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12-19-2013, 02:16 PM
Ellie slept horribly last night :( I feel bad but I got so frustrated with her! We laid down at just before 10 last night and she woke every few minutes until midnight. She'd either kick the crud out of me or just moan loudly and miserably. I fell asleep early on which was my downfall and then when she initially woke and would seem to settle just long enough for me to attempt to go back to sleep and the cycle would repeat. Dillon eventually took her to the couch so I could get some sleep but this morning he said he almost took her to the hospital because her fever spiked so high. She has liquid ibuprofen but Dillon didn't realize she can take the chewable tylonal we give Sean now. Her weight is well within the first dosage/age limit.
I could stab my brother and sister in laws in the eye for bringing Jayden to us sick again. Sometimes I swear that they must be some of the least mindful parents on the planet. I am terrified Ellie has RSV like Mike did at her age. She was panting to breathe (no contractions, I think that was what they were called where her chest/throat concave while breathing from lack of sufficient oxygen) but that and high fever cough all signs not that that helps anyone because that is every cold/flu around here. It's just the panting...
Dillon and I are both feeling gross today :( which sucks because tonight is baby group and the Christmas pot luck :'( there's no way we are going unless everyone suddenly feels better. Mine so far is just stuffy nose so I might be able to get away with going solo. But I like the interaction Ellie has with other kids her age :( meh.
Poor Terra diarrhea is the pits. I immediately push the brat diet when it happens around here. Is she doing ok with the idea of having a diaper on? Mikes hated having wear them for bed wetting he kept telling me "mom I'm a big boy" and such it broke my heart but even with 3 changes of sheets and plastic covers we were not getting enough sleep with all the bed changes. I have not ever had to do it with Sean he's fairly good about the bathroom.
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Random question Chi, you had an IUD right? Does it need to be changed out every few months or something?
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12-19-2013, 05:34 PM
Can you take her to the ER if the doctor's office can't get her in? That's so scary! And yes, shame on them for bringing Jayden to you. I get so upset when parents aren't considerate of other children!! And families too of course, but it's just so frustrating for the kids to get sick.
Terra was disturbingly excited to wear a diaper. I told her it was only until her tummy got better. x.x
I did! I had the Mirena IUD, and I believe they are good for five years. Mine didn't last that long, but my hormones are messed up anyway, so don't let it sway you. Mine lasted about three years before I took it out. I began spotting throughout the month and it was driving me nuts.
If I had to go on BC again, I would likely pick the Mirena again. It's low maintenance. Occasionally you should check the string position, but Cole never felt the strings and it didn't bother me. VERY rarely did they poke at me, but it wasn't ridiculously uncomfortable. I had them trim the string length after that and the problem was gone.
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12-19-2013, 05:53 PM
Ellie is better this morning only a mild fever coughing and nose problems but no heavy breathing and her heart isn't racing which is another sign of RSV. She gets winded if she is moving about a lot but its most likely because she is so stuffy and she's a nose breather. So I don't think an ER visit is warranted.
I was looking at the Mirena because it is safe during breastfeeding. I wanted the Nuvaring but it is not breastfeeding compatible. I am scared of the "T" shaped IUDs and I've read that breastfeeding increases the risk of uterine puncture V_V which is what I am scared of to begin with /sigh. I want a good long birth control one that isn't up to me with "ooopsies" chanced everytime I take it late. :/ stupid pogesterone only pills. I am too much a scatterbrain to deal with that a 4th time! I want to be able to make a decision on if Dillon and I are done without worrying about getting pregnant "in the mean time" lol. and I don't want to feel rushed about it either. Where with all the new health care crap I need to know I am covered and that I won't all the sudden lose my ability to pay for birth control. Though it is suppose to be free my sister has had to pay for hers now that the new laws are out. It is so twisted. She is getting hers through Planned parenthood even it doesn't make a lick of sense!
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12-19-2013, 06:47 PM
Is there a chance to wait it out so that the initial stages of breastfeeding gets your uterus back to its original size? Maybe you could get one inserted after your post-delivery bleeding ends? It would allow you some time to think about it since your body needs time to heal from delivery anyway, hey?
I'm glad Ellie's a bit better today than she was last night! I'd have been freaking.
I'm trying to think of other worry free methods and I'm failing. Condoms are hit and miss and easy to say "meh, whatever" to. I'd have had six more babies by now if my uterus wasn't some barren wasteland. :P I've done so much "whatever" that I would have been pregnant by now if one of us doesn't have an issue!
