@des: On what? hahaha. XD *rolls around*

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Yeah, I know christy... Its especially hard for me. Lol. *hugs* <333
*nod* I love my grandma so much... She used to bake for me all the time and make me tea and than we'd sit outside talking about English & American politics (because she's originally from England) and than she'd start smoking a cig or a joint... And than we'd go inside and eat whatever baked goods she made (usually scones or jam shells.) XD Sooo tasty! hehe.

Aw, thats really, nice christy. *huggles* I'm the same way, I'd love my grandma no matter what. Its great when you get along really well with your grandparents, cuz I think its important to hear that oral history "straight from the horse's mouth."

Oh no, I didn't mean to upset her so much... ;;
*plays with string* I wish I were better at this...

Yay, happy birthday Christy! *kisses* <333
I hope today is perfect for you. ^^

*shrugs* I think... She doesn't like the awkward pauses we have when we talk.
And the fact that she doesn't like most of the things I say... So going on a trip with me might be too much for her, stress-wise. She gets panic attacks.

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Hello winter wind how are you? x3

I think your grandma sounds so fun. xD <3

Today was. Good...but not good. o_o;
Like. I woke up. From a bad dream. I don't even know what I was dreaming about, except you were in it...and my grandparents, and my sister, and my mom. O.o;; Anyway, it must have been like...really bad. o.o Because when I woke up, I had my face buried in my pillow, and was making little sad noises and had tears running down my face... D;
so then...I came in the living room...and talked to my parents for a while, and then got on the computer, and hina gave me bee slippers for a present! <33
And then I was leaving to go see my grandma, so but before I left, my brother-in-law called. ._. My sister is in the Steven's Unit in the hospital, which is the psych ward. T_T I guess she flipped out and admitted herself. I'm so worried about her.... I'm going to go see her in a few minutes...so that was pretty shitty news to get on my birthday. T_T
But I went to see my grandma and she said she's going to take me to Olive Garden after the first, so that will be fun, since I've never been there. :D She wanted to throw me a party tonight, but my grandpa wouldn't let her...
My brother got me a present- Romeo & Juliet, which I LOVE to read, so that was pretty awesome. ^o^
Then I went to see one of my great-aunts to make sure she was alright, because she just had one of her kidney dyalisis (< not spelled right) treatments today, and she looks bad. ):
But I heard like 20 of my favorite songs on the radio while my mom was driving everywhere, so that was sweet. ;D

I don't know...I guess she's just afraid you're telling me one thing and doing something else, you know? ._. I think she means well, but its really getting annoying, when you aren't doing anything wrong! -huggles- <333
-kisses- :] take your time, I'm not in any hurry to get it. <3333
Next time she says something, I'll just tell her you're working on it, and hopefully she'll hush. @^@;

Aww I see.
Panic attacks suck. I've gotten them before, because of my dad. D:

Ok I'm going to go up to the hospital now. ):
I don't know if I'll be back tonight....
Maybe I will.

Why does thoth look so cute?

Haha, thanks, kitty. I think you'd get along with her very well. <3

Oh no, darling thats not a good way to start the day... *kisses* <333
It must have been a really horrible dream.
Aww, the bee slips are so adorable with your avie, love.
I think I'm gonna wear mine too. hehe. 0 30 *huggles* <3
I hope your sis is alright, christy. *cuddles*
Psych wards are no fun...

Thats cool. I've heard Olive Garden is good...
Yes, romeo and juliet was a good play but the end was too depressing.
Is your great aunt alright, kitty darling? I'll pray for her... And your sis.
Thats definitely not good news on your b-day.

Aw, thank you, christy. *glomps christy* <333
I've always been honest with you... even about my bad habbits. ;;

I was working on our art recently... Its going to perfect! I'm promise, love. *kisses* 0 30 <3
I was using black & red ink pens on it... so it stands out more. Lol.
My scanner is being evil though... I think I might have to get someone proffessional to look at... Like a computer person. I'm so stupid with computer stuff sometimes... D:

*gives kitty another hug* <3333
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Aw, thanks, dessert. ^^
How are you?

I am alright.. i am wondering what you look like though..
How are you?

Hahaha. XD I need to find a pic. Kitty wants to see to.

