A lot of bad things are happening in my life right now that are making me feel trapped and miserable and I feel extremely angry all the time and have no way of expressing that anger without destroying things. How do I handle it? I don't know how. I don't know how to stop being angry. Life is so frustrating and I keep being on the verge of violence with certain people sometimes, but I hold it in a whole lot.

I have some high anxiety and I have to find outlets or else I just cry all the time. I find that drawing or writing or reading or just generally doing something like that for myself...by myself...really helps me. I can get my emotions out in a drawing which prevents me from getting them out through tears.

I do write on a regular basis actually. I'm trying to become a professional writer and have been the past two years. I write every day. I'm working on it some right now.

I just don't know. It's not enough to just get it out. I can't explain it, but I have huge serious problems in my life right now and I have no control over them and don't know how to deal with them.

I wish you luck with you writing! That's such a great career!

I know how you feel - at one point in my life I was so stressed out from my anxiety that it caused such a bad depression that I truly wanted to die. I saw a shrink and I was adamant about not being put on medicine...I don't believe in taking meds unless I absolutely have to. So with her, we devised ways to bring down my stress. For me it was the reading and the writing and the drawing and taking 1 hour out of my day to spend on ME and me alone. I still live my this philosophy 7 years later and while I still get stressed and anxious easily...I am no longer depressed.

You said you are going through rough times and serious problems. But just remember that you need to take care of YOU. Do something that you find fun...for you writing might not work because you've done it so much for so long. But take up a new hobby you can channel that anger into. Maybe try a sport....I did karate for a while when I was first diagnosed and just being able to put that sadness and pain into each punch and kick...that really helped me. Archery will allow you to focus on a target. Channel that anger into that arrow to get it into that one spot. If you don't paint...maybe try painting...paint your emotions away. Or if there is something you absolutely love but haven't done in a while...go to the movie theatre...go to a beach or a river or something.

What worked for me may not work for you. If it doesn't...maybe go talk to someone about what you are feeling? I didn't want to see a shrink...I was so against it...but my parents made me go...and even though I only went for a little bit...it definitely helped me. I just don't want to see you get so angry to the point where it spirals into something worse like suicidal depression. That's not fun!

*huggles you*

I agree with what Maria said and really like her suggestion about the sports. Any physical activity might be able to help. :yes:

I usually have to cry and sleep through some issues. If I don't have anyone to talk about it with, I'll just talk to myself. Basically rant and pretend someone's listening. Just to get it out. Sometimes I'll write about it (like in a journal or something).

Mostly though, you need to have a talk with yourself, especially since you're getting stressed over something that's out of your control. Basically I have to tell myself "Hey, there's nothing you can do about it so stop worrying about it. Stop thinking about it. Just let it go and see what happens and then go from there." Just take it day by day, but with the bigger picture in mind that in a few months or years, it probably won't even matter anymore.

As Maria said, obviously it may not work for you, and I don't know the whole story, but it's worth a shot. In any case, I hope you're able to find a suitable outlet and that things get better for you. ~<3