I used to have anxiety problems... they run in the family. I had panic attacks that left me curled up in my closet and struggling to breathe... all for some vague notion of impending doom. I used to have it in my head that my mother was going to commit suicide, or that I would go crazy and hurt or kill someone I loved (when was walking on the sidewalk, I always tried to be on the outside just so I couldn't push someone into traffic).

I had a very dark childhood. . _.

When it comes to authority, I'm not worried about being reprimanded. These people are all strangers, this is a website, why would I care? I'll just fix what I did wrong and move on. If I post normally and use basic common sense, I should be okay.

... also, I don't like bunnies. Don't trust 'em.

I fear any pms I get now...-_-'

I'm also afraid of a bunch of other stuff...but most of it's rational. so.. yeah ^^" I do hate getting pms though. They're hardly ever nice, even if they're from friends.

xD The first time I got a PM from a mod, I freaked out because I thought I did something wrong. And this is because on past sites I've been on, Staff didn't message you for small talk. Turned out it was only Kale, wanting to buy something from me.

But nowadays, I don't think much of PMs. I don't get many of them, and I'm friends with most of the Staff. They're much kinder here than anywhere else.

I have a seriously irrational fear of falling through a sewer drain. . . I will not walk on manholes or sewer grates. They scare the crap out of me.
One day, I told my bf this (I don't remember how or why it came up, but whatever) and he's been making fun of me since. He hasn't been doing it to be mean, just joking but I don't think he realizes that it seriously bothers me.
I just about kicked him this one time when he was walking me home and he stepped on a man hole and wobbled and made a fake yell. I about jumped five feet in the air backwards, towards the street. He apologized and hasn't done it since. . . but he's not walked me home in a while either.
I have no idea where this fear came from, I've had it since forever, but I know it wasn't helped when I read the book It (by Stephen King, I think) and read about the part with the little boy in the sewer drain. I wasn't able to finish the book because of that part.


I also have a fear of people touching my neck. This fear, however, I know exactly where it orriginated. My step-father was abusive and choked me and my mother on several occasions. I've gotten to the point where I can tolerate slight, accidental brushes without flinching too terribly much. But I almost freaked out this one time when I was at work and one of my co-workers came up behind me and jokingly put his hands around my neck. I told him I wasn't comfortable with him doing that and he just laughed it off, saying it was a joke. I was shaking for the rest of the day.

I've gotten several warnings from mods here on Menewsha and just like you was pretty afraid XD
Its not that I didn't read the T.O.S.
it was just that I didn't fully understand what they were trying to say.
Such as double posting,
I thought it was if you accidently posted the same content twice.
Not posting anything before another persons' response x]

I'm scared of PMs on Gaia every now and then. I've never broken a rule there so it's kind of pointless. I also fear any trades sent to me on Gaia.

I also have a fear of spiders for no reason.

I have the same feeling about it.
When I first joined a while ago I was
so scared when I got a pm because I was
always getting in trouble for double posting
since I was so use to doing it on Gaiaonline.com.
I still am a little scared when I get a pm
never knowing what its going to say.

I think alot of people got warnings for double posting. XD I did too, but it's the only warning I've gotten since because I'm super careful now and know all the rules. XP I was really used to must having my thread at the top of the first page because of Gaia, back when I was a newbie. @[email protected] Now, I know it doesn't matter if my thread isn't at the very top since people always, or mostly will, reply to threads that are lower. Plus, Mene doesn't move soo fast that if you don't post every minute in your thread, it'll go to the 5th page. O__O;

I have a horrible fear of ANY bugs, no matter how big or small or harmless they are. If I can see them, I'm terrified of them. T^T And yes, this includes ants, flies, spiders, etc. I don't know why I'm afriad of them either, only the fact that I am. :cry:

I believe when I first joined, I got a warning because I had one of those little images following my post. I was used to doing it on Gaia and I didn't realize it wasn't okay here.

It does kind of freak me out when I see a PM from a mod or something, but not as much as it did on Gaia. On Gaia I just thought "what did I do wrong this time?" Since the only reason the mods will ever contact you there is to warn you...