I'm good tonight. I was reading twilight and my friend came over and was all, "What are you reading that girl book for?" And I was all, "Hey isn't that sexist?" And he was all, "not really... Are you turning into a vampire?" D: He had just watched southpark and I was all, "Stop making fun of meeeeeeee." xB

/Awww.. how cute.. >.<' i haven't had time to read twilight yet, have you seen the movie.. and how is the book going for you? do you like it?

I just started reading the first book... Its pretty good so far.
The book is interesting mainly because bella is so ditzy; its cute. XD

I haven't seen the movie... So I dunno.
Its getting bad reviews.

oh really? i haven't seen it so i don't know..

So what else do you do sides for read girly books and get made fun of by your friend?

Haha, not much really... I just go to college...
Sometimes I rock climb, run, go on hikes, swim and play ping pong or beer pong...
College life can be boring tho.

What about you, des? What do you like to do?

I like to sleep.. and talk on mene.. >.<'
And i do my homework i am suppose to. and do the laundry for the household when yelled at to do it.. and make dinner when asked to, clean the kitchen occassionally.. >.<' clean my room once a month.....

not much lol... i just work about 30 hours a week and i am a full time student.. and i am an honors student.. so you can think about that.

I love sleeping too... The dreams are the most fascinating things about them. XD

Thats good that you help around the house. What do you like to make for dinner?
I live by myself... And with my room mate and since my room mate is lazy and does clean very often I end up doing a lot of cleaning sometimes. Especially after a big party. No fun. ><

Awesome. Honors is always important. ^^ G'job. *pat on the back*
School can be hard sometimes. I'm taking chemistry next semester. XD

Originally Posted by Thoth Star

Haha, thanks, kitty. I think you'd get along with her very well. <3

Oh no, darling thats not a good way to start the day... *kisses* <333
It must have been a really horrible dream.
Aww, the bee slips are so adorable with your avie, love.
I think I'm gonna wear mine too. hehe. 0 30 *huggles* <3
I hope your sis is alright, christy. *cuddles*
Psych wards are no fun...

Thats cool. I've heard Olive Garden is good...
Yes, romeo and juliet was a good play but the end was too depressing.
Is your great aunt alright, kitty darling? I'll pray for her... And your sis.
Thats definitely not good news on your b-day.

Aw, thank you, christy. *glomps christy* <333
I've always been honest with you... even about my bad habbits. ;;

I was working on our art recently... Its going to perfect! I'm promise, love. *kisses* 0 30 <3
I was using black & red ink pens on it... so it stands out more. Lol.
My scanner is being evil though... I think I might have to get someone proffessional to look at... Like a computer person. I'm so stupid with computer stuff sometimes... D:

*gives kitty another hug* <3333
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Aw, thanks, dessert. ^^
How are you?

Really? You think so? :D <33
I bet I'd be nervous though if I met her. xD; And I tend to fidget and mess with my hair a LOT when I'm nervous. >.> Or touch my collar bone. O.o;;

I think it mus have been to. D: to make me cry. ;~;
I kind of wonder what the hell it was about. o_o; But I kind of don't want to know. -kisses and snuggles- <3333

cool hehe. <33 Our feet match. <33 o3o

I'm worried about her. ._. shes so stressed out and depressed...
her husband hopes she gets out tomorrow in time for thanksgiving....
I went to visit her... there's two men there with fake legs... and. they keep leaving their legs lying around. Owo;;;

Yes...the end of romeo and juliet is really sad, but that's why its my favorite tragedy.
yeah....she's just. really tired. ): that kidney thing takes a lot out of her I guess, cause i think they take her blood out and then put it back in. o_O And then besides that, she has diabetes, so... v_v

I know you have. -snuggles and kisses- She's just worried, that's all...
I love you. <333
I guess...she just thought. You told me you were making me something (the necklace) and it was a lie. Which is just silly, because if you told me you'll do it, I believe you. (: <33
And that's what I told her. >.>

I can't wait to see the art! <333 o3o
-kisses- <3 I think the black and red will make it look really cool.
hmm do you think if I kick your scanner, it will make it work? O.o :lol:
Lol I am too, don't feel bad. @[email protected];;

-kisses again- <333 ;P

Originally Posted by Thoth Star

Hahaha. XD I need to find a pic. Kitty wants to see to.

