonder what happened to that forbidden fruit.
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06-03-2016, 05:00 PM
Hello all! So, you no doubt heard about the cop shooting and subsequent manhunt in Fremont ca? That's where I'm thinking of moving! To my bros big house. Now I have grave doubts. Mr. x works in next city and couldn't get home for an hour. Cops had barricaded streets. But in the end the dirty rat perished. Unfortunately a dog and house he commandeered burned to the ground. Fremont also has heat that's in 90s.
My head is fried. From the heat or diabetes. Tho I got my walk up to 2 miles yesterday. Exercise is mandatory med for diabetics.
It was nice seeing gf at the Italian lunch. They changed menu tho and the salmon offering was so small. There was more plate than food. I tried new dessert, napoleon. It was good. Basically restaurant was elegant and we had nice chat.
I went to a fro yo Shoppe with mr go. It was nice. Self serve. Boy they blast the music. For some reason the bathroom was exceedingly cold. It was wonderful! I'd like to bring an ice Joe and set up camp in there!
Had to bring out big fans at home. Lawns are all brown again.
Rc car and boat show! Funny Izzy! That's a good idea about the rest stop area at your place. Folks would love it! Go to warehouse store for bulk drinks and snacks. Folks could let pets stretch legs.
Met my pal, aka Neil diamond this week. Hit an Italian restaurant. Member the one Mr. W? Your gluten free choc cake was so dense?
Better send this first. Phone being willy wonky.
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I'm back. So my pal, aka Neil diamond. His fatal flaw is he's kind of clumsy. In the past, at this same restaurant, he walked too close behind me and gave my shoe a flat tire. This time, I went to give him a hug and he stepped on my foot! I was barefoot in sandals. He's starting to worry me. I may need to wear pink hard hat next time. He thinks moving to Fremont a bad idea. This was before shooting. He said I would regret decision till the day I die. He pointed out window and said why would you want to leave this place?
Hi lady di! Hi cap! Is your new trailer bigger than old one? Your old one looked plenty big.
Well snoopy is calling me back to the pink mines. Have a good one!
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P.s. Are you familiar with waze app? I'm just discovering it. It points out traffic delays and police presents.
Mr w, I looked up Watsonville. House prices were really good. Houses looked nice. Then looked up crime stats. Lots of gang activity. Rats. That'll make folks think twice before moving in.
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06-03-2016, 07:25 PM
Once up a time back in 2008, I needed a windshield replaced and so I did. I called. They came. They replaced.
End of story? Nooooooo. I should have used a phake phone number because I still receive sales calls to this day.
As a matter of fact, I just got off the phone with yet another in a long line of sales agents. Seeing as how I wasn't terribly busy so I got myself a quote. $198 for a new front windshield. The price includes installation and new molding. I told the sales guy that I sure hope the install guy doesn't just show up with the new windshield and then just leave you hanging. Let's see, I'll need some duct tape for sure.
Well, summer is here in full force. The flies are out. A/C is on all hours now. And my bald head fries every time I am outdoors. Gotta find my sun hat. Yep. Summer is here. Except where the Inzaned One lives. It's only summer there for 36 hours per year. Bet there are no flies to bug ya, though.
Dazz, it seems you were a victim of portion control pertaining to that sliver of a salmon sample. Such a change in menu items is probably an indication that this restaurant is struggling financially and may have to close their not-so pink doors in the near future. As for my dessert, I was dense. Yes, 'twas thick, rich, and had a hint of a bitter taste to it because it was one of those oh so sophisticated European chocolate mousses. Is that the proper plural for mousse? Could it be moussi? Not gonna Google it. Nope. No.
You should come with me, Dazz. Live in my tractor. No rent. Free electricity. Close quarters, though. You'd be getting more than your unfair share of Mr. Wrong and the trucking life. The good, the bad, and a whole lot of ugly. But no Monsieur Ugly.
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Found my sun hat.
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06-04-2016, 01:22 AM
Did you hear about the oil train derailment in Oregon today .
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06-04-2016, 07:55 AM
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Did you hear about the oil train derailment in Oregon today .
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Nope. Had to look it up. Mosier, Oregon along I-84 is where 26 rail cars carrying Bakken oil from North Dakota derailed. Mosier is between The Dalles and Hood River, Oregon. This is where I-84 was closed for several hours in both directions due to the derailment and subsequent fires.
No word on the cause of the derailment.
Hood River, Oregon is where the Hood River Juice Company is located. I've hauled several loads of apple juice from that plant to either Martinelli in Watsonville, California or to Tropicana in City of Industry, California.
