Hey, Folks! ....How ya be?
Me?...not so good...
We still have not secured a place to move to...and the landlord has pointed out that he expects this place to be vacated on September 1st...which happens to be Sarah's birthday, btw...because he doesn't want his insurance to cancel his policy...
When the BF texted the guy back that we will potentially be homeless if we can't find a rental before the first...and there has been no reply.
The guy isn't a bad guy...he is just looking out for his own interests...and we don't matter much to him in the whole realm of things.
I understand...
It just seems like no matter where we go, it isn't long before we are told to leave...for one reason or another...
It really is starting to feel like I'm not SUPPOSED to have a place to be...like I'm just in everybody's way...
The BF recently scored some free booze from a liquor store having rolled over...and there is a very large bottle of Rum sitting in my fridge...silently calling my name...enticing me to get drunk enough to find the huevos to do something terribly stupid to fix the whole mess for everybody!
...but I know that it's really Depression that is calling my name...
I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna even crack the label on that bottle...tempting as it might be...
Yeah...things are pretty dire!
Hope has been spending more and more time with her parents...so THAT transition is underway...as much as I hate it!
Truly, without Hope around, my thoughts easily turn toward the darker side of solutions...
I miss her terribly when she is gone....but I am happy for her that she is having fun with her parents and not having to watch me break down in tears unexpectedly...or constantly being told not to mess with all the stuff I am trying to pack into boxes in case it all has to go into a storage unit.
We are entertaining the possibility of Sarah, me and the cat staying with Hope's parents for a while...and BF would either stay with friends or sleep in his truck so he wouldn't have to commute up the mountain to work every day...
This is the worst-case scenario...and at this point in time, it looks like that's what's gonna happen...
Well...I thought I'd check in and update y'all...
Sorry I haven't got better things to say right now...
We are headed to the Dog Guy's house for barbecue...
Maybe I'll be back later...
I hope everybody is doing well!

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