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12-19-2013, 08:28 PM
It cannot be inserted before 6 weeks post partum and I am considering waiting 2 or 3 months post partum just to be 100% I've heard some doctors recommend that wait time. It would allow plenty heal time. But until then? Lord I a hate the pill I am better with it now that I am on a thyroid med every day but still eh... And I am a notorious "oh just this once" or "we can handle another" at the so it of the moment only to be like no no we can't we can't afford more babies or to start freaking out that I could get pregnant what have you... :/ I am so wishy washy...
She seems to be doing rather well. I am still in debate on if I should go to group tonight. I won't bring Ellie too many babies to risk it but I don't go near the babies and I am good about washing and not rubbing all over my face. Like I said if I am getting it I have the very first touches. Dillon said he had a fever this morning I just have nose issue meh. I don't like going out when Dillon is home though so ugh... stupid indecision.
How is terra doing now? Is she feeling any better?
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Oh something funny I had to share Ellie fell asleep nursing for nap like usual and I kept shift due to discomfort and she'd frantically start nursing again like "no no bring it back" well after about 5 or 10 minutes of this I started trying to detatch her and she tries to hang on with all her might so I whisper "no I think your done time to let go" and she replies "awwwww" and let's go but continues snoring. She wasn't even awake and she was disappointed lol
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12-19-2013, 09:47 PM
LOL!!! Ellie. xDD That's awesome!
Terra's doing better. No more accidents so far! I'm hoping it stays that way. Cole should be home soon. (: I think we're due for another storm tomorrow... so I may get tomorrow off for all I know!
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12-19-2013, 09:58 PM
I'm glad she is doing better! That is good news!
I am winded *pants* I got to paint for almost a whole hour Ellie woke up about 15 to 20 minutes before I hit an hour and I finished up what I had out. Ending with about 50 to 55 minutes of painting... It feels good but I required a lot of breaks in the mist of it all :( I am definitely starting to feel this pregnancy
Now time to dress this baby and go get her brothers!
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12-19-2013, 11:15 PM
Rest when you can. Do you think you'll go to the group? (:
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12-19-2013, 11:21 PM
Still debating I haven't picked anything up for the potluck and i am waiting to see how Dillon feels when he gets home he woke with Ellie for a good chunk of of the night because i started getting frustrated. So he is likely exhausted. If he can get and keep Ellie asleep relatively without me I will let him sleep early tonight. I am hoping I can stay up and get something done... not sure what or where but I don't want a repeat of last night trying to go to bed early and not sleeping much I'd rather got to bed late and only have myself to blame lol.
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12-19-2013, 11:51 PM
I think Cole's going to put Terra to bed tonight, so I'll likely just relax and RP 'till bedtime. It's been months since I've done that. Months. o.o
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12-20-2013, 04:56 AM
I am waiting on Ellie to fall asleep so I can get up and be productive.
I went to group and was there fairly late :o but I'm glad I went. Sonja (the lactation consultant) announced who the new peer counselor is. A gal named Marya. I guess my disappointment showed pretty clearly on my face cause I offered to help her lug stuff up to the meeting room and she spoke to me privately about it. She wanted to assure me that she was not the one who made the cuts for interviews because she was too close to many of the moms who applied. She kind of stepped back and then she just did the panel interviews. I had to clarify who Marya was because I couldn't put a face to the name (and she showed up later then the announcement was made) and when I did I was more comfortable with getting the job over me for several reasons. She already works for the health department she is breastfeeding her 3rd or 4th baby and a few other things. I just didn't want to find out one of the more brash or newer mom's had gotten it! I think then I would have been totally crushed... I am also glad Sonja talked with me. This was the hardest I've ever taken a rejection letter. I did enlighten her to the fact that I was caught unprepared about the test and I am sure it didn't help my application to have my husband and daughter waiting for me and me rushing through the test. I guess get weren't suppose to do that, because they are suppose to put a warning on the application (which wasn't there) about it if they wanted to and I guess some applicants got tested and others didn't wasn't I lucky...
I am happy though group was good lots of chatter and oh my gosh so many people were all over my belly! I was totally embarrassed by their compliments apparently I am the perfect pregnant lady according to them lol.
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Nope nothing productive tonight and I am ok with it! Going to finish my mini games and turn in for the night!
