84. worry

I worry
what you meant
but what was said
you are there
with me
but you see
we see each other every day
routine
there is nothing more
should we take a break?
or do we know better
i am tempted
but you see
when?
i lied
lied through my teeth
we are not to move
from the hall
for you see
we are in trouble
if i am seen
i said i was gone
gone from the world
but turn around
and understand
what would happen
if i disappeared
my crying of love
for it hurts
I can agree rationally
but not greatly
for later
i just curled
and wanted to understand
why that was said
so can i understand
what happened
for i want to curl up
and wonder
will you try and open me up?
or will you turn and walk away
but I refuse to test you
so then
let me stay
by your side
and watch
as i will no longer care
what is going on
so stay with me
please

I like your dancing drabble. It speaks to me.

thank you. Why are you up? it is silly i must say, but thank you.

I woke up actually because of said dream in my drabble... I didn't wake up right after it, but it was an uneasy feeling that just crept into my sleep and made me wake up early. -.-

Anywho, I had to wake up to shower and do homework because I inevitably didn't finish it last night since we ended up hanging out more. Ehehehe. ^^;

yes, but you were with him and everything too. it was probably well worth it, but the dream is annoying.

Yes. It was worth it. ^_____________^ <- remembering puts her in a similar spazzy, happy mood. xD

random

nothing is for certain
that is what is certain
everything can change
in a blink of an eye
one can lose all they wanted
and switch
why did it happen
I do not know
but it hurts
I want to tell you to keep with her
to tell you to not pick me
that all your effort means nothing
go to her
but you see
it is your choice
and in the end
anything can happen
but you can see
I am absents
so it is a case
I know nothing for certain
so stay
as I watch the certainties
and plot them
creating a line
of everyone's life.

random

what can it be
the words of a heart
the spills of truth
it is nothing
nothing but the bleeding red fluid
of both morbid
and undying love
that proves itself
it is hard to understnad
when nothing is there
that I am still loved
and that is the problem
that arises
what do I love
i love the time with them
I could not live without it
but then
what happens now
when I get what I want
is that a relationship
or not
i want to know you
I want to be with you
it is more than touch
it is everything else
so can we stay
by each other
to the time that we each feel to die
but that us life
for all of us

random

if only then
we can hold off
a little longer
to watch the brink
of disaster
it is sad to say
but yes I want to follow everyone
but i know
that it is impossible
that I have to do a lot more
I can not hold out any more
and it is bad
be with her
i mean not to piss her off
I am merely an anomaly
it hurts
but I am normally a bump
a small amount of amusement
so it is hard
fro me to even stay stable
to even be there
instead I just sit here
and watch
and become a bump
when people cross my path
so please understand
that that is just who I am
and nothing else
I watch
so I am simply
a road block
to the end
for everyone else

random

the artificial world part 1

The world
it is broken
we have finally broken the final part
to be exact I did
it should have three weeks ago
but at the same time
it doesn't work
so eventually
our actions
even though in the daylight
I don't see you
even though I yearn at times for you
I am not stupid
so when the walls began to break
when we all gave it all up
it began to show
people started to see us
we gave no notion to hide
we are fools
and our stubbornness is insane
but it is fine
we don't love much
the look that others give us
but in the end
we have each other
in our craziness
of the artificial world

random

the artificial world part 2

The world broken
the wall has shattered
the one with the stars
the one that belongs to it all
the one that is only in free space
simplicity
within itself

random

the artificial world part 3

through the peering eyes
for quite a while
it was insane
you tried to relieve it all
and said something
it backfired
but you see
now?
why I held it all
we hate the lie
you don't lie
I don't like to
it is hard
but not impossible
your lies
your avoiding
is what I did
but you see now?
it alone is something I don't like
something i don't hide well
can i run
run free
with you
and watch
as when the world breaks
the artificial world
we are on the other side of the wall
still there together

random

the trust
it is everything
to me
it is in my dreams
it is in my head
the people scare me
it is weird
when I lose all control
all ability
to do anyhting
completely helpless
jsut by pure strength
it isn't that they are stronger
or anything else
it is that without tools
they are
it hurts
soo much
the dream
not coming true
but do you see it
it is so close to my actual love
the ability
to never again
be fully alive
ever
ever
again

random

why am I the only one
who knows your nightmare?
it is weird yes
but it is soemthing one has come to terms with
it hurts yes
for me it is trust
for you it is the watching
the helpless
the inability
to do anything
as the injured die
it hurts yes
as society
the younger people
laugh at the death
laugh at the helpless
as the older
just sit and watch
no one there to save him
no one there to help
you watch
unable to do anything
that is the issue
with the nightmare