I'm good tonight. I was reading twilight and my friend came over and was all, "What are you reading that girl book for?" And I was all, "Hey isn't that sexist?" And he was all, "not really... Are you turning into a vampire?" D: He had just watched southpark and I was all, "Stop making fun of meeeeeeee." xB

YAY! you're reading Twilight! XD <333

Blah. tell him your girlfriend wanted you to read it. :P

Cute avie, christy~ 0 30

Haha, thats alright, darling. Everyone has nervous twitches. *hugs* XD <3
I know what you mean. *kisses* <333
Strange & unexpected things happen sometimes...

Totally, except I just changed back into red boots. Lol.

Thats... unusual. I've only seen a few people with fake legs and I believe they were all veterans from Vietnam. Is her legs alright? Yes I hope she has a great thanksgiving. ^^

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I didn't finish posting... but I have to go, kitty. 0 30

thank you, darling. <33 i like yours too. ^.^

Yeah. I had therapy today (you know the appointment where i had to bring my mom) and it went ok and everything, but i kept fluffing my hair and tapping my foot. xD;; and fluffing my hair more... I was really nervous. xD;

I know! xD well the one guy, my sister said is schizophrenic and he just wheels off and leaves his leg laying around after saying random--sometimes funny (or creepy) things. Owo
so there was a leg in the common room last night, which is where we were. >.>
Yeah, her legs are fine, her only real problem right now is that she is suffering from severe cigarette withdrawal. Its bad. They have a nicotine patch stuck on her shoulder and she's scratching it and practically begging for cigarettes. D;

Aww its okay. You can finish posting later babe. <33 Bye bye. -kisses-

Thanks darling. *glomps* <3333
Thats good that it went well at the therapy meeting.

Wow, thats pretty weird. XD
That must be sooo random to come upon a leg in a hallway...
Oh no, bummer christy. D: My dads addicted to cigs and everytime he quits he becomes really mean and cranky...

True. Hamlet was good too...
Diabetes always makes blood flow way worse... Not good.
Does she have to take insulin shots?

Kicking probably won't help, christy. Hahaha. XD
I'm just going to call someone, like my bro over...

Yep. ^-^
Hopefully i'll have my birth certificate and my learner's permit and be back in my GED classes before Dec 11th, cuz those are the goals that stephanie set for my mom and me before my next appointment. :yes:
I'm really excited, especially about getting my learner's permit. I've been waiting to drive for 3 years. :D

It was. XD I was like "dude wtf is with the leg? -resists urge to poke it-"
She is like....twitchy. O.o;;; and. a lil hyper.
My parents are both addicted. and they get grumpy without them. tobacco is badd.

Haven't read hamlet.
Bought macbeth. Need to read that....

Yeah, she has to give herself insulin shots. :<
I worry about her, cuz her doctor is a quack. He was my dad's doctor when my dad first got sick, and he almost killed my dad. ><

Hehe well my solution is out. XD <33
Oh does your brother know stuff about computers? o:

Yes, I hope it all works out for you, christy. *hugs* <33
Oh good, when is your next appointment?
When my mom had me seeing a psychologist, I saw her every week, I think... On thursdays.
Driving is a big deal. ^^ Its dangerous tho... So always be cautious and aware.
I think talking on a cell or texting is the worse thing to be doing while driving, cause its such a huge distraction... Just the other day my friend was all, "Everyone totals their 1st car." I was like, "Really? D:"

Nicotines affects the nervous system negatively, causing twitching...
Yea, cigs are really really bad for you. I'm glad I don't smoke them... they're too expensive too, in my opinion since theres high taxes on them. Most of my friends smoke cigs.

I didn't really get into Macbeth... Its alright, I suppose.

Since my grandma has diabetes 1 she takes insulin shots too every other day...
And she's always checking her blood sugar, like periodically every 4 hrs.
Sounds like she dfinitely needs to change doctors... Have you told her about his bad practices with your dad? Its easy to change doctors..

Yeah, my bro is really good with computers...
His friend and him used to re-build them.

