Hello tiger hows it going? xD

So do you want to party shizuki? haha. *turns on the rock music*

*dances violently*
omfg i like pudding xD

Originally Posted by Thoth Star

But thats the thing Christa love... NEVER trust doctors to know what they're doing. Question them always... Yeah, my doctor is weird... I think I should switch docs cuz he's this guy that got out of college not too long ago and he's a little sadistic. >< Actually, I was reading some statistics the other day and in the medical fields of united states, dentists are actually the people most likely to commit suicide. Strange huh? I always thought it was the surgeons because they're under soo much stress. I wonder if the laughing gas messes with the dentists head after so many yrs of exposure? D:

Same here luv. <333 Kissing is like lips making love.0 30 hehe.
Yeah, right when I was leaving this creepy old lady with no teeth came in and was all "G'morning youngster." I was like "morning...>> *leaaving*" I just don't like to talk to my neighbors cuz like 75% of them I suspect are drug abusers...
Thats awesome. ^^ hopefully they don't come and pick it up than...
I'm so glad my brother has a washer & dryer.
Yay, me too. I eat all sorts of peppers and have all this pepper power stuff I add to all my bbq. x3

Well, see, I have this problem. I had a doctor that slapped me across my face once and constantly made mean comments about my weight. That was when I was like 11. My mom obviously got me a new doctor as soon as he hit me. Since then I've only had female doctors, except one, cause I was more comfortable with them anyway. But then something happened with my second-to-last doctor, which I'm so not comfortable talking about in a public forum. Anyway, I'm not comfortable around doctors anymore, male OR female. When I'm not comfortable with someone, I physically cannot speak. Its like my brain and my mouth just shut off. I can't open my mouth, I can't remember anything I need/want to say. It sucks really bad. Its part of my social anxiety disorder. ._.;;;
I get like that around this doctor, because he scares me. So I like just have to mostly rely on my mom to say what needs to be said (cause I won't go back there unless someone goes with me) and hope he knows wtf he's doing. When I do manage to talk, I usually speak really quietly or look at my hands or stutter and he's like "can you repeat that?"

Maybe you should switch to someone who's a little more established? :< -huggles-

That is strange. O.o
No its gotta be because of all the people that hate them and/or are scared of them. I mean, if you're that despised... Most people want to go through life being well-liked, you know? :/

Oooh sexy. Hehe <33333 -kisses- o3o
Lol yeah, last time I was at the laundry mat, I had a cappuccino with me and some random woman came up to me and started talking about coffee. And I'm kinda awkward around people I don't know, so I was trying to be polite, but I was starting to do that stupid stuttering thing I do sometimes when I get nervous...so embarrassing. ._.;
Yeah, that's why I don't talk to like any of my nana's neighbors. I only talk to a couple of them, and they might do it too, but as far as I can tell, their character's still ok. -sigh-
Yeah, I feel bad that she's getting kicked out...but she's a druggie, and...I mean, she can always go to the women's house that's ran by the nuns. They'll help her...as long as she wants help.
I like jalapeño peppers. Like, my mom dared me to eat one whole though once and I totally chickened out. XD;;;
Apparently I'm not that daring. BUT I dared her to eat a half of a lemon once though, and she wouldn't do that. XDD And I did. Yay sour. LOL.

*falls over*

-laughs-
>w>;
I mean...
-helps up-

big posts scare me

Um, I really don't know what to tell you. :sweat:

Hello christa love~ *glomps* <333 How are you today?

Oh my gawd, what an evil doctor! D:
*nod* Yeah its hard to trust them... of course, some doctors are decent...
It sounds like you get panic attacks from fear of doctors. That's going to be a hard fear to conquer. We need better doctors... I think thats partially why I want to be a doc myself.
Why can't you just get another doctor? You shouldn't be with a doctor you can't communicate with well. Yeah, actually recently I switched doctors... I went back to my old doctor that I had before him whose this old, Jewish guy I've known since I was a kid... he's cool. He retired a couple yrs back but now he's trying to make some extra cash on the weekends. lol.

Yeah, everyone does want to be liked... I just thought that statistic was super weird. Whenever I read about the population I'm amazed at such things....

You are sexy, indeed. <3333
Aww, its ok. *huggles* Thats not embarrassing, I used to be super shy too.
I understand, I can't stand druggies...Hopefully she allows the nuns to help, I mean, to at least counsel her. Thats good that your neighbors are ok... I think people are weird around here cuz I live near a trailer park & many of them are known to do drugs. ;;

Yes, jalepenos are the best. :drool: haha.
I've tried the hottest pepper from Mexico once... bad idea. I couldn't feel my tongue until 2 weeks afterwards and it took an extra few months for all my taste buds to heal back so I could taste anything... Never doing that again. xD

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Haha yes pudding is awesome shizuki.
how goes it?

Hey you! :D

Gabby:: I'm upset. :/

Yeah, he was really bad. The really stupid part (about him making rude comments about my weight) was that he was so fat that he had to turn sideways to fit through doors. O.o So I was like "You're a big fat hypocrite!"
Well, its not really a panic attack...when I get panic attacks, I can't breathe. I don't know what it is exactly. I guess I could just lock myself into a room with a bunch of nice doctors and try to talk to them. XD I mean, if you have a fear of snakes, aren't you supposed to have contact with snakes, or whatever? lol
You would be a good doctor. -huggles- You wouldn't hit little girls.
I can't get another doctor because I'm on medicaid. And there aren't any more offices accepting it at the moment. :<
Oh that's good. ^.^ I'm glad you have one you like then.