The reason you probably haven't received any on Gaia is likely because of how big it is. Because Menewsha is a smaller community it's easier for the moderators to keep track of what is going on, whereas on Gaia it's too much for the mods to keep up with.
However, those irrational fears, I definitely get that. I have tons of little things that scare me (and not so little things) because of bad experiences. The biggest one took me a while to get over, but I used to be terrified of cars and refused to get my license or drive at all. I finally got over it when I was pregnant with my first baby because my husband didn't drive either and so I figured I'd be more comfortable driving myself to the hospital to have the baby than I would be having him (an exceptionally new driver if he'd gotten his license by then) drive me XD
One of the not so big ones and one I'm really not sure where it came from, is the fear of talking on the phone. I don't know why, but I will avoid phone calls if at all possible.

i have an irrational fear of:

Silence - My biggest fear, because I get absolutely freaked out when it's too silent. I'll start hearing things, seeing things, it scares the shit out of me O_O; tis why I always sleep with some music on.

Drivng too fast - I am a total granny on the road, I absolutely mortified of going too fast. I'm afraid if I look away for just one moment, or if i sneeze, I might hit something or fly off the road DX

Being yelled at - my gut just completely turns inside out when someone is literally roaring in anger. My drama teacher was trying to choreograph a musical number, when he didnt know the music. and when he kept being made fun of for it, he snapped and just yelled at everyone to do it without him. But before he left, he turns and yells "NOW."
and so naturally, you got all these highschool kids singing "hello dolly" while right about to piss themselves in fear.
when we finished, I couldnt help but look around and whisper, "Is he gone?"

Originally Posted by Urboros

On certain sites I do fear the mods, like magivolve (they just attack). I don't notice if I have a pm unless I check my email, -_- The user bar should be on the other side I'm like left side blind. I just don't look at it.

But yes I've had a few pm that had bad news in them, but most of the mods try to be nice about breaking the "news". most of the pms are from friends, so My PM=surprise :D

LOL!
Awwww I never attacked anyone. *glances around sheepishly* Did I? xD

I hate to warn people, honestly. It takes me awhile to send the pm because I hate it if someone is mad at me and I actually feel like I'm being mean sometimes. xD

Wow, this thread really took off. XD

I'm also afraid of eating living things. Like... I hate eating berries because it's easy to imagine they're full of bugs.

Anyways, I have so many irrational fears there are too many to list. :(

I need to go to bed now, I may list some of them tomorrow if I don't forget. =)

I have a fear of punishment. I think part of this fear is due to how hard I am on myself. I'm also an over-achiever that hates myself whenever I let anyone down.

Mr. Mayor has Moderated your Gold!

For the Easter eggs just today. I totally forgot about it, and when I saw the title of the PM, I was like.. OH SHIT WHAT DID I DO?!

I've never received a PM from a mod as I've never actually broken any rules. x] And am not special enough to get one from them for random things C:

I don't have a fear of my pm box it's my friend.
Also I have only ever got one warning on gaia for sending a chain message. Since then I haven't ever received a warning or anything. Though on gaia I think thats just because the site is to big and the mods to few.
On Mene .... I dunno I don't think I have ever done anything bad on here, yet.

!! I dislike it so much when I get warning letters. (I haven't gotten one in a long time!) ;~; It makes me feel guilty, and like I've somehow been tainted. So I try really hard to not do anything stupid. ,>___<,

I have lots of irrational fears! DD:

Number one would be ceiling fans. *___* They scare me so bad! D: I can't stand to be in a room with one turned on.

Others are: speakers turned up too loudly, wind chimes hitting too hard, heavy-looking things hanging from thin wire, and veins.

I've never gotten hassled by mods on any website, but it's always a lingering fear I have. I'm afraid that I'll do something stupid and mess up and the mods will get mad at me and then I'll be branded a "troublemaker" and the mods will have their eye on me forever after that. I know that mods don't actually have the time to care about some stupid girl who probably would never do anything worse than accidentally double-posting or something, but it's freaky.
Plus, depending on the site there are so many freaking rules about how to post and behave and stuff and it gets to be a little overwhelming and I get freaked out O_o

I'm afraid to post in the egg thread. Because a mod who hates me who I'm afraid has probably labeled me as a bad person now has posted in there, and I have no idea if she runs the NPCs either. And I really am not comfortable with the idea of the mods/NPCs moderating my gold. ;_; Especially since that one mod wanted to take gold from me. So I guess I'm not going to buy any eggs. Maybe I'll look for them in the exchange forum later. x_x I'm still saving up for special event items in the shop anyways... Too many limited things to buy at once. =/

I have an irrational fear of roller coasters and finding things in my toilet...things that shouldn't be there. I don't even know why. I guess that's why they call them irrational fears.

My irrational fear is nail files.

I HATE the feeling of them. I hate the sound of them. They scare me.

I'm terrified of getting bad grades (my definition of bad is a B+).