I have an appointment the tenth with the actual doctor, cause I have to do like "re-evaluation" things with him like every month to make sure I'm still sane. :lol:
And then I have my next appointment with Stephanie on the eleventh. :3 I used to go see her every week, but recently she changed to every two weeks, so I guess that means I'm doing better?

Yeah...I don't plan on talking/texting while driving. :/ You can't really pay enough attention. If its an important call, I guess I'll take it, but I'll probably pull over cause I'll get distracted. @[email protected]
One of my friends texts and IMs and shit while she's driving and you know she's not paying attention to the road. D: She's going to have a wreck, but she won't listen.
Lol.. that's stupid...if you pay attention...you can avoid most things, I think. >.>

Yeah, they're WAY expensive. D: My parents spend a small fortune just on cigarettes each month. :roll:

Yeah, me and my mom have both told her. @[email protected]
But its hard to switch doctors here if you have medicaid (or well I guess she has medicare) cause not a lot of doctors accept it. But with medicaid...its bad. Especially if you're an adult. And have medical problems like she does or my dad does. Its virtually impossible to find a doctor. No one wants to touch you. D:

Oh awesome.
Your brother sounds really smart. :D
I wouldn't know where to begin with a computer. xD

I'm going to the store with my mom and my grandma now to get stuff for thanksgiving, so I'll talk to you later love. <3333 o3o

Don't worry hunny, you'll always be sane. *huggles* <333
Its the world thats mad...

Usually if the psychologist changes it to every 2 weeks that means you've improved....
Or it means stephanie has more clients and thus has to spread the appointment farther out.
I never went to 2 weeks cuz the man psychologist really thought something was wrong with me... He couldn't understand why I was bisexual and why I said the things I did... So I stopped seeing him, even though the therapy was free. ((Paid by government programs)).

*hugs* I'm glad to hear it, christy. I always tell people to pull over whenever they must take an important call or text... I've seen waaaay too many car accidents in my young life. x----x
Gah, thats so frustrating... I have a friend like that too, but I just take his cell phone away from him whenever he's driving and if someone calls I just answer and sometimes its his girlfriend and he'll be all, "Don't answer! She'll think we're dating." And I'm all, "Man, she knows we're friends. D: Loser."

I know what you mean... My dad is a chain smoker so everytime I'm around him he smoked almost 10 cigs an hr. Its insane. I tell him to stop or he'll get emphezema or lung cancer but he never listens to me about anything.... *sigh* D:

Thats horrible.... Why do people get medicaid than if its so bad?
Damn. I thought you could fill out a form to change doctors... And get the doctors signature to finalize the change. Thats what I did when I changed docs, but I have pacific care.... Its supposed to be a really good healthcare system for the west coast.

He's smarter than me thats for sure. XD Lol.
When I was growing up it was usually like "Why can't you be smarter like your bro???"
And now its like "Why can't you be normal like your bro?"
I'm bad with comps too... D:

Ok, love. Bai bai~
Happy Thanksgiving. ^^

Lol sometimes i wonder if I will if I stay around my family much longer. xD;
They drive me totally mad sometimes.
And sometimes, I do say things and do things and stuff that are totally abnormal, it kinda makes me wonder. lol

She has more clients now... I started seeing her in February. I was one of her first people, right after she came here.
Your former therapist doesn't sound like a very good person. :/
I have a friend...when we were younger teenagers, he went through 4 psychologists. >.> They couldn't handle him; he scared them. o_o
But that's just cuz they didn't understand him. I mean, yeah, he can be really creepy when he wants, but he's also totally awesome, he has this totally cool personality....you just can't let some of the weird things he says scare you.
Like one time, when we were 14, we were like basically alone in one part of the school after hours, and he came up behind me, and kind of shoved me against the wall and was like "I could kill you, right now, with my bare hand. I know how." And he had his hand on my neck.
And instead of getting freaked out, because I trusted him, I just said "But you won't, because you love me."
And he was like "Yeah, that's true." And let me go and walked away.
See, that would be...like, a scary situation, I guess? But I was around him constantly, and he was like my best friend, so I wasn't scared. I understood him.
People told me that I was the female version of him, that's why we could never date. XD;

