thank you Roachi♥,
i'm still rummaging through my inventory.

Okie pokie. Im more then likely going to donate half of this to my charity.
which i think i might try to put together tomorrow.

is this your only pure love sash, Roachi♥

Originally Posted by Nivvy

Heya Liz =)

It's soooo quiet around here o.o; It's kind of eerie... Or is it just me? >.> *paranoid about everything* xD




It's odd how I found out, but I was getting laser hair removal for my face done X_x;; and I got a new technician who said I should go and see my doctor about polycystic ovarian syndrome, just because of the way I was getting cystic acne along my jaw line.

My doctor ran a bunch of blood tests and saw something was off, that I had really high levels of estrogen, at the wrong times during my cycle. Then I went to the fertility clinic, because I wasn't falling pregnant after trying for so long, and they did a trans-vaginal ultrasound - and saw what looks like a string of pearls in my ovaries, which confirmed it. Those cysts were all super tiny, but thankfully the ultrasound picked them up. The fertility clinic also ran really in-depth blood tests to look at how my hormones were on specific days of my cycle.

I really hope you get an answer some day X_x;; I know how it feels to have something wrong, but not know what it is. It's such a pain! It's such a relief to finally have an answer. PCOS sucks, coz there's no cure, but I'm a lot happier now, being able to know why I get these pains.

Hey, Nivvy! How are you doing, love?

Originally Posted by Roachi

Hmm how strange. There has to be an explanation though. You definitly need to see a specialist. Wow i wish i had one relationship where i never fought with my partner hahaha.

Oh for reals, that's awesome. Gives you some time to save. I was thinking if i got married. I might do what nivvy and her hubby did and go overseas to raro or somewhere like that. Our next door neighbours did that too. Just saves heaps of money. Why june?

I think a lot of people actually saw that or felt that. It just got a bit much in the end. He started treating me pretty badly to be honest. Only my bestie knows half the stuff he did and said. I blamed myself for a long time and even he turned around and blamed me said i had "high standards". But the fact was he had no standards, and no motivation. And was jobless for almost our entire relationship. He was doing pointless courses that he never used or implemented into his life. He had anxiety issues up the who-ha and apparently was getting help but i couldn't see any change. Plus i just never really felt attached to him ya know?? No point in being with someone and dreaming up your future together if your not entirely in love with them. I mean i loved n cared for him. But i was never IN love with him, ever. Just was kidding myself thinking things would change and get better. I think he was too use to treating girls like shit, and using them and playing up and not having any consequences for his actions.

I'm feeling a lot better without him though :) :) :)



Yeah you prob didn't notice, I didn't notice till i started putting on old clothes n actually being able to do the buttons up. I think when i lose over 15kgs it will start being a lot more obvious. Like when i went to live in NP when i was 17 - i was bigger then i've ever been and i lost 20kgs, and i couldn't notice the change lol. But when i came back to auckland people were like HOLY FUCK! LOL I've really got to see it through this time though. I haven't been entirely Goody good. I've still had the odd treat. But i've cut down big times on all the goodies - chips especially, fizzys, lollies. I use a app called myfitnesspal, that counts calories for the day n stuff. And im doing really well on that. I eat pretty well too, salads and fruits during the day and a good homecooked meal with vegies n meat at night too. Im exercising more, not as much as i'd hoped too, but still more then i was doing. But hopefully heaps more once daylight savings start. Gonna go a couple times round the basin on sat, and prob do the same sun. And Jermaine has got me a bike, i just need a helmet & need to fix a few things, and away i go :) :) :).
I just feel so much better, ive got a hell of a lot more energy, i don't feel sick or sluggish all the time like i use too. I enjoy work, which is just amazing lol. I love myself n my life to be honest hahaa.

You don't have to drop those things all together, just cut it down. I find when i cut things, i feel deprived on them. But it's okay to have a little now and then. I substituted normal chocolate for dark chocolate, and i actually enjoy that more now.

Yeah sarah gained like 16kgs, she's almost 100kgs now. Don't tell her i told you lol. She was quite upset about it. But im sure once baby is dropt she'll get that off in no time. Yeah apparently eating badly whilst pregnant increases the chances of your child being overweight in the future. Read it in the herald not too long ago. Also read that men having kids later in life, bring a shit load of mutations to the equation. Pretty freaky.

Yeah that's fucked up. She should get the labour department in there that doesn't sound right. And you should keep track of your annual leave at all times. WE do, coz sometimes the accounts department stuffs it up too. Like once Lyn took out 4 days annual instead of 2. Luckily i check my payslips every pay lol. And that's dodgy as! He can't do that, he'll be in heaps of shit man. What a wanker is all i can say. The sooner you get outta there the better.

I feel sorry for woman like that. I don't understand why they continue to do that. My aunty lyn in NP use to do that for her finace. Wait on him hand and foot. Fat lazy bastard lol. Relationships are 50/50 get off your ass and do shit yourself, and help around the house. But most males are like that coz their mother waited on them hand and foot. I saw that in Rob a lot. His mum use to do everything for him too. Including his washing!! 30 years old and mummy is still doing your washing lol. Man i had to do my own at 12!! LOL

Ew lol. He just sounds plain old gross. He'll never find someone living like a dirty homeless guy. Especially since theres no excuse for being as dirty as a homeless guy. Just plain old laziness.





Hey sweetie, good, how are you?? *hugs*



Ohh true, damn that sucks. No holiday for you :(. How long you got to go now? What were you studying??

