Encouragement

Okay I'd like to thank those of you who read and commented on my last entry. It was very helpful reading your words <3

Now on to other things. People, not just from this site, have been encouaging me to do many things lately. I want to go to school, but I don't know for what, but my friends tell me that I should just go and see what I like. I don't wanna start something as important as school without knowing what I'm doing, but they don't seem to get that. T_T I wanna know not only who I am, but what I want before I start doing anything.

Another thing is that they are all telling me that everything is fine and that life is just guiding me along. Even though I feel that things are falling apart. I'm glad that they are supporting me, but I don't want them lying to me. If they think my life is going to hell in a hand-basket then they should tell me, not just take my hand and pretend everything is okay. They don't seem to get it though.

I've also seem to be making a lot of friends online lately. It's great and I'm glad, but...I seem to be the one helping others out. When I'm talking online it's like I'm not me anymore. It's like, "Hey they don't know the missery in my life, so I can just be happy and pretend everything is okay." But that's exactly what I don't want. So why do I act like that online?

Life is just so confusing.