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01-11-2009, 09:20 AM
WOOHOO, LET'S JUST GO CRAZY, OKAY?
mah crazy always shows! 8D
i was, uhm... diagnosed with depression? but the pills made me actually depressed, so i haven't taken them for a few years. x3
really, though, not joking with the crazy. i'm sure if someone actually checked me, they'd declare me with some kind of insanity or another.
dani. i love you. XD
speaking of firearms, fireworks are legal here. they just sell them in stands on the side of the road that say something ridiculous like "buy 1 get 11 free!" you should visit us. :3
(no, really. VISIT ME FOR I AM LONELY.)
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01-11-2009, 09:22 AM
xD
I don't get emotional. I guess you could say I'm shut down most of the time. Except around animals go figure. The little thing that says "no fire arms" isn't because I'll go on a killing rampage, its cause I'd point at someone for interrupting my reading time, and just hold it there till I was done.
Ask leenie, there's nothing creepier then someone smiling then dropping all emotion off their face. ^^
I set off fireworks anyway.
Crap I finished, Lunatic Cafe. I'm running low on books this week.
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tirethminet
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01-11-2009, 09:27 AM
she is fuckin' creepy when she goes serious. ;_;
i have to go hide in another room. D:
figured that was why. you're not the kind of person just to go on a serial killing spree. XD
well we can get them in bulk here and not have to skip over to delaware or whatever to get some.
i would send you your books, but i'm getting those other books for you. and it takes a while because of bidding times and stuff. T_T
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01-11-2009, 09:28 AM
I almost lost my best friend because on of those episodes...I'd called her freaking out and saying I just didn't want to live anymore (I've had serious issues with depression) and then when she showed up, I was talking to another friend on the phone about some stupid thing. She walked in, looked at me, and just dropped to her knees and started sobbing. I kept talking on the phone for a few minutes until her crying made it hard to hear, then I just sort of said, "I have to go. I'll talk later." Then I just stared at her for almost twenty minutes. When she finally calmed down, I said, "Finished?" She just stared at me for a moment so I said, "You can leave whenever you want, you know."
It was...bad. She was really upset and freaked out for a long time. The worst happened when I was a kid, though, and nearly choked my friend to death because she made me angry. It was weird...I was mad, and then suddenly I wasn't. I was just thinking, "If you can't talk, you can't irritate me." Then I wasn't thinking anything at all.
And I have this weird ability to, when I'm angry, construct almost an invisible barrier around me. I let one person in to talk to me, and everyone else, whether they know me or not, stays at least ten feet away from me at all times.
It's getting a lot better. D: Been over a year since I had an episode. Still depressed sometimes, though. XD
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01-11-2009, 09:43 AM
When I was five I shoved my best friend at the time onto a board of rusty nails. She laughed at something I didn't think was funny so I calmly aimed then shoved her. Now I just go blank and contemplate things. Which scares people more then the violence oddly enough.
I'm not the best friend in the world because I can't seem to care about their well being a lot of the time. Somehow I keep some around.
@Leenie: <3 I hug you when you come out of hiding... Wait, I let you hug me when you come out of hiding. xD
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tirethminet
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01-11-2009, 09:50 AM
o_o;;; whoa.
every sort of violent or emotional thought stays in my head and only in my head, i literally can't act on it because i'm frozen with the fear of cause and effect. what sort of effect my actions will cause on other people.
i guess i'm a thinking crazy and you guys are action crazy. |D
<3 hugs.
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01-11-2009, 09:51 AM
I'm a great friend when I keep my emotions under control. xD I'm one of the most loyal, honest, generous, forgiving people you could meet.
Actually, to the point that a lot of people say I'm too much so.
But I like making my friends happy and I like knowing I can keep myself under control. Losing it isn't cool. It really depresses me when I realize I can't control my own emotions.
But, yay, I'm getting way better. :D Even maintaining my first healthy relationship. *loves her girlfriend infinitely*
Tireth: I'm sorta both. I think about things too much and have to seriously calm myself down or I'll get obsessed with things that will end up nowhere (like me freaking out wondering if anything actually existed or if it was all just in my head).
