Poison

So easy to fall into a trap.
So easy to get swept up and lost.
So easy, so easy.....
So easy to get stuck in your roles.
So easy to wind up in your fairy tale.
So easy, so easy.....
You see nothing that you refuse.
You see nothing that you did choose.
You see.... Nothing....
You see what you want,
You see what you worship,
But you see nothing real.
You see... Nothing....
You don't see me.
You see what you want.
You see nothing.
You are a dream.
You are your illusion.
You are what you want,
You are what you hate.
You had the chance to chance.
You are... You....
I could give you no greater poison.

Baby, tell me another.

Tell me you love him; tell me you've changed.
Tell me you're different; I know you're the same.
Tell me you're better and tell me you're new.
Tell me you're a changed man, but I know who you do.
Disgust me some more; give me another.
C'mon, baby, tell me another.
You can't lie to me like you've lied to the rest.
I've seen who you are, at your worst and your best.
I know what you do, I've heard all the lies.
You fool me no more--I'm broken inside.
Tell me another, tell me your lies.
Tell me your stories and show your disguise.
I've looked in your eyes when you had everything to lose--
Come on, baby, I know what you do.
I know what you did, and I know who you are.
You can't hide from me--no matter how far.
When you're ancient and uglier, I'll still know the truth.
And you can't hide from me--I know that frightens you.
Come on, baby, tell me another.
Spill out your stories and search for your lover.
Whichever one that is this week,
I know who you are--and I know what you seek.
Come on, baby, I feel close to you.
I may be the only one that you can't see through.
I'm not sure what you think or what you're up to,
But I know that so soon I'll anticipate you.
Come on, sweetie, tell us your lies.
I've seen everything that you've tried to hide.
I've seen through your past and I see through you now,
And there's no way that you could possibly know what I do.
I know all of you--except for the core.
Dark, nasty core, that you've tried to hide.
I know that there's one of two things there inside.
Do you?

Faith of the Angels
Build your altars
If you so desire
Bring your shrines
If you choose
Something good, intrinsic
Buried within you
The best in yourself
The hymn of our minds
It grows your halo
Cultivates your soul
It's the Faith of the Angels

Faith of the People
Start a new religion
It was birthed long ago
Doesn't need worship,
Glory, sacrificial goat
Just stay loyal to yourself
(And I'm saying)
Faith of the People
(I'm singing)
Faith of our Minds
(Can I ask you to)
Pray for our people
No one left to pray to
So you're talking to yourself
There's a virtue dawning
New hope of life arising
Singing, marching,
Take the love of your mind
(So can I get you to)
Believe in the people
(Singing)
Joy of my People
Hymn of our minds
(I'm loving the)
Faith of the People
Loyal to my mind
I believe in me.

Trial of the Angels
We are weary,
The angels of heaven,
And I cannot tell you
How hollow I feel.
It's
the
Trial of the Angels
As my heart rips out, free
It's
the
Trial of the Angels
The love of my life
Moves beyond
Me
And I cannot cry out,
For there's no one to hear them
No one to care for the cries of despair
Mourn with the angels
Their trials attack them
So desperate
So longing
And crying for peace
We are tired,
The Angels of heaven,
And I cannot tell you
How broken I feel
It's the trials of
My angels and I
As we scream
As we suffer
As we prepare
To die.

Hero's Redemption
Marching
To your chamber of horrors
Listening to the sounds of the screams
Don't fear; you know that
The heroes will save you
They won't let you die
So you wait for your savior
And watch for your martyr
Your doomsday approaches
But you know that he'll come
He'll come to save you
He lives just to die
For you
His only truth is you
Your very existence defines him
You pray to your God
That he's not just a lie
As you wait for your savior
And tomorrow you die.
No reason in his heart but yours
And you're waiting as you are led
You're walked to your death
Still you search for your savior
Look up to see him
He's living for him and he
Won't
Die for you
Your hero, messiah is only yourself.

Loss of Faith
World is worth saving
Faith in humanity
But
It's
Lost,
Gone,
This world is ending--
Angels don't watch it die
It's
The
Sin of the Angels
(To bring you salvation)
Compassion pours down
In the form of their wings
(It's
The
Sin of the Angels)
Losing themselves in their struggles
Killing themselves for a people that--
Screaming
Slowly they die for they're watching you live
Singing the dirge of the angels
Singing to screaming to
Pain
Faith, the Angels have lost it
Dying your battles
And they fight no more
Sacrifice of the lamb by the angels
Screaming to singing to humming--
Slowly you die.

