talk about life, heh. i've been through mucho hell for the longest while. OR SO I THOUGHT!
funny really. hasn't life just hit you right in the face one day? and says, "oh hey, i'm really not so bad after all, you just make it that way!" "how about you shut up and actually appreciate everything!"

For those of you that know me; I've suffered from severe social anxiety, I've been pretty poor at times, I've had issues with my body, family, money, et cetera. Basically things that EVERYONE has problems with at times. One day though (just recently a few weeks back), I SNAPPED right out of my social anxiety and my...the world is a much nicer place on this green grass. I'm still fairly poor and work two jobs,=. I still am slightly overweight. I still get bad acne all the time. Yeah! I'm a high school drop out! But you know what, the only thing really holding me back, was not getting out and being such a wuss at life. It's made me look back and think, "Life really wasn't so bad...I just made it difficult."

Now, I can walk outside and talk to any person roaming the streets. I used to have over productive tear glands, but now I find I rarely cry (like during super sad/happy moments [aka, during chick flick time, when Hilary Duff gets humiliated in front of the entire school, lol - you get the point.]) I can walk into a place and actually smile and be casual. I actually enjoy talking to people.

What was holding me back the whole time was me being stubborn and thinking the whole world just hates me; which made me rebel a bit a first (emo stage) and act stupid (like dying my hair black and thinking that nobody else is like me) [not generalizing; so chill!] What people really need to start understand (especially a lot of teens I see now days), is that as much as we are different, everyone is still the same in most aspects. It's like, "GET OVER YOURSELF ALREADY!" Stop hating the world and open your damn eyes before I duct tape them open!

anyways, although there are still so many disappointing things in my life. I'm much happier. I feel I've actually matured a bit. I spend less time online, more time offline...going outside, getting active. enjoying life! working, socializing! et cetera!



*to be kept in life issues subforum please. as it does deal with my life issues and whatnot. I actually want people to read this and comment on my success. (because who doesn't like hearing again about the great achievements we've made!)

however, I am curious; anyone themselves run into the brick wall of common sense and intellect - thus realizing that the world isn't so bad...and neither is your life? maybe some of you were already there. C;

Wow, that's pretty impressive. :o

It's really hard to come out of depressions and ruts in one's life. To be able to do that takes a lot of strength~

It's awesome how you were able to put things in perspective. That's something we all need to do more often. x3

Not much else to say on this topic, except for congrats Jennifer-chan! ^^

You're success makes me really happy. A happy ray of sunshine in a pretty lousy week for me. (:
I'm a drop-out myself. long story :roll: . I usually just say I quit. Dropping out kind of sounds like stalling out and loosing track of things... or something... it's got negative connotations. I actively sought out an exit after taking the straight and narrow for so long. Like I said, long story. Anywho.
I've had a pretty firm direction since I did that... but I've felt that grip slackening recently. Seeing someone else find their footing (at least emotionally, if not financially ^^) always makes me feel more optimistic. Yeah, thanks for that.

High five! :D Congrats on the self-discovery!

Congratulations, I'm glad you were able to finally get out and live life.

Good job Jennifer. I suffer from social anxiety too, so it's good to hear someone say that they've gotten past it.

That's a wonderful story Jennifer!! Congrats on working past your own anxiety and getting out into the world. <3

madoneko - kind of sad that this only just happened recently. could've used it a long time ago. but then again, i guess going through such phases is how we learn! :-)

penny - oddly enough, this week has been pretty lousy for myself as well. but just thinking about how i can deal with as much as i can today; but not more than i should...then deal with the rest tomorrow. a new day to work things out.

there are times i still feel terrible for dropping out. but i have my reasons as well. however, despite the fact that people tell you that if you drop out of high school, then you're an utter failure...well, they're wrong. you only fail if you don't even try to make your life as great as you want it to be. right now, i'm working two great jobs and i do get out. maybe it's not quite what i want my life to be...but i'll get there someday. i just don't let depression take over me and trick me into thinking that things will never get better. just know, there are people that are willing to help you make yourself a great life. however, you're the most important person when it comes to making all the decisions.

as i said, my life still sucks terribly. however, i just let myself know that things will get better eventually. and half the stuff I worry about, is pretty silly, haha.

yeah - amen! haha.

juniper - don't let it control you. just sort of slowly give yourself a push now and then to help you overcome it. :-)

fiarra - thank you. -nods-

I definitely went through some rough patches too. I totally agree with how you feel. It is amazing to just realize, out of the blue, that you are genuinely happy with your life. It is really great.

It's herd for me to think of what made me feel honestly happy again. It could be that I was too busy to stress about things anymore. Also, seeing someone else triumph over obstacles in their life really put my petty problems in perspective.

Yay for your new-found happiness! Keep it up! :D

Wow gal, that is absolutely amazing! I don't know you personally, but I still would like to congratulate you. It's great to read that you're feeling better about life and everything in general.

It's real difficult at times, actually a lot of the time. I'm kinda in a rut myself, but I really don't know how to explain it.

I love life and everything around me, but after being hurt so many times ( family and friends wise ) I'm kinda overly paranoid. I don't have any issues socializing, but when it comes to thinking back to these said friends... I break down. It's hard not to think about them since they've been in my life for a good portion of it. I never depended on them thankfully, but I'm the type of person that wants to make everyone happy. Although, I'm the one that got screwed over in the end. No matter how much everyone tells me they weren't worth it, I still deep down want to please everyone. That's real stupid on it's own. But enough of my silly nonsense!

I've learned a lot as well, and you're absolutely right. It's best to get over oneself and move on! Keep moving forward!

I know how it feels about money issues, amongst other things too. I truly hope everything will piece together for you sweetie. Once again I'm real happy for you too! You keep at it! Take care!
xoxooo