I see, wow that's pretty awesome. It would cost heaps to build an addition to a house in NZ LOL. A lot more then that then, at least 30-50k i'd say. Depends if you can get cheap materials and know people who can build and help out for nothing or next to nothing.

Well Auckland city isn't as bad as some cities in the world. We're still pretty green here. But still i HATE traffic man. Makes me so riled up lol. BUt yeah the country life is something i'd choose too. Citys are just crap lol. Apart from the shopping, the restaurants and the entertainment. There's not a lot keeping you here, unless you have to work in the city.

What the heck?? Why??

Um it's about 22 lbs. :) But i got pretty big, shouldn't have let myself get so fat. Still got a bit to go. I just need to be healthy. Especially if i ever hope to have kids in the future lol. Or get a decent partner in the future ;) haha.
Thank you :), quite proud of myself.

Oh that sounds nice!
Um i was thinking rarotonga first or one of those islands not far from NZ. And then me and a friend were hoping to do the hole thailand/singapore thing in 2014. So fingers crossed!! :D

Hmm weird will have to look at that one :)





Hey tels how's it goin?



Cool beans hummy tummy :) <3



Like this offer very much, will put it up on the front page. Will prob deliberate for a few days, maybe up to a week. But im known for making hasty decisions. So see if i get any other bites, if not, looks like you might be a winner :)

---------- Post added 09-05-2012 at 09:31 PM ----------

@Kita - I know how you feel. I often think that too. Not that i've ever actively tried to have a baby as of yet. But i always think because i've had diabetes since i was 16 and always been over weight since my early teens. Has it really affected my body to the point where i'll have trouble conceiving. and adoptions is all well and dandy. But you want to be able to have your own biological child, something you made & carried and stuff ya know?? Plus adoption is so stressful, and time consuming, and expensive. They make it virtually impossible to be honest. And there are thousands of kids that need adopting. But it can take years before you ever see a kid. Especially a baby. And especially here in NZ of all places! LOL
The woman in my family have never had trouble conceiving. They've all been super fertile, my mum had 6 kids, my nana had 7, my only maternal aunt had 4, my closest cousin has 5 lol.. But i get really depressed thinking that it won't be the same for me. Especially with a lot of friends going through IVF and similar things, and not getting pregnant. It just would really suck and for me i think... Well i if i can't make a child, then what's the point in living. Ultimately my biggest fear. So i definitely know how your feelin chick!

*hugs* Overall, I can't complain. Though it's been one of those up and down periods. :( Money's gotten super tight and Wesley had to lay out for a week because he got strep. Which kills the next check. But other than that, things have been so nice and quiet. No company coming over each and every weekend. xD

It sure is hummy :)


@Liz - Oh that sucks :(. Whys money so tight?? I know how that feels lol.
Oh isn't doing nothing great though. You kinda get sick of everyone visiting lol.

Originally Posted by `Kitami

Well I have an appointment with a gynecologist later this month, and I'm going to tell her about all of this, so hopefully if anything is wrong they can figure out what it is. :/ It just scares me, wondering if something is wrong and not knowing anything, you know?
They did blood work at the ER the last time too, I forgot about that.
I don't know. :/
And it really worries me, that someday I want to have babies, but what if I can't? My mom miscarried a baby before me, and almost lost me several times, and had to have a hysterectomy when she was only like in her mid 30s, my sister had a string of miscarriages both before and after she had her first child, I think my nana miscarried a boy before my mom was born just because of something I overheard one time, and my aunt used to have to go get blood transfusions and stay in the hospital when she had her periods. O_o She had three kids but the doctor warned her with the second one that another one might kill her and after she had the third one told her flat out to stop getting pregnant because she -WOULD- die. O_o There's just not a good record for women in my family, and I'm already having these issues. It just really bothers me. John brushes it off, and he's like "We can always just adopt if you can't get pregnant" which is fine for him, and I DO want to adopt anyway, but I want my own biological baby as well, and if I can't have kids, I'll feel like I failed somehow, I just know it, and it drives me mad sometimes, having these problems and not being able to be normal in any way.
SORRY for the long rant, I've just wanted to say that to someone for a while.

Yeah it's a tough path to go down... Especially if it's something that involves your fertility. Trying for a baby is so complex, that if even the smallest thing is off, it could really destroy the balance, and take a long while to correct again. I absolutely hated trying for a baby, and having to chart my cycles each month on fertilityfriend. I'd look through other charts, and see some women had decided to go off birth control, and within a month they were pregnant. Having a baby seemed so easy to them... and here I was celebrating a year long anniversary of trying.

I can definitely understand the yearning for your own biological child too. I'd have to say facing the prospect of a child-less future, was very scary. Some of the darkest days of my life. I wouldn't wish it on anybody, to go through it. Adoption and stuff is nice, but you never get to experience being pregnant. I've got to say feeling my son kicking around is unbelievable. I can prod him, and he'll prod back lol. Plus he's a mixture of my husband and I, so it's exciting seeing which nose he'll get, or if he'll get his dad's squinty eyes, or my crooked smile lol

I felt like when I was trying to have a baby, and my in laws were calling up every week asking how it was going - that I was some kind of joke... One of my husband's co-workers even said something like "Do I have to show you guys how to do it properly?" and I know they didn't mean it spitefully, but it really hurt X___x;;

It's such a tough subject, coz it's really personal to talk about. So I completely understand needing a place to just vent. Sometimes I would stare into space, in total disbelief that I was going through all of this - coz there was nobody around to talk to about it, other than my husband. I'd find it so hard talking to people who didn't go through it coz I'd get the same answer "Leave it in God's hands, he knows what he's doing" - "It'll happen when it happens" OMG.