I also forgot to mention that I got stockings made by my aunt today for Dillon, Sean, Ellie and Liam. As well as she agent candy canes and large chocolate Santa's for each kid (and something for my mom that I didn't open) . Her not made me tear up and the stockings are absolutely gorgeous! And fitting to each (so far) that are receiving them! Green and silver snow flakes for Dillon, blue deer for Sean, red I think candy cane pattern (pregnancy brain fail) for Ellie and an Rudolf pattern on green for Liam. Mikes got one when he was a wee one when I asked her for a pattern :P and I've had mine for years and years now!I love her stockings that mean all very much and are so very special! He letter made me realize how much my kids and I miss out not living near our family :'( hopefully we keep that changed somewhat this generation...
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12-20-2013, 03:21 PM
Take pictures! (:
So... I had a bit of rotten news. Well, it's bittersweet. I think it's one of those cases where it evens out in the end. Cole is having surgery a week from today. The bad news is, he has no sick time left and HR said he can't tap into his vacation time early (understandable--it was a long shot). The worse news is that he CANNOT go back to work once he feels better. He has to get doctor clearance.
The long and the short of it is, he could be two weeks without pay, or four. I can get a loan from my family if need be. The upside? We have two weeks of Medicaid insurance left, which means we won't have to pay $3000-4000. It evens out, more so obviously.
Still. Blah!! Never gonna get ahead.
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12-20-2013, 05:32 PM
Ugh I was a typo monster last night!
It does seem to balance out in the end just kind of stinks for him to be without pay for so long. :( I hate the feeling of being in that vicious loop. Feeling like you are getting ahead then BAM right back behind!
Pictures? Of the stockings? I will when I hang them. I haven't found my "s" hooks to hang them and I am debating on washing each so I can get them shrunk down and the colors set so I don't accidentally put them in the wash later and cause bleeding everywhere.
I am in a FOUL mood this morning. Jayden has already been unbearable, worse then normal stuff. She's been outright mean to Ellie, I had to take her to my WIC appt with the nutricianalist and she was demanding with her "me now" on everything Ellie or I needed to have done, and rude interrupting and pushing into the small space between the nutricianalist's chair and desk to be a see her screen. Then she was into everything she wasn't suppose to be and flat not listening to what I had to say. "Don't play with the blinds" apparently translated to "please touch and yank on the metal noisy blinds as much as possible" then Ellie started doing it because her cousin was. Then Ellie started drumming on the metal filing cabinet and after I told Ellie "no" and she had stopped and sat down, Jayden started doing it. Then Jayden started doing it 4 additional times >:(.... Then like I mentioned earlier she was going out of her way be mean snatching books from her hand, not letting her play with the bead and bar toy by holding down any Ellie tried to move holding stuff out of Ellie's reach. I think I got maybe 1% of the information the nutricianalist gave me. :( I have to take her to the boys winter program this afternoon and I am already at the end of my rope with her :/ why all the sudden the rotten over exaggerated attitude from her?
I won't get the relief of nap time today either :/ it's going to be rough but today should be my last day... dear Lord let it be my last day cause I can't do another whole day. Not without committing hairy carry
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Ugh today can't get much better honestly... I got a call at 10:45 to pick up Michael because and I quote "Mom the teacher says I have pink eye" I about hit the roof. Sean was suppose to be picked up at 11:30 is it a 15 minute drive to the school another 15 back so I HAD to call him out 30 minutes early. I start driving ready to blow a gasket at the school for their complete irresponsibility and inconsiderateness. First of all being that Mikes was the one who called me. Why the fuck do adults (teachers, "fathers" etc) leave it to a CHILD to relay messages. that are fairly important???? So anyhow when I get there, Mikes eye doesn't look like pink eye to me. It looks swollen and like the swelling may have burst a blood vessel, but I mention we may be back depending on how it reacts over the next hour or two. The teacher THREATENED me saying it needs to be seen by a doctor and that he CAN'T come to the Winter Program if he is contagious etc etc. WTF??? These people have been hyping the kids up about this program which might I add I have to pick my children up from school bring them home and then take them back for... That is over an hour in the car driving to and from. And then freaking drop the ball. Over what? Pink eye??? Yes if that is what it is it is contagious but it's not like lice, or the flu! It's goopy eye. My doctor even told me that it is ok to not treat it, that most doctors treat it to appease parents or schools/ daycares. Treatment is only truly necessary if the infection becomes bad. But no pump them full of antibiotics instead... I could just freaking SCREAM! Then I went to get my meds from the pharmacy and pick up some milk and Sean was a total butt to Jayden. Essentially doing to Jayden what Jayden has been doing to Ellie all morning with out the toys cause well we were at the store. **headdesk** I don't know what to do with these kids. Mikes was such a good 4-5 year old I swore it was to make up for the terror of a 3 year old he was. But these two I don't even know. So anyway I look at Mikes eye before getting to the check out and it has already diminished significantly much less swelling and it no longer looks like a burst blood vessel just looks like he rubbed it a bit. I decide we are going to the program come hell or high water! I bought him some red eye relief drops (would have bought sty and pink eye stuff just to appease the district gods but they apparently don't carry the over the counter stuff at the pharmacy I get my meds from) I got home and put them in and now his eye looks just a little puffy. I don't know what to think but you know what. I am tired. Other people have carelessly ruined a bunch of crap for me this week I am not going to break the kids hearts over the possibility of pink eye... Oh that reminds me... He was sent to the office so he could see the nurse, and the OFFICE staff were the ones who made the call that he was contagious and needed to go home. They told him he didn't need to see the nurse.... Since when did office staff become freaking MDs??????
