Nope "passed out" cold too I couldn't wake him until 6PM ><; which was like 20 minutes ago...

Poor little guy. D:

He's wide awake now though O_o

Haha. :) Sean! <3 They're both balls of energy!

Sorry your day was so rough Jaz! :(

It's ok Chi I think a lot of it is hormones. :/ I am going to cave to my own comfort today and wear yoga pants for the next few days... I was soooo miserable wearing the maternity pants I chose to wear it wasn't even funny...

Hormones can be a bitch sometimes. :hug: Glad you're feeling better now though!

While pregnant I have no issue going out in yoga pants. They're comfortable and make my butt look awesome. ;)

You should probably call the district and bug them some more though. This isn't exactly rocket science you're asking them to perform. You're asking them to move a child from one school to another.
Do you live in the zone for the school Sean is going to? If you don't you could also look into bussing. They're the ones that are sending him there, and if you can't afford the gas or don't have the time between picking up him and picking up Mike they may have bussing provided. I know in CA they HAVE to provide bussing for children not in the school zone when they're placed in other schools because of full classes etc.

NONE of the south side Elementary schools offer busing in our town. >.>; cause NONE of the district preschools offer it at ALL... What is a big kick in the arse is that the preschools are designed for children who are potential risks for later in life... Dropping out failing etc.... ONLY 150 kids are let in in the whole city (so their justification is that ALL the preschools are full at the moment because "drop" forms and rosters will not be posted for the next two weeks).... But Sean is obviously at risk more then others because he was accepted... So why the hell are they putting more hardship on a family ALREADY "PROVEN" to have enough hardship to put a child with both parents (one of which who is a stay at home) in the picture "at risk???" I mean seriously, I know it isn't mandatory for a child to go to school before 1st grade but REALLY kids who did not go to preschool are at SUCH a disadvantage to those who did! I don't think Mikes would not be reading now if it weren't for his 4 year old program... After I get Sean to school after lunch I was planning on calling the district again if for nothing else to make sure my transfer is still in place... Because the idiot who I've talk to 3-4 times on the phone and once in person didn't "see" a transfer form for Sean yesterday and she said she would put one in >.> I know she filled out two one BETTER be somewhere!!!!!

I found a better pair of pants today that fit me ok still I'll probably change back into Yoga pants later on in the day. I don't know why but they remind me too much of PJ pants and I HATE that "trend" cause girls around here will wear scrungy gross dirty PJ pants for YEARS and they look sooooo nasty in them... So I get eerie of wearing the Yoga pants because of that... I think if I could have found a pair or 2 of black ones it wouldn't be so bad.... But ALL of mine are gray... and they just look like cheaper PJ pants to me :( and I soooo don't want to be lumped in with THOSE kinds of moms.... I take great pride in how I look when I go out. And in how my kids look I don't let them walk around in stained dirty clothes why would I walk around in them you know... Not that my yoga pants are stained I'm just sayin....

We got a good amount done before we have to head out so it makes me feel better :)

Well, you could always home school. :P

I figure as long as the clothes are clean, who cares what type of clothes they are? I see a lot of moms picking up their kids in track suits, some in work clothes etc. I could care less what they're wearing so long as they're dressed appropriately for picking up their kids. No hooker dresses etc. Specially if you're pregnant. Heck, we were at the park one time and this lady was at least 7 months pregnant and wearing a long jean skin tight dress. Her belly was enormous. And it looked awful. But it was clean, and it was jean...really the material shouldn't matter. It's all about how you look in them.

I hardly ever do more than a pony tail with my hair and putting on make up to take the kids to school is more effort than I'm willing to put in. If people want to judge me that's a-okay with me. I take good care of my kids and that's what matters to me. It's along the same lines of my mom saying that allowing Kura to wear what she wants to wear to school is me being neglectful. :/ If it's what she's comfortable in why should I care what she wears? I care about her nutrition, her education, and her ability to cope with changes. What she wears, dude, I could care less as long as it's appropriate.