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06-04-2016, 12:56 PM
How hot is it in California
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06-05-2016, 02:17 AM
Did you hear about the brush fires that closed down I 15 in Temecula California .Be careful .
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06-05-2016, 04:38 AM
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It's warm in California from top to bottom. I loaded in Arbuckle the other day and it was warm there. Now, I'm north of Blythe on 95 and it's hot. But I've stopped here to take a dip in the Colorado River. I love this river.
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06-05-2016, 05:47 AM
It seems this is the hangout thread where the longest posts are made
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06-05-2016, 08:19 AM
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It seems this is the hangout thread where the longest posts are made
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I always post lengthy walls of text in nearly any thread I visit! Lol!
I had a rather lengthy post all ready to post...but when I clicked the post link, I was informed that my "token had expired" and all my text had vanished...along with my patience...so, I just put the tablet down and gave up...
This Samsung gadget the BF aquired from a friend in need of quick cash is nice and all...but it and I "go rounds" over the proper word to use...the suggestive text apparently misses it's previous owner...cuz it doesn't suggest the words I want to use...and it seems to have a problem "feeling" MY fingers...it works jyst FINE for the BF!
Hope will be going with her parents today...Sunday...to stay for about a week, I guess.
I miss her already and she hasn't even left yet!
(She truly is my best friend in real life...being as thoughtful and helpful as she possibly can be!...I really only feel like laughing when she is here...but I can't be greedy and keep her all to myself...I will, as Hope tells me "You will be FINE! ..I will cone BACK!" Lol!)
So...in Hope's absence, I will have more use of the ipad...making it much easier for me to post even LONGER posts! Lol!
But...for now, I shall retire...it's almost 3:30am...and the sun will be rising before I know it...
I hope the weekend has been good to you all!  !
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06-06-2016, 10:10 AM
Hi, folks!
....Well, the sadness has ensued...Hope left with her parents, today, for a week-long stay.
After two or three days I'll be about over the sadness that comes right after she leaves...
I try so hard to be "a grown up" about it...but, she is the brightness in my days...the light in my heart...the smile in my mind...and I miss her terribly when she is gone.
She truly is my best real life friend!
...So, I've been choking back tears ever since I watched her and her parents drive away...
So, in an attempt to occupy my mind, I read some news...and came across a story about a 10 year old girl that had a leg amputated when she was 9 months old...and how she had always wished for a doll that had a prosthetic leg like her...and there's video of her receiving just such a doll...and the girl just sobs with joy on the video that has gone viral...
Me...in my already depressed mood just watched the video with tears streaming down my cheeks...
You should look for it...it really is touching!
Now, for the next day or so, I will be subject to sudden sadness...created by little more than putting away a toy or washing a sock...
I know that she will be back! ...she TOLD me so! Lol!
And...even when she does live with her parents full time, I KNOW she will be back...she will miss me as much as I will miss her...she will want to come for frequent visits.
But when she is gone, the cat and I get pretty lonely! ...the cat walks around like she is looking for Hope...then she lets out with an extra long "Meoooooooooooooooooow!" ....then she moves to another location and "Meoooooooooooooooooow!
It drives me nuts!
I already miss Hope and the cat just reminds me that she is gone!
*sigh*
Sarah seems to be feeling better...she has been eating well and interacting with me and Hope better.
Hope, always trying to help me, even scoops bites for Sarah and puts the food into her mouth!...and Sarah ALWAYS opens her mouth for her, and chews and swallows...and tries to give Hope the spoon or fork to do it again!
I let Hope give her a few bites...but I really don't want Hope to get into a routine of doing something she may...some day...not be here to do for Sarah...plus I am bent on Hope being 3 years old and should be enjoying doing 3 year old stuff...not feeding her Aunt dinner! Lol!
Sarah still needs to get some blood drawn...The holiday weekend kinda threw a wrench in the week and we ran out of days before it ended.
The local electric company is planning a community outage on Wednesday...for maintenance...so, since we will be without power for the day, we plan to take Sarah into the city for that blood draw on that day...and, if schedules don't conflict, we will either pick Hope up and take her or her mom will meet us at the lab...so Hope can WATCH Sarah get her blood drawn!
Hope has cried, in the past, when she found out that either Sarah or I "got our arm poked" without her being there!...so I promised she could be there when Sarah gets her blood drawn...and I HATE to break a promise...especially to Hope.
I forgot to announce my lab test results...
