31. Dragon

it is that little name
that I hold
a little name
i got for my addiction
to the animal
but then why
have I never gotten the name
anime
or anything
nerd
or such
but dragon
my one and only nickname
it is why
it is hard to see
for they are soo pretty
and slightly amusing
it is hard
to keep under control
strong
but actually weak at times
it is hard ot see
but harder to understand
mythical
and mysterious
of what they really like
that is the dragon
in me.

random

I woke up
with nothing left
but the strain
that never again was I to see it
that I was not going to be able to see the issues I was wandering into
that it is jsut my own uncertainty
it is something
that through the ages
i understand you care
but keep my uncertainty
at bay
for that is what is in the end
important.

35. Lyrics

the most importance
for when I see it all the time
i can sing
with the lyrics
the time
and knowing it all
it makes me understand
that never again
will anything happen
but the love i have
to understand
the humor
and the sorrow
from the lyrics
of the song
it is those times
that i know it all
that I understand that one day
i ill remember a old song
and start singing it
for the sake
of the love
the understanding of every word
the tune
and the reason
behind the lyrics

18. Wild parties

THe few
i have never seen
i do not liek them
i love music parties
drinking included
fun
amusing times
but nothing
but the fun
not jsut to drink
but to see it all
I understand
that never again
will it be the case
but I did like the times
i got to try everything
and that at some point
I will be there
old enough
to see
that never again
will I see a movie
without the amusements
that it will be easy
to understand
and movies
will be hilarious once again
at the fun parties
I have seen
with us all
again.

random

I am waiting
understanding
that it rains
when I am down
understanding
that it is nothing
but the day that I woke
to see everything wrong
everything he way I am
it is what has happened to me
but tell me
why have you despaired me
why has each person shown me my own way
but understand
all who are here
none can help
all can do only a few things for me
and soon
it will all wrap up again
trying perfectly
to consume me
and never let me awaken
ever again

random

the love
the condo
it is going to be amazing
i understand
i will not be able to complain
I will not understand
but it is what I want
a place
to call my own
a place
to really see
that it matters not
who I am
or where I am
I can simply exist
for the time
and see
that I can be alone
but alive
once again
that I can take care of myself
that when you are gone
I will morn
but will not be lost
is that what you wonder?
is that why you seem to want to make sure
that I won't be awake
anymore.

random

I always wonder
why do you want me to have other friends
why do you worry as to why I have friends
why I talk to other people
or don't talk for this matter
I like to
it is something
that i do
I will try and do what I can
to be with you
but at the same time
I am wondering
is it worth it in the end
are you willing to deal with me
i would liek to stay
bby your side
somewhat
but it is important
for I want to see that you can exist
and do what you want
but then again
why should I care
for it is me that I see
and the me
that you don't see
but that is ok
for sometime
you will see them all
and all the time I want to talk
thrown into a point
to love
and see
that I am indeed
social

random

the run away
is something I have now done
it made me understand
in the end
i am alone
I self destruct
all around me'
and then run away
wanting to understand
wanting to see
that soon
i will be back
that soon
tell me
it is jsut me
that it is just my imagination
that it is all ok
that no one can solve it
but me
that it is ok though
for we will all do what we can
that is what is important I guess
and that is why
I should just sit
and be understanding
that one day
I will break out
into it all
and be ok
again

19. Underneath your wing

I am yet not
I understand
when the weather is good
I am out to play
but underneath your wing
when it is cold
when it is rainy
maybe that is why you think
I am so far away
that I am close at times
when you want me to play
but want me to come back
every time
I am taken care of
by you
but at the same time
I hope
you are being taken care of
by me
yes we are getting alot more
for the wing
is shelter
and holds me still
yes you are there
It is ok
I can calm down
you are here
next to me
for us both
I am under your wing
always
being told
it is fine

8. Like a cat

meow?!
it is the screams
the wounds
the scratch on my head
the likes getting petted
if I was a house animal
I would be
a cat
but more
a touchy
wanting an attention one
one who likes playing
but yes
a little like a cat
but I will not be a cat
I curl like one
but true
I live
more like something else
more elegant
that is why
I am sleek
a bit
like a cat
who seems
just all the same
and occasionally
will make the sound
of the meow...

bite me part 2

hurt the pain
the flesh
the slight numb
the inability to move
the pain
the sensation
as the nerves
go though
the red mark
that is left
the many small ones
the proof of your torture
your amusement
your play
bite me
over and over
to not tear
do not eat but bite
and taste the flesh
and the tongue
of the times that we will never again
hold the spots well
of the bite
so bite me
over and over again
and mark me
as yours

29. Half in love

we are both
half in love
we do not call it full
for reading
writing
understanding the fun
that is where we are
but that half
does make a whole
and it is that whole
that keeps it all together
it is the times that i understand
that no matter what it is
it doens't matter
for we will get through
the half part
you do not complete me
nor do I complete you
but we both understand
we are not the most we can be
we are not what we are thought of by everyone
but it is that part
that loves
and only partial
understands
that we are indeed
both half
in love

34. “Oh! My love, with me you must contend.”

if I ever heard this
I would probably freak
it is true though
I content
I deal with
and I love
to deal with what I must do
for someone else
it is some stuff
that I must admit to
command
and toss me where ever
but I will contend
to be there
and do everything
I want
and everything you want
as a choice
to keep myself
from ever dealing with the fact
that I will once again
love
the commandment
that I must contend
to the one I love.

