Lately people have been starting to bug me again. I used to not get annoyed...but I just hate when people are like "We never talk, I want to talk more" so then when they say that I make more of an effort..then they get to lazy to put the same effort in.

Then there are those people who give you snooty answers to questions for no reason and make you think "wth is your problem" which i've also been seeing a lot lately. I mean why do you have to flame or act superior. Oh I give you a compliment, or we are having a discussion and you're pride is too big to actually try and have a conversation with lowly me? I mean wth?

Am i really that much lower class than you that I have to be treated like gum on your show? I don't understand. I want a real conversation with people...why is no one giving me a real conversation? T_T I ask plenty of questions but no one is willing to elaborate. What do you think it is rude to talk about yourself? I really care that is why I am asking! It makes me think they really don't want to a conversation afterall.. It's so frustrating!

I didn't know today was national weed day. I didn't find out till..well a little after midnight, I was wondering why so many people were wishing everyone a happy 4.20. I will probably forget all about this holiday soon enough though.

I had a good day though. I went to walgreens, got some orange juice so I was happy..Then I got to talk to my friend Taco.. He's really nice <3.. He like wanted to skip school just so he could talk to me..but he's a ph.D student. He just got his masters, so I made sure he went to school. A ph.D is really serious. Actually from what he said a lot of people in Japan attempt to get ph.D's. Which makes me think that they are much more likely to be able to get a job overseas..such a great opportunity~ He also goes to a really good school. He's so talkative and nice. He like..isn't like most of the Japanese people I've met online. Anyway he cheered me up because I've been having a really sucky week. ^^

It's really quite funny.. So I enjoy decorating in all the little applications there are. Recently I made another account just so I could send myself stuff XD its really kinda funny. I leave messages for myself saying "You're awesome!!!" and etc..

Anyways, ...um.. It's a beautiful day today! I hope tomorrow is pretty too ^^

10 weeks till school is over starting tomorrow. I hope it stops raining tomorrow so I can start walking to school. I hope tomorrow is a good ^^

has really sucked. I want to go home. I really really hate men with explosive tempers..well any temper at all. Why is it that all the men my mom likes have such bad tempers? Why do I have to deal with these jerks? I really just wanna go back to my dorm. Then I want the time between summer break and my trip to Japan to go by quickly. Then I want school to start soon. I hope I can find somewhere else to stay during break so I don't have to deal with my mom and everything anymore. I know crying doesn't help anything. I was taught not to cry, so I don't understand why when people have problems all they do is cry and cry some more. I'm not being insensitive. I just think that people should try to fix their problems, not wallow in self-pity. I've been through too much to want to deal with this sh*t.

I mean I have had my days where I have cried.. But I don't drag everyone who is around me into my sobbing and anger. and now that I think about it... My mom hated her job, she was going to quit. So I don't see why she's so upset that they let her go. She can get unemployment, and not have to work. Plus the field that she is in is really growing right now, so it shouldn't be too hard for her to find a new job. She has connections. I really don't understand. I understand that she is frustrated because she lost her job for unfair reasons, but other than that...I mean she really hated it. i think it's a good thing she's not working there anymore.