Doc says my billyrubin (spelled wrong, probably, and I'm not in the mood to look for the proper spelling, sorry) is elevated for "benign" reasons...and that my kidney function is slightly decreased....that I should drink 64 ounces of water every day (Ha! I rarely drink EIGHT ounces of water in any given day) and avoid taking any Tylenol or other non-steroidal pain relievers...Oh, and that I am still Pre-diabetic...
So...I don't take any narcotic pain relievers because I can't afford to be drugged up in case Sarah has a seizure or other medical emergency...and I can't take Tylenol...so, that leaves me to smoke a lot, lot, lot of Pot!
Sometimes the Pot doesn't work...like the other night, when it felt as though I had broke my ankle!...I couldn't remember having injured it, but the pain became nearly unbearable!...I was close to crying before I finally fell asleep!
I woke to pee a few hours later and limped on the painful ankle to and from the bathroom....But, when I woke from a much longer sleep, I didn't even think about my ankle until hours after I woke...realizing that the severe pain I had endured the night before had mysteriously vanished!
Today, it this the knuckle closest to the end of my left middle finger...the joint is swollen and I can not make a fist with that hand because that knuckle won't bend completely.
It is painful...and I would normally take a couple Tylenol to take the severe edge off the pain...but now...I must just endure...and hope that the next place to decide to hurt won't be in an inconvenient location or be so painful that I just want to melt into a puddle of tears...
I am guessing this is the way Fibromyalgia works...at least for ME! ....never knowing WHERE it is going to hurt...but knowing, with upmost positivity, that SOMEthing WILL hurt...EVERY DAY!
I guess I can say that it's not boring...the way it changes up the way it does....sometimes my neck, back, feet, legs, fingers, elbows, chest...or any possible combination thereof!
*sigh* again
The BF has been somewhat withdrawn toward me in the past few days...
Like the Fibromyalgia, I never really know when the BF will act in hurtful ways...but I know it will happen...eventually...
He seriously acts like he doesn't realize that he hurts my feelings...even after I have TOLD him that he has hurt my feelings!
...doesn't stop him from repeating the same actions!
*sigh* a third time!
I really wish I had SOMETHING less depressing to share with you before I bid you a temporary farewell...
*thinks real hard*
OH!
Hope is starting to try to learn to read!
She sounds out letters and knows what sound most of the letters make!
I desperately want to get her a typewriter so she can ask me how to spell words and she can type them on paper and take the paper out and keep it, or send it to someone, or...???
I learned how to spell that way. I would ask to type a letter to my aunt and my grandma would get me started by typing Dear Aunt ___, then she might jog my creativity by asking what I wanted to tell her, or to thank her for something she had sent me...then I would ask how to spell the words and grandma would tell me.
Eventually my requests for the correct spelling diminished and I could type a simple thank you note and a short message all by myself!
I want this for Hope!...and she's ready RIGHT NOW!
She already makes up stories and tells me details about her dreams...I just can't wait till she can write all the words down and share them with others!
She LOVES to SHARE!....everything from her food and candy to her toys and her feelings! ....I want that to never go away!
So, there! ...a positive point of interest in my pity post!! Yay! Lol!
Well...I am off to bed...to sleep with the unicorn that Hope told me to sleep with...(she put her pink lamb in Sarah's bed, to sleep with Sarah while she is away, too!)...and if I hurry, the sky won't be very light by the time I drift off...listening to the chirping birds outside the window...
Sometimes those birds get so loud I CANT fall asleep...and then I lay there and my mind wanders toward less pleasant thoughts.
I prefer to go to bed exhausted. ...no tossing or turning...no thoughts with cobwebs on them...just close my eyes and...wake up, refreshed, at a different time of day!
(When I sleep, it's like I'm under sedation...I don't dream...I just "shut down" for a while.)
But...sleep I must!...for I expect the Landlord to come by and take all our money....and I hate when he knocks and wakes me up...me all bleary-eyed and hair in disarray!
...I think I can still get 5 hours before my natural body-clock wakes me to pee and desire a cigarette...and coffee.
I trust the weekend was good for you?
Mine was okay...spent a lot of outside time with Hope...
I hope the week is good to ya all!
Have a Marvelous Monday!  !
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06-09-2016, 06:49 AM
I remember there was some commercial a few years back I found quite true. A man awakes for the day and few birds are chirping and all seems pleasant enough. Then 10 more birds chime in and a lawnmower starts up and right away the outdoors becomes an unbearable cacophony of noise and so the man shuts his bedroom window and all is quiet again. This was an ad for either windows or some pill. Ah, what's the difference anyhow?