I was on the verge of having a melt down, if I heard one of those sentences again. There was no explaining to these people, that I needed medical intervention, because my body doesn't ovulate properly on it's own - so it wouldn't just happen. That God wouldn't just snap his fingers, and I'd be pregnant - not that I could say that to my family without them getting offended, that I was dissing their beliefs and stuff. The whole process was a lot bigger than those simple 'feel good' sentences... Then I'd get told stuff like "You're just being silly, and over the top, you know too much about what's happening and how it works. Just let it go" X______X

There I go venting... lol!

Originally Posted by Roachi

Yeah you prob didn't notice, I didn't notice till i started putting on old clothes n actually being able to do the buttons up. I think when i lose over 15kgs it will start being a lot more obvious. Like when i went to live in NP when i was 17 - i was bigger then i've ever been and i lost 20kgs, and i couldn't notice the change lol. But when i came back to auckland people were like HOLY FUCK! LOL I've really got to see it through this time though. I haven't been entirely Goody good. I've still had the odd treat. But i've cut down big times on all the goodies - chips especially, fizzys, lollies. I use a app called myfitnesspal, that counts calories for the day n stuff. And im doing really well on that. I eat pretty well too, salads and fruits during the day and a good homecooked meal with vegies n meat at night too. Im exercising more, not as much as i'd hoped too, but still more then i was doing. But hopefully heaps more once daylight savings start. Gonna go a couple times round the basin on sat, and prob do the same sun. And Jermaine has got me a bike, i just need a helmet & need to fix a few things, and away i go :) :) :).
I just feel so much better, ive got a hell of a lot more energy, i don't feel sick or sluggish all the time like i use too. I enjoy work, which is just amazing lol. I love myself n my life to be honest hahaa.

You don't have to drop those things all together, just cut it down. I find when i cut things, i feel deprived on them. But it's okay to have a little now and then. I substituted normal chocolate for dark chocolate, and i actually enjoy that more now.

Yeah sarah gained like 16kgs, she's almost 100kgs now. Don't tell her i told you lol. She was quite upset about it. But im sure once baby is dropt she'll get that off in no time. Yeah apparently eating badly whilst pregnant increases the chances of your child being overweight in the future. Read it in the herald not too long ago. Also read that men having kids later in life, bring a shit load of mutations to the equation. Pretty freaky.

Yeah that's fucked up. She should get the labour department in there that doesn't sound right. And you should keep track of your annual leave at all times. WE do, coz sometimes the accounts department stuffs it up too. Like once Lyn took out 4 days annual instead of 2. Luckily i check my payslips every pay lol. And that's dodgy as! He can't do that, he'll be in heaps of shit man. What a wanker is all i can say. The sooner you get outta there the better.

I feel sorry for woman like that. I don't understand why they continue to do that. My aunty lyn in NP use to do that for her finace. Wait on him hand and foot. Fat lazy bastard lol. Relationships are 50/50 get off your ass and do shit yourself, and help around the house. But most males are like that coz their mother waited on them hand and foot. I saw that in Rob a lot. His mum use to do everything for him too. Including his washing!! 30 years old and mummy is still doing your washing lol. Man i had to do my own at 12!! LOL

Ew lol. He just sounds plain old gross. He'll never find someone living like a dirty homeless guy. Especially since theres no excuse for being as dirty as a homeless guy. Just plain old laziness.

I'm gonna check out that app it sounds really good. I think I'll start on it hard out, after we sort our lives out first. I want to get a good routine going when I'm settled. Not quite sure where life is headed at the moment. I miss the days of feeling really good and energised from fitness. That's what I miss about lifeguarding. It was cool to be out hitting the red woods for a run, or going for a massive swim before work. It kept me really motivated to stay on top of my fitness. Joe and I are thinking about doing lifeguarding again, when we move back to Rotorua.

Ohh man I have to cut so much sugar out. I've started putting a little bit of raw sugar on my cereal, instead of white sugar. I was naughty and had two hash browns yesterday lol, but made sure I had lamb on rice from the kebab place for lunch. Dark chocolate is quite nice, I like that it has a bit of a sour taste to it. I'm also making sure I chew every bite, instead of just swallowing stuff down. I feel fuller, quicker. Instead of tryna demolish everything hahaha.

Ohh poor Sarah =( I won't tell her, I prob won't see her again lol. No doubt she'll drop it quickly, she gets into sporty stuff too doesn't she? Like she can go back to hockey when the baby has gotten a bit older. Suppose she's carrying a lot of weight in those jugs too hehe. I decided, after seeing that you guys walk the Basin heaps to start walking there as well. Joe and I just got back from there, it was real good! Except for the fact that my usual work out clothes don't really cover my gut, and love handles properly hahaha. Got a bit uncomfortable too, walking along with a full bladder ARGHH. There were a few cars of younger people pulled up, eating junk food, blasting their music and smoking away. I was like... yayyy! It's so nice to be the one exercising for a change xD;; I might take up swimming before work too, depends on whether traffic sucks or not X_x;

My boss is a total jerk. All tryna make her cut her wages down, and he drives around in this big flash car, and is always splashing money away on his over sized house. Him and his wife live in this big crazy three story place. Plus he goes on holiday heaps through out the year. Gosh, he wouldn't have anything without all of us, so he should really start treating us better. I'm really glad I'm getting out now, with the baby and everything. The chick who I work beside, is in her 40s, and she and her husband are so lovely with kids. But they can't have any of their own =( She fell pregnant like five years ago when she was 40, but lost it at 13 weeks. Anyways, the boss came up and was like "How are you Chanel? Still fat?" and he turns to her, and says "No children for you, I need you to make me money" ... We just looked at each other and rolled our eyes. Nevermind that he's like the fattest person at our job lol. He thinks it's funny, but really it's just that horrible sense of humour that you just laugh dryly too - in the hopes that they piss off and stop speaking to you lol.