I hate pills and I hate councelors, but they force me to deal with them if I don't prove I can handle things, so I'm learning to keep things in my head, but it's sort of forming a rather unhealthy second persona. O_O I literally hear voices in my head. But not telling me to do stuff so much as telling me that I'm going to bring down everyone I care about and that I'm ugly and stupid and will never succeed at anything.
*laughs* Yeah, I have self-esteem issues.
EDIT: Bishie needs to sleep. D: Night, night!
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tirethminet
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01-11-2009, 10:03 AM
yay! you deserve a hug! <3
sad on selfesteem issues. D: i understand.
NIGHT, GO TO SLEEP, DON'T GET EATEN BY MONSTER BUGS.
i think i will go to sleep as soon as i finish this episode of skins. season finale and it's making me CRY SO HARD.
(why i don't like dramarama. D: )
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01-11-2009, 10:04 AM
Night!!!
I feel like we had a late night therapy session. xD
@Leenie: Oh I know effect of my cause. ^_^ That's the scary part.
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tirethminet
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01-11-2009, 10:36 AM
we did have late night therapy session. XD
and it's... not that kind of cause. more like i hate making people sad.
all of my suicidal thoughts were only diverted (after ignoring the sharp, pointy objects being sharp and pointy) because i couldn't stand thinking of any of my friends being sad because of my death.
quite literally, that is the only reason i havent taken knives to myself.
i guess some would think i care too much about others? (but some people not nearly enough. xp)
ANYWHO, i'm off to bed at 430am. i should go take more pills and blow my nose and maybe read for a bit. BUT I'M NOT GOING TO POST HERE ANYMORE IN THE NEXT 6 HOURS, MINIMUM.
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01-11-2009, 01:15 PM
D: That's totally how I feel Tireth.
On a totally unrelated note, I have a question for everyone in the thread.
I only got like an hour and a half of sleep, and as I was waking up, I had this weird thought pass through my brain: "I don't read for an escape. I read so my ideas don't seem so crazy, so I know that life can be different, so I know that it is possible to keep going. I read so I know there are others more out-there than me and others more boring than me, and either way, it can be done. I read because, in fantasy, everything has a reason and a purpose, and it gives me faith in reality."
It was one of those things that passes through your mind so quickly, you almost don't catch it. But it got me thinking...why do you guys read? What is it about books that makes everyone here keep coming back for more?
I read for the above reasons, plus because of an intense desire to learn. I want to know everything I can, and reading is definitely the best way for me to learn both factual concepts and more abstract ideas. I also read so I can think--so I can get new ideas and help circulate my old ones. And, the biggest one, I read so I can write. :3 The two go hand-in-hand.
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01-11-2009, 04:39 PM
@Leenie: Sad-ness? ::cocks head::
@Bishie: I read to learn and because I write, pretty much for the same reasons as you. Though I also read to escape the mundane nature of the life around me, but since I technically believe in many of the things considered "Fantasy" it's not really an escape from reality. More like an escape to reality, not many people around share the same beliefs and ideas that I have so since I was young I would pull back into the recess' of my mind when people would try and discourage me. So now reading a book is like finding new friends with the same interests. A good book is a good friend, cliche but true. Like I said last night, looking for someone with Mo Folchart's gift in America. xD
PS - The three of us talked for about two and half pages last night.
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01-11-2009, 05:58 PM
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@kitami - THANKGOD. someone who spells faerie correctly. :]
because they are fae.
fairy always makes me think of tinkerbell. D:
(i have very opinionated opinions about "mythical" creatures. XD)
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xD Yay.
-nods- Fey, faerie, faeries. ^_^
Tinkerbell is pretty cool though. >_>
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@Bishie: That's what I think too. Well I think fairies are the fake fairy tale stuff like Disney. Faeries are the ones who will steal your children and eat you face if they felt like, you know the real ones. (Is not ashamed to admit that faeries, spirits and elementals are real.) :)
@Kitami: Ironside is new within a year, year and a half.
