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Old 04-30-2008, 07:58 AM

Again I stick to private but I am in one with Kirsch that is a forbidden love. My char is 16 hers 23, basically about the troubles they go through hiding their relationship and falling in love. ^^

I'm in another with Tori, Tetsu and Rampy. It's a boarding school RP.. with obvious tell tale signs of a school romance sort of thing. This one with mythical creatures, angels, vampire, neko-boys.. that sort and humans of course.

And another with Tori about a Prince and his knight savior. ^^;

Blond - Very cool. Insomnia looks very cute. I need one of him. I am an insomniac.. or rather part. It's 3am and I'm just beginning to get truly tired.

I'll be heading to bed very soon because ofit.

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Old 04-30-2008, 07:59 AM

I remember reading something about that one time, but I really can't remember what it was. Mind explaining the 'ego', 'super ego', and 'id' thing? I think I learned about it in my philosophy class, but that was several years ago....

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:07 AM

ID is basically what babies run on. It's your basic needs that give no true thought process. If you need food, you eat, water, you drink, excrete waste. That sort of thing. But it's also the more violent part of you.

You get angry at someone the first thing that pops into your mind is to attack, to defend yourself and your honor. To smash their face in say.

Your Super Ego is the exact opposite however.. think of the devil and angel sitting on your shoulders you see in many cartoons. The devil is the ID and the Angel the Super Ego. Your Super Ego would say smashing a person's face in is not right and that it should not be done.

Your Ego is the median of these two things, it will choose what's right and wrong and merge them to an acceptable behavior for society. So instead of smashing a person's face in you make a retort and walk away from an impending fight.

Basically it's how you respond to every stimuli you are shown. Typing out what you're going to say though it doesn't seem to have too much thought process of what's right and wrong your ID and Super Ego coach along your Ego self to do what is right. People only see the Ego and fail to see the inner fight of others between the ID and Super Ego.

Though I may have Super Ego and Ego wrong now... I'm too lazy to go find my Psychology notes. >.<

Wrong meaning might have switched them around with each other. I don't think I have though... Just a small worry I have.


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Old 04-30-2008, 08:11 AM

Yea, thats right. I remember learning that in class. That was too long ago. Kinda like I don't remember any Japanese. It makes me kinda sad, I have always wanted to be literate in several languages, but my memory is really bad.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:11 AM

And when you have phobias and fears you tend to regress to base emotions, hence why I named him Id.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:13 AM

Yeah I had taken a course in Japanese at school but after I didn't have the room to continue it and I lost it all. >< I hate that I have.. I might start teaching myself again. >.<

But yeah... Psychology has always been interesting to me. Menewsha is actually a great study like place for me. I'm not at all a great people person in real life so I'm not going into the field of psychology but I love learning about it.

Yes Blond is right. When you have fears/phobias it's your ID that comes into play at most times. You regress to it knowing that following it will allow you to get away from what you fear.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:15 AM

Here is another one:

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:20 AM

No boys magazine? For shame. :lol: jk.
I actually found a boys magazine that could take place of magazine of girl for boys to goggle at (and other girls that swing that way).

It was amusing to see. >.> Especially when finding it at work while on shift.. >.< :heart:

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:21 AM

Hmm... that's very interesting. You're pretty smart for a 19 year-old. :D
but then, you probably didn't drop out of high school like me. I still kinda regret that sometimes.

@blond. i love that one!

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:21 AM

My friend has a lot of boy mags for boys...they are strange. Sorta like combo fashion and porn.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:26 AM

Actually I dropped last year due to stress related health issues. I've returned this year and have only two more courses and one more gym block to finish this semester to graduate. ^^

I'm one who'll pay attention to what I'm interested in. Dropping out is the reason I have taken the course twice. My school offers Uni courses for a highschool credit and a Uni credit if we write the exam. I'm not writing the Uni exam because I almost failed the highschool version. I'm not one to study. >.<

Blond - Ah I see. It was amusing I was flipping through it as I was looking for where it belonged. Had many adds for tv shows of boys coming out in them and such.... Shows that I wouldn't mind watching. I absolutely loved Queer as Folk, it's too bad they don't air it any more. I keep forgetting to find a good site that hosts the tv shows that isn't Youtube. ^^

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:30 AM

See I think they put way too much pressure on you guys in school now. When I was your age, no one had stress issues. But we didn't have as much to deal with either. Some days getting older sucks but I wouldn't want to be young now.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:32 AM

Yeah, it doesn't help my brother is an ass and my 'home' is merely like a prison that I need to keep away from said inmate. >.> My dad pressures me to find a career I want to do in the future but I still have no idea what I want to do.... If I could I'd cut off all contact with my dad's side of the family. >.< But I can't.. not until I have the money to move out however. ^^;

