@Star: Hehe, you can call me TK, Tori, Kat.....anything related, really. 8D

*snuggles Pinky* Thank you again.

Well Star is welcome to chat here. It's pretty active here and everyone is nice. The adoption thread is also a good hangout, but it's been quiet lately...

Angel isn't as strong as TK thinks. When she was 16 Angel suffered from terrible depression. See Angels nan nan died of cancer (Can you believe what an evil Bitch Angel is. The last thing she said to nan nan was how much she hated her and how she wished she'd just die. nan nan never did anything bad to Angel, but Angel had been conditioned to hate her and at the time she really did and has fealt guilty since) when Angel was 16. Angels Uncle Malcolm (grammas brother) died. Another family member had cancer. Another family member died. Bobby and danny (under 10) were Ddying of Batons disease (No cure and they are now dead). A school friend of Angels died as a car hit his motorbike. Some of Angels bullies at school tried to murder her.
Angel broke down and had a train wreck of emotions. Every day Angel was crying as she woke up and as she went to sleep. She was on really strong medication and hasn't recovered still. Angel still will look at a passing Ambulance and on occassion wish she was in it. Sometimes Angel just cant face the world. But Angel can't give up. Angel wants kids. Angel wants to be with her family. Angel wants to watch her girls (cousins) grow up. But Angel is not strong.

"Well it is nice to meet you Miss Tori." Star smiles at her, still in the deathgrip hugg of Pink.

@Angel: It's still remarkable that you're making it through all this. I don't blame you for experiencing depression. It must be really hard to cope when so many people close to you were injured, fallen to diseases, and passed. The stress from all those events...really took a toll on you. You're human. *hugs* I wish there was some magic way to help you feel better.

@Star: It's nice to meet you too. ^^ How are you doing? Hehe, good of you to join us! It took me a long, long time to leave my comfort zones and try talking and meeting more people. Very worth it. :3

"Well its not so much as leaving my comfort zone as it is trying to find people to talk to. I really do love companionship with many people. It makes me feel less lonely." Star sighs,"Its just some things are harder to find then others for myself personaly."

Angel you have the motivation and a goal which is good and I'm glad you do because it is at least something to help you through this all. You are unlike many others which I really don't want to delve into because I get annoyed about it.

@ Star - I'm sure you can easily find people around here to talk to. XD We're only less than 20k people here so I'm sure there's a place you can find.

Thank you. They did take their toll on me. I just wish I could stop picturing myself in ambulances. Thats pretty scary. *hugs* When Angels gramma gets out the hospital Angel is making a beeline for her house and giving her a big hug. That will make Angel feel better. *nods and hugs TK*

Star can always talk to angel. If she is online come find her. No matter what thread she is in Angel will chat to you! *nods*

^_^ Angels friends and family help Angel. And you will be glad to know that you guys count as Angels friends. (Star counts as a potential friend but Angel doesnt know him well yet. Sorry) The people who annoy me are the emos who think life sucks for them and yet even the simplest thing in my life (Ex bf) is ten times what they've gone through and theyre slitting their wrists. It makes Angel angry rather than annoyed.

"Its more of the physical sense then the verbal my friend. I just wish that there was somebody that I could relate to in my home town. But when it comes to physical realtionships I am what most would call bottom of the barrel on the food chain." Star sighs agian and places his head in his hands.

"Thanks angel. I really appriciate it. Im not emo. just lonely and in want of companionship. My horoscope says that tommarrow will be the best day in the month to find romance."

*snugs Star* Bottom Barrel kicks the ass of the top people my dear. Trust Angel. Those people at the top suck!

Smiles and nods,"Its just my time in life to be alone and not be able to find the right one for me. I wish I could though. I would be less lonely." Star read the rest on Angels post,"Sorry about your BF. If it makes you feel any better I havent had a GF in three years."

Angel has always got a bf. Her current one Jayms.. comming up to two years now, but her ex... *shudders* low life piece of scum. One of those top of the barrel people. He physically abused Angel (has the scar on her arm still from the glass) and raped her. So if it makes you feel any better, youre best off waiting for a good one rather than being with someone just because you're lonely. *nod nod*

Man Angel sounds like... I dont know... A soap Opera!

Horoscopes scare me.

@ Angel - >.> Oh oops. I think I should stop calling you Jayms then. *missed that detail*

But I agree. Make many good friends who will stick with you instead. That way you can have many to depend on. XD

Star smiles and hugs Angel,"Im happy you have somebody who takes care of you now though. I really want somebody to hold and to rubb my back and who will love me as much as I will love them."

"Im sorry you feel that way about them. They have come in handy for me from time to time though so I trust them on occaion."

Good luck looking then, Star. :P

Sorry but pinkies eating and will return in a moment! =huggles angel=

Have a nice meal, Pinkie. XD

hehe some people call me Jayms. Jayms is my boyfriend, he calls me his fallen Angel in a good way. Says I am an Angel who got bored with the perfection of Heaven and came down to make humans lives better. Makes me smile. But I dont mind which you call me.

You need a hugging friend! *nod nod* When Angel was at college there were hugging friends. If you needed a hug, back rub, massage etc your friends would do it. My hugging friend was amazing. Best hugs in the world. So was my masssage friend. We had orgasmic massages apparently.

@Angel: ^_^ Here's to her getting well then! <3 It'll be nice to see your spirits lightened. *hugs*

...your ex was a terrible person. D: Thank goodness you got rid of him. >_>;


@Star: Ah...*is lonely too* ^^; I've never dated ever...and it's just getting to the point in my life when it feels like no one will ever love me. xD Which is fine, I'm satisfied with how I am right now. More me time. <3 And I have my close friends to hang out with. My friends with boyfriends say that they're more trouble than they're worth sometimes. ^^;;;

Angel: "Well at my collage people tend to be more closed minded then myself and tend to find me creepy. I think it has somthing to do with the way I talk in real life. Also my eyes tend to scare people."

Tori: "I would date you if we where near eachother and after we got to know eachother a little better of cource. I am not that much of a hassle as a boyfriend from what I have been told from my Ex's but then agian they all used me so i can kind of see why they would say that."

^_^ Thank you. *hugs*

Yes. Yes he was. But he taught Angel something very important. Never let your dog pick your boyfriend (wait... inside joke only my sister will get, but can be explained to the curious) and top of the barrel really does suck!

Poor Star! Star should come to Angels college ^_^ Angels group of friends got nicknamed the social orgy.

@ Angel - xD Well if you don't mind. I'll call you whatever comes to my mind.

o.O;; Cool.

*doesn't mind solitude* >-> Doesn't bother me after all these years.

"It depends on where you live Angel. I would love to but I need to be sure it is the right collage for me. you see I want to major in Photography but I know that wont pay the bills all the time so i also want to major in an art field as well."

Nope, Angel doesn't mind. Angel jjust doesnt call herself Jayms because it is actually her bfs name and that would be odd... But Angel doesn't mind others doing so.

Angel hates solitude. Angel cant cope alone. Angel has never been more than 1 week without a boyfriend since she was ten. Unfortunately this has led to the one Ive told you about, stalkers and two timers all being on Angels list of exes.

hehe Star, Angel doesn't think you could realistically. For Angel is British and is willing to bet you're on the American continent somewhere, or else are up REALY late.

Since ten? Dang. :P

*raises hand* I want to major in art, tooooo.

Okay pinkies back =smiles=