random

I am one of six
one of the new idea
the test subject
to see if you were willing to see
one who does know
that what has happened has
i am glad you have told me though
it keeps from the hypocrite
it keeps from it all
I understand it all
I am glad I was told
it wasn't shocking
but helped
it calmed me
yes your attempt
your death
it calmed what has happened
I understand you more
you tell me
in hopes I understand
there are times I understand
times i don't
but yes
in the hopes
I can tell you
my opinion
so stay by me
and understand
that we are not two of the same
but two people
looking
watching
with each other
as toys
but as paly mates too

random

Are you ok?
it was asked
when I was not
it hurt
to watch as your words
suddle as they were
asked if I wanted to just leave
to just be with someone else
it is interesting
i wanted to just be annoyed
i had no attention
and at th time
had no idea what was going on
through your brain
through anything
i never knew you were interested
so I sat there
curled into a ball
as the fruits of my labor
fell to pieces

Yes, the nightmare is silly. I really shouldn't fear it as much as I do. But I think I'm better now. Last night I dreamed of playing hide and seek with you and Vince in your dad's house, which I have never seen and somehow had an elevator. xD I had just feared that I would never be able to escape the nightmare, never be able to sleep well again. And well, now I've proved that wrong; I'm good now. *hugs you* Thanks for being there.

your welcome. i am curious on this elevator place and such, and why playing hide and go seek?? anyway, drabble again time!!

random

i am but the one
through the day
sad
depressed
i am the one on the cover
the one everyone sees
in elegant black
a purity
i sit there
crying
ignoring my own issues
it hurts you see
to be there
no know
that although he will come
i will probably ruin his mood
i wished him to not see
but it hurt
it hurt to yell
to know what I did
so i lay there
sadly
curled
depressed
and crying
in an elegant black
in the middle of the floor
lying
dead
to the world
that I had caged myself away from

random

I am merely
just a phase
a wet puddle
a person to play with
to be limp
but at times
do want to play
and at times
i wish you were awake
as awake as I
but that is not possible
I run
and I run
for hours
for days
so you see
i am curious
what has happened
now that I am no longer
the running
but the stay still
and be there
with me.

random

it dawns on oneself
that happiness
is truly in the eyes of the one who olds it
i am beaming on the outside
happy
uber happy
with legs tired
with the rush of the wing running through my hair
with every stride
that i am truly alive
my feet pounding
but still light
rolling
hitting only one sidewalk at a time
with marks still on me
marks of affection
all over
with red showing
from the biting that ensued
it is glorious I tell you
the run and the bites
but that is who i am
and with just that
I am happy
till the end of time

56. lost time

When the distance becomes to much
is it just life
or do we wish we could make up
the time
the time apart
for it is precious
we will miss it
but what is to come
knowing we will all part
and as such
what will happen
when we get back together
will we continue from earlier
and call?
or will it fade
into the darkness
the time lost
that part forgot
in the relationship
is that how it is?
is that what we want
or do we do more
do we touch more
understand
talk till the end of time
for the lost time
can never be made up
"it is not the amount of breaths you take"
"but the moments that take your breathe away"
it is true
but every time
do we try
and make it all up
for the time is truly lost
into chaos
for we will never
have an extended life
but we will do what we can
and mark more of what we know
indulge
in this ecstasy
longer
to make up for
lost time

random

as we sit here
playing
I watch
he plays
it is not out of the norm
I will die
falling to bed
it hurts yes
but it is still there
I want to be there
there
not crying
not crying ever again
i want him to keep my tears dry
and to not have more than a gleaming moment of it.
so then
can i sit here
being there
and have you tell me
not sweet nothings
but the truth
or that never again
I will have to leave you
and i will always be here

random

as we sit here
playing
I watch
he plays
it is not out of the norm
I will die
falling to bed
it hurts yes
but it is still there
I want to be there
there
not crying
not crying ever again
i want him to keep my tears dry
and to not have more than a gleaming moment of it.
so then
can i sit here
being there
and have you tell me
not sweet nothings
but the truth
or that never again
I will have to leave you
and i will always be here

random

when we can all be here
this will take forever
but so it is said
this meeting
this meeting of people
it is like a guild
forever together
the ones you least expect
they are all here
all here together
it is such that
we all stay here
doing what we want
and yet
we sit
we love it all
we are here
as one unit
one guild
we see
we support
and as such
we sit here
to represent
that is such
the case of the meeting
of the greeks