Why I haven't gotten this job yet.

My dream. I want to be an actress, my mom won't let me. Although I can act so much better than that Miley Cyrus. She's um whorish... Sorry for any fans out there, but have you seen the pictures? No normal fifteen year old girl, posts picture's of herself, pulling her shirt down, to expose her lace bra. :stare:
And no normal father should allow his daughter to do that.

I wanted to be an actress.
I don't really like Miley anyway.

I'm thinking many things:

1st Whan I saw this thread i asked myself why anyone would care what anyone else is thinking XD


I have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. How I screwed up my life. How it was screwed up before i ever had a chance to do it myself. If theres a god or gods. Why the world would be this way if there were gods/god. How part of my life is ending but another part is beginning. How i miss him but it was for the best. About my depression and if it getting worse or not. Suicide, isn't that a fun one? Just getting through one day at a time with no one to talk to or lean on. how my world is falling apart and everything seems so dim and hopeless. There so much going on in my head, so many questions so little answers that now i have headaches and migraines. My stress level is unbelievably high. And its just raising.
I wish i could get him outta my head, and i wish i could stop the hurt.....

I am so effing tired.
I am about to fall asleep on myself. I can't believe that Miley kind of stole bits and pieces of songs.

I don't know what I am supposed to do. I can't seem to get it right for him.

Well i'm playing with one of my Facebook applications called Make a Baby.(I'd explain it but I think its purpose is obvious) And i'm getting upset that I STILL can't find the stupid baby I wanted!

WTF!

OMGAWD, I have "Make a Baby" on facebook.

Back to my thought. Wth is his problem. He messaged me later.
I didn't see it because I left early!
It isn't like I didn't want to see him! He needs to get over it.
I could have hung out if he told me ahead of time!

I would of only been able to for like 1-2 hours, but still.
Okay I understand you are busy and you need to understand I can't always hang out.
I am OFFICIALLY an Adult and yet my parents still have their tight grip over me.
I can stay out till 10 at night but then there is a chance I come home to yelling or a door
that is locked so I can't come in.

right now I'm thinking about how unfair my dad is
first he took away the bag I made out of some old jeans
he said it looked hideous and he didn't want me wearing it.
the next day me and my sister went with my grandma so she could get her hair cut.
It was only three houses away, but my dad got pissed like hell
and told us to never do that again...
three houses only three houses away, just on the corner
and we live in the city so it's not like houses are really far away...
I'm sad now... I miss my bag ...
it had two little keychain bears...

I'm thinking that if this music thing doesn't work out, I could have a promising career as a fashion designer. o_O

Of course...music is still #1 for me. And always will be.

I need more colorful items on here...

A tattoo.

I has headache. D8

I just whacked myself in the back of the head with my guitar.
My SOLID-BODY ELECTRIC GUITAR.

That quite hurt.
I need to be a little more careful when trying to play behind my neck.

Right now I'm thinking about complicated spiritual things..>.>..-Doesn't want to sound crazy-..>.>;;... and sexual things and day dreams that I wish would come true..-Grumbles a little-Grrawr...

I am thinking about if everything has to be so expensive wether it is virtual items or in real life.

I'm going over my day. My date today was a horrible kisser, and he kept talking about his hair and how Warped Tour went. It was annoying :\

I'm thinking about how my shop is kinda dead right now. T_T

No I am not sure what is going wrong.

I am thinking about how everytime I like a guy, he moves.... I think I am some sort of pleague, funny, but it kinda sucks.

Also I will be super busy this school year with no time to date anyways, I really shouldn't care but I do.

Plus since I finished the Twilight saga, and the Host by Stephanie Meyer, I have no idea how to spend my free time any more... But when school begins again I won't really have to worry about that since I probly won't have much of a social life....

:sweat: My mom is also irritating me, and she isn't even here... I hate the affect she can have on me and yet she isn't even near me....

Ow..... >_< My head hurts...

I'm thinking about my boyfriend, and how much I miss him, and how much I can't wait till next week to see him again! I'm also hoping the funeral he went to today went okay :(

Right now I am thinking of a lot of things. The first few things actually deal with Menewsha, such as how I am going to get a Crowns Set and also what I’m going to write about for my introduction for my new hangout thread.

I am hoping to do some twenty gold posts to get up to five hundred gold a day. So that would be twenty-five posts of long lengths just to get that much gold. But if I can do that, then I should be making about one-thousand five hundred gold a day between posts and playing games, which in turn some make plenty of gold in no time to get my Crowns. I also have some items saved up, so that should help too.

The second thought, about my hangout, I’ve pretty much figured out. It’s just a matter of sitting down to write and figure out how to link all the elements of the hangout together. Hey, that should give me some extra gold earning points right there!

I’m also thinking about all the errands I need to do tomorrow. I know I already have to go to the bank to cash my check, see if I can work out an over draft fee agreement, and also if I will have enough money to pay for my college classes. Oh, that’s another thing on my mind by the way. There also going to breakfast, and helping my mom move into her new class room.

College starts soon and I already have homework. Isn’t that kind of backwards? I thought so too. I have to make a college of sorts out of different shapes to discribe myself. Pretty silly, huh? But it’s also fun and I haven’t had anything to really poke my creative juices lately.

I guess that’s about all on my mine. Nearly six in the morning and my mind is still in a whirl. Geeze….

Hoping to see him.

Right now I am thinking of beginning to write another story, but I probly won't since I can never seem to end my stories on any high not.

I also must start school again on Monday. I expect it to be a pain, but will see my friends so that is a plus.

I still have to find that darn bone I burried last week... I'm dieing to naw on it :sarcasm:

My pack should be well rested by now, and the clan as well, so I should probly lead a hunt soon ^_^

All in a days work I suppose :angel:

Night Wolf

This popcorn in very buttery and salty.:insane:

I'm thinking about commissions I have for writing on another site. Also thinking about the olympics which are on TV right now. I could never do Olympics myself, but its amazing to see some of the gymnasts and swimmers and all they can do. Bending like that makes my head spin, I'm a bit jealous that they're able to do feats like that.

This time of night, my thoughts aren't too deep. I'm thinking that my soda is empty and wondering if I want a refill badly enough to walk across the house for it. I'm enjoying the quiet that only occurs in a house where the child is asleep (a sleeping 8 year old is a beautiful thing!) and wishing that it were tomorrow night, because tomorrow night my husband is off work and I get to go to bed with him instead of sleeping alone.

I also think I want some chocolate, but that's entirely diet-related. :|

I m thinking about potatoes, radishes and bananas. I m also thinking of why I am thinking of those things. What do they mean. ect.