Yeah exactly, you both gotta be able to pull your weight. You've got to know, that you can take care of things, if your partner suddenly fell really ill. Can't just be a slobby bum, and expect things to magically take care of themselves... Yup, most of the guys I know who are slobs had their mothers dote on them too. I'm gonna be really tough on my boy about that kind of thing. That he knows how to cook, and to do shit for himself. He'll def be going to cadets lol. I've gotta say that's where I learnt to stand on my own two feet the most.

LOL fully! He asked me once "If you just met me would you be scared of me?" and I was like.... "Not scared, just wishing you'd have a shower and a shave" hahaha. He asked me that when he was really drunk though, so he probably doesn't even remember. He's said over and over that he's not changing for anyone, so it's like... no wonder he's single lol. You gotta present yourself nicely, to attract people. Not wear no deodorant and repel them x__X;;

Originally Posted by Roachi

It sure is hummy :)


@Liz - Oh that sucks :(. Whys money so tight?? I know how that feels lol.
Oh isn't doing nothing great though. You kinda get sick of everyone visiting lol.

Mainly, lack of hours for Wesley. Past few weeks, he's only worked like 3 or 4 days. Which isn't too bad considering it's 12 hour shifts. But the past two weeks have been less. I think he's worked a total of 4 days. Getting sick didn't help. He usually will work through being sick but he felt really really bad. It scared me a bit as he's not the type to try and sleep it off or see a doctor. I'm thinking things should pick up before the month is over though.

And for sure. I don't mind company but they don't have to move in, lol.

aw, whyis Roachi♥selling her only pure love sash?

Originally Posted by Nivvy

Yeah it's a tough path to go down... Especially if it's something that involves your fertility. Trying for a baby is so complex, that if even the smallest thing is off, it could really destroy the balance, and take a long while to correct again. I absolutely hated trying for a baby, and having to chart my cycles each month on fertilityfriend. I'd look through other charts, and see some women had decided to go off birth control, and within a month they were pregnant. Having a baby seemed so easy to them... and here I was celebrating a year long anniversary of trying.

I can definitely understand the yearning for your own biological child too. I'd have to say facing the prospect of a child-less future, was very scary. Some of the darkest days of my life. I wouldn't wish it on anybody, to go through it. Adoption and stuff is nice, but you never get to experience being pregnant. I've got to say feeling my son kicking around is unbelievable. I can prod him, and he'll prod back lol. Plus he's a mixture of my husband and I, so it's exciting seeing which nose he'll get, or if he'll get his dad's squinty eyes, or my crooked smile lol

I felt like when I was trying to have a baby, and my in laws were calling up every week asking how it was going - that I was some kind of joke... One of my husband's co-workers even said something like "Do I have to show you guys how to do it properly?" and I know they didn't mean it spitefully, but it really hurt X___x;;

It's such a tough subject, coz it's really personal to talk about. So I completely understand needing a place to just vent. Sometimes I would stare into space, in total disbelief that I was going through all of this - coz there was nobody around to talk to about it, other than my husband. I'd find it so hard talking to people who didn't go through it coz I'd get the same answer "Leave it in God's hands, he knows what he's doing" - "It'll happen when it happens" OMG.

I was on the verge of having a melt down, if I heard one of those sentences again. There was no explaining to these people, that I needed medical intervention, because my body doesn't ovulate properly on it's own - so it wouldn't just happen. That God wouldn't just snap his fingers, and I'd be pregnant - not that I could say that to my family without them getting offended, that I was dissing their beliefs and stuff. The whole process was a lot bigger than those simple 'feel good' sentences... Then I'd get told stuff like "You're just being silly, and over the top, you know too much about what's happening and how it works. Just let it go" X______X

There I go venting... lol!



I'm gonna check out that app it sounds really good. I think I'll start on it hard out, after we sort our lives out first. I want to get a good routine going when I'm settled. Not quite sure where life is headed at the moment. I miss the days of feeling really good and energised from fitness. That's what I miss about lifeguarding. It was cool to be out hitting the red woods for a run, or going for a massive swim before work. It kept me really motivated to stay on top of my fitness. Joe and I are thinking about doing lifeguarding again, when we move back to Rotorua.

Ohh man I have to cut so much sugar out. I've started putting a little bit of raw sugar on my cereal, instead of white sugar. I was naughty and had two hash browns yesterday lol, but made sure I had lamb on rice from the kebab place for lunch. Dark chocolate is quite nice, I like that it has a bit of a sour taste to it. I'm also making sure I chew every bite, instead of just swallowing stuff down. I feel fuller, quicker. Instead of tryna demolish everything hahaha.