I've seen people do some stupid things while driving. Like a girl talking on her phone with one hand, putting on mascara with the other and driving with her elbow. X___x
I haven't really seen any wrecks though. I saw one this summer though. A man was in an suv and was going too fast and slammed on his breaks to catch a light, lost control and flipped three times and flew through the air. DX Amazingly he was fine, except for a gash on his arm. The other guy in the car didn't get hurt at all. I went to help and we thought there was a baby in the car cuz there was a baby seat, but no baby, and the victims were too shaken up to say yea or nae, so we were all freaking out looking for this baby, but it turned out there wasn't one. D;

My mom chainsmokes when she's worried. It drives me crazy, especially since her grandma died of lung cancer, and usually when close family members have diseases like that, it seems like its easier for you to get them, but she won't listen either. v_v I worry about her. she's like "i'm going to quit, i'm going to quit" but she never does.

You get medicaid cuz you're too poor to afford proper insurance.
Its government healthcare program. I've had it all my life.
A lot of people here are uninsured or on medicaid.

I think you're smart, darling. <3333
Aw, that's a really cruel thing for people to say. D< Maybe if you weren't as smart as your bro, they could have totally still praised you for something else instead of degrading you. That's mean.
Being normal is way overrated anyway, right? -snuggles- Why would we want to be normal when being weird is so fucking awesome? <333
Besides, who cares what they think. xP They're mean. I think you're amazing. <333

Ay.. I just got back from the store. @[email protected] Walmart was soooo crowded. Last minute shopping much? And then we had to go to three other stores looking for broccoli florets because walmart was sold out and my mom needed them for a salad she's making. D:
My nana got me some giant neon-colored bows for my hair. :D

I hope you have a good thanksgiving~! ^.^
I love you.

Oh my god I've been so lucky recently christy!
I just bought the gold patty hat I wanted from seiki nova. *squeeel* <333
And than I got the phoenix mask in the quest raffle... I had totally not been expecting to get anything the first time I joined the raffle. I'm soooo happy! >< *glomps kitty* <33

Aww, don't worry about it, Christy... Parents are like that to everyone, pretty much.
They can be total assholes most of the time but you also love them. *shrugs* Thats life.

Ja, he was a mean therapist. I think he was prejudice towards me from the beginning... but it really doesn't bother me. I've known people to treat me differently my entire life for stupid reasons like that.

Oh my god, you're right! Thats super creepy thing of your friend to do... ><
*glomps kitty* He better not touch you like that again. grr.
Some guys are overly aggressive... Female version? You're not violent like him though... but I don't want you dating him if thats how he behaves. *huggles christy* <333

I've seen stuff like that too... Like this girl putting on lipstick, talking on the phone and driving. Or this guy who was like shaving, smoking and driving... And I'm always like "Whut the hell??? D:"

What the heck... Thats a strange car accident. Good thing there was no baby...
That would of been so horrible! People are just not careful enough...
I've seen a kid die before my eyes after flying though a windshield... I was holding in his organs from the gash on his stomach... And he was bleeing everywhere and crying in my arms and kept saying, "Ow ow ow ow." It was sooo sad. I started crying too and than he died... Ever since than I've been freaked out from car accidents. ><
I talked to his sis afterwards... He was only 15. So depressing.

You're right... Scientists are just now understanding how many increases in cancer ratios are actually sometimes related to genetics... But smoking alone makes it possible to have cancer, much less something worse like chainsmoking. *nod* Thats exactly how my dad and my grandma say when I ask them both to quit cigs... "I'll quit.." but they never do. It worries me cuz my grandma smokes everyday during "tea time" (She's from england), so she does it out of habit and she won't listen to me ever. ><

Oh, that makes sense. When I lived in oregon a lot of people had medicaid...
I'd have medicaid too (cuz I'm poor) if it wasn't for my step dad... (even though we really don't get along. d;)

Aww thank you, darling. *kisses* 0 30 <333
My bro was always a genius with math...
I'm more a science & english person. *shrugs*
My dad thinks I'm smart... but my mom never has.
I've just learned to accept it...

You're right... I love being wierd. Muahahaha~ >;]
I think you're awesome too, christy. <333
Thanks so much. I wish I weren't so insecure someimes. ><

Thats so funny becuz my room mate and I went to walmart too to pick up some toilet paper and chips/salsa for tomorrow just like an hr ago. Lol. XD
Yeah it was mega-crowded. I almost got knocked down by this woman who was fast-walking everywhere...