Lament of the Guardian Angel
Don't comprehend--
Don't know what's wrong
Can't see into you
Feels like one of us is gone
I don't know who
And I just can't find you
There's no one to talk to
Because I can't hurt you
My brother's too young,
Or too far away
My sister isn't here
Or I can't trust her
So I sit here
Silent
Surrounded by tears
I can't push this away
Not if it counts
But I can't worry you
I can't make you hurt
But I don't know what's wrong
And I cannot protect you
Your angel will not swoop
Down in time
For I just can't reach you
There's no one to mourn to
No one would care
Could you cry
Would you grieve
Will you pass on?

Anticipate Me

I hope that you've forgotten;
I hope that you won't know--
Won't see the future we've got for you,
Won't see the truth we hope to bring.
We're planning your destruction,
We'll joy to bring you down.
We're going to take you screaming,
We're going to make you know.
Make you remember, make you cry,
Make you feel the way
I've felt every night for two years now
I hope you won't--
Anticipate me,
Feel me coming before I'm there
Fear the pain and truth we'll bring
Fear the knowledge that your lies are done
I hope that you've forgotten,
I hope that you aren't lying in wait.
I hope that you've grown lazy and slow
And that you aren't going to know
We're going to tell the world,
We're going to say the words
You've feared and lied for,
You'd rather die than--
Anticipate me,
Feel me coming before I'm there
Fear the pain and truth that we'll bring
Fear the knowledge that your lies are done
You said that you lay awake at night
Said that every night you were hoping that he wouldn't tell
Hoping we wouldn't tell?
Was it all a lie; was it all just another game
I'll never know; you've lost the right to tell
And I'm hoping that you won't see the end coming,
Won't--
Anticipate me,
Feel me coming before I'm there
Fear the pain and truth that we'll bring
Fear the knowledge that your lies are done.
I await; I've known and cried and feared and broken--
Don't you--
Anticipate me,
Don't you--
Break me,
Don't you--
Do that again,
Don't--
Don't--

With sunsets dancing in your rearview mirrors, what a doll you look.
What a doll you look.
As you drive away in your big blue truck and I watch the giant sunset gleam against the back, yes, it's a doll you look.
It's a doll you look.
And it should be no surprise to you; I'm sure you've seen this coming
Oh you've hidden and you've sighed and you shy away from the truth,
But it's this winter, it's this winter, it's what makes you shine so bright
For you're so beautiful in winter, and you're such a slut in summer
But in the winter, in this winter, it's when you gleam like sapphires on ice
And the summer, oh the summer, it's when your sparkles turn brittle and shatter in air
Now it's a doll you look, in the time inbetween, when the summer and the winter meet and share all they know,
It's a doll you look.
It's a doll you look.
And as they discuss your incompatibility with yourself and puzzle out your true self,
It's a doll you look.
It's a doll you look.
And you sit there and you smile for you're too warm to do anything else
But you're still cold enough to sweat and wonder what's coming for you
Like an underdone whore who wanted to impress and just couldn't take the time to finish her face
Like the girl on her first date who knows what he wants and knows that she doesn't--but maybe--just maybe--
It's the summer and the winter;
It's the spring and the fall;
It's you and you're so pretty as you drive away in the distance
With the sunsets dancing in your rearview mirrors
And the winter and the summer mixing and confusing you inside
What a doll you look.
What a doll you look.

I can see how you'd believe in a god,
That there's someone up there staring at you
And these coincidences aren't all just luck,
And if it all ends up badly there's a reason inside
When it's hard and life's shit and you just can't get up
And you find it hard to awaken each day
I realize it's easier to put faith in something else
Something you can't really see that tells you you'll be safe.
I can see that you'd like to believe in karma,
Cosmic justice that plays out
There's a special kind of cowardice--but I don't blame you for that
Not in its most minor forms.
I can see how you'd like to think there's a happy place
Where we all go when we die
And if you're good and you love and just obey a few rules
You'll be in heaven forever.
I understand that you long for a better place
And it's a grand lie that can comfort--
Even when this life sucks, there's something better beyond
And yet I just want to rage at you
I don't have that cushion, I don't have that light,
But a belief that gone is gone
And it's hard and it hurts and nothing can fix it,
And it's not going to change and sometimes I hate that.
But I'm happy that I don't believe in a god.
Trusting in nothing will lead you nowhere.
Men wrote those words, and men can be wrong
But men can be perfect and glorious too.
It's this song that I sing, and I thrill in its beauty
That even when it's bad, it's mine.
If I reap what I sow, nothing more and nothing less,
I can be allowed to enjoy that and trust in myself.

