Yep. xD He's snoring away on my computer mouse. He's too spoiled, I think.

I think it would drive me nuts... xD; I'd be all, 'why doesn't anyone like Cryssu? ;o;' and then I'd get some creepy old guy. D:

Aw... ;0; Man, I've never had that much money, ever. XD

xD Yeah, for me it tends to be art, art, art, and the occassional common. I'm *trying desperately* to find a Celes Paradi 09 set, though. I can't even find parts to one.

I hope so. XD

xD Mebbe? I spoil my kitties rotten, but they still love hunting moths that manage to get into the house. It's pretty funny to watch, really.

xD; Yeaaah. It's still so awkward there. I don't think she likes me much, but we tend to disagree on most things. ^^; Makes it very difficult for conversation. I'm certain I'll be feeling like a third wheel this weekend when all three os us work because of the festival. .. shoot, now I figure out where to park. Damn.

xD; Yeah, it goes a lot faster than I can make it. I've been trying so hard to save so I can move out but it's just not happening. :sigh:

Lol, I can't find art I want again. Most I do see they aren't taking commissions. I keep hoping with the influx from the TekTek ads we'll get more artists around to grow this area of the community. While we have gotten new artists, there are precious few I like enough to go after. =/

XD Our old kittens used to eat spiders. I wish Gabe did.

That sucks. =A= And festival? oO

I'm sorry, I know how that is. .-.

Yep. Guh. Want art so badly, but so hard to find... Or they aren't selling, or it's epic bribe only for a HEADSHOT. Blegh.

Mou... My mom set up snap traps. .___. I really hope he climbs into the box I made him instead.

Lol. Tink used to eat all manner of bugs. It was entirely gross, but still useful. Bunny and Pete kind of bat at them, but rarely eat them. ><;

Mm, Endicott has it's little Apple Festival next weekend. I've never gone, so I don't know what it's like or about. Guess I'll see. But trying to find a parking spot near to work in the business district... ick. Maybe I'll just have Jace drop me off and pick me up so I don't have to worry about it. >>;

Unfortunately. u-u We both need to get out of that rut, lol.

Yeah... either anime art I don't want or... yeah, that pretty much sums it up. Chase reopened her auction. >> :plunked a bit this time:

T~T; I hope you don't hear it get caught in that thing...

Gabe can't be bothered with, ANYTHING. The cat thinks he's a person, I swear. A big, lazy, gay guy. Not that gay guys are lazy in the least, but this one is. ]<

It sounds like it could be fun, too bad you need to work. But yeah, good luck parking. D:

Yes we do. xD;'

More or less. ~_~ And I saw. :gonk: :heart:

Ugh... *snarly at this point* Little blighter is smart. I told mom not to lay out cheese, sure enough he stole it. I hope it's a he, I really don't want babies on my conscience too. I'm relieved there's no blood, meaning he didn't hurt himself. Looks like he didn't even trigger it.

:flops: I hate Mondays... yesterday was awful.

It's really discouraging when you spend half a day job hunting and the only things that are available in your area that you can reach towards are retail, lower level hospital jobs or those stupid get rich quick by working at home bullshit ads. There are so many places that want two+ years of experience in any given field yet there are no entry level positions where you can gain that experience.

It doesn't help that my 8 hour shift got slashed off the schedule today. I'm kind of upset about losing the hours (I need the money, stupid loans - among other things now) but at the same time I'm kind of relieved. I was going to be going three weeks without a day off between my two jobs and I was super upset last night so I slept for shit. I woke up today with burning, bloodshot eyes and I'm still exhausted as it is.

Once I got mom up and the kids off the bus, I got into another spat with her. Yes, she may have been on a PMS foul mood day, but I don't appreciate being made to feel like shit regardless of if she had something to say or not. Not going to get into all that though, suffice to say we were both irritable.

After that I was making dinner (which set the whole thing off because she misinterpreted something again) and I was reaching up to get something to add into the mix that wasn't into the recipe as per her request. Wound up grazing my belly on the pan and burning it. Stupid thing hurt like hell, it's right on the spot where it pulls no matter how I move or turn and the top of my pants constantly rubs against it. -_-; Didn't make things nice, though it's died down today thankfully. Should be healed in a few days.

Topping that all off was the call back about my car. They found not only the slow leak in my radiator (which they decided not to flush out of the worry that it'll widen it and I can't afford it yet) but also a small leak in my intake gasket. That's a $600 job right there. I had to buy the car for less than that, so it doesn't make it worth it to me. It's an 11 year old car that was meant to just get me to and from work for maybe a year or two until I could save for a better one. But I can't even do that because of my stupid loans and other bills. I'm just not making enough even with two jobs. Loop back up to the start of the post. Ugh.

I hate Mondays.

Art please.... I really need a pick me up.

That's awful darling.
My heart goes out to you. :heart:

You sound like the foundation of your household, on top of personal responsibilities and it's all weighing heavy on you. That stress is rough. I won't even try to say I relate, for various reasons and shortcomings on my part I cause most of my own stress.

Like now for instance, I'm dating a douchebag who will most certainly cheat on me. In fact, he's told me as much. One of his suitemates at college just asked me about it actually. I don't even know him well enough for him to even have any concern for me and he even asked why I'm dating such a douche. I justify it with the fact that I really like him, even though he's a complete user and I'm not sure if he even really cares about me.