Ohh poor Sarah =( I won't tell her, I prob won't see her again lol. No doubt she'll drop it quickly, she gets into sporty stuff too doesn't she? Like she can go back to hockey when the baby has gotten a bit older. Suppose she's carrying a lot of weight in those jugs too hehe. I decided, after seeing that you guys walk the Basin heaps to start walking there as well. Joe and I just got back from there, it was real good! Except for the fact that my usual work out clothes don't really cover my gut, and love handles properly hahaha. Got a bit uncomfortable too, walking along with a full bladder ARGHH. There were a few cars of younger people pulled up, eating junk food, blasting their music and smoking away. I was like... yayyy! It's so nice to be the one exercising for a change xD;; I might take up swimming before work too, depends on whether traffic sucks or not X_x;

My boss is a total jerk. All tryna make her cut her wages down, and he drives around in this big flash car, and is always splashing money away on his over sized house. Him and his wife live in this big crazy three story place. Plus he goes on holiday heaps through out the year. Gosh, he wouldn't have anything without all of us, so he should really start treating us better. I'm really glad I'm getting out now, with the baby and everything. The chick who I work beside, is in her 40s, and she and her husband are so lovely with kids. But they can't have any of their own =( She fell pregnant like five years ago when she was 40, but lost it at 13 weeks. Anyways, the boss came up and was like "How are you Chanel? Still fat?" and he turns to her, and says "No children for you, I need you to make me money" ... We just looked at each other and rolled our eyes. Nevermind that he's like the fattest person at our job lol. He thinks it's funny, but really it's just that horrible sense of humour that you just laugh dryly too - in the hopes that they piss off and stop speaking to you lol.

Yeah exactly, you both gotta be able to pull your weight. You've got to know, that you can take care of things, if your partner suddenly fell really ill. Can't just be a slobby bum, and expect things to magically take care of themselves... Yup, most of the guys I know who are slobs had their mothers dote on them too. I'm gonna be really tough on my boy about that kind of thing. That he knows how to cook, and to do shit for himself. He'll def be going to cadets lol. I've gotta say that's where I learnt to stand on my own two feet the most.

LOL fully! He asked me once "If you just met me would you be scared of me?" and I was like.... "Not scared, just wishing you'd have a shower and a shave" hahaha. He asked me that when he was really drunk though, so he probably doesn't even remember. He's said over and over that he's not changing for anyone, so it's like... no wonder he's single lol. You gotta present yourself nicely, to attract people. Not wear no deodorant and repel them x__X;;

Yeah you definitly have too. I've been a bit naughty this weekend. Been feeling really down about everything in general. And i had a really bad night lastnight just couldn't sleep, had this pain in my side - thought it was my heart and i was gonna die. And kept waking up breathless. Might be coming down with another cold - argh. But yeah had a couple of bickies and some chippies. Not feeling great about it, prob gained 2kgs just from eating that - but whaaa.. Just couldn't be bothered lol. Didn't you hate lifeguarding lol? Is that where you met Joe?? I didn't know that lol.

So are you guys def moving back?? You sure that's the right move, after all the trouble you had at your dads??

Back to healthy eating... Well hash brown's ain't too bad i had a couple the other day with dinner instead of potatoes. We only eat raw sugar in our house. White sugar tastes dirty to me lol. I only use it in baking. Yeah i duno i just love it more then normal chocolate now to be honest. And i love the fact that nobody else likes it, so it's always there when i want it lol. I do need to stop eating biscuits though. Can't help it when you live in a house with people who eat nothing but shit lol. Trying hard though. Don't think i lost anything this week though, just not enough exercise. I really gotta be hard on myself. Yeah, i use to do that too. Prob why i got so fat. I think it's a thing that goes back to my childhood of being starved and stuff.


Yeah she does hockey and stuff. Well yeah prob because she takes diet pills and starves herself lol. And has a hubby that makes fun of her being over weight. He's actually quite nasty when she's got a bit big.
Yeah the basin is awesome, i went there sat and sun too. Took us 2 hours with my cousin and her kids to get around, omg lol. Went today with jerm, we rode around, was pretty good. Next time will go twice, first time i've gotten back on a bike in years. Was hard on the legs lol. I'd swim in the morning too if i wasn't so self conscious.

Wow your boss just sounds like an a hole. The sooner you get outta there the better. Someone needs to get the labour department in on that guy too. He sounds dodgy as. I woulda said "Is your baby gonna be a boy?" Rude bastard lol.

Yeah cadets was awesome. Who knows what woulda happened to me if i didn't get into it. Prob pregnant and stuff like the majority of my home group that ended up leaving school early. OR leading a life of crime n benefit fraud haha.

Wow. He really needs to take some advice on board. I mean it doesn't matter what you look like. But at least make yourself presentable. And for the love of good use some deoderant and wash yourself properly. My biggest hate is unhygenic guys. Major put off straight away. I mean if they got mean as body odour. Just imagine what's going on down stairs lol.

Originally Posted by Liztress

Mainly, lack of hours for Wesley. Past few weeks, he's only worked like 3 or 4 days. Which isn't too bad considering it's 12 hour shifts. But the past two weeks have been less. I think he's worked a total of 4 days. Getting sick didn't help. He usually will work through being sick but he felt really really bad. It scared me a bit as he's not the type to try and sleep it off or see a doctor. I'm thinking things should pick up before the month is over though.

And for sure. I don't mind company but they don't have to move in, lol.

Ahh i see, well hopefully things will work themselves out. Hope hes all better now :).
Oh someone moved in?? I think you did mention this not too long ago. Oh and how is your sister doing??