The song that was a parody of that night
I lost everything and it plays back over and over again
The summer brings the pain on sweet waves of misery
The heat boils down and the bile rises up
And I always, always wonder
And I find myself restless and maudlin
Chasing my thoughts in their endless entwinements
Chasing my mind in its own twisted circle
Missing you and doubting while hating you and knowing
If we don't look, maybe we didn't leave
If we know the truth, then maybe we weren't wrong
If the summer never comes, I can dance at Yule
Dance in the snow and the dark and the moon
Forever and ever and hide from your lies
Your blinding bright filth you spread as you waltz
Spoiling my dance and with it my life
Your hatred and putrid lies, your disgusting destruction
I wonder if there's someone else to blame
But I know that it's you
I wonder if it was all a dream and I'll wake up someday soon
But I know that it's not
I wonder if I've learned how to lie to myself
But I know that I've not
And I wonder if it could have ended in any other garden
And I know that I'm right
And I know the truth, and I'll never forget;
Perhaps you can justify all else to yourself, but you'll never rape my mind
Everyone else can buy your lies
And I know the truth
And it tires me and wearies me and hurts me and stings;
You'll never know how deeply you struck.
I wish I could lose myself in a journey into my mind
Wish that I could shove myself on a raft through a sea of liquor
Couldn't force myself if I could afford it in all of the ways that mattered
You'll never know love
You'll never know us
But fuck--you'll never know truth, either.

And you will come to me on a starlit night
On a starlit night with the moon shining bright
And you will stand in the snow with the sparks in your hair
And I’ll hold you and talk, and ask you how you fare
If we only meet for one brilliant night a year
One dazzling night in the snow that’s crystal white
If we must only be together for such a miniscule time
Then let me tell you how I love you
Let me tell you how I miss you
Let me tell you how I love you
I miss you, my dear.
The moon has a glow that does not outshine your beauty
And the closest star that gleams so brightly still dims when you’re nearby
And all the diamonds all the courtesans can gather in this world or any other
Are less than dulled and dirty glass before the pale of your delight
If you stand before me on a starlit night
I will never, ever leave and only wait for you here
If we only meet for one brilliant night a year,
Be it glorious in winter or sweltering in summer,
Such a background that is unworthy of you, but of course there’s nothing better
If we can only be together for such a short, short time
Then let me tell you how I love you
Let me tell you how I miss you
Let me tell you how I love you.
I miss you, my dear.

Dead Before I Forget You

I’d have to be a blind man
Not to know the way your eyes move,
And I’d have to be more than deaf
To never hear your voice again
There’s no way I could ever
Fail to recognize you,
I’d know you in a wasteland,
Across a crowded room;
And so I think that I’ll be dead--
Before I forget you
I’ll be long gone
Before I can forget the way,
The way that your lips felt,
The way that you tasted,
And all the things you said,
All the things we had;
You’ve been away
For so long now,
But the memories still sting so strong,
I can’t cut out my brain,
Can’t make myself pass by you,
There’s no way I could ever
Fail to fall to you,
I’d succumb in a city,
In a crowded room;
And so I think that I’ll be dead--
Before I forget you
I’ll be long gone
Before I can forget the way,
The way that your lips felt,
The way that you tasted,
And all the things you said;
All the things that we had
You promised me forever,
And you barely gave a day
A day in heaven, deep in your arms,
Memories tattooed on your heart,
And now the way your breaths sound,
The way that you move slowly,
No, no, no--
I think that I’ll be dead, Before I can forget you--
I’ll be long gone
Before I can forget the way,
The way that your lips felt,
The way that you tasted,
And all the things you said;
All the things that we had
I know that I’ll be dead
Before I forget you
I’ll be long gone (so far gone)
Before I can forget--
The way that your lips felt,
The way that you tasted
And all the things you said,/Those sweet memories you said(we had).

It's a poem/song I wrote for a different thing--the unfortunate thing is that it comes with a very different vibe than it's meant to. BAD!

I can relate to this poem so much i love it! b^.^b
very nice vivid writing :p :]

Thank you. <3