It got worse... I've officially made a rule in the house that toys are joint custody... (this will probably bite me in the butt come Sean's birthday but for now it is in effect) Each boy has ONE toy they can chose NOT to share with the other... Michael threw a HUGE tantrum because Sean was playing with his least breakable transformer... Sean ONLY likes it cause it talks... No other reason... Anyhow, made the rule because Michael was yelling at Sean instead of getting dressed and he had 10 minutes before he had to go to his dad's... First Michael threw a fit that it was only ONE he could protect... Then he started saying that he couldn't play with anything but one??? WTH CHILD? Then he threw numerous other fits at me until I decide to just ignore him... The remaining time passed and Michael's dad showed up.... So he started having a fit about leaving... I all but lifted him to get him out the door... And he did everything in his power to stop me... I think the only reason he stood up for me at all is cause I told him that I could hurt the baby by lifting him... His dad had to carry him literally kicking and screaming to the car :( which makes me angry and sad all at the same time... I can't stop that he has to go to his dad's I'd LOVE to but I can't... I've tried...

I spank the kids and corner them too... I didn't know what to do with Michael... Though My mom suggests popping him in the mouth since spankings and corner are such a struggle to get him for... And then putting him in his bedroom... No toys no nothing... I don't know how I like that idea either... The boy needs more discipline though and maybe naps.... :(

Sean and the corner is hilarious... He HATES the corner now LOL... He had an minor accident today and I spanked him cause I warned him over and over and over that he HAD to poop in the potty... He's big enough to take himself Mikes was even wiping and putting himself on at this age...

Mellie had a horrible nightmare last night that included some crazy homocidal killer, sex in a bathtub (er a few times. O.o) a reporter looking for who teh killer might be, and my mini-me beheaded and hung from a tree. It was all quite horrifying.

Oh scary!!!! I hate those dreams...

I was in tears when I woke up and my heart was racing. And it continued to race. Scott went to wake the children and he said Melodys name a few times. I started to freak out even more thinking she was missing or dead in her bed. But she just didn't want to get up. :headdesk:

And while my nurse at Yale said my period should have started on the 4th it's yet to start, even today when I thought it would start, so I'm freaking out about that too. I can't be pregnant. I don't feel at all pregnant, Scotts had a vasectomy and I haven't had sex with anyone else, but then I get this stupid dream that makes me think of pregnancy dreams and I freak out even more. Why am I freaking out? We both know it will probably start tomorrow, and I'll have to call Yale and get them to reschedule my hystosonogram since it's not in the correct days of my cycle for it anymore, but holy crap. My brain goes a mile a minute when I start to freak out about something. O.o

Imma go shopping for carpet today. but I also need to clean the house since we're having a "home visit" with the head start teachers to go over where the kids are in their school progress and what not. Why? I have no idea, wouldn't it be just as easy for them to do them at school? Yes. But do they? No. ugh. Freaky dream +freak out = not my day.

I feel you on it not being your day Mellie... The preschool teachers do that here too sort of.... They come and see the kids at the end of summer time and introduce themselves... But they use to do an end of the year home visit too... As far as I know they don't do that at all anymore YAY...

I have to get the house ready for Sean's Birthday party. But I have no energy at all... and I am cranky and feel all yuck... BAH...

I told baby daddy that we'd probably have to reschedule the appointment, he was like srsly? But I already bought your plane tickets and took the day off! lol. oops? Much like giving birth, my body doesn't really do a "okay it's time so drop the lining now" thing. It does it on it's own schedule.

We got the house cleaned and had enough time for our coffee date and getting an estimate done at two places for the carpet. woohoo! And we've learned that it will be easy enough to pull up the old carpet so that saves us a good $150. And we were already planning on moving the furniture, so that saves us another $150. It will be about $2300. Which is $500 less than I thought it would be. ^o^ But the house will look so much better. Any potential renters right now would run screaming. This would make them take a second look.

baby daddy's were coming down for your appointment???

It's at Yale in Conneticut. So I'm going up there. They fly me up to an airport in NY and we drive over together. I get to see and play with Owen. I'm so excited! lol. He's going to be around for all of his baby brother/sisters appointments. Well, some of them anyway. IF we move to Alaska he's not going to them. :P The guys said they'd come to one, but the flight time +cost is kinda ridiculous.

Aaaand my period started! Right after I emailed yale saying it hadn't. Why didn't I think to do that sooner? lol.

Aww that makes since.... It is good that he will be there if he can ^_^

So is Alaska still in the debate stage? It sounded so final but you keep saying "if" we go... Could it change?

We finally have all the medical/dental paperwork done for us, which is what they were waiting on even though it was kinda stupid... haha. We had to get the dentists okay for the kids and they took a week to get the papers back to us. Anyway it gets turned into medical on base today, and then goes up his chain of command and then sent over to Kodiak and they have to okay it. We both still think it's doubtful that they will because of my seasonal depression and the 22 hour nights there would just exacerbate my depression. BUT his command here wants him out because it took so long to get the paper work done. (on the top of the papers it says this will be completed and submitted with in 10 days of recieving your orders) uh yeah...there were no doctors appointments available for me for 2 weeks, and the dentist had a 2 month waiting list. so stfu coast guard. So its about as final as it has been since Feb when we got the news that they put him up for Kodiak. *shrugs* whatever. I don't want to go, but I don't want to live with out Scott even more so if he goes, I go and if I go, the kids go. lol.