Originally Posted by hummy

aw, whyis Roachi♥selling her only pure love sash?

I do this quite often dear. I buy, i sell, i buy it back again i sell. It's how i make my earning here really lol. At least till something i really want comes along :). That and i get bored, and it's really quiet here, and i thought i'd try and help keep the exchange alive :).

Originally Posted by Roachi

Ahh i see, well hopefully things will work themselves out. Hope hes all better now :).
Oh someone moved in?? I think you did mention this not too long ago. Oh and how is your sister doing??

Well, they were discussing just living here on the weekends. But their car messed up so we haven't seen/heard from them since. She seems to be doing well. Haven't talked to her recently though. Last time I called, it was busy and she hasn't returned the call.

Originally Posted by Liztress

Hey, Nivvy! How are you doing, love?

Hiya Liz!

Sorry for the slow reply X___x;; Totally didn't see this before </3 I'm doing borderline nuts lol! So many dramas, so little time to sit down and deal with them properly. Other than that, still around... 3 months to go, until my little man is here. Sooo impatient! I just hope my fricken husband pulls finger, and sorts out whatever is making him snap and go mental. I have an excuse, with the pregnancy and all lol. Dunno what his is?

How're you dear?

-- Edited

thanks to Lizzie♥chan i have a bit more to add to my current offer, Roachi.

Hello Roachi~
i promise i havent forgotten about making an offer ahaha D| Debating what I dont mind letting go of out of my little stash the most :P

Just wanted to know what you think a Georgia Peach (F) is worth? Due to what you said on the front page, about inaccurate marketplace prices for old and rare items. It ranges from 3.6k-8.1k (3 sales, the latest a year ago) but I'm actually thinking its worth about 12-15k based on some offers I've got in the past. depending on how much you think its worth I'll modify my planned offer if needed~ thanks :3

i stink at making an offer, too.
i just go by the average prices and added the highest sale as well.

Originally Posted by Liztress

Well, they were discussing just living here on the weekends. But their car messed up so we haven't seen/heard from them since. She seems to be doing well. Haven't talked to her recently though. Last time I called, it was busy and she hasn't returned the call.

Ahh i see, well count yourself lucky lol.
Ahh i see, hope all is well with her then. She had a new bf aye??

Originally Posted by hummy

thanks to Lizzie♥chan i have a bit more to add to my current offer, Roachi.

Alrighty hun, let me know when you want me to update your offer to the front page :)

Originally Posted by kemii

Hello Roachi~
i promise i havent forgotten about making an offer ahaha D| Debating what I dont mind letting go of out of my little stash the most :P

Just wanted to know what you think a Georgia Peach (F) is worth? Due to what you said on the front page, about inaccurate marketplace prices for old and rare items. It ranges from 3.6k-8.1k (3 sales, the latest a year ago) but I'm actually thinking its worth about 12-15k based on some offers I've got in the past. depending on how much you think its worth I'll modify my planned offer if needed~ thanks :3

No prob sweetie, it's not going anywhere fast lol.
Um i'll value it between 10-12k. An extra one wouldn't got a miss i guess :)

Originally Posted by hummy

i stink at making an offer, too.
i just go by the average prices and added the highest sale as well.

Yes i do like to have average/high price guides. It gives me a general idea. :)

okiedokie, Roachi♥hummy's ready.

Originally Posted by Nivvy

Hiya Liz!

Sorry for the slow reply X___x;; Totally didn't see this before </3 I'm doing borderline nuts lol! So many dramas, so little time to sit down and deal with them properly. Other than that, still around... 3 months to go, until my little man is here. Sooo impatient!

How're you dear?

It's fine, love. Drama tends to make everyone nuts. And it can be so very hard to avoid. ;_; I've tried and people still bring it around. Oh? Gosh... Time sure has flown by. Feels like just yesterday you just found out. <3 I'm so excited for you guys!

I guess I can't complain much. Have some good days and then some not so good ones. But there's nothing much to do but push forward and keep faith that things will look better soon.

Originally Posted by Roachi

Ahh i see, well count yourself lucky lol.
Ahh i see, hope all is well with her then. She had a new bf aye??




Alrighty hun, let me know when you want me to update your offer to the front page :)



No prob sweetie, it's not going anywhere fast lol.
Um i'll value it between 10-12k. An extra one wouldn't got a miss i guess :)



Yes i do like to have average/high price guides. It gives me a general idea. :)

I do, believe me. I feel bad saying it, but I'm always glad to have the weekends be for just me, the boys, and Wesley. No offense to his family or mine. It's just that those are really the only time we all four can hang out without the thought of work or school.
She's still with the same one. I think things might be getting serious. =O Which I'd like as he does seem to be a good guy.

Sorry for the delay, trade accepted. I was out of town all weekend.

Originally Posted by hummy

okiedokie, Roachi♥hummy's ready.

Okie dokie.

Originally Posted by The Wandering Poet

Sorry for the delay, trade accepted. I was out of town all weekend.

No worries thank you <3

@Liz - Understandable *nods*
Oh is that right? Well hope hes better then the guy that left her pregnant. She got a job and all now?? She still living with those mean people??

Yeah, he seems a lot better. I don't know much behind the father of the baby outside of it wasn't a serious relationship and that he doesn't know about the baby. I assume that she does and she's actually alternating between staying with the bf and a friend.

True, that's pretty sad he doesn't know. I mean how did she get around the adoption thing without the babys fathers consent? Just say it was a one night stand - and she doesn't know who he is?

