I don't experience that much..but sometimes it happens.

Originally Posted by Jeanie

I don't know who I am, understand who I should be or even who I want to be most of the time. I know I have a very very low opinion of myself and my abilities which has come from 5 years of constant bullying in high school from people who claimed to be my friend as well as people I'd never met before, my brother and even people from websites who have added me to MSN looked at my display picture which is of me and said "Ew you're fat I don't want to talk to you" and blocked me :cry:.

I only realised I don't know who I am recently when my boyfriend asked if I was alright and said I wasn't acting like myself, I didn't say anything to him but I did think 'you don't know me, I don't know me, how can you know me' I always thought you were supposed to find out who you are in high school but now I'm almost 21 and don't have a clue.

Wow..
I used to be bullied too. Often got the fault for things I did not do, or things that I did accidentally. And I got betrayed by people I thought I could trust.

Nowadays I feel lonely, there are few people that I trust and they are the only people I consider real friends. I recently noticed that being with them makes me feel "myself."

But I often hate it when these friends get into a relationship, it makes me feel lonely because theyre usually people I dont dare to trust, and I cant get along with these friends anymore.. But also because I dont have a girlfriend myself, and wished I had someone I could love and trust at the same time..

Well, If I think that. Then I feel like a whore. HAha, and totally NOT what your thinking.
I know I am -insert real name- and I am female who ya know, hates everything. But is seriously in love and that's the only thing that makes me happy:)

Yes.
I have a clear idea of who I am, and I'm an easy person to understand, both to myself and those close to me.
It's partly because of how straightforward and expressive I am. I've never felt the need or desire to hide or want to change who I am out of insecurity, even when I was bullied over it. Their words just weren't worth it. I value who I am too much for that.

I do have those odd quirks, feelings, and "sides of my personality" that sneak up on me out of the blue, sometimes,
but I've reflected enough to know their causes, and even predict their patterns.

=D i don't normally tell people, but i think i have a split personality o.o;; lawl, i don't tell people this anymore because they think i'm just trying to be different or soemthing. It's not like a thing i'd brag about =.=;;;; Because, one day, i can be so sweet and nice just like a little kid. And then the next, i turn into a very very very evil person. It's like one day i can shoot anyone and feel no remorse and the next i can't even hold a gun. Happened so much i am convinced i have multiple personalities.

I go through periods when I'm not sure of who I am. When I do I usually go outside to walk around or kick a soccer ball around my yard. Soon later I'll realize that I enjoy being outside and playing soccer. If this doesn't work then I usually end up sitting in my room drawing random pictures until I feel better about myself. It's usually just random doodles that I draw because I can't seem to think of anything that seems interesting enough to draw.

I also have a few split personalities. There's angry Tear, loner Tear, and happy all the time and joking Tear. I'm usually my happy and joking self whenever I'm around my friends or chatting online. Any time I go some place I feel out of place I tend to turn into a loner and stay by my self. My angry side I think is pretty self explanatory.

Originally Posted by H_e_a_r_t

=D i don't normally tell people, but i think i have a split personality o.o;; lawl, i don't tell people this anymore because they think i'm just trying to be different or soemthing. It's not like a thing i'd brag about =.=;;;; Because, one day, i can be so sweet and nice just like a little kid. And then the next, i turn into a very very very evil person. It's like one day i can shoot anyone and feel no remorse and the next i can't even hold a gun. Happened so much i am convinced i have multiple personalities.

People with MPD don't acknowledge they possess different sides.
They are either unaware of it, completely, or they refer to and believe the different sides are completely different people.

What you're describing seems more like mood swings,
or bipolar disorder.

I think I know who I am.
Sometimes I think I'm crazy, and sometimes I hate myself, but I never really have the feeling that I don't know myself.
I think I used to. But I don't now.

It'll probably go away for you too.

It takes a lot of soul searching to find yourself.
Going on trips by your lonesome can aide you in figuring yourself out.
Find your calling.
See if you have made an impact on other peoples lives.

etc.

Just be yourself.
Don't change for anymore.
You are unique.

Originally Posted by [Ogin]

It takes a lot of soul searching to find yourself.
Going on trips by your lonesome can aide you in figuring yourself out.
Find your calling.
See if you have made an impact on other peoples lives.

etc.