See the things I am talking about aren't clean... At least they don't look it... 17 year old hoodie sweaters with grease and every other kind of stain on it, then the PJ pants that were once yellow but now a dull brownish grey.... I'm not saying to show up in suits or something but take SOME pride in what you wear... I wish I could describe it better Mellie but I think you'd agree with me if you saw some of the mom's here... Half of them wear those big fuzzy slippers and they are a mucked up and gross too... I try not to look at the kid they are picking up because they often match their parent.... My friends little sister is a good example of that....

I'm like you in the since of hair and make-up... So I figure that gives me two negatives to first impression so I worry that by wearing yoga pants I am going to be lumped in with the afore mentioned moms... It isn't cool Mellie... I like to take pride in myself... Even on a lazy day there are certain things I do to feel clean or what have you even if it is as little as making sure I change my underwear even if I don't change out of my PJs :P

You have NO IDEA how much I want to home school all the kids Mellie... But my mom and sister made me so freaking self conscious about it that I worry about doing it now... Bah.... I hate my family...

Jaz you went to school to teach kids. Your mom and sister can go fuck themselves if they think your ability to educate your children is sub par to the ability of another person with 30 other kids to watch over. If you want to home school the kids, and you can handle the time/commitment of it. Do it. Just because THEY couldn't home school doesn't mean that you can't. Eventually you want to be teaching kids yeah? Might as well get a head start on that by knowing what interests your kids and finding out the ways they learn things easier.
True: not socializing the kids isn't cool. So take them to parks, hang out with neighborhood kids, find a science (or whatever) interest group. Find other local moms that homeschool and want to have their kids socialize as well. There are ways around most obstacles.

I can't imagine going out in dirty/stained clothing. >.> Around the house I don't care what i wear. Lately it's been a pair of shorts and one of scotts shirts. xD But I do change when I go out. And that change includes shoes. Not slippers. O.o But I suppose if you have no money for clothes? There are some circumstances that I would grant pardons for. Perhaps they have abusive husbands that don't allow them to wear other things?

I'd be inclined to agree if it were only one or two mom's but I swear it is a good 80% of women in this town who think that's "sexy" including my sister-in-law (the one married to my adopted brother) to me it just looks nasty... lol

I hate the way they talk to me though... My sister says that Michael's self esteem issues are my fault... I never really thought I had terrible self esteem but I know it isn't OMG GREAT either... It was only after her last visit that I realized a lot of my bad self esteem comes from them... They are CONSTANTLY telling me how I can't do something or I don't know how to do something right... And then they wonder why I DREAD seeing them... I don't raise my children properly I don't feed them properly how could I educate them I am an idiot ect... My favorite was shortly before I got pregnant with Ellie I started gaining a bit of weight.... Not a lot and I was STILL under what I had been before getting pregnant with the boys... and my mom told me I was eating too much and that I was getting fat... WTF....I don't talk that way to mikes... I tell him how much I love his soft cheeks that is about as close as I get to saying he is chunky (which he's not he a walking talking stick figure)... I tell him he needs to not talk ALL the time too I guess which isn't the best of things to say I suppose, but he does, I swear... I need to find him a talking contest he'd win outright... I was the same as a kid though and my mom would tell me to shut up that I was just talking to hear myself talk....:/

Anyhoo off topic... I want to teach them from home... But I am tired of the negative remarks already... I know one thing for sure... They will NOT be going to the local middle schools at least not if I have a say in it.... I'll teach them when it comes that time... But what is funny is that they aren't opposed to that... That it the time in my life that I started making more "real" friends... IDK... I get all twisted when I think about it... I want to but they scared me and belittled me enough that I am fearful of failing at it... But I get so tired of fighting with the district here that it makes me just go back to wanting to do it again.... Vicious cycle... it doesn't help that the places Blaze tried to help me find to help me get started were all dead ends....I know there are other mom's who home school here in town... But it feels like finding them is impossible...

On that note enough of my negativity... I am craving Ramen (WTH I HATE RAMEN :P) so I think I am going to make myself some :)

lol. Ramen. I haven't had that in about a year! (well packaged ramen, I did order some at a noodle shop my grandparents took me to. Yum!)