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12-20-2013, 09:50 PM
Ohh... what a rotten day. :( Hang in there regarding the brat; you're almost done, and you can tell them you're not going to watch her anymore as you'll be looking for employment after Liam's old enough. Maybe you'll be able to throw in that subtle, "So where will Jayden be going? I hope it's a good transition" or something like that.
I hope everything's OK and you guys will make it to the program without issue!! Keep me posted.
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12-21-2013, 01:11 AM
The program was rough but not because of the kids. Jayden and Ellie were fairly behaved minor stuff like having to be reminded to sit and to listen not talk. But overall good. Sean joined us fairly early on too cause he was one of the first up. It was the other parents I am fully embarrassed to call myself a parent who attended and to be lumped into it with them. All I could think was these ADULTS should have had their cell phones removed from their possesion at the door and threatened with detention for being disrespectful during the production. I get that it was OVERLY long and semi unfairly devided, but parents were talking sooo much it was near impossible to hear the students. I am sorry to say but Elizabeth and Jayden could have been model example for these people! The devision of the music groups was bad though there were 3 mariachi (there's a "d" in there somewhere I think) bands, beginner, intermediate and advanced and one I guess that were beyond the advance students? Anyhow, each of the band's represented 30 minutes of the presentation which wouldn't be bad but they took up 45+ then each grade level only represented around 5 to 10 minutes TOPS of the production. Then they had the grades set up stupidly. It was kindergarten 2nd and 4th between the first two mariachi bands then 1st 3rd and 5th before the last. Poor Mike's waited TWO HOURS to preform! It was suppose to end at that time. END! Behind him was 5th and another 30+ minutes of mariachi! It was crazy! But I enjoy seeing my kids on stage! I felt bad for leaving in day of the performances but it was suppose to be over at 4 and Mike's dad was coming to pick him up! Plus jayden would be leaving soon too (had I been home she would have been picked up at 3:30 :/)
We always had state performances/concerts for band and "class" based performance now I know why!
I feel wretched for feeling the way i do about Jayden :( she doesn't deserve to be called a brat though I refer to her that way a lot. I am done though despite my awful pangs of guilt like I had just failed. And I got to my 30 week goal and come my birthday I will be done paying off the midwife! My 30 week appt was put off because of Christmas so I'll see her at 31 weeks instead.
I feel sick (literally) from stress and my attempts to hide from the kids and recoup are failing. I love Dillon but today he's not getting how much I need him to be the mindful and calm parent. He feeds off my stress and applies it. It is the epitome of the saying "if mom's not happy no one's happy"
Oh and one more awesome bit of news... I told Michael's dad he was sent home with some eye nasty and that I was using drops red eye drops basically visine for red eyes and he tells me "oh guess everyone in the house has got it then" wtf? Did I miss the memo for "be a complete incompetent ass day?"
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12-21-2013, 01:59 AM
I just got Terra down to sleep. I get to sleep in tomorrow, so... yay! I imagine I'll be lame and crash early because I've been running on "E" all day. Not sure what's up!
Wow... the adults were that bad? o_o Yikes.
I hope you're able to get some relaxing in soon!
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12-21-2013, 02:09 AM
I am mostly just having trouble "letting it all go" I am like an overnight spring... it's ridiculous. I really do need to learn to let go of things especially when they are over! I am a mess when I do stuff like this...