Oh I bet the bows look adorable. x3
I wish you a great thanksgiving too, christy love. <33 *kisses*
I love you too~ <3333

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Oh my god this is like my LONGEST post ever. XD

eee That's so awesome!! -glomps- <333
Congrats on winning! :DD

Eh. I still don't like it. xP

That's stupid. That totally pisses me off. I hate haattee people who treat people differently. Like. I mean, when I was at the store this evening, I saw this couple with the most adorable freaking baby and she was chewing on her doll. xB So I had to squee at her cuteness obviously....and my grandma was with me. And she couldn't stop staring at them. and they were like so freaking nice just making small talk with me and telling me stories about their baby and they didn't even fucking know me. xD <3
And then my grandma had to make a remark when we walked away about his "scruffiness" he had long hair and was missing two of his front teeth. That was sooo annoying of her. >< AND of COURSE she had to remark about them being an interracial couple (she was black and he was white). -headdesks- m(=_=);m
GOD THAT GETS ON MY NERVES SO MUCH!!

Hahaha. He doesn't really...have anything to do with me anymore.
I can be very violent. >.>;
Not to you, of course, but I love you, so I wouldn't hurt you. xD <3
Gabriel doesn't think Christy is violent, but Gabriel has never seen Christy pissed. :lol:
I don't...get physically violent unless I am very, very angry though. ._.; I tend to hurt with words more than anything, and half the time I don't say what I mean.
Ah....I won't be dating him. He's getting married. And having a baby with his fiance. xD
But I wouldn't ever have....anyway... >_> I was totally in love with him for two years, but he wouldn't date me because I'm fat. And he doesn't do fat girls. x_x;;

Oh my god....that is so horrible. -hugs-
I cried just reading that. D:

Well, its an addiction. like my dad says he can quit whenever he wants and is just waiting on my mom, which is total fucking bullshit; he's just using my mom as an excuse.

Your step dad probably does it cuz your mom makes him, or he does it cuz he thinks helping to take care of you will make your mom happy. :]

You're welcome. -kisses and snuggles- o3o <3333
I was always english/reading and history. i hated math. >< I did ok in everything else. I was advanced and honor roll until highschool. :drool: Then that's when my depression and suicidal tendencies really took control of my life and i gave up on school and started failing everything before I dropped out. ._.
My parents...have always told me and my brother that we're both smart. But sometimes my dad is an ass. like he's told my little brother that me and my sister both are smarter than he is. He has told me that I am a worthless singer (basically) and that my brother has the talent in that department. My sister is the artist and will always be better than me....etc. D:
Sometimes I'm insecure too, but not a lot anymore. I used to be so insecure and had such low self esteem that I wouldn't talk to anyone, and never made eye contact with anyone, ever. ><
Sometimes I'm still insecure though, like...I worry about how people will react to things I say. Not so much random people anymore, but people I really care about. Like my mom...or you. Like, remember when I was afraid to tell you that I was in therapy? I was so afraid that it would like. make you think badly of me...

Yeah it was really crowded. I got squished into a pole to narrowly avoid getting my toes ran over by a little old lady with a shopping cart. o^o Cuz i was wearing flipflops.

They're so awesome~
I love to put bows in my hair. XD
-kisses again- o3o <3333

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I know!!!
We freaking talk so much. XDD
My mom just walked through the room and she's like "Are you STILL typing that same message???"
I'm like "Uh, yes? >.>;"
She was like "With the way you both talk (-she's seen some of the posts we've written in this thread-) I can only IMAGINE how long phone conversations are going to last once you start calling each other."
And I was like.... ".... Heh. x_x"

Thank. 0 30 hehe.

Aww, I love when that happens. You can start conversations with random people so easily when they have a baby cause it seems like everyone notices babies. They're so cute, how could you not notice em? <333

Well, usually when people are missing teeth its from drug abuse....
but yeah, thats rude to assume someones like that.
She sounds pretty racist... but my grandma is like that too, she's always talking about how "the blacks and arabs are ruining this great country" and other crap like that.