I think you're awesome Jazzy. And I also think that you are intelligent enough to realize that you can teach your children on your own if that's what you want to do. Remember, this is what you went to school for. This is what you know. They're not the parents, you are. What they say doesn't matter, even if they're against it, so what? Are you going to let them tell you when you can start giving Ellie solid foods? Or when you can start potty training her? Or how about when Micheal can start dating? None of that is any of their concern, it's yours. Remember that. They're your kids you can do what you want with them! (so long as it's legal and you're not hurting them etc etc etc insert more random proper limitations)

Really? old grungy clothes is seen as sexy there? Sweetie...your town is GHETTO! xD

My brothers attacked my self esteem a lot when I was younger. It wasn't until Scott came around that I really started realizing that I am pretty! I am sexy! and I am awesome! My parents never cared much, my mom always had (has?) low self esteem and my dad was never around. But he never stood up for us against his side of the family either who thought making fun of (mostly just) us was good fun. Sometimes you need to remove those toxic people from your life, or tell them to stop (which is what I did) and move on. If they continue with it, keep them out. You don't need them. Sure it's nice to have a break from the kids once in a while...but is it worth it if they start calling the kids fat and stupid too??

Hey Jaz if it makes you feel better none of my clothes fit anymore either so I've been waddling about in my maternity scrubs. I'm probably going to have to drag myself somewhere to buy something before I'm completely naked or lock myself in the house until the baby comes. I guess I can't lock myself in the house, but I HATE shopping for clothes so much!

The whole wearing pajama pants and slippers around was really popular around here for a long time, but I haven't seen as much of it as I usually do. At least they wore clean ones I guess.

I had a little bit of a hormonal meltdown over garbage cans yesterday. The city is switching over so it is mandatory that we use their trash cans now and they won't pick up our cans or bags off the curb anymore. Basically they won't pick up anything that won't fit into their cans. Our household generates very little trash as it is for 3 adults, a baby, and 3 pets but there is some overflow of trash after Thanksgiving and Christmas that I can guarantee won't fit into one can and the thought of trash hanging around the house for all kinds of vermin to get into is stressing me out. So I either have to tough it out or cough up the extra $80 to rent an extra can for two months.

Ramen? There is a place that makes really good ramen close to where I work, but I've been on a coconut kick lately. I hate the stuff but for some reason it tastes good when i'm pregnant. :drool:

Jaz, I'm with Mellie regarding the home schooling. Screw what your family says. You are in control of your own life and responsible for your children until they are old enough to fend for themselves. They aren't. It's so hard to just shrug off criticism, though. I had to shrug off criticism of breastfeeding, and I'm still bitter. I am objective enough to realize that people project their own insecurity onto others. My grandmother didn't breastfeed, and all of her three children have really messed up health issues. My mother breastfed us to six months, so I have NO idea why there wasn't support there. But then again she feels belittled half the time just because I'm getting a Masters. I don't even talk about myself anymore, and screw talking about my goals and aspirations.

Apparently I'm really bitter. :x

I am pretty bitter in general anymore.... It doesn't help that the night we were using to kind of relax from the stresses of life has now turned into a bitch fest.... Hen Fest to bitch fest.... It was a LITTLE better last week but it still very strongly overpowered by everyone's deep hate for a previous "member" who only showed like 2 nights.... But for someone who likes to complain about others bad parenting... I am fed up with hearing about it :/ so that is saying something....

I'm also bitter with my mom.... And my sister.... and my MIL.... >.>; My mom can't EVER be happy, and my sister treats her sorority like it is some kind of godly power.... and I won't get started really on my MIL... She just doesn't bother being around.... I am tired of negativity in general I guess.... SICK AND TIRED of it...

Which is funny cause I've been yelling at the kids for giggling and laughing and jacking around.... But mostly because I know that when they are doing that they AREN'T doing what I asked them to do.... which is to clean their room.... Dillon found two black widows right outside their window and he needs to be able to SEE the floor to spray it. :/ do they care... NO they are still screwing around... They came home from school in one of those moods that I could just tell they were hell bent on fire to be as ornery as they POSSIBLY can be.... *sigh*

As far as my mom and homeschooling..... I know all of what you guys have said.... But I don't know some part of me can't get over that my mom acted like I was one of the stupidest people on earth when I even suggested it.... Of all the people to say things like that to you your own mother is the worst.... I may consider it next year... or even for Sean this year if I can't get him into Michael's school.... I think the decision needs to be between Dillon and I and to keep my family completely out of it...

