/snugs blanket

Yeah. I've been pretty effing miserable.

And like. I'm having ridiculous (unrelated) abdomen pain, and my doctor told me to get a catscan, on Monday. But my mom didn't call them until today, so now I have to wait until freaking Friday to find out why it hurts so badly.

Like, I can't sleep it hurts so bad.

Funky. My friend Jen was having issues with her abdomen and it turns out that she has a cyst on her uterus and when her bladder gets full it pushes down on the cyst. So weird.

I'm thinking mine has something to do with my uterus too.

I don't sleep much lately, so I don't really DREAM, but I keep thinking about the doctor telling me he has to take it out. Like. Constantly. It's all I think about. It's miserable.

I mean, I've never been bffs with my uterus, but I don't want to lose the guy :c

Man. I'd kill to be able to stand in the shower long enough to wash and condition my hair :c

Damn Squid, that's just terrible. They might just be able to put you on birth control and get the issue straightened out. But don't think they are going to take the pesky thing. That's the last move most doctors want to do.
Not taking being able to take a shower would bug the hell out of me.

Yeah. Not showering is rough.

Like, I just get so tired. I'll be standing there, and I'll start with the shampoo. And then I'll just freaking done. Twice I've tried to take a shower, and twice I've ended up curled up on the tub.

/siigh

Well that's not good.
Hopefully this is all just something minor and will get better soon.

Good to see you back here Miss Dangling Sea Appendages. :hug:

squiddy
Did you fall off the face of the earth?

Just a little bit, Lilim.

Today I went back to work. And managed to stay the whole time! Woowoo!

I hate retail jobs though xD All I want to do is be lazy and work from a desk chair. Oh, to sit.

maybe just take a bath then lovie?
-snuggles-
I hope they figure out what's wrong and get it taken care of.

Yeah. I go tomorrow to the doctor (again) for him to tell me the results of my catscan. And I swear to God, if he just tells me that it's not my appendix (Which I already know) I will hit the man in the face and demand my money back.

We have to pay twenty-five dollars before we even SEE the doctor. I mean, I get it, we're in a rough time, but I think there should be a sliding scale on that. Tell me on the phone that you don't know what's wrong with the scan. Don't make me pay for it.

Then again, I could just be Negative Nancy and he does know what's wrong and will tell me how to fix it.

ANYWAY.

I would LOVE to take a bath, truly and honestly. I love baths so much. The problem is that my tub is less wide than my leg is long from knee to foot. So, what I mean, is that when you sit cross legged... well, you can't in my tub. I tried to explain it to someone once and he didn't get it, so I don't know if I make sense xD

Actually, yeah it does. I can't sit down like that in my tub either, but I hate baths anyhow...

My mom doesn't like to take baths either.

I've always loved it.

In our apartment before, I always complained that our tub was small, but the one in our house is actually much smaller. It really sucks. I've taken one bath the entire time I've lived here, and that was when I discovered I'd never be able to take a bath here again!

/sob

I'm going to the doctor today~

/dances

I'm going to shower and brush my teeth and maybe try to play video games for a couple of hours and then I'm going to the doctor. Then I'm going to pay twenty-five dollars, sit on the little table and wait for him to tell me what's wrong.

And if he tells me what ISN'T wrong, I'm honestly going to throw a giant hissy in his face. I've already planned it all out since I don't sleep anymore xD

Squid, do what you have to. Get some answers and find out what the hell. This is just ridiculous for you to live in pain for so long. Doctors have gotten so out of touch with who they are treating. Very sad to see and hear about.

Yeah, they have. It's ridiculous.

Like, honestly. I don't go to the doctor. At all. Before I had gotten sick, the last time I went was to the hospital because of a kidney stone ... last summer or the summer before. And before that was in ninth grade, when I got carted around to a ton of different doctors because I had a cyst.

But like, my mom has to go regularly, because she's on medication. And this effing quack charges her twenty-five dollars to get her blood drawn, and then a few days later, they charge her another twenty-five, because he won't refill the prescription without seeing her, even though her medication hasn't changed in years.

That's not right.

Yeah, that's not right for her to have to constantly pay. Is it possible to find another doctor?

Yeah, we're going to be switching doctors. Today, we paid just for him to tell us to go to an obgyn.

I mean, the guy h e sent us to was actually really super nice. Seems like a good guy.

But he did tell me I have a tumor. It's pretty big. From the top of my pelvis, to a few inches beneath my chest. Unsure if it's benign or malignant yet.

Goodness gracious. I just have a tumor. I'm not dead yet! You can still chat with me!

:c

Sorry, I've been on a work related Hiatus, haven't had time to be here at all.

Geez, a tumor and they couldn't detect this shit earlier? All this stuff they are pimping about early detection and what not...I'd be pissed with the lame ass doc charging you out the ass for stuff and doing nothing.

D:
Oh noes!
I'm sorry squidddums...christmas is always insane around my house, because my parents pathologically wait until the WEEK OF to start shopping. Argh.
I hope it's nothing malignant. Hopefully it's benign and easily treated... -snuggleluff-

Squid has a tumor?! I've gone through chemo and I'm still here around to annoy people!

I come and I read the responses, and I just... can't muster up the energy to reply most of the time xD

I don't know how the heck I'm supposed to participate in the event. Maybe I'll go look at the shop and really cute items will motivate me.

Squid...you best give me the list of what you want...got the gold for gifts

Wow! I'll say you've got gold! lol

xD

But you already got me an outfit for Halloween!