Which will be a while from now yet. Heh.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:33 AM

Yea, I ran away from home when i was 15, due to family problems. I tried to stay in school, but I kept failing classes and losing homework and that sorta thing. Then I started having issues with anger and depression, and had to spend a little time in a mental hospital. After that, I gave up because I was even further behind.
I ended up going to an alternative high school a while later, and graduated from there, but everything was so easy, I didn't learn anything. Apparently most kids that drop out weren't in the advanced classes, so everything was super easy....

sorry if I'm being too personal, Sometimes I forget that it can make some people uncomfortable.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:37 AM

It doesn't make me uncomfortable. People tell me their personal stuff all the time. Complete strangers will walk up to me while I am out in public and just spill their guts about anything and everything. I am used to it.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:40 AM

Huh, thats kinda wierd. haha, well, some people are like that. I don't think I could do that in person. The internet is so wonderfully impersonal. I have social anxiety, so I don't play so well with others.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:42 AM

I have absolutely no idea what I do to inspire people to open up like that. I don't do it on purpose. My husband is always amazed that people do that. I don't even think I seem that approachable in public, but maybe I do?

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:42 AM

No, it's fine Cyanide. ^^
I get way too personal at times myself and make others awkward. What you say hasn't been awkward to me yet. Many times I have attempted to run away, I just.. never have a true plan and return. Most times my running away means getting a boyfriend who allows me to live there most of the time. ^^; That has been my get away most of the time. Doesn't help when I don't have one though.

Depression and stress has always gotten to me when I moved to this area. I used to be a carefree spirit but once we moved that part of me died it seems. The area I came from wasn't so judgemental but once I moved to this area of the city .. people looked at me and I could read on their faces just how freaked out they were about my appearance. From there was the downward spiral of no self-esteem/confidence, extreme shyness and no friends. I used to be friends with a whole grade and was one of the 'popular' so to say but there was none of that there at the time. >.< Moving to a smaller place also affected me.. it's turned me more paranoid about my brother.. In a bigger place I can find a space to myself but here .. it's too small. My room makes me feel clautrophobic and I hide in my mom's room when he's on comp in living room and he thankfully goes to mom's room when I'm on comp.

So though I haven't truly been in anything close to your situations, it still seem relate able to me. I don't pay attention in school because I don't care now. >.< So my grades ares slipping a bit and last semester have.. considering I like Bio and I did horrible.. I like psychology and I nearly failed the exam. >.<

Cy - You have social anxiety too? I'm so much the same. I wish I could have landed the pet shop job to take care of the animals.. I'm so much better with animals. I hate working with the humans irl. Online I love chatting but once you get me offline.. you can't get me to talk for more than a few words. I'm surprised I kept my job for a long as I have already. >.<

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:45 AM

Ok I have to ask Kale...why would they be freaked out about your appearance?

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:48 AM

I used to dress in a unique way and I always acted very very outgoing and acted the way I was with my old group of friends. They seemed this as freakish and even though it was still elementary had the cliques already and huge conspiracies and rumors going around.... It's caused me to mature much faster than I should have.. it's why I sound much older than I am.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:50 AM

Like goth?

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:53 AM

No. ^^
I was very much the tomboy as a kid. To the point many would mistake me as a boy instead of a girl.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:56 AM

Oh well that's not so freakish! I thought you maybe shaved your head and had a face tattooed on the back of your skull er somethin! :XD

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:56 AM

Yea, that sucks. I live in a fairly small city, but it didn't really matter, my parents let me out of the house for school, and that was it. When I left home, I didn't have a plan either. I just took off from school, cause I couldn't handle going home. I ended up on the streets for a while, but I managed, and made some pretty good friends along the way. There was a guy that was already homeless, and he helped me find safe places to camp, and stayed with me to make sure I was ok. We are actually still together, and recently had a baby. wow, that sounds like some lame book, or movie. oh well.

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Old 04-30-2008, 08:59 AM

Lol nope. I'm not one to shave off hair, though I do want a tatoo.. though not on my face. xD

Though I admit I'm so anxious in the crowds especially when I know the people and I dress very common now I still am paranoid that they're thinking I'm a freak.. that the mumblings I hear and the odd comment that could be for someone else that I totally over hear is about be because it's insulting or borderline insulting on appearances. It's usually why I have my music blaring and keep my head ducked in the school halls.

Cyanide - Not at all. It's good that you found someone that helped you when you were out on your own and friends along the way. Nothing's worse than being a lone... Technically it's why I'm obsessed with the internet.. I don't have friends in real life.. I can't trust easily when it comes to people in real life. I think the internet is what has always held me back from actually running away. ><

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