Yes Bloody Bones is next. I have yet to meet Nathaniel or Asher, but I have a thing for controlling egotistical jerks. Not in the "I'm going to change them" or "He's different when we're alone" kind of way, not even in the "I like being bossed around way." I need a someone who's actually as mentally tough as they boast... otherwise I break people. Oops. Thus Jean-Claude's top on my list for now and I'm trying to find someone with Mo Folchart's skills. xD
If any one gets that reference you get a cookie.
@Leenie: You have a life? What? I didn't finish a book today, but I did get three fourths of the way through.
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Only the stuff in the slaugh would eat your face, probably...
Even the lesser fey wouldn't eat your face....Brownies are good little things...no face eating there. o.o
As for kidnapping, members of the courts would do that...like human pets. xD
Wow, I'm making myself sound odd, aren't I? 'This type of faerie will do this...'
I've studied faeries, a lot...maybe even more than I have vampires. XD
Haha. Asher is....just win. He's got this attitude thing, like he's moody. And he's totally beautiful. <3
Nathaniel isn't egotistical at all. He's freaking adorable. But not like in a wimpy way. >_>; -is afraid to keep talking about characters you haven't met yet-
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This sounds pretty cool and something, I would like to take part in the future.
For now though, I'm way too busy >,<
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You should join if you get the time. :D
Bishie:: I read to learn. I read to research things that I happen to be writing about (places, faeries, vampires lol). Other reasons, well, I read for different reasons. Like I read Harry Potter over and over because, wouldn't it be awesome to be in that world? I read Edgar Allan Poe because I enjoy the darkness in his work. I read stuff like the 'Little House' books to revisit books I loved in childhood (and neatly enough, I'm learning things from them). Stuff like Anita Blake and Merry Gentry books, I read because...well, I love the characters, and also some of the character's personality traits and things I can relate to, while others, I'm like "Ha, at least I'm not that bad." XD
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FeyonaSaibre
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01-11-2009, 06:25 PM
Awwww....dangit... I completely missed the conversation about the Anita Blake series... *cries*
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01-11-2009, 06:39 PM
Ara ara ara. I havn't really been reading much at all lately. Damn time constraints.
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Ack.
Forgot to add one to the list.
Anyone else read
The Invention of Hugo Cabret by Brian Selznick?
'Tis a really awesome book. The combination of the illustrations and the text...It's hard to explain. Also a relatively fast read. Took a couple of hours for me. I lost track of time while reading it, but I only know it was a couple of hours for we hadn't gone for dinner yet. xD
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01-11-2009, 07:28 PM
@Yrecka: I've read it. I enjoyed it too. Very different in many ways.
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01-11-2009, 07:31 PM
Here's a update
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Ihatetests list for 2009
Start: 1.1.2009
Finish: 1.1.2010
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826/ 15000
1. Random act of heroic love by Danny Scheimann
380 pages (completed)
2. Oliver Twist by Charles Dickens
506 pages (Currently on page 223)
3. Interview with a vampire By Anna rice
368 pages (currently on page 56)
4. Rebel cargo by James Rioran
297 pages (Completed)
5. Of mice and men by John Steinbeck
149 pages (Completed)
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01-11-2009, 07:33 PM
Edit your first post, Tests. ^^
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Dream_and_Die
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01-11-2009, 07:36 PM
@Kita: I know that 99% of fae won't eat your face. I was just being a little theatrical. Just watch out for Fir Darrig and make sure a kelpie doesn't want to drown you. xD Human pet for a year and a day, if you get stolen by a Seelie. You don't sound weird at all, I do it too. Right now I'm contemplating doxies in my walls, or pixies playing pranks. Plus I were an iron necklace, I don't trust Unseelie's very much.
I don't mind learning about characters so long as you don't mention their connection to Anita. Then I can't piece anything together. Sadly though I accidentally read the summary of one of the newer books. So I know stuff I didn't want to know yet. T_T
@Feyona: You can't start another convo about Anita Blake. It's not over if you don't want it to be. I'm in the middle of Bloody Bones so I'm geared for talks. xD
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Knerd
I put the K in "Misspelling"
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01-11-2009, 08:04 PM
IHateTests, I've edited your post into a quote.
Since you've already earned gold for that list by editing it into your official post, it would be unfair for you to earn gold for it again. :yes:
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01-11-2009, 08:39 PM
I'm miles behind, but ner, I'm posting anyway.