Yeah, sometimes population stats are really weird. I don't read them often though. I just come across them in magazines sometimes.

Nu uh, you are. <3333 -kisses-
Sometimes I get so nervous that I can't talk though, I'm like "t-t-that will be r-r" and then I'll get frustrated and just stop talking. And if whoever I'm talking to doesn't understand, they get offended sometimes, and that just makes it worse, but if they do understand like my mom then she's like "Calm down and try again."

I feel bad for some of them...sometimes. Cause, I mean, I think sometimes they want to change but they're so addicted that they can't.
Or maybe I just have too big of a heart and I'm too gullible. >_>;;
Anyway. I only lived by a trailer park once and the only people they caught doing drugs there was my friend's dad, and he was making meth. ><

Yah last time I got nachos at this one mexican place, they didn't gimme my little cup of jalepenos and I was totally pissed, cause the nachos were totally bland without them. :<
Omg you poor baby! D: <3


Jen:: That baby in your sig is soo cute!

@Jenni: Hello hows it going? ^^

@christa: Aww. *huggles* <33 I hope you feel better love.

Yeah, major hypocrite. x----x I don't get people like that...
Well, as long as its in an environment that makes you feel safe... since you're so afraid of them if you were to say lock yourself in a room with them you could undergo another panic attack, which would be really bad.
Haha thanks love. Yeah, I hope that I get the chance to become a doc ... xD
Oh, thats why I don't like medicaid... the health treatment is second rate.
Same here, I don't read stats often but not all of them are accurate...

You're so amazing. *kisses*<3333
When I was younger and had problems with shyness I usually would just close my eyes and count in my head and that calmed me down. I think you just need to find something or someone that calms you down or use some sort of method.

You do have a big heart christa. ^^<33

I think even if the possibility is slim and the withdrawal from the drugs is extreme, a person can still break free if they have a super strong will power... only problem is not many people have that will power. OH my god... meth is the worse. D: Never get near that stuff or anyone whose involved with that stuff.

Haha I know that happened to me in high school... My tongue is completely healed now. xD
Yeah, jalepenos make all the difference. hehe/

Hi Thoth

Hey how are you tiger? ^^

What's going on Thoth? ^^

Not much val. I went on a long walk earlier with my friend... and than we played this golfing game. hahaha. Its a 3 day weekend for me. How are you? 8)

Oh you're lucky. I wish I had a long weekend. I'm doing pretty good. I just dyed my hair purple for the heck of it.

Haha thats awesome! Purple is a great color. ^^
I kinda want to dye my hair green... lol.

I dunno, I really want to go snowboarding actually.

Oh green is a risky color. xD It could come out really really bad if you screw it up.

See, I didn't know that... Last time I dyed my hair green it turned out good.
I have blond hair so I don't need to bleach it.

Oh you're lucky you have blonde hair then.
My hair is red, so I have to be careful. xD Right now it's purple and red.

Gabby:: I'm kind of ok, now. My dad left me alone, and I went outside for a while when the sun was setting and read some of my new book and was listening to this CD of Celtic lullabies that I got from the library yesterday. :3

I don't either. It's like, what are you preaching about. But then after he slapped me, my mom got me another doctor. x_x
Well, I was joking about being locked in a room with a bunch of doctors. x3 Maybe its something I'll get over as I get older. I mean, I'm not afraid of the dark anymore, or closed rooms. Or maybe I can talk to my therapist about it and she can help me.
I hope you do too. -hugs- Because I know its something you want. And I want you to be able to get what you want in life. <33
By the way, you never told me what you thought about me being a cosmetologist instead of an interior designer when we were talking about it a few nights ago. Do you think that's a good career to get into, or are you like my dad and think its stupid? ._.;

Hehe, no, you are. :3 -glomps and kisses- <33333
Oh, when I was a kid, I could NEVER calm down. If I got upset, I'd cry until I'd shake and couldn't breathe. And my mom would have to like hold onto me and tell me to hold my breath so I could stop hyperventilating. I think I made myself stop that when I was like 12 or something, I don't remember.
You calm me down, silly. That's why I was stressing when I lost my computer because bad stuff started happening and I couldn't talk to you. That's why we're going to write letters, so we can always talk to each other, right?

I think I do have a big heart. Sometimes it gets me into trouble...Like, I can't say no to bums asking for change, even if I suspect that they're secretly con-artists. >_>

I have a friend that's on meth...she told me she wants to get off of it. I want to help her. I'm so so worried about her. Especially right now, because her boyfriend...thing just got put back into jail and now she's not answering her texts or replying on Myspace. .__.

Hehe that's good. You can't have a useless tongue, can you? Lol -giggles-


Hey Tiger & V. :]

*passes out*
im gonna stop coming here with these people's big posts

Whatever, just stop complaining about it. :/
I'm sorry, but I've had a bad day and people constantly bitching about me and Gab writing big posts is really getting on my nerves.
Honestly, its none of your business. Its not like we're posting up your thread, this is his exchange. And its the way we talk. We're a fucking couple, Shizuki. If we just said "Hey" to each other, the relationship wouldn't last very long, now would it? God.
If you don't like it, then go away. Stop complaining about it, because I'm sick of hearing it.

And the only person I care about upsetting with that, is Gabby. But he probably won't be upset, he probably is sick of you complaining too, but he's too nice to say anything to you. :]
I'm not though. You're pissing me off.

omg i'm hungry

So go eat.