4. Intoxicating

the intoxicating
the parts of your body
by touch
is the intoxication
I get drunk
off your touch
after everything
and intoxicated without it
and then given
I will do everything
for touch
and with that
I will intoxicate
all that I can be
and love everything
that is how we got together
two people
intoxicated
by touch
and intoxicated before that
that is why we will understand
that it is something that one day
we will deal with everything
and understand
it is the touch
that is intoxicating
to me
and my addiction
for all

11. More than anyone else

more than anyone else
I want you to be happy
that is a lie
but it something
that more than anyone
supposidly
I let others
push me around
and hold me
it is more than anyone else
that I let everyone
become happy
it is hard
but one day
I will be there
do as everyone says
not for acceptance
but to get what i want
the days I need to
when it all boils down to it
so more than anyone else
humans are
toys
to me
that I bow down to
to make them all bow
to me.

92. Hiccup Cures

white horse
think of a white horse
say nothing
just focus
on the purity
of one thing
until it all goes away
it is the concentration
that will cause them
to understand
that only that simple
pure answer
that conjured in thy head
that makes one understand
that it is a cure
to the hiccups
that no one like
but apparently
works for some
when all else fails

goal for nanowrimo

I have a goal
it is very very difficult
it is
to do a list of drabbles
in the month of november
instead of
the 50,000 words
that makes no sense
so go again
and make it what we want
for you see
that is what it is
and it is best to see
that soon
it will all be fun

89. Listening

there is a difference
between listening
and doing nothing
it is this listening
that we gain respect
an understanding
for everyone
it is what others do for me
and it what i do for others
that is why I am quiet
or so i think
it is part of who i am
but it is also that in the end
we see it all
it gives us a picture
it is "how to save a life"
it is important for we see
that in the end
i should be there
just to listen
just to understand
that in the end
is all one can do for
don't solve it
but listen
occasionally respond
and understand
that we will be there
for me
always listening
for in the end
that is all I need

73. Baking

it is the only thing I am good at
give me a pie
I will be nice eat it
but give me a dinner
I will gorge
i love my sweets
and with the sweet comes the backing
the backing for anyone
for the one I love
it is that time
that I understand
where I am
what I come from
ti is the time i must admit
that worries me
because I do nothing
but something
so give me a chance
to live life to the fullest
and bake all i can
for you
for me
for birthdays
and not, and with that
get to understand
i will not awaken
till dawn
or time to come
for baking
will be
my sweetest tooth
and just for me

87. “The night is young…”

the night is young
for I do much
and very little
I got to bed at 12
alone
or 2
with someone
at 2
I am awake
well understanding
that I will be amazed
that everything I do
is simple
that everything
including going to bed
means the night is young
that there is time for play
that everything is left out the window
and here to stay
it will be fun
and amazing
and worth it all
but one can see
that it is hard to be there
for i will soon fade
and the night is no longer young
the time
no longer dead
but all that lasts around me
will be young once more
tomorrow
when i get to play again
between the time of bed
and when I sleep

44. Let’s play a game…

let's play a game
where nothing matters
where you gamble your life
where it matters not if you move
or don't
there are only a few rules
do what you will
pretending that world is the board
every person
a piece
every understanding
a move
every thought
a decision
play to win
or play
knowing you are going to lose
it is hard
but will you pick up another peice
will you move before them
and wonder when thye don't move anywhere
play as if you mean it
play for the depths
and the understanding
of what
in the end
that you want

65. Refreshing

the most one can say
about the time
in the end
the rain
as the shower
warms one up
the cool water
yet hot
on one's skin
it is that time
as the time
the relaxing time
after everything has been done
as you confess
in your own way
and I lay there
in your lap
not wanting to move
that is what refreshing is.

38. Hideaway

I can hideaway
within myself
in the corridor
far beyond where anyone can find
building walls
keeping everyone away
locking myself
from the outside
but people come
looking
and never find
I can hide in a group
in my hideaway
I can hide into the city
still my hideaway
it is the hiding in the group
that I do well
but the cave works as well
to keep me
from ever dealing with myself
I hideaway
in the maze
the labyrinth
of my brain

42. Too close for comfort

I am warm and fuzzy
and lots of fun
but don't come close
to my past
don't come close
to my inner self
you are too close
to seeing my real
scared self
to even understand
what I see
what I am
stay away
close
hugging
even other things
but don't tear though my life
and walk though
knowing all of me
for you see
it is then
too close
for comfort

94. Eyes

my eyes
are nothing
but a peice
to see color
but the beuty
the color
the slight green
the tint of amusement
the gave
that you are watching
looking at something
looking out
on the world
it is time
for me to stare again
at the vast color
inside
where it reads all of you
yet none of you
and it is that color
that odd
but beautiful color
that makes me amused
for i wish
to watch
as you stare out
into the world
for your life
the rest of your time.