Thats good, I'd never hurt you either, love. *kisses* <333
Its good to know self defense in my opinion... It will come in handy sometime in life.
Well, than its his fiance's problem now...
Don't let it bother you, darling. *huggles* <3 You don't want to be with someone like that in the first place. He sounds like a total ass.

Owh, I'm sorry for making you cry, christy. *glomps*

Hmm, it sounds like thats what happening, which is really unfortunate.
I hate when someone uses another person. x---x So not cool.

Yeah, I suppose you're right... As long as he cares for my mom, thats I guess all that should matter to me... Even though I think he's evil... I'll just not talk to him much... if at all even.

Hehe, I like snuggling with you~ *cuddles* <333
Thats good that you did well in middle school. I had straight C's through middle school...
Oh no... *huggles kitty* I hope you never feel depressed again like that. <3
It sounds like your dad just likes to pick on you... Don't listen to him, christy.
I'm so happy that you're not insecure anymore... I'm not much anymore either, but its still something I struggle with. >< I think its only natural for people to seek therapy though...
Yes, I remember, christy. I've had a lot of similar experiences as you so I can relate on some stuff... I mean for yrs my mom wanted me on my meds because of my "bipolar" behavior, which was ironic becuz the real reason she wanted me on meds was cuz I was bisexual... So it began with the same word order, which really ticked me off. I'm so glad I don't have to see my mom on thanksgiving this yr... D: I'm soo hungry.

Ack, never wear flipflops while shopping before thanksgiving. you're lucky that no one shoved you over... Its absolute mayhem in those stores!

Yeah, bows are the smex. *hugs* <333

I know... I don't even have a phone, but I could imagine that my phone bill would be like several hundred every month. Hahahaha. XD Its alright tho cuz I prefer talking online cuz its cheap and convenient. Long distance hrs will kill me. Lol///

She was ADORABLE! XD Like, had like no hair, and was wearing these totally cute little boots. XD And chewing on that doll. x] And just smiling like "hehe aren't I cute?"
And there was another little girl, which was obviously the older sister, cuz she had the exact same hair as the man, she told me "She's growing up fast." XD And their mom was like "You're growing up fast too." XD

I think its just like. Their generation or whatever, you know? Like, they were...raised to treat different people badly. -_-
But my grandma...I wish she'd be different, since her other granddaughter was married to a black man for a lot of years and he's still really cool and a friend of the family, and she has two children with him. I mean....I wish that would make her change her ways, but it doesn't. ><

I'm glad. -kisses- :] <3333
Well...what's funny is....no one expects me to be violent. XD; I don't LOOK violent. I'm only 5'1", I just said I run around with bows in my hair, I have a pearl necklace that I wear a lot, I dress in pink a lot...I wear bright colors, I'm always laughing and acting happy. XD But then if you piss me off, oh or if you're male and try to do dominance games with me =_= the cute shit goes out the window and the dark side of Christa comes out to play. -__- My brother's started this thing recently where he's doing these power plays with me. Like he's like 5'4" or 5'5" now, so he'll get all up in my face when we fight and look down on me to try to intimidate me. I do. Not. Fucking. Like it. Its rude, its demeaning, its sexist. I've been pushing him when he does it but the next time he does it, I've already told him, I'm spitting in his face. No one looks down on me.
I surprise people when they see me pissed for the first time. I guess its shocking to see a stream of curses come out of my mouth or to see me attack someone? XD;;

Why do you think he's evil?

I like snuggling with you too, love. -snuggles closer- <333
i hope I don't either. ._. I don't remember much then really, because, I've blocked a lot of it out, cuz it was bad things and i don't want to remember it. But the stuff I do remember, I don't ever want to be that way again...
That's...so stupid. You can't change that you're bisexual. that's just the way you are. D: why would she want you to change? Argh. ><
Haha....uhm... -feeds you virtual blueberries with whipped cream?- :D

I hid between the pole and the wall. XD;
I know I shouldn't have worn them, but I'm so addicted to flipflops, and it was actually warm enough today to wear them. >_> I couldn't resist! xD

Totally. -cuddles- <333

I know that's what I was thinking when she said that. XDD
Freaking long distance fees would be through the roof. TAT;;
One of us would have to get a calling plan that has free long distance. Hahaha. <3