I agree completely. Between Dillon and you only!

This mama is ready for her kids to be in bed.... They are being COMPLETELY disobedient about cleaning their rooms and everytime I try to talk to Michael face to face he acts like I am going to beat the tar out of him or something.... UGH... Their rooms should have taken them 15 minutes EACH and they have taken 3 hours DX

I'm not looking forward to that. Terra is already so stubborn. Dx

Yeah... I won in the end it just took a little daddy back up... :) Both the play room and the boys bedroom *does the happy dance* now we just need to keep it that way until Saturday :)

What was bad is even the boys attitudes changed about getting the room done when Dillon got home... No whinning and complaining, Michael actually started racing Sean's bath time to see if he could finish their room before he got out.... What the heck man???

Even with Terra being just a year old, I've noticed she treats Cole and me differently. She's apt to break into tears if he scolds her. She gives me harder diaper changes. She pushes his buttons so much more. >.>

She prefers me reading to her. Prefers his bath times. Babies and kids amaze me with how quickly they form their wants and manipulations in the world. :lol:

Yeah...which is why single parenting sucks so much. They break into tears when I put them in the corner, or even threaten to put them into the corner...With Scott they go straight to the corner and cry there instead of at his face like they do to me. They do bath time better with him. They fight me on it. I've had to be such a complete disciplinarian lately it's wearing hard on me. I can't do it.
They prefer cooking with me, they prefer reading with me. They really are quite fond of me...but they don't listen to me at all. ): And that's the part that really gets me. Because some days I just need them to listen and do what I ask them to do....instead I'm like pulling teeth to get them to do anything and I can't take it. Specially when I'm sick. ):

2 more days. <3

Two more days! Hopefully his embrace will give you the recharge you need. Like I said on FB, I'd be nuts. I really hope the red tape clears soon. Enough is enough... :gonk:

Terra is going to send me to an early grave. She keeps jumping on her trampoline without paying even a LITTLE attention. It bothers me that she thinks she can tackle anything head-on. Literally. I think I'll go give her a bath and see if she'll nap before her WIC appointment.

Yeah Mellie preaching to the choir... I had to do all that and more for over 3 years.... :P Now add working and school to that...

So have you bought the tickets for him (or is he doing that) to come down?

My surro daddies bought the tickets for him a couple weeks back. (:

And I do believe there is a difference between my situation and what yours was Jaz. You hadn't just spent 4 years with him as your sole go to person because you were 3000 miles away from family. Scott and I were completely dependent on each other, so we went from you are my everything to nothing in the space of a day.

Chi- You gave a trampoline to a 1 year old? O.o That sounds dangerous...xD My moms next door neighbors have a trampoline..I don't let the kids play on it. But a lot of that has to do with lack of supervision at the neighbors house and all they do is yell profanities at each other, even in front of the 8/3 year olds there. It's highly disturbing.

We found out today that they hadn't approved the leave he put in on the 10th of last month for the 10th of this month. >.> So he's talking to his senior chief and they're like wut? ur leaving? and he's like well yeah I put the chit in the 10th of last month and in E-city if you don't hear anything you're good to go...and they're like oh hellz naw! You get emails and shiznitz from us when it's approved! But they went and approved it...which is good. Because he was going to be coming down regardless...possible AWOL repercussions and all. We still haven't gotten approval though. Since the XO needs to sign it and he's out for the week on some political thing. So we should get it while he's here...which means we won't be able to fly back with him since he needs to be up there to ammend his orders to include us before they will pay for us to fly up there. I still get 2 weeks with him though. And then as soon as he gets back he should be able to get the orders ammended asap and we'll work from there.

This does however work out well for my surro daddies though since Yale needs to monitor me and they need to know where to send me for monitoring. Now I can tell them that I will be here for the 29th and to find somewhere. haha. Speaking of, I need to email them. I still haven't gotten a call from our pharmacy and I need to start shots next Wednesday. yay! lol