Dillon is showering with the baby currently then I am not sure if I am going to put her down early or not. She had a horribly short nap while we were at the program. She nursed and fell asleep and Sean fell asleep too but in the most uncomfortable position so I laid his head next to where her legs were and she woke up fussing and kicking at him :/ she has to be tired but putting her to bed early is hit or miss I could just wind up sitting with her for 2 hours instead of 1.
And yeah the parents were shameless and terribly disrespectful. Most only stayed for their own child (which I feel I am guilty of this time but all else I couldn't stay essentially another hour) played on cell phones the whole time or worse talked on them, and then the roar of talking even after being warned about it was ridiculous.
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12-21-2013, 02:27 AM
Breathe in, breathe out. <33
I hate it when attempting early bedtimes can sometimes heavily backfire. Terra's been fighting bedtime like crazy. It's so annoying!
Ugggh my stomach hurts.
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12-21-2013, 02:38 AM
Mine too :( and I seem to have heatburn now... Yay tomatoes. :/
I am feeling a little bit better. I needed the time away from the kids though it really wasn't "away" it was in the next room which was vaguely quieter lol... T minus 15 minutes to bedtime though and then i can really try to get to relaxing!
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12-21-2013, 03:39 AM
Here's hoping everyone went down without issue. (: I think I'll be headed to bed in time. I ate a banana and my stomach seemed to settle. I think we'll be stuck in the apartment tomorrow and Sunday. There's snow and ice going on!
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12-21-2013, 06:36 AM
Oh she went down on but she was so restless we laid her on the couch because she kept asking and moaning/ crying out. I think pergaps she is as ready as we are for her to have a big girl bed!
On that note I should go to bed apparently while chatting with Dillon about the reported benefits of sex and pregnancy I mentioned "it helps err, drop (meaning to say ripen)......(fell asleep and started dreaming here).... little mini hot dog thing" yeah I'm sleepy....
Oops spoke too soon. The fuss woke again but she slept a longer spurt then she was with us... night night anyhow
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12-21-2013, 03:32 PM
I never had any drive while pregnant. I remember we had sex quite a bit in the last month or two because of the reported benefits. We did the primrose oil massages and everything since I was so frightened of nothing going back to the way it was. XDDD
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12-21-2013, 03:50 PM
Sex does nothing for actual delivery for me. Well not to my knowledge anyhow... I suppose I didn't tear with either of the last two and I had fairly quick deliveries. But other then that it's never started labor or anything. I've never done evening primrose I thought people were CRAZY for using that voodoo! But I may this time... not sure. Lol I just kept thinking you don't know what the actual effects are on your body and on the baby blah blah blah and I just thought I don't even do typical while pregnant why should I consider unfamiliar herbs and ointments. Though I did drink pregnancy tea.... Mmmmm that stuff is my pregnancy crack! I wish it weren't $4 a box and one of the ONLY teas I can't get on snap :/
I wish I knew why Ellie was so fussy though the nights she isn't fully waking and is mostly inconsolable. Then she would fall asleep out of nowhere and we'd lay down and try to sleep and she'd wake again. We did eventually get some sleep but wowie!
I am finally feeling the relief and realization that I am not responsible for Jayden any more! I am invigorated by it!
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12-21-2013, 05:09 PM
Awesome! I was hoping the invigorated feeling would come soon. Enjoy it! You've definitely earned it. (:
I remember drinking some teas toward the end of pregnancy... I think with the raspberry leaves? It's been so long. I took the primrose supplement in the last two or three weeks, and got the perineum massages. Who knows if it actually helps anything. Personally, I feel it was the tub that kept me from tearing. I was able to rest in it, which got stuff softened up. XDDD
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12-21-2013, 05:30 PM
I've never birthed or labored in water. And by golly I am excited. I tore with Michael he was my biggest baby so far but not by too much (7lbs 14.5 oz as opposed to 7lbs 8oz and 7lbs 3oz my poor teeny tiny Seanny lol) they also pushed me to push with him. Which I kind of think is why I tore so bad. I think if he'd have slowly emerged it would have been fine. There are mom's who have 9+ lb babies with no tears. I have a weird feeling Liam will be my biggest baby and I am glad I am going about it the way I am. I think it is really the best choice. I had my location consultant friend offer to be here as support should I want it! I was really really happy about it! Totally warmed my heart!
Yup the pregnancy tea is raspberry leaf. There is a "feminine health" tea that is also raspberry leaf :) it is suppose to help with periods and pregnancy I think... I have some as I was hoping it would taste exactly the same pregnancy tea. Sadly it doesn't :( it's good but not the same.
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