Yay for Lavy!
Sorry I've been gone. I need to learn to check back regularly without email notifications because it doesn't work.

Today's over, and I did NOTHING. What the hell? Time's so fleeting D=

Yeah I hear ya man. I laid around watching spartacus all day and playing with babe, that's about it. Lol

Yeah. That's more then I did. I didn't turn on my t.v. Didn't leave my house (after school at least) didn't play 360... It scares me a little how little I actually did today.

Wow... ALL of you are in bed... this is so weird. This only usually happens at like 7am my time. *peeks around the totally empty lobby* Wow this place is a little creepy when you're all alone

:headdesk: So frustrated and mad at myself right now!
I totally screwed up my piece and I totally knew it as well!
Why?!?!
Oh my flipping gosh! Gosh darned it!
He wants me to do it again next week as he (and I) both know I can do better.
:gonk: -sigh-
How're ya'll doin'?

Oh Hopey I so sowwy :-( thats good that he's giving you a second chance :-( but still.... I sowwy *hugs vigorously*

-huggles Swan back-
Yeah, I'm glad he's giving me a second chance, but gah! I just want this darned piece to be over and done with! Sure, it's not that bad, I just feel like I am under so much stress, and it's just really getting to me. I just want this term to be over with all ready. I'll probably end up going home this weekend (was totally not planning on it, but in a way it's a good thing as I can start to bring things home so I don't have so much to bring with me when I get picked up a week from Friday) so I can get away from my roommate, who is going to be in a horrid mood this weekend anyway, I can already tell you that, so I can actually get some practice in, so I can make it perfect! Hopefully I don't totally freak out again, because, knowing me, I may... but :headdesk: -sigh- I just hope I live up to his expectations next week. And don't totally mess it up again. I'm so trying not to just watch myself, as I try not to curse, but I so feel like it right now, and yes, I'm just rambling... I don't even know if this even works... I tend to write more when I'm frustrated. xD
I so was going to come back and write an essay but I can't do that right now, so not in the right mind set. I can't write an essay about Hamlet currently, need to get myself into a better frame of mind. :XD

You're right, hamlet requires far to much concentration for your current frustration level. You should be sure to take control of the bathroom with a tub in it for at least an hour this weekend. Try to take that one hour to push school and all the other frustrations totally out of your mind and just let yourself relax completely for a while. It will do you a world of good. Also, you should try some deep breathing exercises, now, then, before your next speech, anytime really. They help SOOOO much

Yeah, plus with my inability to really focus on Hamlet, I'm almost on the verge of just not writing a rough draft, and just doing my best on the final draft, just so fed up right now. And I so am taking over my parents bath tub if I do go home this weekend. Oh, that sounds so wonderful, go and read my worries away in the bath. <3 Oh, I was doing my best to calm myself down tonight, I just hate group speaking. Which was one of the reasons for my taking the Drama Class. I just need to learn to ignore everyone. Pretend they're not there.

I always found that when speaking in front of a large group what worked best for me was just pretending like it was a tiny group of my closest friends, you know, the ones you can say anything in front of. Trying to pretend I was just talking with besties always made it seem much more relaxing. Oh and here, check this article out. de-stressing

Oh, that's an actually interesting way of thinking about it. I'll try that! <3 And thanks! I'll take a look at it. ^-^ I need to learn to de-stress myself better, most definately. <3

Anything to help ^_^ I worry about all my friendies. Wish there were more I could say/do to help

:hug: I'll be fine, no worries.
Sorry for the slow reply, on the phone.

It's ok :-) I'm finally getting caught up on some of my rp's and I'm one of those people that tends to post small books sometimes when I get really into an rp just from trying to put to much detail into stuff :-p

Oh, that's cool. ^-^ Yeah, I do the same thing, I really get into characters.

I have 3 totally different characters that I'm super involved in right now. I keep telling steve that you lavi him and myself all need to start our own rp thread parallel to the hotel that's just the same thing but haunted with all of us trying to deal with all the things here :-p He doesn't seem to like the idea though, though he won't tell me as much :-p

Oh, that's cool! I get really involved in my personal story characters. <3 I love adding things to make them more believable.

Sorry for not writing much, on the phone with a friend.

No worries :-)

Sorry about that! I was on the phone with her for two hours, she was one of my first friends when I moved up to this area 10 years ago (around 10 years, it's a bit less, but eh, rounding up. :P) and we had a lot to catch up on.

Aww! That's so awesome that you guys have been friends for that long! Glad you got to chat with her and such ^_^

Yeah, we've had our ups and downs, but we're both on good terms, and are able to joke and laugh about things. ^-^ It's good to laugh and all that. ^-^ Yeah, it was nice to catch up. She called around 10 and we got off the phone at midnight. :P

That's awesome ^_^ I miss the days were I could stay on the phone for that long. I don't know why but anymore I just dread being on the phone, even with people I love talking to. I'll usually deal with it for about 5 minutes, then I end up pacing around and getting ery anxious for no reason, then I end up starting to feel uncomfortable and start finding any excuse I can to get off the phone. Again, no clue why, it's just been like that for me and getting progressively worse since about 3 years ago

Awe, for me it depends on who I'm on the phone with. Loveh and I can talk for hours Like 6-7 hours, when he was home at least. we'd fall asleep on the phone with each other and I'd wake up the next morning to his steady breathing through the phone.

I absolutely hate having to call people I don't know, like I had to do last weekend for all those people that I'm working for this summer.

Actually Swansie I said thats a pretty interesting idea and the most tempting of the role plays I've seen around (no offense to any roleplays going on just not into it at the moment xD I'll fall back in eventually).
But ya. Another day another dollar. And by dollar I mean two lost to texting. in an hour. So I don't even want to know how much money I spent today just texting xD

Howse everyone else now? If anyone's online.

So in the last 27 hours I've only gotten 3 hours of sleep. :sleep:
So flippin' tired!