Ahh i see. Well hope she's okay. :)

Back to work for me :)

She told them that it was basically that. And she told me that all she knew was his first name. I'm not sure how they worked around it.

I always do too.

Yay? Boo? xD

i hope y'all♥'s day went well.

Originally Posted by Liztress

It's fine, love. Drama tends to make everyone nuts. And it can be so very hard to avoid. ;_; I've tried and people still bring it around. Oh? Gosh... Time sure has flown by. Feels like just yesterday you just found out. <3 I'm so excited for you guys!

I guess I can't complain much. Have some good days and then some not so good ones. But there's nothing much to do but push forward and keep faith that things will look better soon.

Ughhh yeah! It sucks how the drama thing seems never ending... Yeah, I can't really believe it X_x;; It feels like 3 months to go, is so far away, yet so close. I have just reduced my job from 5 downs down to 3 per week, so hopefully I can start preparing a lot better for the baby, and it relieves some of the stress I've been feeling lately.

That's the best way to approach things. I'm very much in the same space myself, as you can tell from the letters thread lol. Have you raised your children, without the assistance of your own family? I'm facing that prospect, and I can either go home, to where there's nothing - just family and a few close friends, or stay here, where there are no family, but better opportunities in terms of further study, and employment opportunities...

Originally Posted by Roachi

Yeah you definitly have too. I've been a bit naughty this weekend. Been feeling really down about everything in general. And i had a really bad night lastnight just couldn't sleep, had this pain in my side - thought it was my heart and i was gonna die. And kept waking up breathless. Might be coming down with another cold - argh. But yeah had a couple of bickies and some chippies. Not feeling great about it, prob gained 2kgs just from eating that - but whaaa.. Just couldn't be bothered lol. Didn't you hate lifeguarding lol? Is that where you met Joe?? I didn't know that lol.

So are you guys def moving back?? You sure that's the right move, after all the trouble you had at your dads??

Back to healthy eating... Well hash brown's ain't too bad i had a couple the other day with dinner instead of potatoes. We only eat raw sugar in our house. White sugar tastes dirty to me lol. I only use it in baking. Yeah i duno i just love it more then normal chocolate now to be honest. And i love the fact that nobody else likes it, so it's always there when i want it lol. I do need to stop eating biscuits though. Can't help it when you live in a house with people who eat nothing but shit lol. Trying hard though. Don't think i lost anything this week though, just not enough exercise. I really gotta be hard on myself. Yeah, i use to do that too. Prob why i got so fat. I think it's a thing that goes back to my childhood of being starved and stuff.


Yeah she does hockey and stuff. Well yeah prob because she takes diet pills and starves herself lol. And has a hubby that makes fun of her being over weight. He's actually quite nasty when she's got a bit big.
Yeah the basin is awesome, i went there sat and sun too. Took us 2 hours with my cousin and her kids to get around, omg lol. Went today with jerm, we rode around, was pretty good. Next time will go twice, first time i've gotten back on a bike in years. Was hard on the legs lol. I'd swim in the morning too if i wasn't so self conscious.

Wow your boss just sounds like an a hole. The sooner you get outta there the better. Someone needs to get the labour department in on that guy too. He sounds dodgy as. I woulda said "Is your baby gonna be a boy?" Rude bastard lol.

Yeah cadets was awesome. Who knows what woulda happened to me if i didn't get into it. Prob pregnant and stuff like the majority of my home group that ended up leaving school early. OR leading a life of crime n benefit fraud haha.

Wow. He really needs to take some advice on board. I mean it doesn't matter what you look like. But at least make yourself presentable. And for the love of good use some deoderant and wash yourself properly. My biggest hate is unhygenic guys. Major put off straight away. I mean if they got mean as body odour. Just imagine what's going on down stairs lol.

There must be something going on with the transition from winter to spring? Coz everyone I know is feeling totally down about everything. I've been sent home from work, coz of all the probs I'm having at home. Just had such a terrible night last night. I'll have to PM that to you though, coz it'll take up so many pages of this thread xD;; Damn that's freaky! Are you going to go and see a doctor about it? Glad you're still alive today lol. Yeah I hate when you're trying to clean up your eating, and someone ends up buying the very thing you're trying not to touch.

I hated lifeguarding so much lol. But I'm gonna need a job eventually, and that's all I'll have to turn back to in Roto. I had a lot of probs down there, and they'll still be there when I go back, but I'm just not coping with the lack of support here. Trish and another one of my close friends didn't live in Roto when we left. I think I would have stayed there, if they were there at the time. Now they're back, and I just want to be near them again. Plus they've both got kids, and that'll make things better for the baby. It probably isn't the right move for me, to go back, but without a job up here, I won't last long anyways. I don't want to live off Joe, coz he gets all shitty about money. He's got this real nasty side to him when it comes to dealing with money. Plus I just don't like the idea of having to live off somebody else. It was bad enough on the bene lol.

Ohh well that's cool hash browns aren't too bad xD;; I'm going out again tonight, for more lamb on rice (Goodbye cheeseburgers ;-; ) That's so true, when you have a harsh childhood, that involves needing more food, it makes it hard to go without now. I'm finding that too, I feel guilty for leaving food on my plate - because I used to get the smash for leaving stuff on my plate when I was a kid @_@;;

Awww yeah, I forgot he makes fun of her weight </3 Poor gal! Men make us do some silly shit though... Grrrr. Dang, that's good going getting back on a bike again! Used to ride them all the time as a kid, now I just can't imagine trying to do it again xD;; I'd probably fall off into the water lols! I could hardly walk along the water side at the basin, without freaking out about falling in haha.