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06-11-2016, 10:01 AM
I vaguely remember that commercial...and I think it was for windows...
Our windows badly need to be sealed...definitely drafty!...and far from sound-proof! Lol!
I usually love the sounds of the birds singing. I have become aware of the sound the birds make when the chipmunk is making a pig of himself in the birdseed...alerting me to open the door really fast and watching said rodent scramble and fall off the porch in startled retreat!...it's funny and makes me laugh out loud! Lol!
It doesn't take long before the temptation of those seeds has the chipmunk back and the birds complaining...
(And to think that people feel sorry for us for not having TV signal! I rather like watching nature and would trade it for network television any day!)
....But, in reference to that commercial...I think I will NEVER be awakened to the sound of a lawnmower...and the trash truck comes after 10am on Mondays...and I have become accustomed to the sounds of tow trucks and tool delivery trucks that frequent the body shop next door...But, lately, the body shop has been leaving their bay door open...allowing the sounds of air tools and pounding on metal to escape and drift toward my windows...
Fortunately, these are sounds that don't annoy me.
Hope is expected back tomorrow/today...Saturday.
I'm excited and looking forward to her return!
I miss having someone to talk to...who actually pays attention to what I'm saying!
...The BF has been self-absorbed in new employment options...leaving him pretty deaf to the sound of my voice...
(I wish I could say that I'm used to it by now...but, I think I will never get used to the way he just seems to not even notice that sound is coming out of my mouth and directed at him!)
But...It looks like the BF is changing places of employment...in about a week...sooner if he can arrange it!
He has come to the conclusion that he is too old to be a fast-paced tire buster...for less pay than fast food chains pay!
He has done a few interviews for mechanic positions at a few shops...but this one local shop found a post the BF had made on Pinecam, saying he does side-mechanic-work...and they called BF to see if he wants a job!
...After doing a working interview, BF is ready to start as soon as he can move his toolbox...and give the tire shop a short notice.
He is pretty excited...having not officially applied for the position...and the fact that he won't have to travel into the city!! ...he will start his days with a beautiful view of the mountains as most other commuters will be driving into the sun!
And he will get paid for doing what he does best...and enjoys best....diagnosing and wrenching on cars, trucks, jeeps...and the shop owner is a master mechanic and is willing to share any knowledge the BF might need advice on...
I think this will be a good move for the BF.
Sarah had a doctor appointment last Wednesday...
We had picked Hope up from her parents' house because I had promised that she could come with us...and after all the efforts we took to get Sarah to that appointment, we were 20 minutes late...
I had been on the phone, on hold, for 5 minutes before the girl came on the line...
I explained that we had travelled from Conifer (at least an hour's drive) and that we had just pulled into the parking lot...
Girly tells me that Sarah's appointment was already over and she was marked as a "no-show!"
I was incensed!...Sarah was scheduled for a physical...and in 20 minutes, her appointment time was already up?!?
...The girl said she could reschedule us for the next day...
I yelled over the phone at her...explaining how difficult it is to get Sarah and her wheelchair into our small car, and how long it takes to drive to the clinic from our home...that I would have to call them in the future to schedule time when convenience would be on our side!
The next day, I called Sarah's social worker and asked if Sarah could look for a new doctor...possibly closer...
She suggested a clinic in Evergreen...less than 20 miles away!
Sarah has an appointment with a new doc, at a different clinic...much closer to home!
I am stoked!
I called the old clinic and let them know that Sarah would not be returning...that the drive is far too long to be turned away because we were late...because we are humans and humans are late sometimes!
(We didn't really like the doctor that Sarah saw there, anyway...so this could be a good move all around!)
The weather has finally warmed up and the hillsides have taken on many shades of green!
Our temps have been in the upper 70's and lower 80's...but I heard that the city has been getting temps in the mid-90's!
...Poor Hope doesn't sleep well, at her parents' house, when it is warm...for she is accustomed to our cooler air, requiring long sleeves and leggings for bedtime...even in the middle of summer!
I guess I should get myself to bed...I have a few things I want to accomplish before Hope returns...
I hope everybody is having a pleasant weekend!  !
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06-12-2016, 01:56 AM
Do I went to the VA yesterday. Being a diabetic means I got to see a podiatrist. So he tells me to start lotioning my feet. Then he broke out samples and greased my feet and had the nerve to look surprised when I jerked. Sheeeeeeesh....
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