Just be yourself.
Don't change for anymore.
You are unique.

I am doing that. Kind of.
Everyone in the world should have a place where they can feel at home.
I dont have that place, so I decided not to settle anywhere untill I find out who I am and what I want.

Something disturbing I found out about myself is that its as if I have no morals. Whenever I live with morals, I live by them because the people around me live by them. But now I am alone, and I have to find my own morals.

Honestly?

I don't. I don't think anyone does know themselves 100% at that too.

Everyday is a new day to change impressions both towards the self and others.

Remember how change is the only constant in life as well---so no matter what, we're subject to that.

Today, we're happy and cheerful then something may happen then you become melancholic and such.

We go through phases too... Periods in life that we remain as such up and until something triggers something in us.

As for me...

I just came from a very painful period in my life and I'm starting over. It's painful, it's different and it's new but I'm glad I made it through. I'm learning and discovering more of me... And it's nothing like the sugar coated me from way back either.

I'm paying a great deal academically just to be where I am right now. Though it's ouch and all to my transcript of records and heralding a lot of scolding left and right, I am glad. I am happy I managed to get out of what had passed. But this has also made me very vulnerable and easy in a way.

Transitions are just so difficult. It's so easy to just become a creature of habit and go on. Continue listening and just following what people say, please them and with hold your own good judgment for the sake of being one of the flock.

The new me frightens and yet excites me really.

It's like...

I used to be watery: emotional, tranquil and quite moody. Very caring and all.

Then suddenly I transcended towards fire: temperamental and fierce, a stronger will and passionate.

A lot of things have changed since...

And each time I realize how far, how different I was from what I used to be, I get surprised.

I never have those moments. I am the type that thinks things through fast.

There is one thing I know about myself, I over think EVERYTHING. It's soo bad and I get myself so confused because of it. I even carry on thinking about something AFTER I've already done it.

It's normal to feel regret and overestimate.

My mother often says 'It's better to overestimate than underestimate at least you're sure that you've got the right amount and are above average. Would you rather be less of what is required then?'

...Though I'd prefer to be just right if you ask me.

Even if people keep telling you it's better to be over since it gives you an edge.

But that only works if society recognize what you have as extra/overestimates as worthy.

._.;

@ hotelobby: Yeah I kind of know what you mean, Ive gone through changes like that myself. It made me feel much stronger, capable and more comfortable. And like there was a whole lot more of freedom. It felt like something that was tightly wrapped around me before loosened up. But then I was faced with the fact that I didnt know who I was. That made me feel so uncomfortable that the new me was no longer able to function >_<

I'm still trying to figure out O.o

Comfort zones.

You just got out of one.

It's like...

Birds though may fly and have great reign of where they go to must adhere to the laws of nature and subject themselves to habit. Cyclical as it may, it is needed to survive. I have no question to that. I will do that since it is very much needed for survival, my personal persistence in the world.

But when it comes to excess... that is another thing.

Birds also need to rest.

But it's a different matter when that resting place or those laws of nature become a cage or you become caged altogether.

: /

As a person, I change a lot. So I can never truly find myself. ^^

Originally Posted by hotelobby

Comfort zones.

You just got out of one.

It's like...

Birds though may fly and have great reign of where they go to must adhere to the laws of nature and subject themselves to habit. Cyclical as it may, it is needed to survive. I have no question to that. I will do that since it is very much needed for survival, my personal persistence in the world.

But when it comes to excess... that is another thing.

Birds also need to rest.

But it's a different matter when that resting place or those laws of nature become a cage or you become caged altogether.

: /

Im not sure if I understood that:sweat:

Sometimes I don't knwo who I am, with all the pressure and stuffs...but thats only on days when I am not in a good mood. On other days I try to stand out of the crowd, not be one of the preppy pink n00bs that populate most of my school, and make people laugh as much as possible. On those "other days" I try to thing of what I really want in life, and what I'm really good at.

I don't have identity crisises.. The main thing is whether or not I like who I am at the moment. Lol.

I was pretty sure I knew who I was until I got the courage to ask someone out and then I totally found a new side to me which made me realize that I don't know myself as well as I thought, lol! But I'm pretty sure I know who I am it's others who don't know who I am ;)