So this hystosonogram that I have to have needs to be done with in a certain time frame... I think it's between days 4 and 10 of my cycle. And yale still hasn't gotten back to me email of phone call about whether or not Monday is still okay. :/ I hate relying on unreliable people to get back to me about stuff that requires planning. It's like trying to get the truth out of Melody when she's in one of her moods...:/

I hate depending on people in general.. They always seem to let me down... There is only one I depend on and he has let me down a couple times but not bad..

lol. I think it's natural for people to let us down sometimes. It's just one of those things that happens, we can't always be perfect for each other. It's just when it's a constant thing. Like whenever I have to deal with anything with Yale it's like pulling teeth to get them to respond to a concern or scheduling question. And even then they give me like a weeks notice before an appointment. I didn't know if we were doing a 3 day or a 5 day transfer until after I had gotten to NY in time for the day 3. What bothers me the most is Yale has such a high prestige in any world. People are like ooooo yale! And the people there have the same ideas. They act like they're better than you, they don't have to return your phone calls because you don't matter to them. They're whats important. not you.

I've been let down a lot by friends and family... I bend over backwards and put myself in a situation where I might not have any money. And I don't ever get the same treatment in return.... Except maybe with my mom... But not always really... Dillon is the only one always there... Jazzy is sort of depressed... I can't walk into the kitchen or bathroom without wanting to spew... I can't walk into the office or old playroom without being overwhelmed by the smell of the cat box (which was cleaned YESTERDAY) and the side room still spells like cat pee too... The only places I can be without something bothering me is in the living room, laundryroom and bedrooms... and those aren't where I want to work right now... Living room will have to do...

Sensitive to smell. Yikes. Last year at this time I couldn't smell chocolate. It would make me so sick. Of course, this is getting close to easter and there is chocolate EVERYWHERE. It was quite...horrible. ^^;;

Yeah... There was something that smelled heavily of spices in the trash sitting in front of the bathroom and kitchen... It took all of the constitution I had to take the trash out... First I had to eat a yogurt though... Doing anything on even the slightest bit of an empty stomach is EVIL... Chocolate doesn't bother me too bad it just doesn't smell appealing same with coffee or soda or tea... :/

I want to put together Easter baskets tonight but I can't lift the basement doors to even get to the baskets :/ And I keep forgetting once Dillon gets home :(

Write yourself a sticky note and put it on the computer. ;D Pregnancy brain hormones tend to cause forgetfulness. You should have seen the CSP group meetings we would have...lol. Looong parts of stories got left out because of pregnancy brain. Words that are common place would stump us up completely...it was...amusing to say the least. I started with stickynotes because it was driving me crazy.

That is a good idea!!! I should find my sticky notes O_o I haven't seen them for a while... Hopefully I don't forget what I am looking for while I do though :/ One hour... ONE MORE HOUR until Dillon is home YAY!!!

Sean sooo just told me he was hungry after SWEARING he was full... Ten seconds ago... I swear he is bored and just says the first thing he can think of to put in his mouth!

I think most kids do that...lol.

Melody ended the night throwing a fit again. I don't know what I'm going to do with that child because she's leading me to the brink of insanity. I refuse to let her have every little thing she wants. Like today she wanted to have a cookie, well I told her that she had to finish her dinner, and even then she was going to have one of the cookies that she bit the tip off the hershey kiss on...and she threw a fit about it. :/ Then during story time she threw another fit because she didn't want Aaron sitting next to her, and then she wanted him sitting next to her after he decided to move and sit next to Sakura. So she's screaming and I tell her to stop or she'll have to go to bed because the other kids want to hear the story. So she screams, flat out screams at the top of her lungs. SO I send her to bed, and she stayed there just screaming for God knows what reason. Scott came home since he forgot to grab his dinner on his way out and was able to get her to calm down and go to sleep. but sometimes I swear my children are possessed. :/

Me Too Mellie... Me too...

So it is official I HATE being pregnant :(

I cut my hair!! Bye bye 11 inches of weight! Now it's short and soft and...magical! lol. I'm quite happy with it. On Tuesday I'll go back in and get it curled and highlighted and I'll feel like a completely new woman. (:


I kinda miss being pregnant...after I get my hair done on Tuesday come trade with me. ;D

My emotions are haywire. I fought with Dillon bad yesterday :( I was so angry and upset and he turned into a big jerk and then a cry baby :/ We both feel better now. But Man I don't like feeling like I am wrong for being tired and sick... :(

Congrats on the haircut... I kinda feel like cutting my hair but at the same time I don't... lol

Your emotions were one of the things affected by your thyroid yes? Might want to call again if they haven't given you the results yet. Because you may need to alter your medication.

I'm soooo hungry! D: It's friday, and being catholic that means no red meat...and I have only red meat thawed! D: Need husband!

EVERYTHING is effected by the thyroid :/ I'll have to wait until Monday for results though :/

Ohhh buy crab salad sounds soooooooo good :) we are having uhmm.... something for dinner

This looming government shut down thing is pissing me off. Why is the military pay being attacked when the government officials who are fucking with the bills is still safe. How is that fair to any of us underlings? :/

I didn't understand all of that... But I agree government officials are getting paid too much to tell other people THEY need to take cuts