To compound this stupidity I'm looking for a job near his college so I can stay with him while I work a job. Meaning when he finally does screw me over, it also screws me out of a job.

And I can't stop myself. I can't even explain it to anyone in a way that makes any sense. The best I can offer is that I'm always where I shouldn't be because I have no idea where I want to be.

My point is it sounds like you work hard and you have more than your fair share to deal with. I hate to see life beat on good people. For what it's worth I think you're a lovely person. I'm told that if you stay positive, positivity will come back to you.

U-u Mm, I'm a far cry from being the foundation of my household. Honestly, I think I disrupt its flow more than anything else. I feel more like a stressor in my parents' lives rather than just simply one of their kids, albeit the older one. I'm 23, my brother is 8 and my sister is 5.

I do have a wonderful beau, we've been together for almost 3 1/2 years now. He's probably the only reason that my depression has not sunk as low as it did freshman year of college where I was having panic attacks, waking up in the middle of an anxiety attack, sleeping 16+ hours a day. Unfortunately I do seem to be crying once a day at least lately... struggling.

There are a few steps in my life that I want, I know to a certain degree where I want to go.

Step1: Get a full time, steadily scheduled job that pays at minimum $10 an hour. This is the hardest part... this area is so dead, I want to go back to school, but the program I need is full until next fall.

Step2: Earn enough to pay my student loans, $750 a month, by myself. I can't move until I can do that alone. Mom is helping me, hence the quarrels in that she feels used because I can't meet whatever her expectation is. She seems to think it's explained clearly, but I just don't get it.

Step3: Move out! I want so badly to get a place with Jace. We want to start living together, and while I know it will be a trial learning to live together and many times it can ruin a relationship, we have been together for over 3 years, we are not children (I'm 23, he's 25). If we both are willing to learn about one another's habits, where compromise is needed we will be fine. We've already admitted it seems entirely likely that we will get married someday when things look better and we're on our feet.

Those are the major things in my life I want. I don't think it's so much to desire, it's a normal progression in life. .-.

As for you, I would say the same as the rest. I wouldn't let him treat you like that. But ultimately you're already aware and you still want to go that route so I'm not sure what point of view or advice to offer. :snugs: You don't deserve shit like that.

Well waking up your mother and getting your young siblings out to school sound like stressful responsibilities above the call of duty to me. Maybe you should give yourself a little extra credit. <3

Also that's a HIGH monthly payoff on a student loan. Are you certain that can't be negotiated? I'm paying back student loans as well and it's roughly $105 a month. I think I owe about 10 grand total now?

And thank you. It's not like me to be anyone's doormat. I don't even know what I'm doing and I'm so far in I don't know if it's better to get out now and take the heat for wasting time- or to see what happens and be a victim.

It's always been that way, really. In my house it's just considered family contribution and being a sister, really. =/ I don't think I've ever been able to give myself credit for it, I'm always reminded there are supposedly plenty of people my age who'd love to be a big sister like I am.

Well, I do owe them about $75k. I'm certain it can't be negotiated. SallieMae are being a pain in the ass about it. .-. I can either forbear for 3 months at a time, $50 per loan, or I can lower it to $450 for 2 years, then it boosts up even higher for the remaining 13 years. That's just not worth it given I don't know where I'll be in two years.

Ah, in that case... if you're not anyone's doormat, you shouldn't be his. If he's told you he'd cheat on you, that's plain and clear evidence to me that he doesn't give a rat's ass about you like he should. If I were you, I'd just take the heat for the time spent and drop his ass. Even though I personally have kind of crappy self-esteem, that's one thing I've never tolerated. One of my promises to myself is if that anyone ever cheats on me, that's it. That's a line of trust you just don't break, period.

I'm sorry that loan is so harsh. Being in debt and sitting in expectation of the monthly payments already drags me down.

And thank you for your support. I know I need to treat myself better- but I almost never do. Maybe this time I should.

*weak mewl*



*le disappear again*

Chase: Yeah.. it's murdering me. I stress out so much and get so upset about it. :sighs: I hate it, and sometimes it makes me regret going to school... I'm getting nowhere in life.

Yes, you should. D< :noms on: Do iiiiittt.

Cryssu: ... xD you just made my day. Lawl. :cuddles: Come back~

I think those two should never meet.

xD; I think... I am totally inclined to agree. They'd get into way too much shit. Poor Yoki, having to play mom/big sister.

XDD; Pssh, they'd send Ki to an early grave.

Line's terrified face is my favourite.

xD; Also inclined to agree. I LOL'd in particular when I saw that. I can just see Yoki with just the tiniest twitch at the corner of her eye and that stare that says, "Run away now...."

Hence the dust cloud. ;"D I think they just gave road runner a run for his money. XD

Can has to be placing bets time? :'D :shot:

I bet we'd make good money if we took them to the track. >o>;;

>.> We're thinkin' on the same wavelength. Heh heh heh.

XD You say that like it's something new.

Shhhh. Outside parties need not know of this common occurrence!

They might think we were in cahoots. ]:

=< This would not be good for business, no.