Thinking about and cursing my stomachache.
That and how I should respond to my friends on Xanga and the contents I should put into my next entry...

Why do I feel nervous asking for something I want?

About how much baby talk annoys me. xD

im thinking that i need to get some non cheep-o earings. I just took out all of my piercings and there all this green decaylike stuff it was really nasty i spent a whole class cleaning them in the nurces office! but i cant aford 11 pairs of earings.... not good ones but i dont think my ears could stand another massice army of claires earings....

I'm thinking about how it sucks that my boyfriend got his cell phone taken away and that I basically have no use for it now that I can't text him for the next few days. xD
I don't even have to carry it around any more.. Except I will..just in case he does manage to text. >_____>;;
I'm lonely! xD

I'm thinking about making more money on Menewsha and how annoying my little brother is for randomly breaking into my room....
:)

Well, right now I'm thinking how this is my first post on this site. I'm wondering how to get gold, and I just read the gold guide. So I'm testing it out and seeing what happens. =) I'm also thinking about summer and how I'm going into college next fall. I'm thinking about the NCIS episode that is on right now. I'm deciding what to eat for dinner, since it's a make-your-own-night.

I'm also trying to decide what laptop to get for college. I have a mac right now, but it's dead and sooo slow. I'm not sure if I want mac again, go back to dell, or what. I love my dad's HP laptop, but people keep telling me they get problems from HP.

So, I'm also thinking about work. My first day of work was yesterday and I love being back! I work at a pool, and only like ten people showed up to swim but it was still fun!

Anyways, I'm going to go explore the site more. Hope to see you all around. =)

I'm thinking about how tired I am and how much I don't want to go to work for the rest of the night. xD

I'm thinking my mom needs to mind her peepers...>.<

i'm thinkin about how much money i have to rearrange/save/spend! ugh bills. i'm also thinking about what kind of meds to take for the overwhelming headache i will endure. woe! ah well such is life.

I'm thinking mischievous thoughts that I better keep to myself.

Weird stalkers on msn.
As soon as you sign in, they start talking to you and you just dread the entire thing. xD
My friend has like five of them and they all ask her dirty things and she always gives them really rude responses.
And how they bother us so much but for some reason we don't block them. xD

I'm thinking... I'm tired. I should probably get to bed soon.

I'm also thinking that broccoli casserole I made for dinner was delicious.

I'm excited and nervous about possibly getting my driver's license soon.

I'm wary of leaving my cat home alone with my brother for three weeks while I'm on vacation. I'm worried my brother will forget to feed it. I'd trust my mom to remember, but my other brother has convinced her to go stay with him for the first three weeks that I'm gone. I'm also afraid to see the house when I get back. I'm sure it will be a mess.

I'm starting to freak out a little on the inside about the plane ride. I'm really afraid of heights, like slight panic attack standing on a stepladder afraid. Plus, my sister told me that I have to fill out some paper on the plane ride into Canada. I'm worried about like messing up somehow and being interrogated. I'm also slightly OCD about things being in order... And my sister said they just stamp the passport randomly. It will drive me crazy if they don't stamp the pages in order.

I'm thinking for as many members as there are, it sure is quiet in the dead of night.

im thinking that the net is completely dead in my house and im pissed cause theres going to be so much to read in every thread i go to and the only time i can get on now is when i am in class at schoolXD

At this moment I am thinking of quite a few different things.

For one, I am thinking about how hard it has been for me to find a job over this past year. I have searched everywhere, applied online, in person, called placed I have applied to back to make sure that they look at my application. I have done everything right and nothing seems to come out of it and it's driving me crazy. I got one interview and did the training but, as soon as they were going to hire me, things got really slow in there so they decided to hold off on hiring me because of the fact that they couldn't afford to hire anyone else at that point. It's really getting me down, for a little while there it didn't bother me but, it's starting to get into my head again. What is wrong with me, why have I been looking this long with no results?

The main reason why I wrote what I did above is because I heard from someone else, yet again about how my fiance said that I need to get a job. Which him and I have talked about quite a few times and he says that he's okay with the fact that I still don't have one but, then he goes and talks to other people about how I need to find one. I am just confused why he won't talk about this to me. It really hurts that he can't say it to my face but, he thinks it is okay to talk to someone else about it. We are supposed to get married ya know? Isn't that what we are together for, to communicate with and support each other? Why won't he talk to me, it's driving me crazy because as soon as I ask him if he said it, he denies it.

Lately, I have just wanted to leave where i'm staying and never look back, and him saying this over and over just pushes me further out the door. I love him to death but he has to understand that I can't force someone to employ me. He needs to be honest because I would rather him say something that is true that would hurt my feelings than lie to my face.

Another thing on my mind is the fact that I don't understand some people that I used to hang out with, they had so much promise and they don't care, the threw it all away knowing full well what they were doing. Why would you ever throw all your promise and bright future away? Just to stay on a substantial carousel? I mean seriously what's wrong with people.

I want to go see my friend this weekend. D;

I'm in a lot of pain. Ow. ; ;

I'im thinking about buying a weapon do i want the Katar which is 700 gold or the... Pudao of Good Fortune which is 1,500 gold

Hmmm, I hope I have good dreams tonight

Im thinking that i love my purple sparkle nails and my new fushia like hair color i look so neato =) if that were a desctibing word.

I'm thinking about ... how long I haven't been online here. o 3o''

I'm thinking I need to do the dye over. I am not completely happy with it. I think I will go home and begin part two of the dyeing.

Right now, I'm thinking... What kind of person do you truly have to be on the inside to intentionally make those around you completely miserable?

Egads, it's hot here! I hate the feeling of being hot and sweaty, bleh.

I'm thinking about alot... ._. Like why I'm always so difficult for guys to be around and why I always have to start fights with the person I'm dating at the moment... Maybe it's because when I was younger, and my parents fought all the time, they told me it's normal for couples to fight. So I thought it was normal that I insitagted everything too. Because my mother always did. I'm also wondering when my bf will come home with the 2 roommates. And why the hell the second one has to stay here when she's rather not welcome. They went shopping and I'm hungry. ._. I wonder what they're bringing home... I wonder if I caused her being here in some strange turn of events. If I wasn't so very hated by Damion's mother, would she and Jimmy have not started a fight with Vicky and made her stay here? Or would Vicky have grown fed up of the drugs and fighting at that house anyway and come despite my intervention with the situation...? *Flop* @[email protected] Life's too confusing...