Yeah I sooo should have said that to my boss. Farken jerk. Although after he learnt about all the shit going on at home, he hasn't been harsh to me and calling me fat @____@;; That'd probably drive me over the edge lol. I'd prob storm outside, and kick a dent in his big flash truck haha.

Omg bahahahaha! I feel sorry for the chick, who is gonna find out what his nasty downstairs area is like lols! He doesn't change his shoes or socks, so he has stink feet. Usually wears the same shirts... so I'd hate to know, how long it's been since he changed his underwear lol. For some weird reason he says he only ever takes baths, and not showers - so he must only jump in the bath like once a week hahahaha

Originally Posted by Liztress

She told them that it was basically that. And she told me that all she knew was his first name. I'm not sure how they worked around it.

I always do too.

Yay? Boo? xD

Geez lol.
Boo as in Boo frekkin hoo! Haha. Nah it wasn't too bad today. As long as the phones stay quiet lol. We only had 2 people in finance yesterday, it was mahem!

Originally Posted by hummy

i hope y'all♥'s day went well.

Much better then yesterday that's for sure lol.

Originally Posted by Nivvy

There must be something going on with the transition from winter to spring? Coz everyone I know is feeling totally down about everything. I've been sent home from work, coz of all the probs I'm having at home. Just had such a terrible night last night. I'll have to PM that to you though, coz it'll take up so many pages of this thread xD;; Damn that's freaky! Are you going to go and see a doctor about it? Glad you're still alive today lol. Yeah I hate when you're trying to clean up your eating, and someone ends up buying the very thing you're trying not to touch.

I hated lifeguarding so much lol. But I'm gonna need a job eventually, and that's all I'll have to turn back to in Roto. I had a lot of probs down there, and they'll still be there when I go back, but I'm just not coping with the lack of support here. Trish and another one of my close friends didn't live in Roto when we left. I think I would have stayed there, if they were there at the time. Now they're back, and I just want to be near them again. Plus they've both got kids, and that'll make things better for the baby. It probably isn't the right move for me, to go back, but without a job up here, I won't last long anyways. I don't want to live off Joe, coz he gets all shitty about money. He's got this real nasty side to him when it comes to dealing with money. Plus I just don't like the idea of having to live off somebody else. It was bad enough on the bene lol.

Ohh well that's cool hash browns aren't too bad xD;; I'm going out again tonight, for more lamb on rice (Goodbye cheeseburgers ;-; ) That's so true, when you have a harsh childhood, that involves needing more food, it makes it hard to go without now. I'm finding that too, I feel guilty for leaving food on my plate - because I used to get the smash for leaving stuff on my plate when I was a kid @_@;;

Awww yeah, I forgot he makes fun of her weight </3 Poor gal! Men make us do some silly shit though... Grrrr. Dang, that's good going getting back on a bike again! Used to ride them all the time as a kid, now I just can't imagine trying to do it again xD;; I'd probably fall off into the water lols! I could hardly walk along the water side at the basin, without freaking out about falling in haha.

Yeah I sooo should have said that to my boss. Farken jerk. Although after he learnt about all the shit going on at home, he hasn't been harsh to me and calling me fat @____@;; That'd probably drive me over the edge lol. I'd prob storm outside, and kick a dent in his big flash truck haha.

Omg bahahahaha! I feel sorry for the chick, who is gonna find out what his nasty downstairs area is like lols! He doesn't change his shoes or socks, so he has stink feet. Usually wears the same shirts... so I'd hate to know, how long it's been since he changed his underwear lol. For some weird reason he says he only ever takes baths, and not showers - so he must only jump in the bath like once a week hahahaha

If you can even call it spring. It's been frekkin freezing!!
Well i'm feeling much better today then i have for the past 4 days. Had a good healthy day too, even managed a walk after work, go me lol. In a better mental state too, after letting a lot of shit out.
Yeah i Pm'ed you back :).

Neh, i think it's just me having a anxiety attack. I think i over think things too much, and don't realize how this is really affecting me at times. I've been stressing a lot about work and stuff too, and just not thinking properly. But it's getting better. Especially since the breakup, i haven't had so much shit to cope with.

Thats typical of my family though lol. I gotta do what's best for me though. It ultimately comes down to my willpower lol. Its sucked recently. But i think im getting there lol.

I don't get it, so your both going back or just you?? 0____o
Surely there is something better for you down there, more in your field then lifguarding? It just seems a shame to have to go back to that - after all the effort you went through to get this far. He shouldn't be like that, now that you guys are married and having a kid. It seems really unfair, that he's behaving like this. Just not understanding why he's doing this. Yep i know how you feel chick. But what can you do when your preggers ya know? You should be able to rely on your husband.

Lol addicted much?? I love chicken on rice too! I might have something along those lines on friday. :) Haha yeah us too. No leaving the table till you did.

Yeah men are insensitive idiots lol. Haha, you never forget to ride a bike remember lol. But yeah it was kinda freaky. Esp since the brakes weren't working well bwahahaha lol.

OR IN HIS HEAD LOL.

Bwahaha omg yucky. This guy sounds like a hobo lol. Haha, if that lol. Prob once a month lol.

OMG done too much typing tonight, gotta get to bed lol. Didn't even get a chance to read my book. Argh been neglecting that a lot!