Bishie: I think I read a lot because of the way I was brought up. My parents taught me to read and to respect books. In school I was frustrated because they didn't seem to accept the fact I could already read at 3, and tried to start me on "Bob has a ball/ The ball is red" type rubbish. I can see why some people think books are boring or only for smart people because that's how my teachers made them out, as an educational tool rather than something to enjoy.
My parents never stopped me from reading a book unless the content was inappropriate, and never said "You can't read that because it's too hard" or "You can't read that because you won't understand". Books are just a normal part of life for me as a form of entertainment, just as much as watching a television show or browsing the internet. End rant!
Yreka: I might check that book out actually, the reviews look interesting. I used to be a bit of a snob and refuse to read anything wrote for children, but I'm trying to accept a good book is a good book whatever age range it's for. Someone on Amazon had bought The Graveyard Book at the same time, so it must be alright. XD
+ I've got a teeny bit further through the philosophy book I'm reading but I think I'll have to start Accelerando soon or it'll be due back to the library before I'm done. >.<
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FeyonaSaibre
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01-11-2009, 09:34 PM
Sweet! I've read everything up until the Danse Macabe...tell me, I don't remember... has Micah been introduced yet?
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tirethminet
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01-11-2009, 10:34 PM
@bishie - i read to live in a world of fantasy, adventure, aliens, whatever. it's like i need to know that there's another way to make this boring life more interesting. more than anything, i love books that start out with normal settings and normal people and magical things happen to them, like harry potter, wicked lovely, AvALon, abarat, coraline, old magic, the list can go on. your average daily-life books just aren't enough, fantasy is more real for me.
i'd love to write, but english classes, funnily enough, have completely turned me off from writing, so i have to build that back up some time. and reading helps.
i read to be alive, i read to get inspiration to live my life, i read to never grow up.
that flash has been playing for the past forty-five minutes. @[email protected];;
at one point i got up to get dressed and just club danced around my room. XD
@dani - don't pretend like you don't know sadness, you ridiculous woman.
and... why are we always so similar? it's creepy, in a way. XD
we talk a lot, wow. 8O
@kitami - tinkerbell is cool, just not what i think of when i think of faeries.
she's a modern imagining of a fairy.
@feyona - you can probably start another anita blake conversation. i'm sure most of the participants won't mind. XD
(thanks for getting me to want to read them, guys. >_> )
@yreka - i want to read that now. i always got annoyed at it because it kept showing up in the juv comic & manga section in my old store , when it's supposed to be in the juv fiction section, but while i was working before christmas someone came up and asked me for "the invention of something, it got the caldecott medal, and it's a huge book." no joke. but you have made me want to read it now, so, crap. another book i have to read. XD <3
@kat - omg. respect books. i wrote in most of my books until about age 6, but almost all of them were just my name in a red pen inside the front cover or on title pages. though i did have fun colouring my mom's dictionary with crayons. and i coloured the cover of one of my dear america books with pink pen. x3
for some reason, my mom was amazed that i was reading through picture books by myself in kindergarten. i just picked them up and i started reading them. there really wasn't any learning process into it, though, so it was a little odd.
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01-11-2009, 10:56 PM
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@kat - omg. respect books. i wrote in most of my books until about age 6, but almost all of them were just my name in a red pen inside the front cover or on title pages. though i did have fun colouring my mom's dictionary with crayons. and i coloured the cover of one of my dear america books with pink pen. x3
for some reason, my mom was amazed that i was reading through picture books by myself in kindergarten. i just picked them up and i started reading them. there really wasn't any learning process into it, though, so it was a little odd.
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That's funny, because my dad told me that it was the same way when I started reading books. I started reading those chapter books in 1st grade. I guess that means I was destined to be a book nerd. :lol:
Oh, did you ever read those books that were like "My Teacher is a Vampire"? I can't remember the series name.
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Stormy1
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01-11-2009, 11:41 PM
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Sweet! I've read everything up until the Danse Macabe...tell me, I don't remember... has Micah been introduced yet?
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In the books leading up to Danse Macabe? Yeah he's been introduced already, the book before DM is actually labeled Micah and about him (to an extent).
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